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Jenso had been focusing himself on trying to remain happy and be at peace with himself. He wasn't one to give up, not in the battles he had when he still lived, and he certainly didn't intend to give up now. He remained believing that his friends would have wanted him to be happy, and he truly wanted to be happy himself. He had peeked at Nexus every now and then as he trained, but remained in his position while remaining in a calm, happy state of mind.
Jenso smirked as Nexus spoke. He felt a glimmer of hope spark within him, one that he hadn't felt in the last three months. "You're right...I carry all of them right here..!" Jenso stated, pointing at his heart. "What the hell am I sulking for? If my friends saw me this way, they'd definitely be dissapointed." Jenso said, as his eyes sparked with Ki for a moment. "Besides, it's not my style to give up! You're right, I'll keep having hope no matter what!" Jenso shouted, remaining in his meditating position. He closed his eyes again and smiled. 'Time to think about myself now...feeling bad isn't going to help my friends now, is it?' He thought, trying to continue his meditating.
Jenso turned to Nexus and frowned. "I think I figured out how to calm down, at least...but how am I supposed to feel happy when I'm dead?" He asked. "I did want to protect my world, for my own sake AND for my friends, but...It's already too late." Jenso said. Truth was, telling him that he had no reason to fight anymore was exactly how Jenso learned how to be calm and focused, despite the fact that it made him very sad for a long time.
"What is it, Nexus?" Jenso replied in a serious tone. There was no kindness or hatred in his tone of voice as he replied. He did not hate Nexus, nor did he like him very much right now. If this peace power was supposed to give Jenso the strength to accept his fate, then he might as well try to achieve it. Nexus wanted to help him to achieve it, yet apparently he'd deceived Jenso and his friends were already dead. As such, the relationship between him and Nexus were on somewhat neutral grounds right now.
Jenso had been focused and meditating. In the last three months, there had been a few moments where Jenso wanted to give in to despair and run into the Void, and others where he simply wanted to charge at Nexus and attack him for lying to Jenso about being able to revive him. But all of that didn't matter now. Nexus was right in the end. Even if he somehow managed to get revenge against the Order of Chaos right now, it wouldn't bring his friends back in the end. As such, he learned how to relax and take his time to meditate. After all, he had no more reason to rush himself for anything anymore. Now, he only had the final hurdle to overcome; He needed the confidence to realise that he was more important than anyone else.
Jenso turned to Nexus and clenched his fists. "You..." Jenso muttered, glaring at the man. He sighed. "There's nothing I can do now, right? All I can do is accept my fate. So I might as well try to learn this peace power of yours." Jenso stated, and closed his eyes as he tried to relax.
Jenso stood up and glared at Nexus. He wanted to dash at the man and punch at him, but did it even matter anymore? He was dead, and now his friends were, too. He no longer had the will to keep fighting. He walked away from Nexus, and sat down within the glazebo on the mountain. What was he supposed to do now?
Jenso's eyes widened in shock as Nexus spoke. He began to shake from the cheer impact that Nexus's words gave him. He collapsed on his knees, looking at the ground. "No...it can't be.." Jenso muttered, with a blank stare on his face. "I was too late...I failed them all..." Jenso muttered, clenching his fists. "DAMN IT!!!" Jenso cried out, repeatedly slamming his right fist into the transparent ground before him. "DAMN IT, DAMN IT!!!.." He shouted, continueing to slam his fist into the ground repeatedly until it was bleeding. Jenso didn't care, though. He slowly stood back up and glared at Nexus while some blood dripped off his fist. "If that's the case...then I don't have any reason to fight anymore. It's all over.."
Jenso clenched his fists in anger as Nexus spoke. "I have better shit to do then sit here and meditate! I've been stuck here for 3 months, and all I've done is mess around, train and try to be 'at peace', while my friends can be killed by the Order anywhere, anytime! If you're just here to mess around with me and piss me off before I fade away into the void, job well done." Jenso spat at Nexus. It was possible that the man would respond in an agressive way, but Jenso was ready. He wanted to protect his friends, and this whole training thing was getting in his way.
Jenso frowned. "Well, I've been meditating and thinking about everything that happened...and then I got bored and trained every now and then. I'm not rushing myself, don't worry.." Jenso stated, sitting down in front of Nexus. "So, how've you been?" He asked in a calm tone. He hoped he would be able to learn the peace power as soon as possible and get revived by Nexus.
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