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Current I JUST saw today that they are remaking Silent Hill 2 and releasing a new Silent Hill game!!! Wow, I thought Konami abandoned the IP! I am more excited than I can put into words!!!
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I haven't roleplayed in so long, I am super excited to jump back into things!
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Moving my interest check from advanced to casual in hopes of snagging some survival horror interest!
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If anyone is interested in a Silent Hill roleplay, check out the interest check! I'm hoping we can capture a fun survival horror feel!
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Are we *technically* alive though? I mean really, shouldn't you say unlives?

Bio

Former Enlisted Army, and very avid gamer. I have fallen hook line and sinker for Dungeons and Dragons, which has actually taken over as my preferred method to roleplay--as both a DM and a player.

However, my roleplay adventures started with writing, and I always will be interested in creative writing. I left for a brief 5 year stint (Hey, that's brief to an elf or dragon, yeah?) but am back and ready to dive into something (though what, I am unsure).

Happily married to my wonderful wife @PrimalArcana, whom I met at this forum (thanks @Mahz) and I can't be happier :D Love to RP pretty much anything. However, my time is much more limited than it used to be. My PMs are open if you want to roleplay, I'm known to do both 1 on 1 RPs and open forum RPs.

I may not be active anymore, but this still applies: All Green, all Army, HOOAH!

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Ariamella said
I am sincerely sorry about your experience of physical relationships. That's not the norm for me, and most women I know would hate for a relationship to be so physical without any substantial connection emotionally or mentally behind it. Then again, my boyfriend and I have been together for two years and haven't had sex, so we have no other choice but to build a relationship that's based off of emotional and mental understanding. I also kind of grouped sitting and being content with each other's company as part of physical communication because it counts as nonverbal communication, but if don't see it as that then that's okay too. I am indeed an extrovert and I am perfectly fine with spending five hours on a Skype with my boyfriend, which we do at least 4-5 times out of the week. It's just that I do it after I mingle and whatnot. And the thing is, sometimes it's us talking while we're gaming (that activity is more of a couples thing because I don't play anything unless it's with him), sometimes it's while I'm doing calc homework or online shopping or whatever, but we're able to switch topics from topics that are superficial in nature to really deep in nature. I think both are healthy in a relationship because without the superficial talk, flirting or dirty talk, it would be devoid of any "coupley" affection, and without the deep stuff, there's no way for you to progress the relationship in a way that's not physical. Basically, I don't think it has anything to do with your personality or being in intro/extrovert; I think it's more of the mentality you bring to the online relationship. I honestly think anybody could have a successful e-relationship given that on both ends the expectations and understanding are the same.


That's where my friendship was severely damaged with the girl I was seeing and later trying to rebuild a friendship with. She is a distant person by nature...like, I ALWAYS want to talk/hang out with my friends, that's just how I am. SHE, however, is the type that doesn't usually talk to her friends every single day. She made a special effort to communicate with *me* everyday because of how close we were (this was after we broke up). The thing is, when one person wants to hang out and do stuff every day, and the other doesn't....it can be a real problem in a friendship. I was feeling hurt, like she didn't like me anymore, and she was feeling like I was pushing too much.

I like what you said about having the same expectations because I've found that to be so true. And if the expectations cannot be exactly the same, a compromise ought to be reached (if the two in question really care for eachother as friends or more than friends, this should be possible), that both people can be happy with. I know for me, it's hard to see someone that I really care about and want to hang out with, doesn't seem to want the same thing from me. It's very hard not to take something like that personally--I guess this is where communication comes in, even just among friends let alone a couple.
Hi guys! I'm working on writing up an OOC for a fallout RP...and good lord, it's gotten complicated O.o
I'll put my first IC up either tonight or tomorrow :)
Birth Given Name :: “I’m Garet Liam Kincade. I just go by Garet.”
Preferred Name :: “...I just told you. Garet. I. Go. By. Garet. If you’re Stormy, and I note you are not, you’d probably call me Ferret or...Gare-Bear. But you’re not, so don’t.”
Established In :: “My birthday is May 15, 1992. 21 years old if you are math challenged. Like Stormy, I’ll be 22 soon--before she gets there, ha!”
Theme Song :: “If I had to pick a song that best describes me, it would be Limp Bizquit’s rendition of Behind Blue Eyes. YES, I know my eyes aren’t blue but…the song describes me, sometimes...a bit too well. ‘Nobody knows what it’s like, to be the bad man...to be the sad man, behind blue eyes.’” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TxwuB6xPcvs
Gender Identification :: “I am a guy. I identify with men. But...I suppose I do have a feminine side to me in some ways. But I identify with guys.”
Sexual Orientation :: “I’m Hetero all the way. Why, you hitting on me? Yeah, that’s not gonna happen.”
Someone In Your Sights :: “....I try not to think about it. So don’t ask. You know, sometimes people want what they probably will never have, and it’s those sorta things people try to avoid thinking about.”
Historical Background :: “Well this is a loaded question there. I’ve got quite a history. See, when I was just a little kid, about 8 years old...my mother, that old witch...she umm. She thought my dad was cheatin’ on her. Turns out he wasn’t, but she thought he was an one night when he was sleeping, she stabbed him to death. Took a butcher knife from the kitchen, called me into the bedroom. She told me that she had somethin’ to show me. Said that she needed to teach me what happens to ‘pigs that have no respect for women.’ So, she walked over to my dad, sleeping as he was, and she stabbed him right in the throat. Then she stabbed him in the chest, and kept stabbing and stabbing...up and down, the knife pierced his flesh, there was blood everywhere...god...so much blood. The smell of it, the crazed look in my mother’s eyes...The sight haunts me to this day.

When it was over, and he was dead, she walked over to the nightstand, taking the revolver from the drawer. ‘Don’t you ever be like your daddy, Garet. You be kind to women, you don’t hurt them like he hurt me, understand?’ Then she put the gun to her temple and pulled the fucking trigger. So I watched my mother stab my father to death right in front of me, then blow her own brains out. I sat in the middle of that for 3 days, crying...trying to figure out what to do...hoping that they weren’t really dead. Of course they were, and I called the police a few days later. When they came….well, I was in the news. “The orphan who survived” they called me. Of course, I was sent to an orphanage, there was nobody else to take care of me.

That moment with my parents changed my life forever. If I couldn’t trust my mom, how could I trust anyone? I didn’t socialize, I was...well, I didn’t really have anything to do with anyone. Things got pretty bad for me, I was bullied by most everyone there. Spent a friggin year in that orphanage, being tormented...until I met her. Alexandria Marie Devereux, my Stormy. Or sometimes Deva when I’m feeling suicidal. She was a french girl that ended up in the United States...and at the very same orphanage I was in. Not being able to speak English really well, she was something of an outcast like me. That’s probably what drew me to her. I remember when I first saw her, sitting alone, and I walked over, sat down beside her. “We’ll be alright, you know.” That’s the first thing I said to her. Before I told her my name, before she told me *her* name...I told her we’re gonna be okay. I remember saying that, because...when my mother stabbed my dad, he woke up. He saw me, and I swear he mouthed those words to me as he was dying. That stuck with me, and I told Stormy that same thing.

From that moment on, we were pretty good friends. It actually didn’t take much for me to trust her, and given what I’d just been through, what I was facing at the orphanage...how I was with anyone else...that says a lot about her. We started hanging out, I taught her English as best as I could, helped her learn our language. She was the only person I ever befriended from there, and to this day, she’s the only person from that orphanage I maintained any contact with. We ended up getting adopted by different families, but luckily the two families lived close together. We ended up meeting just shortly after being separated...although when she was adopted first...God, I thought I’d never see her again. Turns out, we ended up living just a few blocks from each other! Talk about luck, right?? Anyway, we’ve been good friends since the orphanage, and even become *best* friends. Enrolled in college together, as well. We take a few of the same classes too, which is really great.

My hobby is photography. I’d do that for a living if I had the chance. I love to travel, and I love taking pictures--and I *love* photo editing. I always carry my trusty camera with me wherever I go--and I’m constantly trying to take pictures of Stormy too--I think sometimes it annoys her just a little. **Run something by Gabby here**

State/Country of Origin :: “The good ol’ US of A. I’m American, and proud of it too!”
Contents of Suitcase :: “I was supposed to bring a suitcase? SHIT, I knew I forgot SOMETHING. Nah, just kidding. Here’s an inventory of what was in my suitcase:

*Extra clothes. I’m going to AFRICA--of course I’ll have a few changes of clothes with me
*Pen/writing paper. I like to keep a journal. Don’t judge!
*Camera batteries, laptop cords (I couldn’t fit these in my carry on)
*My survival Machete. Figured, if I’m going to be in the Savannah, I should take one with me.
*A harmonica. I love to play the thing, and while I couldn’t fit it in my carry on, I wanted to bring it.

And that’s it. I know it’s not much...but I pack pretty damn light.”

Contents of Carry-On Bag :: “Ahh, my carry on bag! I have some interesting stuff in here, camera equipment included, because I’m a photography minor. Anyway, here’s the list:”

*My Olympus OM-D D-M1 digital camera

*Extra lenses--including a macro lense, and a really kick ass zoom lense!

*Spare change of clothes (I’m paranoid like that)

*Trail mix (crap cost me like double what it cost on the OTHER side of security)

*Bottle of MUG root beer. (What can I say, mug is my favorite brand. Screw A&W)

*Smartphone (duh, I carry it everywhere)

*Laptop (I never go on flights without it)

*My wallet. Well, technically this is on ME and not my carry on, but all the same. In this, I have a picture of Stormy and I, and I also have a picture of my father and I together….before he was taken from me of course.

Description of Persona :: “In case you haven’t noticed by now I’m a bit of a smartass. But truth be told, I’m a really shy person, and I disguise that by being a smartass. I’m not much of a fighter, I’m more of a pacifist person. Not to say I won’t deck someone if I have to, but I’d prefer not to. I am compassionate, I care for people, even if I don’t socialize much with em. Or at all. Alright, I’ll be straight with you. I’m very much a loner. In fact, Stormy is my ONLY friend. I’m no psychologist, but I imagine my time at the orphanage is why I’m the way I am today. My best guess anyway. If you can get past my mental barriers though, I’m damn loyal. I care for the few people who’ve ever gotten close to me (again, currently alive, only Stormy can say she’s close to me). I believe in unwavering loyalty as a friend, standing by your friends side no matter what.

….I suppose I also ought to admit that I’m terrified of two things. Spiders and heights. Mostly spiders...heights don’t bother me until I reach a certain altitude. Like an airplane. And I fucking HATE turbulence. Scares the crap out of me, that. So Spiders, and heights--I could do without both of those things. My biggest fear? Something happening either to Stormy or between us that would make her hate me. I’m here today, because I met her, and I can’t imagine life without her.”

Descriptive Appearance :: “...I describe myself like the picture? I have dark brown, short hair, a goatee, I’m rather thin and kinda lanky. Not to say I don’t have some muscle, but I’m not what you’d call ripped. It’s hard to tell from the picture there, but I have hazel eyes. Oh and, I think my ears are kinda big….”

Accessories :: “I’ve got a few tattoos as a matter of fact. I’ll give a list. I don’t have as many as Stormy, but I have my fair share.

*Tribal tattoo of a wolf on the underside of my right wrist. Got this with Stormy--she got a matching one. It symbolizes our eternal friendship.

*I have a vivid tattoo on my left shoulder, of a wolf howling at the moon

* I have a tattoo on my right shoulder. A quote that says “Many who live deserve death. Some that die, deserve life. Can you give it to them?” It’s a quote from The Lord of the Rings--Gandalf says it to Frodo. Yeah, I’m a geek. I admit it.

Photographed Appearance :: “Really? Oh fine, here’s a photograph. Don’t try to blackmail me later or something.”

Sorry Amanda, I really am, but after a break from RPing, I'm ready to begin anew. The rest of you guys, I haven't been much of the co-admin of this that I've supposed to have been. Amanda know's what's been going on though. To the rest of you, just know it's been some nasty personal stuff. I've had a rough effing month, to put it mildly. BUT, I'm ready for some therapeutic RPing! AND I've got one of my CS finished. I'll post the other one shortly, I'm working on him next.

I look forward to hopping on in here, and again, I am terribly sorry for my rather long leave of absence!!!

FIRST CHARACTER

Full Name :: “My name is Elendria Michelle Price--but I usually just go by Elle.”
Date of Birth and Age :: “August fifteenth, 1998...I’m fifteen years old.”
Male or Female :: “I’m a girl, of course!”
Relationship Status before the Outbreak :: “I was single...my dad wouldn’t let me date….”
About Yourself before the Outbreak ::

Elendria averts her gaze, biting her lower lip as tears begin to trickle down her cheeks. She swallows hard before answering, trying to rein in her emotions. “…...I miss it. My old life, I mean. It was...it was so wonderful, so perfect...and now...now what do I have? My parents loved me, I was popular in my school….but all that’s over now...isn’t it? It’ll never be the same again. My best friend Tess...my mother Anna-Marie...my dad, Daren...all of them are...are lost. Either one of them or….” Visibly beginning to Tremble, Elendria takes in a deep breath, clearly on the verge of a complete breakdown. Lip quivering, she continues. “ Anyway, I was in highschool, had a lot of friends...there was this guy I was interested in too--and I think he liked me but as I wasn’t old enough….anyway, that was my life before the outbreak. Just your average teenage girl, trying to make her way in life. I never would’ve imagined that I would see...the things I’ve seen….”

How Did you Survive the Outbreak ::

Taking in a deep breath, Elendria gets a faraway look in her eyes, her cheeks paling at the memories running through her mind. “I...I would say luck. Pure luck. I wasn’t really very into guns you know? So prior to the apocalypse, I didn’t really spend time shooting. Dad had me learn to use a pistol, I was passable, but my skills weren’t all that great. I guess I met the right people at the right time, and got lucky with a lot of the choices that I made. To be honest, I’m not really sure how I’ve managed to make it this long.

What Weapons do you Have ::
* Glock g22 with Tactical flashlight attachment

What is Within Your Bookbag :

* Cantine
*Some beef jerky strips
*3 protein bars
*A map of the Gatesville area
*1 box of .40 S&W ammo (100 rounds) for Glock 22
*Flashlight

Any Personal Items :: “I have my leather-bound diary my mom gave me for my twelfth birthday. I take it with me wherever I go, it’s like having a piece of her with me.”
What are you Wearing :: “I’m wearing a black sweater, the sleeves are a little long, but I like them that way. I’m also wearing a pair of blue jeans, my backpack, and and a pair of white hiking shoes. OH, and there’s the locket my mom gave me for my birthday this last year, sterling silver. It has a picture of us together…..and a bracelet Tess gave me…..um, that’s it. I better stop talking now….”
What you Look Like ::


What Have you Noticed About the Infected :: “All I’ve noticed is they seem to be attracted to light! My tactical flashlight on my pistol is nice in dark places, but it’s also been known to attract a few walkers now and again. I’ve also noticed they don’t seem all that intelligent. They’re pretty easy to outsmart. If you can’t outrun one of them, look around--you might be able to use the environment to your advantage!”
Have You Noticed Any Physical Changes in the Infected :: “Not beyond the obvious. They are faster, they are stronger, they are psychotic and want nothing more than to kill.”
Who Have you Lost to the Infected :: Elendia looks up, tears glistening in her deep blue eyes. “Why...why are you going to ask me this? Why do you keep asking such painful questions, damnit?!!” She slams her fist onto the table, then buries her face in her arms, shoulders quaking uncontrollably. Between sobs, she manages to answer; “My...my mother. My dad...my best friend Tess...I’ve lost EVERYONE that I ever cared about. Is that good enough for you? Now leave me alone!”
How Many Infected Have you Killed :: “...I asked you to leave me alone! I don’t know how many infected I’ve killed. More than I can count, okay?? I’m not sick enough to keep track!”
SECOND CHARACTER

Full Name :: “I’m Petty Officer First Class Ethan Lynne Ryder
Date of Birth and Age :: “September 15, 1989. I’m 24 years old. “
Male or Female :: “The hell, you blind? I’m a guy. next question please.”
Relationship Status before the Outbreak :: “Had a girl, lost a girl. Enough said.”
About Yourself before the Outbreak ::

“Before the outbreak, you say? I was a military brat. That’s right, I early enlisted into the Navy when I was seventeen. Dad couldn’t wait to fucking sign me over, and I couldn’t wait to get the hell out of there. He said good riddance to me, I said good riddance to his sorry ass. Anyway, I enlisted into the Navy at 17, went into their seaman to seal program and from there….well, I went through bootcamp, then straight into SEAL training. Let me tell you, that was a damn MOTHER. But I managed it.

I showed my asshole father. Showed him I was tough, that I could be tougher than his sorry ass. Maybe he used me as a fucking punching bag growing up, but I wasn’t gonna be weak. No fucking way. So I decided to be a damn SEAL. Best of the best, right? Well, being 17, I went through the hell of bootcamp and SEAL training….and it wasn’t long before I got deployed.

I’ll be honest. I’ve been deep in the sandbox more than once. I’ve had a hand in various...activities that I can’t talk about. Trust me, whatever clearance you think you’ve got, mine’s better buddy. So I ain’t talkin bout the shit I did. Let’s just say I’ve seen my fair share of combat.

My specialty is a sniper and recon. One shot, one kill. I move swiftly, I move silently. By the time you realize I’m there, you’ve got a knife in the back or bullet to the brain. I’m alpha dog enough to enjoy being in combat, enjoy the rush, the stress, the do or die situations. I’m a born warrior, and proud of it!

How Did you Survive the Outbreak ::

Same way I survived Iraq. Same way I survived Afghanistan. Same way I’ve survived bein out in the fuckin jungles of places I’m not even allowed to name. I know what the fuck I’m doing and I do it right. I was a born survivor, ain’t no shuffling walkers gonna stop me. I’ll admit it though, I was in some hairy situations...met a few survivors along the way. No SEAL does it alone, no matter how good he is. I had good help, met good people. I survived because I can adapt, and because the people I chose to survive with could adapt too.

What Weapons do you Have ::

*Mk 11 Mod 0 Sniper Rifle/weapons system (7.62)

*Mark 23 Mod 0 SOCOM (.45)

*US Navy MK3 MOD diving/survival knife

What is Within Your Bookbag :

* 3 boxes of 7.62 ammunition (150 rounds)
* 3 boxes of .45 ammunition (300 rounds)
* flint for firestarting
* waterproof matches in ziplock bag
* cantine
*Tent
*50 foot coil of rope
Any Personal Items :: “Sure, I got me a necklace with the bullet of the first enemy sniper I killed. I took the bullet from the chamber of his gun--it’s the bullet that was supposed to kill me. It’s a good luck charm, and a sniper’s tradition. Other than that, I’ve got nothin.
What are you Wearing :: “Battle fatigues, what else? I’ve got my face paint, my camo uniform, my combat boots, tactical gloves...Of course I have my kevlar vest too!
What you Look Like ::
“Here’s a picture of me at a shooting range, without all my gear:



What Have you Noticed About the Infected :: “I’ve noticed they can be permanantly killed with a bullet, like anything else. I noticed they are fucking raging psychopaths. I notice that if you see one, you better take it the hell out quickly, before it takes you out. I noticed not to underestimate those sons of bitches, or they’ll put you in an early grave. They don’t typically think tactically though, so if you use tactics to your advantage, you can get the upper hand. Just gotta be careful and fast.”
Have You Noticed Any Physical Changes in the Infected :: “What everyone else has, they got real ugly real fast. They got real strong too--but they somehow are pretty fucking fast for a bunch of shuffling corpses. To be honest, I try not to pay too much attention to the damn things once they’re dead. Leave that to the science types, I’m just here to bag em and tag em. “
How Many Infected Have you Killed :: “I have no damn clue. Don’t really give a damn, I don’t keep notches on my gun or anything. Hundreds, I know that much. Couldn’t give an exact figure though, they attack in swarms. But I’ve taken out a lot of the little bastards, I can tell you that much.”
*wanders in, shaking snow from fur* Arroooo! Wazup? ._.
OMG Cara, I love that dog, he's CUTE!!!! :DDDD
Kill Bones said
I'd agree with this, because I've always thought internet relationships were bullshit. I mean, everyone else can do whatever the fuck they want, but there's no way I can feel anything in a relationship where the other person is for all intents and purposes completely intangible to me.


If you can't feel a connection with someone without physical contact, if you can't develop a closeness to them, then I'd question whether or not any relationship would work for you. When you love someone, it's about far more than the physical contact, there's the emotional closeness you felt to them. And like I said before, if you aren't even working towards meeting and getting together in person, then why be in the relationship to start? I really connected with the girl I mentioned...we had so damn much in common, she was my damn rock, she was the effing world to me. She meant a hell of a lot to me, it didn't matter that we'd never physically touched...it didn't matter that I'd never been able to give her a hug, because I had planned on getting to her in person. Meaning there'd be time for that--it just had to be delayed! I think it's more than possible to develop a strong emotional connection with someone online, you just have to meet the right person.

And let me tell you something else. When a friendship that strong dies, it hurts just as bad as it would in person. It's not bullshit Kill Bones, when someone develops feelings for another online, be it romantic or just really close friendship (or both), those feelings are very, very real.
I tried the internet relationship thing, and it would've worked out, I think, if the person I was in the relationship with wasn't so....well, there were issues there that had nothing to do with the fact that it was online. It was more her own inner demons, not being able to let people in, to let them close. Sadly, though....we were the best of friends, and now we're not even talking anymore, she decided to end the effing friendship too.

I'm not jaded enough to say online relationships can't work, because the problems we had weren't entirely due to it BEING online. I will say not everyone can handle the distance though, and there should be some real possibility of getting together in person at some point. I mean, if you don't intend to ever be together IRL, why are you in the relationship at all? I had actually planned on moving out of state, because I truly wanted to be with her, and she said she wanted to be with me. I think, barring our personal problems, if two people are willing for that to happen, and put up with the distance long enough to actually MAKE it happen, yeah the relationships can work.

I will say that I *am* jaded enough to question getting involved with people you have a really super close friendship with. Your *best* friends. Because quite honestly, our failed attempt at a romantic relationship wasn't worth the friendship we had. I still don't get why she decided we couldn't even be friends--and when someone you are that close to not only rejects you but throws away a FRIENDSHIP too, it hurts. It cuts and scars deep. So, I'd have to say think twice before getting into a relationship with someone you have that kind of a bond....it may not be worth the risk....then you end up sitting up at 3 in the morning, missing said person and having flashback-memories of your good times together.
Hah, I could use a drink. Seriously, an I don't drink. *takes it*. It is, but ya know what? No I got effin closure and now I know that the person I thought was genuine wasn't. *shrugs* Don't offer much comfort but I can move effing on now.
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