Rikki absently stirred the oil in the pot with a wooden ladle, resting her chin in her palm as she watched the liquid for bubbles. With Penelope sitting less than a stone’s throw away, the thief’s mind was a tangled mess. Every time she looked at the knight, she was reminded that there were still obstacles between her and Crow. As long as that other woman was around, she was practically invisible to him. She just hoped that he would return to them quickly, so she could get him away from her and keep working on helping him understand a noblewoman could never be right for him.
He has to see it now, she thought with a mixture of desperation and determination. Chasing after her nearly got him killed. He has to see that she’s not good for him. She stared at the oil in the pot as she realized that, while she had been lost in her thoughts about Crow, the liquid had come to a boil. Glancing back at the knights and the other thieves, she saw that they weren’t quite finished with their task yet, so she climbed to her feet to talk to Hazel. She had gotten better at herbalism during her time being mentored, but she still didn’t feel confident enough to oversee something as important as the medicine Crow needed to heal from his illness. She wanted to check with the herbalist to make sure she was preparing it correctly.
When she reached Hazel’s side, Rikki sat down next to her. “Could you tell me the ratios again?” she asked, turning to meet the other woman’s gaze. “For the herbs in Crow’s medicine. I want to be sure I’m making it right.”
“Don’t worry about ratios for this batch,” Hazel shook her head as she stirred her own pot. The experienced herbalist was much further along in her painkiller concoction, having already added the herbs into the boiling oil. She was observing it with a keen eye, searching for a sign that Rikki couldn’t see that to tell her when it was finished cooking. The thief bit her lip as she watched her mentor work. It was a good thing Hazel had denied her offer to make this medicine, since it looked much more complicated than what she and the others were preparing. From what she knew about the ingredients the herbalist had told her she would be using, they could quickly turn deadly if they were left sitting over the fire for too long. She shuddered at the thought of accidentally killing the very man they were trying to save and was glad Hazel was using her advanced knowledge to create the perfect painkiller.
“What do you mean?” she asked after a moment. “I thought you said the ratios were important.”
“They are,” Hazel shrugged. “But you’ll be using the rest of my supply anyway, so just throw all of it in. It might be a little bit off from what I usually prepare for him, but we need to use everything, so nothing is wasted.”
“Okay, thank you,” Rikki nodded. She shifted to get up again, but Hazel spoke again before she could rise to her feet.
“Rikki.”
“Yes?” she blinked, caught off guard by her mentor’s softer tone. The herbalist was never gentle, so it was strange to hear such a quiet word come from her mouth.
“Everyone else here is too nice to say it, so I will,” Hazel looked up from the pot to meet her gaze seriously. “You need to stop chasing Crow when he comes back.”
“What?” Rikki’s eyes widened in surprise.
“Look,” Hazel sighed. “I’m not saying this as your mentor, but as a friend of both of you thieves. I saw how distraught you were when we all thought he was dead. You were no better off than I was when Simon was killed. I know you have feelings for him, but you need to stop trying to win him over.” She reached out to rest a hand on the thief’s shoulder. “He’s in love with Penelope, and that’s not going to change. Ah!” she held up a finger when Rikki opened her mouth to protest. “Just listen. I didn’t like it either when I found out, but it’s become clear to me now: Penelope isn’t like any of the noblewomen you or I have ever had the misfortune of meeting. Crow was the first one among us to see it, but she’s different. She’s kind and generous and even honest, and she’s proven that she’s going to stay by his side no matter what the costs.”
Her gaze softened a bit as she glanced over her shoulder at the knight, “No matter what our prejudices tell us, I believe she’s earned the right to his affections. That means we need to accept that he chose to be with her and do our part as his friends to support that decision.” She turned back to Rikki. “It also means you can’t keep trying to get between them.”
Rikki averted her gaze, feeling a familiar anger rise up in her chest at the thought of Crow being with a knight. “I know I’d be better for him though,” she said stubbornly. “I don’t care who this woman is. She’s not one of us. She’s just going to ruin his life if he stays with her.”
“We have no way to know that,” Hazel objected. “And besides, it’s not your choice; it’s his. Whether you would be better for him or not, he chose Penelope, and you’re just going to have to accept that.” She turned away to stir the medicine again. “Ultimately, it’s up to you, but just know that if you continue to try to get between them, I’m not going to stand idly by anymore. I care about both of you too much to let you keep causing strife for him as well as yourself.”
Rikki said nothing as she stared at the ground. No matter what Hazel said, she couldn’t bring herself to simply accept that Crow was going to throw his life away to be with a knight. He should have chosen to be with her, not Penelope. However, there was no point in arguing about it with a woman who was just as stubborn as she was, so instead, she stood wordlessly and headed back to her own pot.
Another short period of time passed before the others finished working on the herbs. Eager to take her mind off her conversation with Hazel, Rikki was quick to begin delegating more tasks.
“Collect as much of the crushed plants as you can and put them in the oil,” she said, pointedly avoiding looking at Penelope while her emotions were still in turmoil within her. “All that’s left is to cook it, which is easier if I do it alone.”
He has to see it now, she thought with a mixture of desperation and determination. Chasing after her nearly got him killed. He has to see that she’s not good for him. She stared at the oil in the pot as she realized that, while she had been lost in her thoughts about Crow, the liquid had come to a boil. Glancing back at the knights and the other thieves, she saw that they weren’t quite finished with their task yet, so she climbed to her feet to talk to Hazel. She had gotten better at herbalism during her time being mentored, but she still didn’t feel confident enough to oversee something as important as the medicine Crow needed to heal from his illness. She wanted to check with the herbalist to make sure she was preparing it correctly.
When she reached Hazel’s side, Rikki sat down next to her. “Could you tell me the ratios again?” she asked, turning to meet the other woman’s gaze. “For the herbs in Crow’s medicine. I want to be sure I’m making it right.”
“Don’t worry about ratios for this batch,” Hazel shook her head as she stirred her own pot. The experienced herbalist was much further along in her painkiller concoction, having already added the herbs into the boiling oil. She was observing it with a keen eye, searching for a sign that Rikki couldn’t see that to tell her when it was finished cooking. The thief bit her lip as she watched her mentor work. It was a good thing Hazel had denied her offer to make this medicine, since it looked much more complicated than what she and the others were preparing. From what she knew about the ingredients the herbalist had told her she would be using, they could quickly turn deadly if they were left sitting over the fire for too long. She shuddered at the thought of accidentally killing the very man they were trying to save and was glad Hazel was using her advanced knowledge to create the perfect painkiller.
“What do you mean?” she asked after a moment. “I thought you said the ratios were important.”
“They are,” Hazel shrugged. “But you’ll be using the rest of my supply anyway, so just throw all of it in. It might be a little bit off from what I usually prepare for him, but we need to use everything, so nothing is wasted.”
“Okay, thank you,” Rikki nodded. She shifted to get up again, but Hazel spoke again before she could rise to her feet.
“Rikki.”
“Yes?” she blinked, caught off guard by her mentor’s softer tone. The herbalist was never gentle, so it was strange to hear such a quiet word come from her mouth.
“Everyone else here is too nice to say it, so I will,” Hazel looked up from the pot to meet her gaze seriously. “You need to stop chasing Crow when he comes back.”
“What?” Rikki’s eyes widened in surprise.
“Look,” Hazel sighed. “I’m not saying this as your mentor, but as a friend of both of you thieves. I saw how distraught you were when we all thought he was dead. You were no better off than I was when Simon was killed. I know you have feelings for him, but you need to stop trying to win him over.” She reached out to rest a hand on the thief’s shoulder. “He’s in love with Penelope, and that’s not going to change. Ah!” she held up a finger when Rikki opened her mouth to protest. “Just listen. I didn’t like it either when I found out, but it’s become clear to me now: Penelope isn’t like any of the noblewomen you or I have ever had the misfortune of meeting. Crow was the first one among us to see it, but she’s different. She’s kind and generous and even honest, and she’s proven that she’s going to stay by his side no matter what the costs.”
Her gaze softened a bit as she glanced over her shoulder at the knight, “No matter what our prejudices tell us, I believe she’s earned the right to his affections. That means we need to accept that he chose to be with her and do our part as his friends to support that decision.” She turned back to Rikki. “It also means you can’t keep trying to get between them.”
Rikki averted her gaze, feeling a familiar anger rise up in her chest at the thought of Crow being with a knight. “I know I’d be better for him though,” she said stubbornly. “I don’t care who this woman is. She’s not one of us. She’s just going to ruin his life if he stays with her.”
“We have no way to know that,” Hazel objected. “And besides, it’s not your choice; it’s his. Whether you would be better for him or not, he chose Penelope, and you’re just going to have to accept that.” She turned away to stir the medicine again. “Ultimately, it’s up to you, but just know that if you continue to try to get between them, I’m not going to stand idly by anymore. I care about both of you too much to let you keep causing strife for him as well as yourself.”
Rikki said nothing as she stared at the ground. No matter what Hazel said, she couldn’t bring herself to simply accept that Crow was going to throw his life away to be with a knight. He should have chosen to be with her, not Penelope. However, there was no point in arguing about it with a woman who was just as stubborn as she was, so instead, she stood wordlessly and headed back to her own pot.
Another short period of time passed before the others finished working on the herbs. Eager to take her mind off her conversation with Hazel, Rikki was quick to begin delegating more tasks.
“Collect as much of the crushed plants as you can and put them in the oil,” she said, pointedly avoiding looking at Penelope while her emotions were still in turmoil within her. “All that’s left is to cook it, which is easier if I do it alone.”