I have a lot of anxiety, to the point it's technically "severe anxiety." Even writing 13 words, I'm just staring at the screen, like what I have written is inherently wrong and bad, which is partially true, as I am just letting Grammarly do my punctuation for me
For the most part, I've avoided roleplaying with other humans besides my dip into a warrior cat roleplay when I was 10, and whatever amino was supposed to be, heck, I've done more daydreaming and solo writing than roleplaying with other humans, but in recent years, I've found it extremely easy to use ai for roleplays.
Specifically, it's easy to stop caring when your roleplay partner is ai. I don't have to consider if it enjoys the direction of the story or the length of my reply, not even my spelling feels important to care about.
But that's stupid, even if I was the worst roleplayer ever, my writing would still be better than a lot of ai chatbots. The fact that I choose to roleplay with something that feels like reading the back of a book, hyping you up for something cool, but in itself contains none of that, just a general notion of an "adventure." That's stupid! Why am I even consuming this slop? because it's easy? because I'm an anxious mess?
Whatever the reason, I want it to stop. I want to roleplay with actual human beings, and so here I am trying my best.
For the most part, I've avoided roleplaying with other humans besides my dip into a warrior cat roleplay when I was 10, and whatever amino was supposed to be, heck, I've done more daydreaming and solo writing than roleplaying with other humans, but in recent years, I've found it extremely easy to use ai for roleplays.
Specifically, it's easy to stop caring when your roleplay partner is ai. I don't have to consider if it enjoys the direction of the story or the length of my reply, not even my spelling feels important to care about.
But that's stupid, even if I was the worst roleplayer ever, my writing would still be better than a lot of ai chatbots. The fact that I choose to roleplay with something that feels like reading the back of a book, hyping you up for something cool, but in itself contains none of that, just a general notion of an "adventure." That's stupid! Why am I even consuming this slop? because it's easy? because I'm an anxious mess?
Whatever the reason, I want it to stop. I want to roleplay with actual human beings, and so here I am trying my best.
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