It's been a long time.
I'll begin by apologizing for being an overall terrible GM these last few months; my unannounced disappearances, uninspiring writings, et citera.
Though, I will come clean right now. For a majority of it, it was because of a lack of general interest and motivation to continue, let alone, pull myself to write. For that, the roleplay suffered, and we couldn't even get through two arcs in almost an entire year.
I had so much in store, but you could say that I probably had too much. When I saw that days would pass before a single post would come up, or something of the like, I grew upset - I had so much to carry out, but nobody else was on the same degree of ethic that I was for it.
And for that, I take the full responsibility of why the roleplay is in the condition it is in, now; a soldier without his gun. Incomplete. I was too dedicated, I grew impatient as I stewed over my ideas that would never come to writing, and in my darkest hours, I even turned to blaming others.
This roleplay was the only one that I was involved in, completely. I spent many nights in deep planning, dreaming of the extravagant that could come, but it was too much, and soon, clicking on my bookmarked tab for Roleplayer Guild became stressful in itself. Writing began to become a burden, in general.
It became so much that I would dread coming home to the computer, having to force myself to write for the sake of moving things forward, but that had led to the relief of waiting for days before I would have to do so, again.
That was not how I wanted writing and roleplaying to be, for myself and for others. So that is why I'm going to plant the nail into the coffin - I'm ending the roleplay, right here. Again, I am the one to blame and to stomach any potential backlash for my over-dedication, and lack thereof, now.
Beforehand, I'd like to thank everyone (if you see this later on) for using up your time to be a part of this. I feel that I've scammed, wasted, and cheated you for almost a whole year, since this never really took off. I just can't see myself doing this, anymore.
I'm sorry.
I'll begin by apologizing for being an overall terrible GM these last few months; my unannounced disappearances, uninspiring writings, et citera.
Though, I will come clean right now. For a majority of it, it was because of a lack of general interest and motivation to continue, let alone, pull myself to write. For that, the roleplay suffered, and we couldn't even get through two arcs in almost an entire year.
I had so much in store, but you could say that I probably had too much. When I saw that days would pass before a single post would come up, or something of the like, I grew upset - I had so much to carry out, but nobody else was on the same degree of ethic that I was for it.
And for that, I take the full responsibility of why the roleplay is in the condition it is in, now; a soldier without his gun. Incomplete. I was too dedicated, I grew impatient as I stewed over my ideas that would never come to writing, and in my darkest hours, I even turned to blaming others.
This roleplay was the only one that I was involved in, completely. I spent many nights in deep planning, dreaming of the extravagant that could come, but it was too much, and soon, clicking on my bookmarked tab for Roleplayer Guild became stressful in itself. Writing began to become a burden, in general.
It became so much that I would dread coming home to the computer, having to force myself to write for the sake of moving things forward, but that had led to the relief of waiting for days before I would have to do so, again.
That was not how I wanted writing and roleplaying to be, for myself and for others. So that is why I'm going to plant the nail into the coffin - I'm ending the roleplay, right here. Again, I am the one to blame and to stomach any potential backlash for my over-dedication, and lack thereof, now.
Beforehand, I'd like to thank everyone (if you see this later on) for using up your time to be a part of this. I feel that I've scammed, wasted, and cheated you for almost a whole year, since this never really took off. I just can't see myself doing this, anymore.
I'm sorry.