When Penelope and Gavin agreed not to say anything to the other thieves about his betrayal, Crow felt a little more relieved. He was still ashamed with himself for asking the knights to keep his secret, but he couldn’t risk letting his companions find out that he had been working for the man who had killed Simon, especially if they heard it from someone else. If they were ever going to learn of his dealings with Jaxon, he was going to be the one to tell them, himself.
As the knights spoke amongst each other again, he took another step away from them, feeling like he had been outcasted. Gavin had always tried to exclude him from their plans, but this was the first time Penelope had done so too. It hurt him to listen to her speak with her ex suitor like he was just some feral animal that couldn’t be trusted to be included in the discussion, and he wondered again if there was any hope that she would ever trust in him after all of this was over.
At her last question to him, Crow felt another stab of hurt. It seemed that she didn’t just want to keep him out of their plans; she wanted to push him out of the mission completely. He felt like he was being crushed beneath her words. Even after everything that had happened that night, he had thought that she would at least be willing to give him a chance to keep working with her and her comrades. To find out that she didn’t want to be around him anymore was devastating.
Is there even any point to going with her though? he thought dismally. She’s making it pretty clear that she doesn’t want anything more to do with me. Maybe I should just cut my losses and let her go. He took a shaky breath, fighting back against tears that stung his eyes as he began to lose control of his swirling emotions. This wasn’t how he had thought things would go at all. He had wanted to prove to her that he could be the man she deserved and stay by her side unwaveringly throughout the war. He’d really thought he could do it too… but then that cursed murderer had come along and ruined everything. He squeezed his eyes shut, taking a moment to force himself to calm down. As much as it hurt, he refused to show his pain to the knights.
“You’re right,” he said numbly, unable to bring himself to look her in the eyes. “I shouldn’t get involved.” He took another step back, turning slightly as he prepared to leave the knights behind. However, before he did, he paused and added softly, “Goodbye, Penelope… I hope you catch him.” With that, he turned quickly and headed out of the clearing, hiding his face from the others as the tears that he could no longer suppress began to flow freely down his cheeks.
As the knights spoke amongst each other again, he took another step away from them, feeling like he had been outcasted. Gavin had always tried to exclude him from their plans, but this was the first time Penelope had done so too. It hurt him to listen to her speak with her ex suitor like he was just some feral animal that couldn’t be trusted to be included in the discussion, and he wondered again if there was any hope that she would ever trust in him after all of this was over.
At her last question to him, Crow felt another stab of hurt. It seemed that she didn’t just want to keep him out of their plans; she wanted to push him out of the mission completely. He felt like he was being crushed beneath her words. Even after everything that had happened that night, he had thought that she would at least be willing to give him a chance to keep working with her and her comrades. To find out that she didn’t want to be around him anymore was devastating.
Is there even any point to going with her though? he thought dismally. She’s making it pretty clear that she doesn’t want anything more to do with me. Maybe I should just cut my losses and let her go. He took a shaky breath, fighting back against tears that stung his eyes as he began to lose control of his swirling emotions. This wasn’t how he had thought things would go at all. He had wanted to prove to her that he could be the man she deserved and stay by her side unwaveringly throughout the war. He’d really thought he could do it too… but then that cursed murderer had come along and ruined everything. He squeezed his eyes shut, taking a moment to force himself to calm down. As much as it hurt, he refused to show his pain to the knights.
“You’re right,” he said numbly, unable to bring himself to look her in the eyes. “I shouldn’t get involved.” He took another step back, turning slightly as he prepared to leave the knights behind. However, before he did, he paused and added softly, “Goodbye, Penelope… I hope you catch him.” With that, he turned quickly and headed out of the clearing, hiding his face from the others as the tears that he could no longer suppress began to flow freely down his cheeks.