Balance

Myriad Reality

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When did they go away?

@Host

We already talked about this. When I was freed from Svár.

Myriad Reality

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How do you know that's not what emotions are?

@Host

Because I remember that I felt things, and that there was a big difference between feeling things and not. And I know this isn't feeling anything.

Myriad Reality

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I just fail to see how those aren't emotions.

@Host

They're remembered responses. I figure that I was used to responding to x in y way, like with excitement or irritation or sadness, and I just react that way naturally. But I don't feel what I'm expressing, at least not in any way I register.

Myriad Reality

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If there's no emotion behind anything, I don't see how a robot wouldn't be the same.

@Host

I object on the basis that I'm not a robot, but I guess it's interesting to think about. I've been praying about it. It's just been so long I don't know if it'll ever be fixed.

Myriad Reality

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You know at some points in my life I kind of feel the same.

@CuttleFish

I think everybody does, sometimes. But for me it's, so far, permanent.

Myriad Reality

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I find that hard to believe. What then would make you any different from a really advanced robot?

@Host

Free will? The breath and image of God? Etcetera.

Myriad Reality

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You seem pretty non-apathetic to me.

@Host

I do, don't I? But, and I say this without a hint of sarcasm, I don't really feel a shred of what it looks like I feel.

Myriad Reality

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That's something you can figure out.

@Host

Hopefully. It's directly tied to the whole "no emotions and I don't know why" thing that we talked about earlier, and that escapes me.

Myriad Reality

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*Scowls*

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It was not!

@Host

I mean, I acknowledge that it's a problem. But it's not currently something I know how to deal with in any other way than pain.

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Zel: Why wouldn't ya already know about people like yurselves? And as soon as my friend is done, I'll have ya meet him. He's part of the record keepin' group here at the guild.

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Zel: Why would ya want tuh be punched?

@Stabby

There's... different kinds of us, I think. I'm trying to figure that out. But until then, I'll happily meet your friend. And... well, let's call it a mental problem.

Myriad Reality

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You woke up and asked to be hit.

@Host

Oh! Waking up and getting punched had absolutely nothing to do with each other. Those were fulfilling two totally different psychological demands.