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4 yrs ago
Woop! Shipden Peak RP has started. Can't freaking wait for this to unfold.
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4 yrs ago
The Witches of Shipden Peak RP is starting this week! I'm equally excited and nervous.
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Bio

💀 Welcome to this Hell Hole 💀
Also Known As
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Ben, Benji
(I'm a woman despite the odd name)


Age
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28 years


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24 Feb


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Germany


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English, German

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Roleplay Preferences
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I mostly enjoy writing in the Casual section of the guild. Character development and exploring character relationships motivate me. I like to really think myself into my character and their view on others and the world around them which is why I prefer to stick to one character per roleplay. I love world-building but I am also easily overwhelmed with very detailed concepts I haven't been met with before. So you could say I love a decent amount of world-building and prefer original builds. Once everyone has settled, expanding that world and its concept is a great way to create more depth and keep me as a player hooked as I love to discover new things!

My favorite genre is and has always been fantasy. I guess you could say I love escapism to a point where I like to flee the mundane world entirely. I also feel drawn to sci-fi roleplays but I have noticed that those usually intimidate me. I feel like I am not adept at writing about technology and all that sci-fi goodness so I mostly just pine over how awesome some OOCs look and never apply to them.

When it comes to fantasy I feel right at home. For my mind, it is much easier to grasp magical concepts and worlds than sci-fi ones. As a result of this, all the worlds I write up (be it here as a GM or elsewhere) tend to be fantastical in one way or another. I especially enjoy adventure RPs and witch RPs. I like to see new magical systems and am always eager to learn more about the worlds I RP in.

Additionally, all my characters are queer, always. Since I am queer myself and can't imagine playing straight ^^


Latest Roleplays
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Although the days of witch hunts are long past us, life isn't roses. While the upcoming election is threatening witches with a potential anti-witch politician claiming the title of president, unrest is stirring in the corners of the world. A rise in threats has been detected - unnatural beings, magical beasts, and other supernatural phenomena pull media attention and feed directly into an anti-witch campaign.

The Death Knight's Squire (GM)
A D&D One-Shot. A group of adventurers is hired to find the missing grandson of a wealthy couple visiting the town. He was taken by a mysterious knight who rode his horse into the deadly woods nearby, taking the young boy with him. But the knight is not a simple man, he is said to be a resurrected ghostly figure forever in search for a squire, kidnapping young boys who never return home.

Wandering Topside [1x1]
The Cult of the Dragon has come to Phlan, a lawless refuge on the Moonsea. Now, with no significant authority to stop the cult, other power groups in the Realms – the Harpers, Order of the Gauntlet, Lords' Alliance, and even the Zhentarim – must unite to stop the cult from fulfilling its dark purpose in the city. Meanwhile, Rhana, a drow rogue with a questionable past, and Salissa, a dhampir bard with flair, find themselves somehow involved in this as they tackle different missions aimed at stopping the cult.


Other Places of Interest
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This is just my character archive. I have recently reorganized it. I made a whole new thread for it, moved the CS I wanted to keep for memories sake over and am now less ashamed to have people stumble upon my creations.

How To Run A Multi-Arc RP (by BlueSky44 and Morose)
Some helpful tips on running and organizing your roleplay and what to do when your story is concluded. This should help you when running a multi-arc roleplay. You will also find some tips on setting up an Interest Check and OOC here.


Quirks
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I always write my IC posts in gray due to finding the white color pretty straining on the eyes.
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Most Recent Posts

@undine have you checked over mt CS since I applied changes? I wanna know if it's alright this way
Myriam Cassedy

Location: Auditorium ~ Testing Room

Interactions: Only with her coach




Myriam watched with fear, confusion, curiosity and a slight anger as the others went willingly with their coaches. She wasn't angry about them going with these people, she would obey too! Esepcially after seeing that one girl being taken away after yelling something to the people in Russian. She was scared. But the arms around her waist made it slightly better. She held Mayuri in her arms as she young girl held onto her. She didn't want to let her go, she feared that she would break apart if she had no one to hold onto.

But the moment came soon in which she had to let the girl go. And surprisngly, Mayuri seemed to either recognise the woman that appreached her or see something in her that reminded her of something or someone. Her face looked as though she was seeing a ghost and for a moment Myriam wanted to pull her behind her and protect her with her whole body. But then Mayuri already stood up and let go of her waist, leaving Myriam to feel cold without the warmth of her arms and very scared, and went willingly and with an expecting look on her face with the stranger. Of course Myriam had seen the others go with them without blinking an eye too, but she was still confused on why Mayuri would seem so... so... not-scared all of a sudden. The blonde felt very alone and wished she could dive under water once again. When the girl turned to wave to her though, it put a smile onto her face. She waved back and watched her leave. She would see her again, she was sure of it.

One by one the teenagers were taken away and no one made a scene for it. Soon enough her name was called out. "Myriam Riley Cassedy?" The female voice sounded melodic in a weird way. She couldn't really tell what it was. It had a feeling of hot summer sun, but strangly enough paired with the noise a campire made inthe silence of a dead night.
When Myriam looked to see who the voice belonged to she saw a rather young woman - she couldn't have been older than 27? or 29 maybe? - who looked somewhat ?Latina. She had a slightly darker skin, but Myriam couldn't tell where she could be from. Not that it mattered. The woman had her brown hair in a messy bun, strays of hair were hanging in her face but it didn't seem to bother her. She wore normal jeans and a t-shirt with a light jacket thrown over it. She didn't seem to care for a labcoat. In her hand she was holding a clipboard and was playing with a pen, making it click every now and then while waiting for Myriam to stand up. Her fingers made her seem impatient, the way she clicked the pen and held onto the clipboard as though she couldn't wait to fill it out and ask her questions, but her face was showing nothing but patience.

Myriam stood up off her seat without really noticing what she was doing. Step by step she went down the rows of chairs and walked towards the woman. "Please follow me, Myriam", she said and offered her a small smile before turning and making her way out of the auditorium. Myriam followed like a lost puppy.

They walked through the hallways and Myriam didn't even consider remembering the way, she was way too confused with the effect the woman seemed to have on her. After what felt like twenty minutes - but really only was two - she opened a door and walking inside with the girl. It was looking like some kind of office, but not too business like. There was a wooden desk with a tablet lying on it and a chair behind it. Papers where spread all over it, pencil were lying carelessly on the edge and a mug half full with what could have been coffee stood on a thick book. There were two other chairs in the room; armchairs in a cream color standing a little closer to the wall, half-way facing each other and half-way being turned to face the middle of the room. There was a wooden drawer behind the table and chair, three metallic cupboards with frosted-glass-doors sported one of the four walls and showed tiny locks on them that clearly needed a key for opening.

"Please sit." The woman waved her hand at one of the two armchairs and Myriam sat in the one that was closer to the door. The woman sat in the other one, crossed her legs and looked at her with a smile. "Myriam, it is nice to meet you." The campfire whisper beneath the obvious hot summer sun tone was irritating her. Why was this woman feeling so odd to her? "My name is Vera Solano." Myriam nodded. "I am here to help you get through this all. I get that this really sucks for all of you and none of is in the slightest way easy. I want you to know that you can always come to me with concerns or questions." No it was anything else but easy. Myriam stayed silent. "I will be your coach, helping you understand what is going on and how to gain control over your special ability."

"I don't have an ability." Myriam looked at her seriously. "I get that you heard that a lot and probably have a monologue prepared for it. But I don't wanna hear it. In fact, I don't wanna hear any of it. Just leave me alone." She wanted nothing more than to curl up in the chair and hide her face. She didn't feel well at all sitting here. Or even better, dive under water and stay there until her head was free again.

"You're right, I do get that answer a lot. And every time I say the same thing. You do have an ability, Myriam. And we will both figure it all out. For now, we don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." Vera's voice suddenly didn't feel like a summer sun anymore. It was more of a wave... a wave that was coming into the shore and hitting her legs with coldness while she stood in the ocean in the autumn. In a good, relaxing way it was cold and stung on her skin. Myriam nodded. She didn't wanna talk about anything.

"There are some basic things we need to go over, but it is nothing hard. Just some information." She turned to her clipboard and read the facts about Myriam, such as her full name, date of birth, birth place, gender, parent's names. Myriam only nodded at all of it, it was all correct. Then the woman put her clipboard aside. "That was all we need to do. If you would allow me, I would take a blood sample, just to be on the safe side." But Myriam shook her head. She didn't want this woman to touch her right now or insert a needle and take blood. She didn't want all this. Vera nodded at her. "I have to ask you something, Myriam. It's not gonna be easy." Her voice was full of empathy and Myriam braced herself for what was to come. She looked at her and silently gave her permission to ask. "Have you seen a doctor in regarding of what happened?"

How... How could she know? She didn't tell anyone!! She didn't even say it out loud! She didn't even talk to anyone about anything since... Well she did after she was kidnapped, but not about it! Myriam felt tears in her eyes and she started to shake slightly.

"It's okay." Another wave hit her bare legs as she stood in the cold ocean water. "Nothing will happen to you here. I would like to check you out physically after what happened to you. We don't have to do it now, though I will have to recommend it. The sooner, the better. I will not force it on you. You are free to go for now. Please mentally prepare for the procedure, we will have to do it. And next time, I would like to draw some blood from you as well. Okay?" She waited a while but Myriam did not give an answer. She was still shaking. "If you need anything, contact me. For now, you have a call. In your room lies a device for a video chat with your father, if you want to accept it just slide the lock screen and it will do the call for you."

They sat a while in silent. Vera looking at Myriam with absolutely no judgement in her eyes and Myriam shaking and feeling miserable. After a long while the girl asked to go to her room and Vera showed her the way, bringing her all the way up to her room door. She felt grateful for that. Myriam would have never managed to find the way herself, even if the hallway would have been only a corner away.
After arriving in her room, Myriam had sat on the bed, feeling too weak to stand. She had taken the tablet onto her lap and imagined her father's face appearing on the now black screen. His voice sounding through the speaker-slot of the device. Thirty minutes she sat there and looked at the screen, before she finally put it down and left her room. She followed the way she had walked the first time she had left her room in this facility and landed in the indoor pool room like she did before the meeting in the auditorium had started.

Myriam had a tunnel vision, she could not see anything or even hear anyhting at her current state, she only saw the water so silent and inviting. She took straight towards it, walking slowly but directly at the pool. Not a second did it cross her mind that there could be a swimsuit or bikini for her somewhere, not a second did it cross her mind that she could possibly change here somewhere, and not even did it cross her mind that someone else might be here or might come in and see her. For right now, she only saw the water.

The blonde slided off the edge and right into the water, clothes still on, shoes still on, and went underneath, sinking slowly as she just didn't move. Her eyes closed, her long blonde hair floating around her face. And finally she was where she longed to be ever since she woke up. Underneath the water. With no air to breathe. No thoguhts to think. No decisions to make. And there she stayed for a relatively long while without coming up.
@HalfOfLancelot I cried.
@McHaggis To you and Undine or to the third GM too? (PMing it to you now)
I will be here if this takes off
@undine I finished my CS. Can I PM it to you? I do not have an relationship discussed yet (because I am not even sure if my character will be allowed to participate), except for the one with her lover.
@Undine Can I get a bit of information on how famous exactly the Carrington family was/is ? Like, how much would the fame have affected the children's childhood and just about how many people (everyone? the adult people only? only those who read paper? ect) knew about their name and what did come with the fame? Like, would people on the street have been like "oh look, it's the Carrington's kid!" or whatever?
@DisguisedDemon Course they do that. You just start a new Interest Check, don't even have to mention there was another same RP before that died, and start accepting new people as you go. You either leave this RP thread as it is, or you put something in the IC and OOC saying that the thread has been restarted with new people and that anyone interested goes to the Interest Check/new RP thread (make sure to put a link and write the note easily visable onto the first IC and OOC page! (edit it in) and maybe even the last one (for old people to see it too, because only new people usually land directly on the first page you know))

That's what I'd do at least.
Step 1) create a new individual Interest Check and/or RP thread
Step 2) put the link on the first and last page of the old RP thread, easily visable and with the note to drop by if interested
Step 3) just restart like you did before
Step 4) HAVE FUUUUUN

LoL you that's what I'd do.
@DisguisedDemon you could open a new interest check and put the story/idea of this there as well as a reminder that none of those people who join new have to know what has been writting so far in the IC or OOC and that it's a call for new characters and link them to this page here -- might attract some more people? Its worth a shot at least right ? idk

But then again, if we are only three people anyway (are you as a GM still interested in this anyway?), we could also just start a whole new RP for this and not link them here, but do normal interest check... I mean three people could start new, it'd be easier than explain where the rest suddenly disappeared to that you talked to already, right?

I don't know. Your decision :) thank you for the taking on all that stress :P
@Undine I understood that. Just saying, please add my name ;) I'll drop a CS in no time (almost finished)
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