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2 yrs ago
Current I’m alive… sorta. Sorry to partners for disappearing there, but I should be back now.
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2 yrs ago
I knew bad news always came in threes…
2 yrs ago
Was talking to someone who worked in closed captioning who is now getting a new degree because so many companies are turning to AI to close caption now… Which AI is pretty shite at it still.
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2 yrs ago
Not that I smoke it often, but only cheap weed smells like Satan’s anus.
2 yrs ago
Are you going in your favorite rocket ship? 🚀
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Bio





If you’re here to check why I’m online but not replying to you, odds are my computer just randomly woke up in the middle of the night. No, I don’t know why it does this lol





About Me


Names/Aliases: Don’t Look Now, DLN, Cait, Donut Look Now, DLN Cait
Pronouns: She/Her/Hers
Age: 29
Birthday: August
From: United States
Timezone: MST Currently
Occupation: Full Time Sales / Part Time Student
Work Hours: Tues-Sat 9:30AM-6PM

Languages: English, Learning Spanish
Orientation: Bisexual / Cis (Married)
Pets: Margot (10yr Australian Shep/Mix Rescue)





Current Roleplays

Chicago After Hours as Kimiko “Kiki” Voss, Nero, & Nicholas “Nic” Wu
1x1 with KazAlkemi
Bunnies & Beasts as Willow Estelle Kinsley & Others
1x1 with Visyn
PAUSED
Yellowstone Disaster as Aurelia “Lia” Walshe
1x1 with ThatLostDude
PAUSED
ArrowFell: The Wizard Queen’s Court as Nyx Hier the Wanderer AKA Lady Olivia Rhys
Casual Large Group by Estylwen







Current Hyperfixation: just making it through the fucking day









If you made it all the way down here, you get a donut 🍩





Most Recent Posts

Nero


Location: Caden's Home - Chicago, IL
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"Es fühlte sich definitiv so an, als könnte es." I mumble, clenching and unclenching my left fist to make sure it wasn't actually melting. I feel gross, like I hadn't had a shower earlier. "Kann ich... Kann ich dir sagen, was passiert ist?" I pull away so I can look up into Caden's eyes


Nero


Location: Caden's Home - Chicago, IL
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By the last part of Caden's sentence, I can breathe normally and the tears have slowed. I let out a weak laugh. "I'll kill him." I joke, my voice hoarse and unfamiliar to my ears. I bury my face in the crook of Caden's neck, sniffling despite myself. "Es tut mir leid." I realize not just my tears had made Caden's shirt soaked and the shirt he's wearing is also completely drenched. A towel is between us and I try to wiggle free of it, feeling bad. "Es tut mir leid." I repeat, but I don't pull away from him still, afraid if I do, the memories will start again.


Nero


Location: Caden's Home - Chicago, IL
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I shiver, feeling my whole body shake, but I'm not cold. "W-what," I swallow the hard lump in my throat and sob in Caden's arms, trying to gain control over my body. I wrap my arms around Caden, my hands clutching his shirt. "I-I-" I can't get the words out, my whole body convulsing with each sob that attacks me. There's only one explanation that I can think of - that was a human memory and it definitely was not a pleasant one. Why did this have to be the first one?
Nero


Location: Caden's Home - Chicago, IL
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I'm forced to walk with my fist closed around the metal melting my skin. When it's finally peeled off my hand, I let out one more scream before the scenery around starts to fade. Panting and breathless, I recognize I'm in Caden's bed. I feel wet and I shver a tiny bit, suddenly feeling cold. Eyes blinking several times, I lift my left hand with shaking limbs and turn it over, expecting to see the burning flesh again. It looks normal though, or as normal as can be expected with the scar that takes up most of the palm.

I remember that I had heard Caden and I sit up, trying to locate him. "M-mein Drache?" I manage to call out before I find him. I feel moisture fall down my cheeks and I confusingly wipe my face, not sure what's happening. "Caden?" My eyes finally find him.
Nic Wu


Location: Lì Wu’s Service - Chicago, IL
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After making sure all the food is put away, I join my dad on the couch. Since he's tall himself, we both are spread out with limbs crossing other limbs. We put on a show while we go through everything, but it doesn't take either of us long to pass out and both take a little cat nap.





Nero


Location: Caden's Home - Chicago, IL
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Faintly, I can hear Caden speaking and walking into the room, but most of what I'm hearing is a high-pitched tone and I squeeze my eyes shut. My left hand feels like it's on fire and I'm replaying a scene in my head that's familiar, but also very old. A fist-sized molten bar is dropped into my hand and I let out a scream of pain, watching the flesh of my palm start to burn. I'm prodded to close my fist around the bar and I scream out louder.
Nic Wu


Location: Lì Wu’s Service - Chicago, IL
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Jane stays to help us clean up and get everything home once everyone else leaves. Jane lets us know she'll come by later with Kat and we can play some card games over dinner. I send Cass a quick text to thank her again. I really don't know how to thank you for everything, but thank you... for everything We get home and I start putting some of the food away first, my dad going to the couch to look over everything else.





Nero


Location: Caden's Home - Chicago, IL
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I get up for a moment and put on a shirt of Caden's while I grab the 13th century book and take it with me back to my hiding place under the covers. I slowly turn the pages until I find the place I left off. This next chapter talks about the different trials someone would endure to prove their innocence. The first was trial by jury, which is surprisingly like that of modern society. The next was by nobility and listed ordeals with the trials. My hand brushes over the Ordeal of Fire and I suddenly can't breathe as my left hand twitches, my brain barely processing the words I was reading. This body is dead, but somehow I'm hearing my heartbeat echoing.
Nic Wu


Location: Lì Wu’s Service - Chicago, IL
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"Oh, wait a second, I'll be right back." I say to my dad and Jane before I jog over the where Cass and Caden are getting ready to leave. I get there in time for Caden to still be next to Cass after helping her into the car. "Hey, I just wanted to thank you both again before you leave." I bow my head in sincerity to both of them before I look between them both. "Please get home safe, both of you." I say before I jog back to my dad and Jane.





Nero


Location: Caden's Home - Chicago, IL
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After the shower with Caden, I curled up in his bed, deciding to try and sleep through the whole service until he returned. It doesn't work as well as cuddling with Caden though, so I'm just in a little ball under his sheets while holding a pillow that smells like him. Maybe I should get a new cellphone so I could actually text Caden to see how much longer he'll be.

Nic Wu


Location: Lì Wu’s Service - Chicago, IL
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Something catches my eye and when I look down again, my eyes widen in wonder. Not missing a beat, I look up and find Cass almost immediately. "Thank you." I mouth to her before Jane gains my attention, asking who Cass and Caden are.

"Oh, those are the two that managed to save- find my dad for me." I say at the same time as my dad saying "My future daughter-in-law." The moment breaks the tension and the three of us chuckle.

Jane uses on of her free arms to wrap around my waist as we walk. "You should introduce us soon - I have to officially approve." I shake my head and roll my eyes for Jane and put an arm around each of them as the crowds starts to disperse. With a short glance, I see Caden and Cass aren't far behind us- it takes considerable effort not to turn and stare at Cass or break free from my group.

"Are you coming by my place later?" I ask Jane as we walk towards the venue's parking lot instead.
Nic Wu


Location: Lì Wu’s Service - Chicago, IL
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Using the small of her back, I usher Jane into our row and my dad gives her a big hug and it's not long before the three of us are all blubbering. We try to keep things light and joke with each other, but we end up with tears streaming down our faces and weird smiles. The service is starting, my dad and I are ushered to our places as incense is lit.

The service goes well, anyone who spoke tried to keep it lighthearted, something my mother would have loved to see. Since the chapel is on grounds, we are already at the cemetery. We're led to a small hill where my sister had been buried in 2015. Jane is already sobbing before we make it to the grave site and I'm holding her, trying to console her and ignore that I want to start sobbing too. This was the hard part for Kiki's funeral and I'm sure it hasn't gotten easier in the last 9 years. Kiki's small gravestone is decorated with fresh flowers, matching the rest that Cass had gotten for the service. There are a few more words said before we're directed to turn our backs to the grave site as my mom is lowered.

I loose it then, after we turn away, and a clamp my hand over my mouth as each sob wracks me. I almost trip turning my back, my dad and Jane have to catch me to keep me from falling. I can tell Jane wants to console me somehow, but she knows I prefer not bringing attention to myself in these moments. Instead, I look down, staring at an acorn that just just inches from my foot. Jane and my dad have to pat me to let me know that the service had ended.

Nic Wu


Location: Lì Wu’s Service - Chicago, IL
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I pull away from Jane's hug and we hold hands for a second while we talk. "Did you see the photo I posted to Instagram?" I ask, grinning evilly. Jane snatches one of her hands back to smack me on the chest. I laugh freely,a snatching the hand so she can't do it again. "I'll take that as a yes. Where's Kat?" I ask her, peering over her to see if I can spot her girlfriend.

"She's working right now but told me to give you a hug." She fought off my hands so she could hug me again and I hold her there for a minute as I try not to cry. Jane had been with me since pre-med and while she's continued on to become a doctor, we still supported each other and managed to work at the same hospital together. If anyone was the reason I could still go on after Kiki, it would be Jane. I rub her back a little before patting it and she steps back. She isn't able to hold back her tears. I try to pull her back in a hug but she smacks my hands away. "I'm going to get makeup all over your shirt and then your mom's gonna back to haunt me." It isn't meant in a rude way - her sense of humor has always been a bit dark, and in this moment it makes me laugh.

In a teasing tone, I respond, "I'm telling Kat about that comment."

"No! Now her mom is gonna haunt me too!|" Despite her effort to swat me away, I put an arm around Jane anyway as I walk her inside, both of us laughing. She would be sitting with us in the row reserved for family.
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