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2 yrs ago
Current I’m alive… sorta. Sorry to partners for disappearing there, but I should be back now.
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I knew bad news always came in threes…
2 yrs ago
Was talking to someone who worked in closed captioning who is now getting a new degree because so many companies are turning to AI to close caption now… Which AI is pretty shite at it still.
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Not that I smoke it often, but only cheap weed smells like Satan’s anus.
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Are you going in your favorite rocket ship? 🚀
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Bio





If you’re here to check why I’m online but not replying to you, odds are my computer just randomly woke up in the middle of the night. No, I don’t know why it does this lol





About Me


Names/Aliases: Don’t Look Now, DLN, Cait, Donut Look Now, DLN Cait
Pronouns: She/Her/Hers
Age: 29
Birthday: August
From: United States
Timezone: MST Currently
Occupation: Full Time Sales / Part Time Student
Work Hours: Tues-Sat 9:30AM-6PM

Languages: English, Learning Spanish
Orientation: Bisexual / Cis (Married)
Pets: Margot (10yr Australian Shep/Mix Rescue)





Current Roleplays

Chicago After Hours as Kimiko “Kiki” Voss, Nero, & Nicholas “Nic” Wu
1x1 with KazAlkemi
Bunnies & Beasts as Willow Estelle Kinsley & Others
1x1 with Visyn
PAUSED
Yellowstone Disaster as Aurelia “Lia” Walshe
1x1 with ThatLostDude
PAUSED
ArrowFell: The Wizard Queen’s Court as Nyx Hier the Wanderer AKA Lady Olivia Rhys
Casual Large Group by Estylwen







Current Hyperfixation: just making it through the fucking day









If you made it all the way down here, you get a donut 🍩





Most Recent Posts




Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki’s impressed, to say the least. “As I thought - you are pretty observant.” Another moan slips out and she hears a pop so loud it sounds like it was in her head. “When do you get a massage though?” She lets her arm fall gently to her side as Avery works. If he doesn’t get one often, maybe she can learn and repay the favor.




Nero




Location: Mandarin Oriental Hotel – New York City, New York
Skills: Telekinesis
Fit





“Please.” Nero croaks. They want to tell Caden everything that they saw and talk through some of the bigger issues with his wisdom. But right now, they’re content to stay curled up in Caden’s lap. Nero doesn’t want him to leave just to get them a drink.

Focusing, they reach a hand out, thinking clearly of the mini snack bar with its bottled water. A few seconds later, a thud sounds as something hits against the door. They manage to open the door as the bottle rolls into the room.



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki concentrates on her breathing as Avery works through her shoulders and arms, closing her eyes. In through the nose, out through the mouth. She reminds herself, trying to stay relaxed even though her first instinct is to tense up. A rather loud moan escapes when he finds a particularly bad spot and Kiki immediately flushes, turning a bright shade of red.

“W-where did you learn how to massage?” She asks as a distraction. She remembers how last time he had told her that moaning was normal, but she still couldn’t help feeling embarrassed when she does.




Nero




Location: Mandarin Oriental Hotel – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Nero subconscious hears Caden and starts to nudge the little imp awake. Eyelids heavy, Nero opens their eyes and reaches up to cup Caden’s face. They barely notice that their hands are shaking. “My name…” They can’t finish their thought, their mouth felt drier than a desert,

“Leofe Warde…” The tiny thing mumbles before letting their hand fall from Caden’s face.



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki laughs, a snort escaping. “I’m telling Caden you said that.” She tells Avery with a mischievous smirk. She can’t keep the expression up though as Avery works the kinks in her back. When he takes his hands away, Kiki is about to pout and ask why when she turns to see Avery patting the space between his legs.

Warmth colors Kiki’s cheeks and cheeks while she does as Avery bids, sitting gingerly in the spot between his legs. She reminds herself to relax or this wouldn’t do any good for her. “Are there a lot of knots?” She asks pulling her hair into a messy bun so it’s out of Avery’s way.




Nero




Location: Mandarin Oriental Hotel – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Nero didn’t need to be told twice, they lean their head on Caden’s chest and close their eyes. The memory is almost instantaneous, soon filling all of Nero’s senses. This one is different from the demon memories, much more like Nero is seeing clips of different parts of their life rather than just one scene.

A steady but firm hand holds Nero’s shoulder. “You will need to act as a boy. Our family is under attack from within. I need a male heir.” Nero nods gravely…

Nero’s backed into a corner, a handful of boys surrounding them with cruel expressions. “You don’t belong here, runt.” One of the boys say before landing a punch on Nero’s face, the tiny thing clenches their fist, wanting to fight back…


The next few memories feel more like snapshots of Nero’s life. They attend a wedding, then they’re holding a tiny baby boy, then another baby. Nero starts to feel like they’ve been pushed out of sight.

“Grab him!” Rough hands capture each of Nero’s arms and they look up as the same boy that punched them looms over them. He’s gotten taller, but is still gangly. “Poor little Leofe Warde.” The boy says in a teasing voice before punching Nero in the stomach. “Let’s show him some manners!”

The back of Nero’s shirt is torn open and before Nero can struggle anymore, a whip cracks, hittin them squarely in the back. Nero hisses in pain, knowing that it must have surely drawn blood. The boys take turns in who’s holding Nero and who’s cracking the whip, but Nero doesn’t make a sound. It’s not long until the boys grow tired of this game and leave Nero there to bleed.

A hand reaches down to where Nero lays on the ground, praying that they can die swiftly and without any more pain. The hand is as black as a starless sky, the inkiness fading out as Nero’s eyes stare at this stranger’s hand. “Let me help you, young one. Why die when you can seek revenge?” Nero lifts their eyes and meets the face of Mundus.

A scream bubbles up Nero’s throat, wanting to warn the small child not to take his hand, to do anything but take his hand. It’s too late though. Red and black seems to whirl around Nero in a terrifying dance as Mundus grins widely. “You let me know when you’re ready, small one.” The giant of a man disappears in a blink…
The ‘duke’ said “peace out, Girl Scout”



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki cracks a smirk. “Of course you can - hopefully he’s easier to hit than a punching bag.” As Avery’s hands move along her back, she sighs softly and relaxes more. “A very good something.” She says before quietly moaning as Avery gets a particularly bad knot in her shoulder.




Nero




Location: Mandarin Oriental Hotel – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Once the car pulls up to the hotel, the two quickly make their way inside and to the elevator. Nero sticks close to Caden, both of their arms wrapped around one of his for support and comfort. They practically stumble into the room when the elevator doors open.



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki smiles nervously, her lips trembling as she refrains from letting out another weird awkward laugh. “I’m also happy that I’m getting to know you as well.” Closing her eyes, she lets out a little hum, really enjoying the way Avery played with her hair and rubbed her back.

“Even though I’m going to punch Caden for telling you without letting me know, I’m glad he told you.” She says, leaning more into Avery and his touch. “This weekend has definitely been something.”




Nero




Location: Car – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Nero buries their face into Caden as he holds them. “I’m…” They can’t think of a word to describe how they feel. They feel like they’ve just ran a marathon, their body tense and unable to relax. They keep their eyes open in an attempt to fight off the memory, afraid if they close them for too long they’ll get lost in it.

“Doing my best.” Nero says.



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki takes a deep breath. “We did end amicably - Caden and I, I mean. But…” Kiki licks her lips quickly as she starts to feel her face heat up and her mouth go dry. “But, that was also the last time I’ve been intimate with anyone…” Her hands go to tuck her hair behind her ears and she glances away. “I-it’s not because I’m still hung up on him or anything like that, though. I just made a decision after that to stop… leading relationships with sex…”

She lets out a weird, awkward laugh, rubbing the back of her neck now. “And when you’re chasing your mom all over the world, you don’t really make time for dates so…” Kiki lets herself trail off there, her hands out in a sort of weird shrug.




Nero




Location: Car – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Nero nods along to what Caden says, letting him lead them out of the theatre as they felt like they were stuck in some sort of haze. Once in the car, Nero rests their head on Caden, using a lot of concentration to stay in the moment. They’re able to just point out that they want everything off the dessert menu and the sweets & snacks minibar menu, keeping Caden true to his promise of ‘two of everything’.



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki lets Avery talk, starting to slowly climb of the hole she so desperately wants to die in and looks at him again. However, when he mentions Cassi, Kiki can’t help but snort. She gasps and claps a hand over her mouth and nose. “I shouldn’t laugh at that, oh my gods I’m so sorry.” The information definitely works in easing the tension left.

“Wait, is that why you refused to call her anything but ‘Miss Alistair’ for so long?” Kiki’s lips twitch as she tries not to laugh again. Focus, Kiki! “Oh, but, um… it’s rude of me to ask you not to laugh when I literally just laughed in your face, but can I tell you something?” There’s the smallest percentage that Caden would have known this detail anyway, but while they’re on the subject, Kiki wants to just lay it all bare.




Nero




Location: Gershwin Theatre – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Nero smiles, once again finding themselves incredibly lucky to have met Caden. “I think the sooner we get back to the hotel, the better. I don’t know what this memory has in store and… I don’t to end up screaming in pain here.” Although… Now that Nero thinks about it, the hotel wouldn’t be a good place to scream either.

“Maybe I can hold it off until we get home.”



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kiki’s heart falls to her stomach and she blanches as she peeks up at Avery. “I…” A few different emotions run through her rapidly. First, there’s relief that Avery already knows and it won’t seem like Kiki has been keeping a big secret from him. Then there’s a lot of embarrassment attached because oh my gods, why did Caden teLL HIM WITHOUT TALKING TO ME FIRST?? Which leads to a frustrating thought - Is Caden still treating me like a child?

Well, this last week had certainly proved to everyone just how human and fragile she is. While Kiki has this mental break in her mind, she doesn’t realize that two fluffy ears have popped out of her head again. “I…” She holds up a finger as she deliberates over her next words with a strained face. “I wish I had known that information.” She says, her voice even more strained than her expression. She moves her hands to hide her very red face.

“I have been so anxious all week about how to tell you about that.” She mumbles defeatedly into her hands.




Nero




Location: Gershwin Theatre – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Nero gratefully takes the handkerchief from Caden and wipes their face before focusing on their eyes. Once the clapping has died down and people have started to leave the theatre, Nero moves their head so they can whisper to Caden. “Can we order dessert through room service?”

A human memory tugs at Nero’s mind, making them feel woozy and nauseous from battling it through the musical. They wanted to enjoy the show with little interruption. Now that they had, Nero knows it’s only a matter of time before it surfaces. Fresh tears start replacing the ones they had just cleaned off their face and they sigh. Well, at least I’m not sobbing, I guess.



Kimiko “Kiki” Voss




Location: Caden’s Home - Chicago, IL
Skills:
Fit





Kimiko shakes her head at Avery. “I still don’t quite understand why you felt like Caden was a barrier between us. He’s always been a big brother to me.” She can’t help how her hearts pounds when she says that, her mind immediately going to Well, except for that one time… Kiki’s glad that he can’t see her face right now.

“B-but anyway, I don’t feel forced or anything by it right now. I mostly feel like my old habits are trying to force their way in and I’m worried that I’ll move too fast with you and ruin everything.” Okay, Kiki! Stop rambling!




Nero




Location: Gershwin Theatre – New York City, New York
Skills:
Fit





Nero doesn’t make it long before they’re back at the edge of the balcony, watching the performance go by with a dreamy expression. When Elphaba ends up with the guy, they get goosebumps from their song and look back at Caden with a waggle of their eyebrows before hopping back into his lap. The rest of the musical goes on and as the chorus sings out that no one mourns the wicked, Nero fidgets. They’re a far cry from being someone like the ‘wicked witch’, but they still feel some sort of remorse with the song and its lyrics.

The music changes up and the performers have their curtain call. Nero confusingly swipes at their face as the lights come back on. Why am I crying?
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