"I think I understand, but..." Kaleeth began, pausing momentarily as an array of memories made their way back into the forefront of her mind. The incident with the highwayman had been traumatic and painful, but the greatest way in which it hurt her was by reminding her how distant from other, non-lycans she had to be. Part of her motivation in learning how to control her beast spirit was the hope that she might one day be able to return home safely. She didn't know how well her village would accept her, but the fact that it was at least possible gave her some hope.
"...but I wasn't alone before. I had belonging, and I loved my life. I loved my family, my friends. It wasn't easy, but I was becoming a hunter. I had all of it, but lost it. I don't know if I can ever replace it." She explained, unable to make eye contact.
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"Well, we don't necessarily have to be silent. We just have to not be caught." Rareth remarked, reaching into one of the pouches on her armor and producing one of the insect-sized drones. With one touch, she activated it, then tossed it into the air to fly on its own power. It was a small, spherical device with a single camera and four "legs" that allowed it to latch onto surfaces. Currently, it was almost solid white, apart from the camera, but it could change its exterior color based on its environment.
"Have you ever made use of microdrones before? They are small, inexpensive, and quite useful for surveillance. They are completely silent and can transmit video feed in real time to whatever device you happen to be using. I'll be having mine send their feed directly to my helmet's display. You can control them remotely, or have them operate on their own A.I with a few different settings. One way you can use them is to send out a few during a fight. They will fly over the area you are fighting in a certain radius, then transmit video to you from different perspectives, depending on what you can and cannot see from your angle. If you have a neural uplink, you can also control their movements and which feed they show you with your thoughts. Unfortunately, as a magic-user, I can't use that function. At any rate, I could give you a few if you'd like to make use of them." Rareth offered.
"Have you ever made use of microdrones before? They are small, inexpensive, and quite useful for surveillance. They are completely silent and can transmit video feed in real time to whatever device you happen to be using. I'll be having mine send their feed directly to my helmet's display. You can control them remotely, or have them operate on their own A.I with a few different settings. One way you can use them is to send out a few during a fight. They will fly over the area you are fighting in a certain radius, then transmit video to you from different perspectives, depending on what you can and cannot see from your angle. If you have a neural uplink, you can also control their movements and which feed they show you with your thoughts. Unfortunately, as a magic-user, I can't use that function. At any rate, I could give you a few if you'd like to make use of them." Rareth offered.
I think I shall be going to bed. Goodnight.
Despite the fact that she stumbled over her words, Kaleeth caught onto Sabine's general meaning. Meesei had always described the pack as a kind of family whenever she asked, but she had a hard time feeling that way. Sure, she was friends with many of them, and, even if she was angry at him, she still loved Janius, but she didn't feel she knew them well enough to consider them family. She wasn't sure what Sabine wanted to do, or how it would make her stop hating herself, but she decided she could at least humor her with an answer.
"Um...okay, I guess. You can be my sister." Kaleeth said, still in a somber tone. She leaned back and started to float on the surface of the water, close enough to the shore that she could keep herself from floating downstream with her tail. She tried Meesei's suggestion of relaxing and trying to clear her mind, but nothing seemed to be able to get the image of that corpse out of her head. She had to find some way to distract herself. "Why do you want to be my sister?" She asked.
"Um...okay, I guess. You can be my sister." Kaleeth said, still in a somber tone. She leaned back and started to float on the surface of the water, close enough to the shore that she could keep herself from floating downstream with her tail. She tried Meesei's suggestion of relaxing and trying to clear her mind, but nothing seemed to be able to get the image of that corpse out of her head. She had to find some way to distract herself. "Why do you want to be my sister?" She asked.
Kaleeth's mood wasn't quite changed, by Sabine's words, but it certainly broke her depressed expression. Instead, she looked at her perplexed, wondering if she had misunderstood her Cyrodilic. "No, I never had a sister. I had an egg-brother, but he died. I...don't think I understand you. How could you just...become my sister? You can't choose to be a sibling, you have to be hatched, or, uh, born that way,"
Meesei was curious to see how Kaleeth would react to Sabine's request, especially once she explained herself. She wasn't surprised that it confused Kaleeth at first, as Sabine's suggestion really didn't transfer well between the languages. While Argonian villages were generally very close and members would often consider other members of the clan family, regardless of blood relation, the words "brother" or "sister" wouldn't quite be used in that sense. She did not wish to interrupt, so she remained quiet to allow Sabine to elaborate.
Meesei was curious to see how Kaleeth would react to Sabine's request, especially once she explained herself. She wasn't surprised that it confused Kaleeth at first, as Sabine's suggestion really didn't transfer well between the languages. While Argonian villages were generally very close and members would often consider other members of the clan family, regardless of blood relation, the words "brother" or "sister" wouldn't quite be used in that sense. She did not wish to interrupt, so she remained quiet to allow Sabine to elaborate.
Kaleeth wasn't sure what Sabine was wanting until she noticed that she was trying to pull her towards the river. "Oh...the blood." She commented in somewhat of a depressed tone. She was reluctant to move at first, but after Sabine stood, she forced herself to follow. After a short walk to the river, she unenthusiastically lowered herself into the water to wash away the last signs of her gruesome deed. Meesei followed suit and joined her in the water, if only to allow herself to relax in what was becoming a stressful situation.
Though not sobbing as before, Kaleeth was still obviously depressed. She seemed to be using the river purely to clean away the blood, as opposed to calming her nerves. Seeing Kaleeth in this state caused a feeling of regret to swell within Meesei. Even though Kaleeth had become friends with most of the pack, and she had found love with Janius, she believed that Kaleeth might have been happier staying in her village. The family and friends she grew up with, along with the relatively simple life, were what she had been accustomed to for years. Now, she was being throws around against her will into situations she neither liked nor wanted. It was a sad thought, but there was nothing that could be done about it anymore. All she could do now was to help Kaleeth make the best of her situation. "Try and relax. Just lean back and try to clear your mind." Meesei suggested.
Though not sobbing as before, Kaleeth was still obviously depressed. She seemed to be using the river purely to clean away the blood, as opposed to calming her nerves. Seeing Kaleeth in this state caused a feeling of regret to swell within Meesei. Even though Kaleeth had become friends with most of the pack, and she had found love with Janius, she believed that Kaleeth might have been happier staying in her village. The family and friends she grew up with, along with the relatively simple life, were what she had been accustomed to for years. Now, she was being throws around against her will into situations she neither liked nor wanted. It was a sad thought, but there was nothing that could be done about it anymore. All she could do now was to help Kaleeth make the best of her situation. "Try and relax. Just lean back and try to clear your mind." Meesei suggested.
"Agreed, but not now." Rareth responded to August. Being a Human ship, the Hummingbird felt small to her; she scarcely had enough room to stand up fully while inside, and she had to duck through doorways. On the mission she had taken part in with Ashley a year ago, she had found herself hitting her head on lower parts of the ceiling annoyingly frequently. Nevertheless, Ashley's familiarity with the ship was more valuable than her comfort.
"I will be serving as squad leader on this mission. I'm sure everyone has already reviewed the plan, but still, I'll give a final rundown of our plan of attack once everyone arrives. I'm not sure how accustomed you are to working in a team, but as long as you follow orders, it will be fine. How comfortable are you in performing a stealth mission?" Rareth asked.
"I will be serving as squad leader on this mission. I'm sure everyone has already reviewed the plan, but still, I'll give a final rundown of our plan of attack once everyone arrives. I'm not sure how accustomed you are to working in a team, but as long as you follow orders, it will be fine. How comfortable are you in performing a stealth mission?" Rareth asked.
Perhaps I should post up some notes on the Rothian language somewhere. I think I did that back when we had group functionality. Words are separated in sentences by apostrophes. Names, and other proper nouns, have the first letter of each word capitalized. Such as "Rareth'Jharn".
In one thing, Kaleeth could certainly agree with Sabine: she was afraid. She had not felt this much fear since she first transformed months ago. The others had told her she would get better, that she would learn to control it, but they were not like her. They knew how to train werewolves, what if she could never gain the same kind of control they had? What if she had to spend the rest of her life in fear that she would kill the people around her? What if the next person she devoured was someone she cared about? She could not stop herself from imagining the faces of the other members of the pack on the body of the Imperial she maimed.
"I am scared." Kaleeth said, slowly turning her head to look at Sabine. "But I am scared for a reason."
Meesei moved to sit on the other side of Kaleeth and put her arm around her as well. They had all been traveling together long enough that they were no longer strangers, but friends, and Kaleeth needed the comfort of her friends. "We were all scared, Kaleeth. We all had little control in the beginning, but you wouldn't be here if I did not believe with complete confidence that you can overcome it."
"I am scared." Kaleeth said, slowly turning her head to look at Sabine. "But I am scared for a reason."
Meesei moved to sit on the other side of Kaleeth and put her arm around her as well. They had all been traveling together long enough that they were no longer strangers, but friends, and Kaleeth needed the comfort of her friends. "We were all scared, Kaleeth. We all had little control in the beginning, but you wouldn't be here if I did not believe with complete confidence that you can overcome it."
Again, Kaleeth had a delayed response. There had not been all that much rational thought in her mind over the last few minutes, so she hadn't really thought about what she would have done normally. She supposed they would have killed the highwaymen anyway, but that hardly halted her pain. The way she did it, and the way she consumed him afterwards, was painful enough in and of itself. "I don't mind that he died, he was a bandit, but...I ate him, Sabine. I...devoured him. I am a cannibal, a wretched, vicious monster! And...and what if he was innocent? I would have killed him anyways. I am an animal that deserves to die. You...you won't be able to stop me next time, not when I become that...beast. You should kill me now." She said, once again breaking down into tears.
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