Freeshooter92

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

Question: Did this 'Vesuvius' person ever get the go-ahead?

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

Alright then. I'll work on a post at some point when I'm feeling better.

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

She's also supposed to be extremely intimidating, but for some reason it never has any effect. Such as the guard she threw to the ground. She had no intention of killing him, her paranoia drove her into making an attempt to scare them off.

...Of course robe guy fucked that up.

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

I'm just so frustrated that she's never seen real success in the one, specific purpose I designed her for.

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

She doesn't do every fight the same way, she just solves every problem with fighting. The issue here is she's shit at everything, EVERYTHING that isn't fighting or related to such. You'd think she'd be the best PC at fighting if that's all she can do. She's constantly outmatched at the one thing she's good at because odds are always stacked against her for no reason.

Like that fight with the Sea naga. She was perfectly healthy, using her favored equipment, in a one on one fight. She should have by all rights won, but she wasn't 'supposed' to. And wings, automatic strength advantage, sharp teeth, durable, mageblood for damn near all of them. They're broken.

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

The issue is she's supposed to make up for it by being the best fighter around, that's her intended asset, compensated by severe inability to perform well in non-combat situations. At the time, this worked beautifully: she was the only 'magic-fighter' sort of character around. Then, new characters came in. Fucking Ssarak is better than Alaira in every way. He's stronger, smarter, CAN FLY, has super special racial abilities, gets along with everyone, and has a better mastery of magic and absolutely no crippling weaknesses like Alaira has. That isn't to say he has none, but Alaira's got NOTHING on him. She should be a HELL of a lot more useful in combat, but no, she's half elf and a girl, so she loses out despite basically being a fucking mutant with THIRTY YEARS of bloodshed and strength training.

So yeah, I'll say it now, eysires are fucking bullshit.

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

I'm just sick of getting screwed over, man. This kind of shit seems to happen to me and me alone.

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

I'm not sure I can do this anymore. Does anyone think this massive goddamn misery parade I've gotten lately has been any fun for me at all? I love this character, I am absolutely fucking sick of the endless goddamn suffering I have to inflict upon her, because motherfucking realism makes her whole gimmick fucking unusable! And then everyone tells me they want to see her change, and its like I can't have the fucking character I envisioned, unless I mutate her into some boring nonsense!

Every fucking RP I do I just get the shit kicked out of me, and then people try to tell me they don't hate my guts. What else could it be? I hardly ever get any of the things I want out of these things, and when I do it's just more failure. I'm here suffering while everyone else is having their good time at my expense. What the fuck kind of fun do you get out of kicking a mentally unstable woman while she's down, huh?

And it's true she does stupid shit, because I play the character like I fucking wrote her. To actually behave in a fucking reasonable manner is actually CHEATING as far as I'm concerned. It's metagaming. I knew burning the bridge and provoking the guards was a bad idea, but that's only because I, as a player, have more knowledge about any of this shit than she does.

I wrote a powerful character, a proud berserker, but you know what I've gotten? A broken, psychopath thug. Could somebody throw me a bone? Please? It's been a year...

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

Do whatever you want then. I'm sorry my fantasy character is unrealistic.

Blood Act I~ Ghosts of the Past

Alright, question. Would solving any of these problems help at all to make addressing issues less severe?

Lyn~ From your last post my impression was that Alaira didn't understand that Lyn thought she hurt Alaira, merely that she felt it was her fault, which means she can't explain what happened completely with signs. You can only say so much with signs. Maybe Ssarak could possibly help with that as he could translate Lyn's thoughts to words to what exactly she is thinking then help fill the gaps. Lyn can understand if she's told what actually hurt Alaira instead just told it's not her fault. She needs something else to explain why Alaira reacted like that because without that, the only reason Lyn can come up with is her self.

Sickness~ If this is blood sickness, this will go away by morning as long as she doesn't use anymore magic. It just means her arcanite is low and needs recharge which as time goes on, it will replenish itself. So a time skip to morning will be helpful in eliminating that though I suggest she takes it easy on the magic some. :P

Tried & Angry~ Tired will also be gone by morning as nothing happens farther and the fact there's a fire will help. As for Angry, best Lyn can do is try to snuggle and cuddle Alaira to make her less moody before the chat with the other two. Also, would keeping Lyn where Alaira could see her help in soothing over Alaira's anger over the chat?

@Fallenreaper

It's not blood sickness, she's still weak from her fight with the demon. She didn't really use much magic that day. I counted once.

Knowing from experience (Seriously), sleeping in an abandoned building knowing there's things outside that want to kill you does fuck all for getting you any kind of decent rest. Paranoia and guilt is also wreaking havoc on her mental state. Some could be solved, likely, but the very worst ones can't be addressed quickly.

Perhaps that is the case, but you also have to consider the perspective of the others. She acted rashly and nearly got them all killed at the first bridge. Afterwards, Meirin and Darius confronted her, and she had a long conversation with Meirin about the problem and how to get past it. Then, at the second bridge, she forgot everything they had talked about and did the exact same thing again, endangering everyone's lives once more. To the others, she has proven herself untrustworthy to make good decisions. In Ssarak's eyes at least, Alaira either does not care if she endangers Lyn, or she doesn't understand how her actions could hurt her. Ssarak is a patient person, but even he won't be cordial after she has endangered them all for a second time. It just wouldn't make sense IC for him to be patient with her when patience has been proven ineffective. In Ssarak's eyes, Alaira is not going to stop putting them in danger, so he needs to act sooner rather than later.

@EliteCommander

Ssarak is correct, she isn't. Ever. The issue is that he's thinking about all this rationally. He has no hope of understanding her unless he considers things from her point of view. Ssarak is a disciplined 'soldier' more or less. Alaira is a woman who destroys her opponents through sheer hatred, bloodlust, and natural aptitude. For most fighters like Ssarak, Meirin, Grey, and the like, survival and self preservation is the objective. Alaira prioritizes the destruction of the foe above absolutely everything else, with one exception. No points for guessing said exception.

Alaira has been doing this for a long time, she's been killing since she was eleven years old. She's been fighting this way longer than Ssarak and Meirin have even been alive, she doesn't know any other way. So when they get this angry, she can't even comprehend why. She puts herself in this sort of danger all the time.

As such, she cannot be shoehorned into a separate role in combat. Her strengths must be worked around, rather than against, especially considering that their next goal is 'Murder all the bad guys' which is probably a situation in which that Ssarak might grudgingly see Alaira as an asset rather than a liability. She is an excellent distraction, and amazingly good at eliminating priority targets. But she can't fight any other way. He might be able to stop her from behaving in such a reckless manner, but doing so is effectively the same as sending her home.

Alaira is like a grenade; Devastating if deployed at the right place and the right time, but an extreme liability if you take too long worrying about where you're gonna throw her.