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I must see the Fuseblawb fic before I die. Only then will my life be complete.

I also demand an appearance of OOC Bloodstone as a cameo.

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@21308 I'm going to say right now that therapy was huge in dealing with this, because if I hadn't, well, I saw myself getting worse in grade seven and a little bit of grade 8 pre-therapy despite my situation getting better, and I'm sure I'd have still been progressing down that route steadily if it weren't for therapy. EDMR was not a fun experience, though. Nothing like reliving bad experiences you normally wouldn't remember in vivid detail and having to share out every detail aloud with your mother and therapist listening attentively as you begin to tear up and eventually sob like a little b*tch. Hope I never have to use it again. > . <

They effortlessly and brutally murder Fuseblawb and save the world from otherwise sure destruction, despite the fact that Shadeserenity came from the Kirby universe and Candycanella came from the Pokémon one. And universe hoping is luckily not something I've done, though I have shamelessly blended in elements from the Legend of Zelda and Digimon (for some reason) into the stories with Shadeserenity, so that's something. @__________@

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@21308 Honestly, don't worry about it. My troubles are nothing compared to what my mother went through and I really am doing better. Much, much better.

Oh no, you don't even...Headcanons for these two? Please spare yourself XD

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@Akayaofthemoon At least your character wasn't an ungodly butchering of canon with godly powers and skills and a super angsty background despite being 8 years old. :P

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@21308

oH bOY, where do I even begin with these two...Give me an hour or two to write up an essay as to why these two were the most unholy characters the world has created...But first lemme finish the Eve post.

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@21308 It's okay, don't feel bad, it's gotten way better.

Me being an emotional rambling mess.

Though not going to lie, it f**ked me up a lot more than I like to admit, completely changed as a person after it. Went from being a well loved, naïve, lively, happy go lucky, confident person with all the stubborness and sass a ten year old could contain to this socially awkward, insecure, bitter loser with trust issues worse than Eve, who stopped giving a shit about most everything and wouldn't even sit without a wall behind them due to not wanting some kid to sneak up and pull off some shit and was either resented, rejected, avoided or ignored by the class as a whole. Not having my sister around was huge because for a very long time she was the only person I ever felt truly safe with telling anything about, and was the closest person to me in my life. My dad was and still is pretty much never home due to how long he has to work since he never finished his education, not with his schools being bombed and having moved to Canada already with a family, and my mother is unable to help because medical issues, my little brother and I never got along very well back then, and anger management was still something my mother was trying to get down for her PTSD so I was admittedly very scared of her back then because she's hurt me quite badly before, though I don't resent her for it and forgive her completely. Gotten a lot better since then, obviously, but ye. That coupled with being in a new and unfamiliar place and my mother getting pissed off with my behavior as the situation at school got worse and deciding to cut off contact with any of my old friends made it really hard to cope with at the time. Not to mention the school itself was terrible; the stuff we were learning in grade 6 were things I had learned in grade 2, 3, and 4, so I wasn't motivated to do anything there and my marks plummeted because hell if I cared back then, the teacher rarely interfered with this crap and didn't do shit to help me out, the school was littered with an ungodly amount of dead rats and was overcrowded, and to top it all off it was super hard for me to communicate because it was my first year in French immersion, with a bunch of kids and teachers who have been learning French since Kindergarten. It was not fun.

Therapy helped, even if I did get it two years late. And no need to beat anyone up. The kids involved have either smartened up (three of them even apologized to me and one later became my best and for a few years, my only friend) and those who haven't are getting kicked by karma, slowly but surely. :P

And you talk about bad characters when you have two named Shadeserenity and Candycanella. I shit you not. Granted I made the former when I was about four and was my first fancharacter to date (still have her today as a majorly revamped character now named Alum) and the later (beyond saving) when I was eight or nine, but still. Don't even get my started on those two, they're quite possibly my worst creations, though Rainbea, Clarissa, and Scar (and as I quote from Nullmetal Alchemist, 'That's the name they're going with?') are close seconds. Dear god. @_____________@

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@Akayaofthemoon@21308

Still not as bad as Shadeserenity and Candycanella. Do you even want to hear about them? @______@ *shudders*

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@Guardian Angel Haruki
'Ello~
And thanks! ' v '

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*Pops back in* I have now been vaccinated and can now turn back to the world of the non-waiting. Except for Raijin, who is always awaiting. *In Sardonyx impression* How're y'all doin' tonight?

@21308 Oh god, I remember my old roleplaying days...Horrible, horrible trash that I'm glad has mostly been wiped off the face of the internet, as most of the sites I used to roleplay on no longer exist. (Wetpaint was one of them, before it changed of course. I remember Quizilla but stayed away from it). Started off earlier than most at eleven (lied about my age because I was shameless like that), and my teenage melodramatic phase wasn't exactly teenage, though to be fair I was going through some pretty rough times back then, not with the moving and my sister leaving and mother still recovering and the bullying attempts going as far as to try and choke me in a water fountain not once, but twice, so...Eh. Doesn't make the old stuff any less shameless, but at least there's that. And that I've hopefully improved. I like to think Eve is an improvement to my old monstrousities. One of which was actually named Lilith, which I jokingly refer to Eve as because Bible. :P
Also, velvet worms are adorable. Never heard that they were the first creatures to walk, though. And you've probably seen damselflies before, as you said, without knowing what they were.

@Raijinslayer Mars, please make us all proud. XD

Anyways, ye, I'm back. Hi. And welcome, @Guardian Angel Haruki!

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@21308 You've never heard of damselflies? They're like...Everywhere but Antarctica. XD
They're closely related to dragonflies and a lot of people get them mixed up or aren't even away that there's a difference, just like moths and butterflies. The two best ways to tell them apart is that the wings of damselflies generally fold when they land while dragonflies generally don't, and that, if you can get a close enough glance, the eyes of damselflies are spread wide apart while dragonflies aren't. And as for me, I think of millipedes (which, fun fact, are the oldest land animal fossil that we have, meaning they've been around for pretty much forever) as the gentle children of the creepy-crawly world, but moths are a close second.

And yes, their eyes are truly gorgeous.

On an unrelated note, getting vaccinated for something as it turns out, so I'll be gone for a while.