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@pyroman *Awkwardly pats because there is no need to do such and thing and it's all hypotheticals even if it is somewhat likely hypotheticals and until then I'm going to enjoy little things like RPs and memes and hopefully things will turn out a-okay*

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@21308 Honestly my mother's got some legitimate reasoning impairment and that comes with how severe her PTSD is.

And until I am out on my own with no money and future, then I'll consider. But that's a hypothetical.

And unless Kurdistan suddenly overcomes all its problems within my lifetime when I've seen at least part of my birth city destroyed and reconstructed three times in my short 17 years? I doubt it.

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@21308 "Um! Okay! O v O"

Putting this under a hider because bLEH I'm sorry every time I come on here it seems all I do is dump all my negativity and I apologize so please don't let me bog you down.

Man, my aunt doesn't live with me no more and though it can be really frustrating with my parents it's not like they're being abusive or anything. My school's real supportive, the alt school I'm in now - I'm not even sure mom sending me back to the old one is even gonna work because according to news through some new students here who went to that school, there's a new principal and he's been sending any kids who'd give the school a 'bad image' here, which though I don't know is true or not, would definitely explain the sudden increase of kids from my old school being here. And it won't matter how much money I have if we move to Kurdistan, I'm still a dead son of a bitch. And if I make it 'til 18? My parents can't take me anywhere. I mean granted I doubt I can survive out on my own and my only irl friend who I can count on maybe living with is a year younger than I am. The only other irl friend I have, well, I'm not sure if I can rely on him solely because he's got his own set of problems and there's the fact that I don't know him nearly as well as the other or am as comfortable with. My sister's in so much debt I'd probably not be able to attend school for a while and just work to help her pay it off. My aunt obviously won't want me back, and I highly doubt my other aunt here will, and if I go with my uncle I won't be able to attend school because farming, and my other uncle is jobless and won't be able to be a doctor here for at least another three years, which is a long way from now. So I'm sorta just stuck. But they still can't take me nowhere. Plus I'd feel real shitty asking for money when people have it so much worse and I'm in no immediate danger.

What I'm really upset by more than anything is just that I have to deal with the reality that I might NEVER go back. And that hurts. A lot.

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@21308 "Play...? Um, okay! O v O ...Play what?"

LMAO I'd obviously have left it a secret it's not worth getting shot over. Why'd I tell anyone there?

Nah. It's the fact that my aunt who's more open minded than my parents who I came out to first actually took it really badly, despite being an atheist told me I was a disgrace to god and was going to hell and now refers to me as a 'shemale' and 'other' and said that once I transition I'm no longer welcome to even touch her, decided it'd be a good idea to out me to the rest of my family, some of whom I don't even know, without my knowing or permission, and since word spreads quickly in a lot of these places I don't know who does and doesn't know. The problem isn't telling anyone, the problem is everyone probably already knows. I'm just lucky I'm not gay because if that were the case there'd be like...0 chance of survival. And my parents would've probably kicked me out onto the streets. And since I'm incompetent, mentally ill, and near dependent on meds to simply sleep and function, I'd probably die real fast.

One of the biggest freakin' reasons I regret coming out. O v O b Positive vibes all around.

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@21308 "Yeah Ruby! Leave her...Uh...What's going on? O v O ?"

Well to be fair she wants to go there too. And frankly I'm more concerned about being murdered on the spot by my own people. Less emotional hurt at least. And more likely considering the area we might be going to, albeit near ISIS, isn't actually in their territory.

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@21308 "Off? Nonesense. Absolute hogwash. My equipment is just very tiny. Like me. Why so suspicious, hmmm? You want to decrease our numbers, do you? Scared you'll lose?" Eve gives one of her grins from hell.

And yeah man, it's not problem. I'm just mostly praying my mother doesn't decide Kurdistan's a good idea now. If ISIS being there wasn't big enough of a threat to my life, the knowledge that I'm trans being spread will get me killed. Whether by my own people or ISIS. O v O b

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@pyroman Heya! O v O b
Well, I will say my RP will likely have to wait until July but...It's still gonna happen. That much I can promise.
That goes for everyone. @RaijinSlayer I'm sad to hear you're leaving the RP but it's been a blast and I definitely consider you a friend. I might join your idea for a Pokemon RP once I'm sure as to whether or not I'm going to be given what is really a death sentence if news about my gender did spread past my family, taken back to the old school and graduation a year late for certain because my mother is convinced the alt school isn't good enough, or actually stay where I am and be relatively okay. And you're also welcome to join our SU RP, thought it's understandable if you don't wanna.
Keep in touch, okay? You're a really cool guy and I'll miss having you around.

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Heya everyone. O v O b

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@21308 Also I'd love for Evenkite to just

'Reggie.' *Points to the actual Reggie* 'And that's Imp.'

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I'm sorta here. Not sure for how long or when I'll be back. Can't say things are all great or if I'll be able to join anytime soon. Might just drop out if it comes to it. Sorry guys.