Hey guys, I guess I owe an explanation on why Im not posting as of late. First off sorry for holding anyone up, Im sorry I should have told them to just move on. Another reason I don't like telling about my problems is because I don't like the whole pity thing mostly for things that cannot change.
Well first reason being my work schedule is all over the place but thats adaptable. Second reason was as some of you know my dog died after we got her back and while that hurts me, it hurts me more so feeling Im the cause behind it. I was told that she was wandering down by my grandmas house (which is the next house next to us) Yet because this was the first time I ever had a friend over(My mom babies me and ill explain why this is the first time soon) I played games and shit with my friend and didnt go get her. By the time I drove him home she had ran away and which was when she ate a wild animal an got its worms which killed her organs. So that's one reason for my distress, another being..... my sister has Neurofibromatosis which is a incurable disease. It also it a lethal one depending on what type you have, I have the minor case where nothing changes about my appearance or behavior or organs, its just there. My sister has the lethal case, so we can only give her medicine to slow it down and ease her pain. Deep down I knew what would eventual happen but I always shrugged it off hoping for a miracle I guess. Yet even if a cure popped up now its too late, my sister is dying and doesn't have much longer. So a lot of stressful shit is going on with me pretty much, I feel responsible for my dogs death and have to just accept the fact that my big sis is probably not going to be around next year.
Again though Im sorry if you guys got mad that I wasn't posting, I'll try to post more often its just.... difficult for me.
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