<Snipped quote by Stabby> shinji: Look. The point I'm trying to make is.. I've already done my duty to existence. Ive done my time. They dont need me anymore. Theyve got people like Mierno, you, and the entirety of Tier Five who can handle any threats that come their way. In a way, I am an insignificant speck amongst giants. Once I retire from the EDB, my job is complete. All thats really left for me, as dark as it may seem, is to die. Ive got no family to return to. No one that relies on my existence. My purpose is, whether I like it or not, fufilled.
Then at least try to treat this as one final pit stop before reaching the finish line.
Managed to finally write out proper, clear explanations for two of Flicker's abilities. I'll get the other one done when the insight arrives. All of these abilities are still subsets of her actual power though.
Made of something between a state of energy and matter, these illuminant pseudo-particles have only two naturally defined characteristics. The first is that they mostly act as self supporting structures, preferring to bind with only themselves or other forms of energy. The second is that due to their unique configuration, they have almost no real weight or force unless acted upon by an outside influence.
Any (possible) subsequent characteristics are determined by the will of the manipulator, be it conscious or unconsciously. Color, shape, physical properties, and so on are all things that the user can change by will. If they want an inflexible shield or a sturdy rope, all they have to do is imagine it with proper intent. They are supported and manipulated by one's will after all.
The two inherent characteristics create restrictions though. Unless actively manipulated, anchored to/in something, or forcefully made relatively immobile, constructs and objects are quite prone to being moved or brushed aside by outside forces. And their preference to bind with themselves or other forms of energy leaves them almost incapable of emulating chemical reactions, and by proxy, organic life.
There are other limits to the use of this ability too, be it range, practicality, or mastery.
- When it comes to range, one can only manifest and manipulate these pseudo-particles within a radius of 5 times their own height, centered on themselves. A user can manipulate things outside of this range by keeping a part or end of a construct within their range. These pseudo-particles will also destabilize and dissappear once they leave a secondary radius though, which is 20 times the size of the previous one. This is due to the fact that their existence is supported by the user's will. One can increase these ranges, but it takes grueling effort and training to do so.
- When it comes to practicality, these pseudo-particles are undetectable to the user unless acknowledged. This requires constructs to be within line of sight, or to be consciously accounted for when out of sight. As such, if a construct is thrown at the user from a blind spot and they don't anticipate or notice it, they will likely be hit without a chance to stop it. Training one's senses and spacial awareness can help counter this though.
- When it comes to mastery, one's understanding of the ability can deeply limit their skill in using it. Several parts of how this ability works are handled by the subconscious initially, and the user relies on them like unconsciously flexed muscles. One must notice, test, and train their conscious control over these parts in order to display a finely tuned application of this ability in its entirety.
Burning off of negativity and broken bonds, it is a self perpetuating fire of isolation. Destroying the bonds between particles and atoms, it is a silver flame that can turn all it touches to dust, unable to bond the next ten minutes.
Burning at its lowest however, it can be mistaken for a blacker flame, one that only absorbs light instead of also creating it in equal parts. When burning bright, it is almost impossible to see unless one is in a darker environment, as it still absorbs some of the light it gives off.
It is not a purely destructive flame however, as it burns only that which it sees as an adversary, and provides a weak warmth without harm to those that are considered allies. In this way, it can be considered a sort of defense, like the quills on a porcupine.
The flame does not burn for long from the breaking of physical bonds though, and as such it will quickly burn out once separated from the user. If the one who gains this ability can learn to accept their own negativity to some degree, they will find that their silver flames will no longer damage them.
Look, I'm 250 years old. I. Already almost 2 and a half times older than the average human male. I shouldnt even be alive, at this point.
*shrugs*
Neither should I, but that's not the point. The point is that you need to at least come to terms with some of these things, regardless of if you plan to dissappear to or otherwise at the end of all this.
<Snipped quote by Stabby> Shinji: Truth be told... I dont really care who I am at the end of this. It doesnt matter. I'm just going to finish my term at the EDB, retire, then retreat to a remote island, never ot be heard from again.
Can you live with yourself after that, or will lingering thoughts leave you restless?
<Snipped quote by Stabby> shinji: Every bit.... but I cant go back. That me is long dead.
At least you can acknowledge that. For many, they struggle with that first step, and almost never take the ones that follow. Because the point of this isn't to fix anything, it's to stablize it enough so that you can properly make decisions again. This means coming to terms with who you currently are, and who you want to be from here on out.
<Snipped quote by Stabby> Shinji: Self destructive tendencies tend to be reaaally hard to overcome.
I can sympathize with that. Delt with my own set some time ago, and I still have to keep an eye out so they don't resurface. But through tackling them I've learned how to remain stable, even when my direction in life is up-ended. *Scratches the back of my head and looks into the distance.* Never easy though.
Shinji:.... that appears to be a recurring theme in my life.
*Raising an eyebrow I look at you.* Isn't it about time you started heeding it then? Like, sure it's easier to say then do, but the point still stands.
Yo, I was browsing some old character profiles to see if their creators had switched to anything else, and I ended up finding something that I think is interesting. (Of us all, I think Z will find some use for it.)
It's abbr ->[put it in here]. Hover your mouse over it. Sadly though, text coloring doesn't transfer over.
I wonder what fun could be had with it, since it's not in the formatting cheat sheet.
