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Name: Taylor
Pronouns: They/them
Age: Mid 20s
Relationship: Married (happily, I might add)
Time Zone: Arizona (we hate daylight savings, so it's MST year-round)
Writing History: I've been on a number of different roleplaying websites for over a decade and a half
Hobbies: Writing, fitness, driving/exploring, hiking, camping, traveling, tabletop games, anything NEW (I love trying things I've never done before)
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Format: 1x1s only. Maybe I'll try a group RP again someday, but I've never had one last longer than a few months
Posting Speed: Depending on my schedule, I can usually post at least once per week
Favorite Genres: Modern, Historical, Romance, Action/Adventure, Horror/Dark, Fantasy, Slice of Life, Dystopian, can be convinced to write some Sci-Fi
Hard 'no's: Fandoms. Sorry, but I can't maintain interest in characters/worlds I didn't build with my partner
Template: Public threads or PMs. I prefer to keep all my RPs in one place, so no emails or G-docs or the like
Rating: Comfortable with 18+ content, but it's not a necessity and I prefer not to center a plot around explicit scenes
Level: Advanced. Will consistently provide around 400-700 words per post, but can occasionally leap to 2000+
Character preference: One main character, but large side casts are greatly enjoyed. Because I write long posts, I prefer not to double
Gender preference: Male. You'll be hard pressed to convince me to play a female that isn't a background character. It's just not my forte
Romantic Relationships: MxF or MxM (currently prefer MxM)
Character Images: Faceclaims or detailed descriptions only. I envision the characters like real people in my mind, so I can't take anime seriously
OOC chat: Yes please! I'm a total extrovert who loves to get to know the amazing minds behind my partners' characters

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Thanks! I’m sure it’ll work out, haha

Also, I misjudged the distance and forgot about the time zone change between states, so I’ll be back at 7 xD
That’s good! I’ve just heard way too many horror stories to trust them ^^;
That’s nice! Yeah, if we go back to Hawaii, I want to go ziplining and see some live shows, which would cost an arm and a leg xD

No matter where we go for vacation, our package includes a luxury 2 bedroom condo, so we’re planning to bring people who are willing to pay a portion of the hotel fee as well as cover their own expenses to make it cheaper for everyone. We have no idea who to bring yet though because we don’t have a consistent friend group (everyone moves away when they graduate college, and they leave every winter/summer break to be with their families). Hopefully we can find like 4 people who Are willing to do it though :)

I’m on my way home now, so I’ll be back around 5
Seriously? Dang, I don’t look into AirBnBs because they break a lot of building codes, so I’m a little sketched out by them lol

But yeah, I talked about prices with my parents who paid for our last trip there, and they said you need like $1-2K for food and entertainment if you’re there for a whole week ^^;

Thanks!
Hawaii is so much worse xD
One of our options for our 7 day trip is Hawaii, but we probably can’t do it. I already looked into it yesterday. Airfare is $400+ per person, all hotels are at least $500/night, food and entertainment is pretty much the same as Vegas too. Even with our discounted hotel, it would cost us about $4K to go at the very least. (That’s after saving $4.5K on the lodging)

We’re thinking about going to Orlando for a second Disney world trip or Washington DC instead

Also, we’re taking extra time to explore today, so I won’t be home to reply until later ^^
Crow's in shock over everything

Nice! Fair warning though: Vegas is ridiculously expensive ^^; We were only able to afford it because we saved for a whole year and Hilton practically gave us our hotel for free (rooms here are normally $300-$800/night at the cheapest end). There are ways to make it more affordable, but quality entertainment is hundreds of dollars per person and most restaurants charge $20-30 per plate. Also, you need about $100/person to play in a casino for a fair amount of time, and if you don't make money by the end, then that's also expensive.

I think the best ways to make it cheaper are to stay in a hotel that's not close to the strip and eat at fast food restaurants instead of the ones in/around casinos. Also, even though shows are the most expensive thing you can do here, you should definitely go to one while you're there! They're part of the Vegas experience cx Cirque du Soleil is pricey, but there are other shows that aren't as bad if that one is out of your price range. (I still recommend Cirque though because it was worth every penny IMO)

Also, if you go to a casino, take advantage of the free drinks xD Drinks everywhere in Vegas are dirt cheap because they want people to get drunk so they'll spend more. I saw some places that had 99 cent drinks, others had 3 for $10, and of course, most casinos give them away for free. It's pretty awesome.

Hopefully you and your friends can go! It's so much fun ^^ Highly recommend
As the three thieves headed into the tunnels, a tense silence fell over them. Crow could tell that Alistair and Rikki were both buzzing with questions that they wanted to ask, yet were afraid to speak out loud. He wasn’t sure if he preferred the quiet or if he would rather they just come out and say what was on their minds. After all, he knew they must have blamed him at least in part for everything that had happened. How could they not? It had been his lie that had landed them all in this mess in the first place. Even he couldn’t think of a way to excuse himself from being the cause of Jaxon’s heinous deed.

After a short period of time had passed, Alistair worked up the nerve to ask him one of his questions. “So…” he started slowly. “Is it true? What Hazel said about you and Penelope, I mean… Are you really involved with a knight romantically?”

Crow sighed. He supposed there was no point trying to hide it any longer now that Hazel had admitted it in front of everyone. “It’s true,” he nodded. “We’ve been together for some time now.”

“I see,” Alistair trailed off, seeming lost in his own thoughts.

Another brief silence fell between them before Rikki spoke up. “Were you really visiting with her in Myrefall then?” she glanced over at him curiously.

“Not quite,” Crow shifted uncomfortably. He didn’t want to tell them about what he had been doing with the other knights, but he couldn’t keep lying to them—not after what had happened to Simon. They needed to be aware of everything that was really going on in the outer villages. He let out his breath again after a pause. “I was offering my assistance to her and two other knights to find a group of thieves that raided their camp,” he finally confessed. “On the same night we stole from them, another group of bandits apparently came in later. They looted half of the knights’ supplies and killed all of their night watchmen.”

He shook his head shamefully, “Honestly, I had a gut feeling that Jaxon was behind it, but I never expected that things would turn out like this. I’m so sorry. I should have told you all right away that it was possible.”

Rikki hesitated for a moment before she reached out to wrap him in an embrace. He blinked in surprise at the gesture. He had been fully expecting both of his companions to be furious with him. A hug was the last thing he would have thought she would do to him. “What’s this for?” he asked, thoroughly confused.

“You big idiot,” Rikki murmured, her voice muffled against his chest. “None of this was your fault. Jaxon would have killed someone no matter what. Simon died because he couldn’t find you, but you would have died if he had.” He felt her arms tighten around his middle. “I’m just glad you’re still alive.”

But he did find me, Crow grimaced and averted his gaze. He got what he wanted, and Simon is dead now. It is my fault. However, he couldn’t tell her that. Jaxon had told him that if he told anyone about their meeting, Penelope would be killed next. For her sake, he had to keep his mouth shut. “Thanks,” he said hoarsely. Clearing his throat, he pulled away from her embrace and went on more steadily, “We should keep moving. I still want to see Hazel.”

“Alright,” Rikki said compliantly. “The cavern she’s been sleeping in isn’t much farther ahead.” She waved a hand. “Come on, it’s this way.”

--

Crow wasn’t sure what he had been expecting, but what he saw wrenched his heart with anguish. The cave was bare aside from a small oil lantern in the center and a single mat that had been shoved off to the side. Hazel herself laid curled up near the back on the stone floor with her face to the wall. The space was silent, which he just guessed was because she had run out of tears to shed. Overall, the air was stagnant with sadness.

After a moment, Crow worked up the nerve to step forward. “Hey, love,” he said softly as he sat down by her back. She didn’t respond, and he wavered for a moment before going on. “I heard about what happened… I know this doesn’t make anything better, but I just needed you to know that I’m sorry. I-I wish I had been here, or that I could have done something to change what happened.” He ran his fingers anxiously through his hair. “I just feel like I let you down, and I’m truly sorry.”

There was a brief moment of silence before a weak voice spoke up. “You should be,” Hazel mumbled. He blinked in surprise as she suddenly sat up and turned around to face him with the most hate-filled glare he had ever seen her give. “You should have told me the truth,” she said icily. “You know you can trust me, yet you still lied about it, and Simon was the one who suffered for your selfishness.”

Crow said nothing, taken aback by the harshness of her words. Could he really say she was wrong though? It was all true, every word of it. He should have told them all the truth, and then perhaps Simon would still be alive. “I know,” he finally said in a hushed voice.

“No, you don’t know,” Hazel said sharply. “If you understood, you would stop acting like you’re still working alone and learn to trust your friends. But you don’t. You’re just a snake who doesn’t care what happens to anyone else around him as long as he gets what he wants.”

Crow winced, “That’s not t—”

Hazel held up a hand to stop him. “Don’t bother,” she curled her lip. “You can’t convince me.” Suddenly, she bit her lip and looked away, her chin quivering slightly as she fought to hold back tears. “I should have never come with you from mother’s. I should have known you would just hurt me again.” She shook her head. “I was a fool to think you couldn’t hurt me worse than you did all those years ago… You’re still the same snake you were back then, and you’ve ruined my life yet again.” She laid down and rolled over again. “Just get out of here. You’ve done enough.”

Crow sat in silence for a moment before he rose to his feet and walked out of the cavern without another word. On the other side of the wall, Rikki and Alistair quickly fell into step by his side. “Crow, you know she didn’t mean that right?” Alistair studied him with a frown. “She’s grieving. She’ll come around once her emotions settle down.”

“Yeah,” Rikki nodded. “She’s told me before that she knows you’re a good person. This is just the pain talking. I’m sure she’ll be back to her old self with time.”

Crow shrugged, unable to think of anything to say. He knew that Hazel was right about most of the things she had said. It was his fault that Simon was dead and she had been widowed. But he couldn’t tell anyone that. If he told them the truth, Penelope would be the next to be killed. He couldn’t be the cause of anyone else’s death—he couldn’t handle that burden.

“I’m going to lay down,” he murmured when they got back to the main cavern.

“Are you okay?” Rikki asked concernedly, stepping a little closer to him.

“How can I be, after everything I just learned?” he smiled melancholically and turned to look at her. “I’ll be alright though. I just need some time to process it all.”

“Of course,” Alistair rested a hand on Rikki’s shoulder. “Come on, let’s leave him alone.” She mumbled her agreement and the two headed out to give him some space.

Once they were gone, Crow walked over to his bed mat and laid down on his side, propping one arm beneath his head. Despite all of the terrible news he had gotten, he didn’t feel the urge to shed tears. Instead, he stared vacantly at the wall, numb to the pain that he had thought he would feel, until his weariness eventually caught up with him, and he drifted off into a much-needed nap.
The other thieves didn't have a great time with Jaxon either ^^;

O is their best show, so it was totally worth seeing.
I highly recommend going to one of Cirque's show if you ever find yourself in Vegas!
Crow spent the rest of the night tossing and turning, unable to sleep after Jaxon had left. He wanted to just forget about their conversation or pretend it had never happened, but the bite of the cut in his arm refused to let him do that so easily. He still couldn’t believe it had happened. Somehow, Jaxon had found him a year after he had escaped and managed to put him under his thumb once again. It felt suffocating to have the other thief ruling over him when he had tried so hard to make a clean break from him.

What was worse was that he couldn’t figure out how Jaxon had gotten so much information about him. The man had known exactly where to find him, even though it was the first time he had slept in this house in over a decade, and he had known about Penelope. By the sound of his threat, it seemed like he knew the nature of their relationship as well. He shuddered. Of all the people who could have discovered that he was in love with a knight, Jaxon was the most dangerous. He may have decided not to kill her in order to blackmail him, but there was no telling what else he might do with that knowledge. The little sleep he managed to get was filled with nightmares of different scenarios of what the man could do to them.

When the next morning came, Crow was just as tired as if he hadn’t slept at all. He got up as soon as the earliest sunlight filtered in through the window, since there was no point in trying to get anymore sleep at that point. Shouldering his bag, he winced slightly as his injured arm smarted at the motion. He hadn’t expected to wind up in any fights, so he hadn’t thought to pack any bandages for the trip. Thus, he had been forced to just wash out the gash with water and pray to the gods that it didn’t get worse before he returned to his camp.

Once he was ready to go, he stepped out of the house and closed the door behind him with a sigh. His mother had been right. He should have stayed far away from that place after she had died. It’s too late now, he thought despondently, looking down at his right hand, which was faintly stained with blood that had dripped down from the mark Jaxon had left him with. He had already made the mistake, and now he was going to have to suffer the consequences.

--

The walk back to the camp felt longer than usual, but Crow guessed that was probably due to how eager he was to get to the waterfall. Even though he was mostly concerned about Penelope, Jaxon’s comment about the other thieves lingered in the back of his mind, and he had a bad feeling that something had happened while he was gone. He hoped he was just being paranoid, but he wasn’t going to relax until he was certain that they were alright.

When he finally reached the camp, his heartbeat quickened with a mixture of nervousness and excitement. He skimmed the edge of the waterfall and slipped inside the main cavern… only to be met by a sword pointed at his chest. Immediately, he froze threw his hands in the air. “It’s me; it’s Crow,” he said hurriedly as he looked to his left and saw Alistair’s stern face. He frowned, wondering why his companion was acting so hostilely. Alistair was never this quick to draw a blade. His stomach churned. Something must have happened, after all.

“Oh,” Alistair lowered his sword, although his cold expression didn’t fade. He turned towards one of the tunnels and called out, “Rikki! Crow’s back.” After a moment, the female thief stepped out of the shadows, looking just as grim as her friend.

“What’s going on?” Crow asked tentatively, his eyes flicking between their faces. “Did something happen while I was gone?”

“You could say that,” Alistair shifted uncomfortably, exchanging a look with Rikki.

“First,” Rikki growled, storming towards Crow and shoving him roughly. “I have a bone to pick with you. Why did you lie to us? You said you were in Wheldrake! Why can’t you just trust us for once in your damn life and stop keeping secrets?”

Crow blinked, caught off guard by the accusation. “How did you know I wasn’t in Wheldrake?”

“Jaxon told us,” Alistair lowered his gaze shamefully. “He showed up four days after you left.”

“Jaxon was here?” Crow’s eyes widened in surprise.

“Yes,” Rikki confirmed in a soft voice, all anger fleeing from her words as a pained expression took over her face. “That was the ‘something’ you were asking about.” She hugged her arms across her middle as she explained, “He came here wanting to know where you were. He wouldn’t tell us why he was looking for you, but he threatened to kill us if we didn’t tell him where to find you.”

“And you told him I was in Wheldrake,” Crow murmured, making the connection before she could say so, herself.

Rikki nodded solemnly. “We didn’t have any other choice. He went to look for you in Wheldrake, but when he didn’t find you there…” she choked up, biting her lip as she averted her gaze.

“Crow, he killed Simon,” Alistair finished, wrapping an arm comfortingly around Rikki’s shoulders.

Crow stared at him in shock. “He killed…” he breathed, unable to bring himself to say the sentence out loud. Simon was dead? He couldn’t believe it was true. It couldn’t be true. This had to be some sort of twisted joke. For gods’ sakes, the man had just gotten married! He had so much to look forward to, and it had all been cut short by a power-hungry murderer. What about Hazel? He brought a hand to his mouth, suddenly feeling sick. Widowed less than a month after her marriage, she couldn’t be taking this well.

Alistair nodded silently, giving him some time to process before he went on, “When Jaxon showed up the second time, he was angry. He told us that he didn’t tolerate being lied to. At first, he just had a few of his men hold Simon hostage. He said he would kill him if we didn’t tell him where you really were.” He shook his head. “Hazel told him to look in Myrefall at an old house. She said that was where you went to meet with Penelope…” He trailed off, swallowing awkwardly. “She… she told him that you were seeing that knight romantically and could have lied about Wheldrake to keep your meetup with her a secret from me and Simon.”

So that’s how Jaxon found out so much, Crow thought. It all made sense to him now. Jaxon had been threatening to kill her husband, so she had spilled everything to save him. “If she gave him an answer, then why did he kill Simon?” he asked with a frown.

“Because he’s a heartless bastard!” Rikki snapped suddenly, curling her hands into fists at her sides. “That snake said he would only kill Simon if we didn’t tell him where to find you, but once he got everything he wanted, he ordered his men to slit his throat anyway! Right in front of Hazel, too!” She lifted a hand to wipe the tears from her cheeks. “It was awful. He said it was a warning so we wouldn’t lie to him again, but I know he just did it to hear her scream.”

“I-I don’t know what to say,” Crow said numbly, meeting her gaze. “Where is Hazel now?”

“She hasn’t left the deeper tunnels since it happened,” Alistair sighed. “She’s hurting bad.”

Crow nodded faintly. He still couldn’t believe how much damage Jaxon had managed to do in just a few days. Simon was dead, his remaining companions were distraught, and he had been practically enslaved to follow the thief leader’s every command. It was the worst situation that could have happened.

“Take me to her,” Crow said quietly, looking up to hold Alistair’s gaze once more. “I want to speak with Hazel.”
That was great timing. I just got back to my hotel room a little bit ago ^^
We were gonna walk around after our show, but it's still raining, unfortunately xc

IT WAS AMAZING
I've wanted to see Cirque since middle school, and they totally exceeded my expectations.
Also, we got second row seats, so we were in the splash zone xD (We saw "O" which is performed over water)

I'll get started on my reply in a couple minutes!
I wrote my post out in advance because I got excited xD
Jaxon is the worst sort of person

Okay! I should be around except for close to 7-9 or 10, because that's when our show is ^^
We're going to see Cirque du Soleil, and I'm super stoked~
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