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Name: Taylor
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Age: Mid 20s
Relationship: Married (happily, I might add)
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Format: 1x1s only. Maybe I'll try a group RP again someday, but I've never had one last longer than a few months
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The inside of the castle was just as luxurious as Crow remembered. He tilted his head back as his eyes wandered over the gilded walls and ceiling. Almost every visible surface was plated in gold-leaf, reflecting the light in a way that dazzled the eye of the beholder. It was breathtaking, but it also wrenched the thief’s heart as he thought about all the peasants of the outer villages who could use just a fraction of the visible wealth in the castle to better their lives. The stark difference between the riches in the palace and the poverty in the rest of the kingdom made him feel sick and reminded him of why he stole from nobles in the first place.

At the sound of a voice, Crow turned to see two unfamiliar men walking towards them. One was dressed in the armor of the castle guards, while the other wore the uniform of a royal attendant. He shifted his weight uncomfortably. He’d been hoping to just make a quick visit with as few other people involved as possible. The thought of having more nobles and servants around didn’t sit well with him, but fortunately, Penelope and John were quick to brush off the other knight, leaving them with just the attendant to guide them to the king.

He casted Penelope a subtle look of gratitude before he followed after John and the servant as they led them up the main stairs to the second level of the castle. Remembering the layout of the palace, he guessed his father was planning to meet with him in the council room, where the previous king had sent him on his mission in Younis. It was strange to think that he was about to talk to the man who had abandoned his family in one of the most prestigious rooms of the king’s court—and that his father was the king. Though he had already known Albin had risen up in rank, it was only just beginning to hit him now that he really was the son of the most powerful man in Brerra. He didn’t know what to make of that.

When they reached the familiar set of doors, Crow’s heartbeat quickened anxiously in his chest. He was really going to meet his father; it was really happening. The group came to a stop near the entrance, and Crow lingered towards the back, still fighting the urge to run as he began to feel more trapped. Doubts bubbled up in his mind as he wondered again if he was making a mistake. Was it really so much worse to go back to the outer villages without finding out what Albin wanted from him? Sure, he would be left with an unsated curiosity, but at least he wouldn’t have to face the man he despised.

Coward, you’re already here, he silently chided himself, gritting his teeth as he forced himself to stay put. Just get it over with.

“The king received word of your arrival and is waiting inside,” the attendant spoke up, turning around to face the group. His gaze was focused on the wall past Crow’s shoulder, as if he was afraid to meet the thief’s eyes, and he held out a hand towards the door. “Please, come in.”

Crow felt his heart skip a beat. His father was already waiting for him on the other side of that door. He glanced furtively towards Penelope, wishing again that he could take her hand, but at least she would be able to stand next to him while he faced his father. He exhaled slowly and took a step forward with the others. However, they didn’t get far before the attendant cleared his throat awkwardly. “Err, I believe His Majesty wishes to meet with the thief alone,” he said with a hapless look at Penelope and John.

Crow’s eyes widened for a fleeting moment before he regained his composure. “Oh yeah?” he frowned, crossing his arms defiantly. “Well, I didn’t agree to that. I’m not setting one foot in that room unless these two are coming with me.”

The servant stared at him in surprise, seeming unprepared for the thief to fight with him over the decision. “Um, well, I-I suppose I could ask if—”

“No need.”

Crow tensed as a new voice spoke up and turned to see a figure emerge from the council room. It felt like time slowed down as his eyes landed on the king—his father. For the first time, he could see why his mother had always compared him to the man. Even in his advanced age, Albin was a good looking man. He was tall, with a broad-shouldered frame lined with toned muscles that the thief could see outlined beneath his silk shirt. His face was rugged, and his jaw was chiseled and lined with a well-kept, dark brown beard. His pale green eyes were calculating and difficult to read as well, as if he was studying the other people in the corridor and thinking two steps ahead of every one of them. Overall, it felt to the thief like the king was an older version of himself. He didn’t like it.

“Crow Lockton,” Albin’s pastel eyes met his and a friendly smile softened his features. “It’s a pleasure to meet you at last.”

Crow hesitated for a moment, unsure what to do. His heart raced in his chest. He felt quite certain that the king’s friendliness was just an angle, and he was tempted to confront him hostilely to force him to drop the act. However, he was in Albin’s territory now. One wrong move, and he would land himself back in prison. So, even though he craved to shout or spit at the man, he glanced subtly at Penelope for reassurance and took a calming breath. “Your Highness,” he nodded his head in a curt greeting. It felt wrong to address his estranged father in such a respectful manner, but he had to find out what Albin wanted from him before he could even think about speaking what was really on his mind. “What do you want from me?”

“We can discuss that inside,” Albin answered vaguely. His eyes flicked toward Penelope for a moment before returning to the thief’s face. “Come in. I have much I wish to speak with you about.” He turned to John, seeming to think something over before he added: “You too, Vermillion.”

The older knight bowed and followed the order, stepping forward to enter the council chambers. However, Crow wasn’t as quick to comply. He wavered for a moment, reluctant to go anywhere with his father without Penelope. “Just him?” he asked, trying to find a way to include her without giving away their relationship. “I’m surprised you’re trusting enough to have an audience with a thief with only one guard present.”

“One guard is all I need,” Albin said simply. “Besides, the matters I wish to discuss are of a… sensitive nature. The fewer people get involved, the better. Now, please, Crow. Come inside.”

Crow bit the tip of his tongue. As hard as he tried to come up another way to get Penelope to come with him, he couldn’t think of anything that wouldn’t raise suspicion. He sighed. It looked like he was going to have to go in alone, after all. I won’t be completely alone though, he thought. She’ll be right outside. Casting Penelope one last furtive glance, he took a steeling breath and stepped into the room.
I have a feeling John is going to be more of a father figure to Crow than Albin will ever be xD
Crow is borderline panicking ^^;
Crow nodded thoughtfully when Penelope said that meeting an estranged father would be difficult for anyone. He supposed he hadn’t thought much about that before, since it wasn’t a common occurrence in the outer villages for a family to be separated like his was. Sure, plenty of children were born out of wedlock, but the parents always ended up getting married anyway. Usually single mothers or fathers were the result of one spouse dying young. It wasn’t often seen that a parent would voluntarily leave the other to fend for themselves, and because of that, he’d never met anyone else in the same situation as himself before.

As Penelope went on to say that his father could have been afraid to meet him too, Crow cracked a small smile. The thought that the king of Brerra could be nervous to face him was amusing. He was nothing more than a lowly thief from the poor outer villages of the kingdom. He may have had a reputation as the most successful thief in Brerra, but Albin was the ruler of it all. He couldn’t imagine that his father had anything to be nervous about, but he appreciated the knight’s efforts to make him feel better.

He looked up as John rose to his feet and announced that they needed to keep moving. Just as he was about to follow his lead, the older knight added something that made him pause: “You’re starting to even make me anxious.”

Crow stared at him in surprise. Though the words weren’t particularly comforting or even reassuring in any way, he hadn’t expected John to give his input at all. The knight had grown obviously more tolerant of him since the previous night, but this was the first time he had said something to indicate that he cared at all about how the meeting with Albin was going to go. The thief wasn’t sure what to think about that. He was partly unnerved, since he wasn’t used to nobles caring about him in the first place, but he also found that he felt strangely happy to be an object of concern to Penelope’s father.

“And the sooner it’s over with, the sooner I can go home,” he added as he climbed to his feet. Once everyone was ready to keep moving, they headed back to the main road to finish the last leg of their journey to the castle.

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The rest of the walk went by in much the same way that the morning had. Word seemed to spread like wildfire about Crow’s appearance in the citadel as the nobles caught sight of him. They didn’t keep their opinions to themselves about it either. He heard multiple people make comments about how he’d finally been ‘captured’ and gossip about how he was going to be hanged for his crimes this time. He wanted to roll his eyes at their arrogant words. If only they knew that he had been personally invited by their precious king, maybe then they would keep their pompous mouths shut.

By the time they reached the castle in the evening, he felt convinced that every noble in the inner kingdom had heard of his arrival. That meant his father probably had as well. He swallowed nervously as he stared up at the massive, stone building, tempted to reach for Penelope’s hand, but restraining himself for the sake of keeping their secret from the small crowd of nosy nobles that had gathered to see what was going on. For now, he was just going to have to content himself with the knowledge that she was still by his side.

Crow took a steeling breath as they climbed up the steps that led to the main entrance, simultaneously glad to be escaping the crowd and terrified of what laid beyond those enormous doors. I’ve already made it this far, he thought, trying to calm his pounding heart. All that’s left is to have this conversation and be done. I can handle that. Still, it took every last ounce of his willpower not to turn around and run as John pulled open the castle door.

“You know, this is only the second time I’ve been to the palace in daylight,” he mused, attempting to make small talk with Penelope as he tried to distract himself from his fraying nerves. “The first was the day I was released from prison two years ago to go on that mission with you in Younis. I never thought I’d ever come back here again while the sun is up… Funny how plans change.” He took a shaky breath as John held the door open for him and Penelope to step through. This was it. Once he passed through into the castle, there was no turning back.

Time to get this over with. Clenching his hands into fists at his sides, he forced himself to step inside the building.
Crow didn't realize how nerve wracking it would be to face his father ^^;
When the group left the inn, Crow was quick to notice that this final leg of the journey was going to be quite different than the last two. For one, the streets they walked through were much more crowded with wealthy nobles and their servants. Random passerbys gawked and whispered amongst themselves when they caught sight of the infamous thief walking openly through their cities. The attention made him uncomfortable, since he had been hoping to keep a low profile when he was in the land of his enemies. It was already going to be stressful enough talking to his father for the first time. He didn’t need the added weight of watching his back in case an angry knight or noble chose to come after him. Still, he forced himself to bury his discomfort and carried himself with his head held high, though he remained tense and eyed the side streets in a wary manner, since it would have been foolish of him to drop his guard completely.

Throughout all this, Crow was glad for Penelope’s calming presence at his side. The further they traveled into the center of the kingdom, the more convinced he felt that he wouldn’t have been able to keep his nerves together long enough to face the king if he had been on his own. Her warmth and idle chatter helped to distract him from his nervousness about the meeting and the discomfort of the nobles’ prying eyes. He was glad that she had been able to get away from her camp to come with him on the trip, otherwise he probably would have bolted by now and escaped back to the outer villages.

When the group eventually left the main road to stop in the surrounding forest for lunch, Crow relaxed a little. It was nice to get away from the commotion of the cities for a bit, and though he was still anxious about confronting his father, he was relieved that they could hide from the curious nobles for a while. So, when they settled down in the small clearing, Crow opted to lay in the grass, trying to unwind while he had the chance. His stomach was too twisted up for him to handle eating anything at the moment, so this was the next best thing. Plus, from this angle, he couldn’t see the castle that had been at the forefront of his vision during their walk today, which was a welcomed change for the nervous thief.

After a bit, he heard someone approaching and turned his head to see that Penelope had come to sit beside him. He sat up as well, shifting a little closer to her and taking her hand when she reached for his. It was nice to be able to touch her again, since they’d been forced to keep their distance in the cities while so many other eyes had been on them. Now, with John being the only other person around, they didn’t have to worry about hiding their relationship as much.

At her question, Crow shrugged. “Well, I haven’t run yet, so that’s a good sign,” he answered with a half-smile. His eyes wandered back to the looming castle, and he took a slow breath. “I’m just glad you’re here with me,” he went on in a low voice. “I had no idea it was going to be this hard just to work up the nerve to speak to him.” Shaking his head, he toyed anxiously with the grass with his free hand. “I honestly don’t understand why I’m so worried. He’s the one who left me and my mother, so why am I the one who’s afraid to face him? If anything, it should be the other way around.” He leaned a little more into Penelope’s side, taking comfort in her presence. “It shouldn’t be this hard, right?”
He's pretty flighty right now, but trying to keep it together xD

Also, feel free to carry the story as far as you want, up until they reach the castle. Unless you want to fit in John telling Penelope about her mother along the walk ^^
Crow bit his lip uncomfortably as Penelope reminded him that he couldn’t put off the meeting forever. He knew she was right, but that didn’t change the fact that he was nervous to go through with facing his father at all. Part of him wondered if he was making a mistake by accepting Albin’s invitation. After all, he’d gone twenty-three years without talking to the man, so surely he could last longer, right? He should never have agreed to come to the inner kingdom.

As she went on to say that he should get the meeting over with, he said nothing. His brain told him that he should listen to her, but his heart was still wrought with anxiety. Yes, he had accepted the king’s offer because he knew it was just going to eat at him if he didn’t, but wouldn’t that be better than the alternative: standing before the man he despised most in the kingdom? Now that he was so close to the castle, running was starting to sound like the best option. There was still time for him to get away if he left now. He could just go back to the outer villages and pretend like the trip to the inner kingdom had never happened…

“If it’s any consolation, I think your father’s just looking for your silence.”

Crow blinked and looked up at John, surprised to hear the stoic man offer him any words of comfort. Of course, it didn’t do much, since his worries stemmed from the thought of facing Albin in the first place, but he appreciated the gesture. His eyes wandered back to Penelope, and he reached to take her hand in his. For a moment, he focused on her touch—the feeling of her fingers intertwined with his and her hand running soothingly over his back—and took a calming breath. As much as he wanted to run, he couldn’t back out now. They’d already come all this way, and she had even found a way to come with him. With her stabilizing presence by his side, he could speak with his father.

“Thanks,” he murmured, looking up at the knights with a halfhearted smile. As his gaze fell on Penelope again, he leaned over to press a quick kiss to her lips. “I think I’m ready… Or at least, ready as I can be.”

Before he could lose his nerve again, the thief climbed down from his bed and gathered his belongings in preparation to leave. Once he was ready, he joined the others at the door and took another deep breath, “Let’s get this over with.”
Crow is stalling xD
The next morning, Crow woke early, unable to sleep any longer as his stress about meeting his father continued to build up inside of him. However, even though he couldn’t fall back asleep, he also didn’t feel like getting up, so instead, he laid still, staring absently at the wall beside his bed. His mind was full of thoughts and worries about what was going to happen when he finally came face to face with the man who had abandoned his family. He didn’t know what to say to Albin nor what he should expect Albin to say to him. After all, this was his first time meeting the king. Everything was uncertain.

He wasn’t sure how much time passed, but eventually he heard one of the knights get up, followed a little later by the other. Still, he wasn’t in the mood to get up and greet either of them while his stomach was churning with apprehension, so he just closed his eyes in the hopes that they would assume he was asleep and let him lay in bed a little longer. Of course, that hope didn’t last very long. In the next moment, he could hear the sound of quiet talking followed shortly by creaking floorboards as someone approached him.

To his relief, it was Penelope, and not John, who had come to get him up this time. The thief opened his eyes and looked up at her for a moment before glancing at John, who seemed to be avoiding looking in their direction as he packed up his things. Suddenly longing to take comfort in her touch, he reached up to wrap his arms around her and pulled her down against himself in a tight embrace, burying his head against her neck. “Sorry,” he murmured, realizing that his abrupt actions might have taken her off guard. However, he didn’t move right away, lingering close to her instead as he tried to calm his worries.

After a short time had passed, Crow finally let go of her again and moved to sit up on the bed. He lowered his gaze to the blanket on his lap, fidgeting slightly with the fabric. “Do we have to go now?” he asked hesitantly. “Maybe we should get breakfast first… and also stop for lunch. I mean we don’t even need to reach the castle today, do we?”
Crow's starting to get nervous about meeting his father ^^;
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