Farren
gritted his teeth hard, the corner of his eye twitching, but he made no audible complaint. Instead, he just gave the cloaked figure a tight smell and bent nearly to one knee, hovering in a crouch as he murmured to the Messengers. A moment passed and then the pale eyeless helpers rose bearing the arm of the Darkbeast they had slain. Farren thanked them in his quiet way and took the limb in hand, hefting it with some strain to offer to the robed figure. It took an effort of will not to clutch the faintly crackling limb in all its rotten, withered glory, with clawed fingers, and instead to try at a measure of graciousness.
“Had I known, I’d not have rent it from its place,” Farren offered by way of paltry apology. He managed to keep most of the tension from his voice, but a faint note of strain remained nonetheless.
He wished to say more, but thought better of it, his jaw clicking shut with the sound of teeth striking eachother. When the limb was received, Farren notably
did not fall to a kneel. Furthermore, when he’d bent to beckon the Messengers, he had not knelt as he usually would, but quite deliberately kept his knees from touching the floor at all.
It was a small thing, most likely, but it was perhaps Farren’s sole small act of rebellion. Swiftly he was finding that he did not much like the idea of being considered
beneath others. He wondered why. Perhaps all men felt that way? Yet…Ophelia did not seem to mind kneeling before the Queen. His frown had formed anew, and his eyes were slightly distance, the thoughtfulness of earlier returning–though his ears and nose remained pricked, ready to pick up any sign of threat.
Was it an echo of his former self, he wondered, had that man felt lowly? Certainly Farren thought it had seemed that way. Those memories were of a man who had been forced to bow, to grovel, to scrape up whatever meager resources he could, to claw out a place for himself in society where before none had truly been. A flash of emotion hit him then and Farren nearly staggered, but instead just bent in on himself for a moment, as if someone had punched him in the gut. He grunted softly, barely audible, then straightened again with a grimace.
It had been something deep seated and ugly: Hate….perhaps Resentment. Something pervasive, yet…it would have been more subtle back then, sublimated into other emotions, buried by something else? Drink perhaps. Farren shook his head and focused his gaze once more, casting it about before looking once more to the Queen.
He did not much like that they might sack, raze, and loot Yahar’gul before they’d even had the chance. Liked less that they might destroy valuable knowledge, kill valuable persons that could offer them more alive than they might by rotting somewhere in that horrible place. At the same time…there was a faint relief. He had not truly wished to return there, if he was being honest.
Farren wasn’t a coward, but still, there was an eerie, horrid, unseemliness about that place and even thinking about it now made his skin itch. Perhaps it was better this way….