FuriePhoenix

Supernatural-My Battle (FuriePhoenix+AnnaBeth)

If they were ever to progress or become fully aware and knowledgeable of what they were to each other, she knew just as well as he did that they had to make an effort to try and not be in this cycle with each other, but something always seemed to force them back into it, no matter how hard they tried to reset things.

She looked down at her hand as she saw him take it into his own hand and lift it up to his lips, kissing which made her smile softly. It was such a simple action, a small one really, but one that always brought so much calm and solitude to her. She let out a simple 'mmhm' sound from her lips as he muttered about them always ending up in this situation unable to deny it. The feel of his lips on her head and hair making her ever so slightly nuzzle into him just that bit more, the aching in her leg just fading into the background of her mind.

She wanted to believe this was the last time they'd end up in this cycle, that from now on they would just be good and solid with each other and not mess things up, but the other part of her mind told her it was more than possible they'd end up here all over again.

When he said the three words to her without her saying them first, she initially froze in the spot she was in, never thinking in a million years she would have ever heard him say those words first. As he shrugged slightly, she looked up at him her deep dark brown black eyes meeting his green eyes. Mika found herself actually smiling warmly but softly at him properly since they had their forced chat downstairs.

"I love you too, I think I always have" she replied to him, making sure she didn't once look away from him so he could see she was well and truly telling him the truth. She knew how well he could read her face and she hoped he could tell she was telling the truth right now.

Supernatural-My Battle (FuriePhoenix+AnnaBeth)

At his words about wanting her to figure out what she wanted, she nodded softly with their heads still together. She was determined to figure that out and she knew deep down they did need to be realistic even though everything they did could be perceived as anything but realistic.

She didn't know how else he could have responded to her declaration of not wanting to push him away anymore, so to hear him tell her not to she went to nod but felt his lips upon hers once more which just made her close her eyes tightly and kiss him back, her internal fight to not let her desperation to keep him around within the kisses beginning to waver ever so slightly. She needed him as much as he needed her, she knew their relationship wasn't anywhere near healthy but it was theirs. She felt his possessiveness as he pulled her closer, she instantly wrapping her arms round his neck as he did so.

As he pulled away and looked around the room, she knew he was scanning for Bobby's whereabouts before looking back at her, to which she looked him back in his eyes. Her eyes showing the guilt, sorrow and want to change all despite her own eyes being puffy from the night long worth of tears she had cried and during this long chat.

They had argued and even fought before, but this felt like the worst scenario they had been in together in her mind, even being worse than when he strangled her. She wasn't expecting him to practically scoop her up in their need for each other and take her upstairs, whilst still giving her the kisses he knew she liked. It truly felt like no matter what they did or said, they were trapped in this cycle, and one neither of them seemed to entirely out of.

She let him take her into a neutral space and continue with what they did best....

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She laid beside him, hugging him, her head on his shoulder, a sense of comfort and belonging coming back to her and soothing her. It made her hope she could just happy being happy likr this and screw it up again.

Supernatural - Hell On The Horizon

MIKA

When Dean slapped her ass as she stood up she smirked and chuckled whilst turning her head to face him and giving him the amused look of 'seriously?' showing that despite her look she really didn't care that he slapped her ass. In her eyes he was welcome to whenever he pleased as it wasn't like that was all he ever did with her. "you are something else Dean" she told him, seeing him insisting on getting in front of her to go down the stairs again before he paused and stopped her.

She wondered why he stopped her from heading downstairs but when he said what he did, she understood it completely. Sam and Annabeth needed some time alone to get their goodbyes out of the way now so it wouldn't be all the more difficult in 24 hours time. She nodded and sat down next to him on the step, keeping the blankets on her lap as she did so.

"I can't help but feel like we know her from somewhere but I can't for the life of me figure out where" she spoke quietly to Dean, gesturing her head toward where Annabeth was, to show who she was talking about. She then rested her head on his shoulder, not even paying attention to the fact Cason and Esme were in eyehsot of her and Dean.

"and if it is our last night on Earth then Sammy deserves this goodbye and she deserves a moment of security that Sam always seems to give people" she added. She wanted to say 'if we're dying tomorrow then at least I can see you one last time before I finally kick the bucket and not die alone' but she refrained from doing so, deciding to think it instead.

NATALIA

Hearing that Bobby was tired wasn't much of a surprise to her. She knew how hard Bobby worked to try and keep them all safe and happy, something he didn't have to do but always did because he genuinely cared for them all. She knew she was a favourite of his and she did love to play on that whenever she could, always bring the one to jump up and help whenever she could.

He was probably one of the few people who saw her kinder side and she could totally understand why Mika treasured him as her last remaining blood relative. "it's not surprising, you've had a lot to shoulder, especially these last few months. I can only imagine how frustrating it must have been not having Mika do even the simplest of things like eat and I'll do all I can to help keep us all safe too, and you. You know I'll gladly help around the place if you ever need it" she commented back to him sympathetically. She just always felt bad she wasn't around in her eyes, nearly often enough.

When Benjamin came in after being let in and she had said her own apologies for forgetting he was in her car, she turned back to Bobby and looked at what he found, picking the book up and looking at it closer whilst also reading what it said beside it. "Holy crap Bobby! This could be our key to surviving this shitty situation" she remarked.

SAM

He let her remain close to him as he let her take in everything he was telling her before she replied with her somber take from everything that happened to the both of them. "don't think like that Anna, even if I feel like I understand where you're coming from" he replied to her when he felt her lips upon his, making him close his eyes.

He heard the stairs to the basement creak slightly when Dean and Mika sat down on them and knew they were hovering so not to interrupt them both. Something he appreciated greatly from them both. He kissed Annabeth back gladly, wrapping his arms round fully around her to try and give her a sense of security, even if it was only to be temporary.

He eventually pulled away from the kiss after letting it linger for a few moments. He gave her a soft smile and stroked her cheek with his thumb. "we'll figure this out, I know I've said this several times now but we will" he told her. "I'm so glad I remember you finally" he smiled at her.

Supernatural-My Battle (FuriePhoenix+AnnaBeth)

Mika closed her eyes when he brushed his nose against hers, she could tell he was trying to figure things out as he went just as much as she was. He wasn't the only one feeling pathetic, she was also because she felt so weak letting her insecurities rule her head. She almost started to miss Kenzi and how she kept her tougher, but now she was slowly opening up true self to Dean all over again which made her vulnerable and frightened. She didn't know hoe to be her.

She didn't even notice Bobby coming back into the kitchen toward them with Dean being so incredibly close to her. She didn't think for a second that they'd have got to this place so she was trying desperately to still comprehend everything as it happened. As he let go of her hair and then brushed it behind her ear, out of her face she slowly opened her eyes to see him as a blurry image due to how close he was.

She let the feel of his lips brush against hers, convinced that at any moment he would just leave her and dry. Instead he surprised her by barely saying a thing in response and actually kissing her. When he pulled away and helped her sit up better, she welcomed the aid before looking back at him and kissing him back deeply, refraining with all her might to not just swing her arms right round him.

She welcomed how he let it linger as she savoured his very touch and the feel of his lips on hers before he pulled away and apologised to her. She gently shook her head, "I'm sorry my insecurities put a dent in me trust of you.... I do trust you, please know that. I need you to know that" she whispered back to him, pausing as she collected herself, or at least attempted to. "I know I need to learn how to react to situations and I'll get there. I promise you, I will do anything you want me to or Bobby wants me to to sort myself out. I don't wanna push you away anymore" she spoke quietly but brutally honestly.

I am the fire - Constantine RP

When everything seemed to just kick off at a rapid pace, Kay didn't know what to focus on when suddenly Serena passed out and Trish said her heart stopped. She ran over and checked her pulse herself before starting CPR on Serena, remembering from when she learned in an one off class in her university days and it's was mandatory to know. "Josh... I need you to take over for me" she explained, "just watch what I'm doing and copy" she told him, seeing him freak out slightly and knew he needed to do something to calm him down.

Josh shakily nodded and then took over. "after every set of presses, check her pulse." she instructed before looking at John, "what's the plan?" she asked him.

Supernatural-My Battle (FuriePhoenix+AnnaBeth)

With her head buried in the cushion, Mika only felt the shift in weight as Dean stood from the couch and in that moment she got overwhelmed with panic that he was indeed leaving. That she had well and truly and royally screwed everything up, all because she couldn't let her trust toward him keep her in that damn hotel bed and not let her fists do the talking. She was too scared to lift her head even though she didn't hear his footsteps move out of the room.

Yet she also had the thought of him being a coward if he left right now. She of course, regretted that thought the moment she thought it but she couldn't stop the thought from entering her head. Sensing him not moving sent even more anxiety through her whole body, she was too terrified to look up incase she didn't like what she could possibly witness. Could they really come back from this? Could they really fix what they were so rapidly breaking after for so long trying to reunite? She didn't know the answers to these questions but she had to hope that they could.

She almost flinched slightly when she suddenly felt him kneel down in front of her and grab her hair. She didn't know at first if this was an action of hostility or comfort and felt her shoulders tense up which only relaxed slightly again when he told her he couldn't leave.

She listened to him talk and say how he couldn't do this with her until she figured things out. An understandable decision but one that was still so incredibly heartbreaking. She felt him nuzzle his head into her hands and sob which made her look up ever so slightly and press her head against his. "I want you Dean... Its always been you... But.. I... I understand if you feel d..differently. I... I understand if my ptsd is too much for y..you to be around" she cried.

"I.. I need time but I want you." she mumbled once more.

I am the fire - Constantine RP

Kay couldn't help but wonder how the hell to help and who Serena was sensing, but whoever and whatever this was, it was clearly doing a serious number on the poor woman. She looked between John and Serena wondering hoe to help, confused at how it could be a Greek God or Goddess.

When Trish started to get effected she knew it was even more serious. Josh instantly went to his sisters side, pulling her into his arms protectively, rocking her gently back and forth. "there must be something you guys can do!" he said to them fully of worry.

"we'll figure this out I promise" Kay tried reassuring him as Chas looked at John, "then we gotta go, it's effecting Trish and Serena and that makes it personal" he told John.

I am the fire - Constantine RP

If I'm slow replying I'm working tomorrow and pretty much today too. But I'll reply when I can xx

Supernatural-My Battle (FuriePhoenix+AnnaBeth)

As Mika spoke her last words she felt she could speak anymore in that moment. She had to look away as she saw Dean hold his head in his hands to try and hide the sobs that were breaking through his defiant nature. She curled her fingers up into a light fist that couldn't even be considered a fist as she placed her hand up to her face in front of her mouth and nose. She just wanted to believe they could get passed this, but she too knew that they needed space, even if they were being forced to remain in the same house at the same time.

She glanced her eyes toward Bobby who was now with Dean, keeping her head not facing them still. It was true, Dean wasn't running but so much of her just felt like he wanted to and if he could get an inkling of an opening he'd be gone. She looked away again and down at the ground once more. She hesrd what Dean said and looked up as he got up and tried to run away from the situation, only for Bobby to stop him.

She looked at the two of them as Bobby did his damnest to stop Dean from running by encouraging him to help with fixing a car out back instead. But for now he insisted he sat on the couch next to her and she didn't know how to take that. She shifted as best she could when Dean conceded and came to the couch, practically pushing herself right into the arm rest just to be away from Dean because she knew if she didn't shed just scooch right on over to him and try and give him an olive branch.

When he spoke up first and said what he did, she tensed up, shutting her eyes tightly to try but fail at keeping the tears from falling once more. She barely acknowledged the second half of what he said because she was convinced she really screw everything up by trying to get him free of an utter psycho. Even if it was partly mostly driven by jealousy.

She didn't know if she should try and reach out to him or stay firmly where she was, she could barely compute a full sentence together in her head to reply. "I'm sorry Dean... I... I just can't lose you..." she cried, burying her head in the cushion not knowing what else to say other than that over and over again. "Im sorry for saying I should have died... I just feel so lost..." she said, her voice muffled by the cushion that was rapidly getting wet once again.

I am the fire - Constantine RP

Kay looked at Chas and Chas looked at Kay, neither knew particularly why they're minds were telling them to glance at each other but it seemed they both were thinking along the same lines. At John's question she looked at him, "her hair has half changed to silvery grey." she explained, using her hand to gesture visibly what she mesnt by waving her hand down one side of her hair. "she's right, it's like a split half and half with her hair." Chas agreed.

Kay was about to explain how it happened when Trish's voice screaming through to the study, making her lean over the balcony and then making a sharp beeline down the stairs, skipping every other step in the process and running to Serena. She didn't even wait for Chas and John to catch up. "Serena I'm here, what's going on? What are you seeing?" she asked, guessing it's a vision.