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30something who loves to rp to pass the time and meet new people! When the world is right, I'm a character entertainer for a party business and do fan films. Utter geek who loves gaming and reading and rather addicted to the art therapy colouring books haha!

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SAM

Sam couldn't help but feel quite amused by the way it seemed even Lexi was siding with him and Anya, if the wink to Anya had anything to go by. Seeing the way Anya smiled and giggled at Lexi told him that the two girls would get along fine and if anyone could convince Dean Anya was a good person, it would be Lexi. She always did have a good sense about people from the odd job he worked with her after pulling her out of her house.

Once sat at the table, he gave his brother a side glance as he witnessed Dean move his chair to sit next to Lexi. The action he hadn't seen in a long time and it honestly amused him to the point he couldn't hide the smirk from quickly appearing on his lips then forcing it go away. The smirk only reappeared though when he noticed Lexi nudging Dean in the ribs to say thank you to Anya. It seemed that the longer the two of them were around each other, the more Lexi was able to whip Dean back into place again.

He began to eat himself, listening to the chit chat go around the table and he almost choked on his mouthful when Anya managed to be quick with her whip back at Dean about his question. He looked at his brother and caught the smirk, giving him a discreet nod. He may not have known that Dean was thinking how quickly Sam would take it upon himself to learn ASL, but that was something that went through Sam's mind. He knew a couple of real basic signs thanks to various media or what he had picked up from people watching, but if Anya was to be around for a while, he didn't think it would hurt to seriously learn more.

LEXI

Her nudge making Dean actually be civil and polite made Lexi feel rather proud of herself. she didn't doubt that he would eventually say thank you to Anya, but the sooner he said it, the more light the air would be around them all at the dinner table. She didn't want to come across as bossing him about, but she did want him to lighten up a bit and make some effort like he promised her he would.

Seeing his face as he ate the food made her smile. Good food really was the key to his trust and heart it seemed. She smiled as they began to chat, even if Dean's question was rather forward. She was ready to give him 'seriously?' look when Anya was completely on top of it and ahead of them all. Her comeback made Lexi laugh, having to cover her mouth as she did so. The quick wit of the girl was so amazing to witness.

Finally, another woman who wasn't afraid to speak her mind and be herself around new people. She really was going to like Anya if this was her authentic self. "She got you there Dean" she chuckled between mouthfuls of food. It was so nice to be having this interaction with people again, barely remembering the last time she could just have a laugh with people around a table with a good hearty meal. She could have almost fooled herself into thinking they weren't three hunters trying to help this woman out if she let herself believe it long enough.
THE LUX BAR

When Serena corrected her on when she was first seen, she thought back and realised she was right. With everything that happened, she had completely forgotten she was spotted before the time she mentioned. "You're right, can't believe I forgot that" she said, shaking her head at herself. She then looked up at Lucifer as he asked a question that felt like a stupid one to her, "who wouldn't if they had the opportunity to?" She shrugged before continuing before anyone could interrupt her, "my only guess is that it's happening now because he's linked to Kay. I know in my time so many wanted him out the picture before mum got corrupted. They are bonded not just in emotions, but literally. It's a bond that when I came into the world, it changed to include me." She started explaining, lifting her sleeve up to show the bond on her wrist, looking like a tattoo brand.

"Every downworlder wants to harness mum's power for their own gain but they can't if John is in the game so to speak. Get John off the playing field and it's one stronghold down. It's how it happened in my time anyway. So I'm guessing it's the same in this year." She finished explaining.

Chas nodded, "she has a point. John has become fiercely protective of Kay, something I've not seen in him for a long time. And everyone knows if John has his mind set on something or someone, you gotta get rid of him to get to what he's protecting" he agreed.

JOHN'S PLACE

Kay listened to extra brief information and nodded, "okay..okay. can I tell anyone this information?" She asked the voice, needing to know if she has to keep this to herself or not. It was such a daunting thought that she had to be prepared to let Serena of this time to just kill beings and that she herself had to burn a building down. It was so far from the kind of person she was, but this whole situation was proving she had to start questioning how much longer could she stay neutral in her actions and thoughts.
MIKA

For Mika, it was incredibly hard to talk about what she experienced when out cold for days way back when. Even into adulthood, she didn't know how she survived something that she never should have. Just like how Duke felt, she took felt she should be dead and have stayed dead. It took her years to accept she was alive but by being alive, something in her changed. She never wanted Duke to go through that closed off, fearful stage now he took, had experienced being dead temporarily. She wouldn't wish that on her worst enemy truth be told. It was the worst feeling to be alive and feel like you didn't deserve the second chance, or that what you experienced inside your head was either not real or it was and you were taken from that moment of bliss and tranquility. She hated that because of it, she spent so long hiding from the one person she loved, doing all she could to make him never find her, only to find she constantly kept running to him. She hated that eventually, her antics and running away from being happy with Dean drove him into the arms of another for a good year. It was still so soul destroying and she refused to let Duke go through any of that.

He was too good a soul deep down for any of that to become his life and she would do all she could to make sure he got through this moment without going down that rabbit hole. Seeing him sniffle at hearing more of her story, brought some kind of different sadness to her. She couldn't explain what the exact emotion was, but she didn't want him feeling sorry for her. She just wanted him to know he was not alone. Mika found herself briefly widening her eyes when she suddenly felt him hug her of his own free will before she held him all the more securely. She felt like he was just that kid hugging her all over again, needing the kind of comfort that only she could give. Mika knew instantly that him barrelling back into their lives was the best thing that could have happened, and she only truly realized it now. She really had missed him a great deal.

After she pulled away for a moment, she ran her fingers through his hair, letting him speak some more but what next came out of his mouth absolutely destroyed her. For all of Dean's faults, he would have never wished Duke stayed dead. She saw for herself how distraught Dean was when they thought they lost him for good, Dean wouldn't have come back from Duke's death for a long time. “now you listen to me mister” she began scolding, making him look at her, “don't you EVER say that again. Ya hear me? Dean may say some hurtful shit to you or me or anyone, but he would NEVER be disappointed you survived. When he thought you were gone for good, he was absolutely broken up. I don't think even I could have brought him back to reality. He could barely get the words out to me.

He doesn't want to ever lose you Duke. Dean loves you, he's just really crap at showing it. And if he did express otherwise you can bet your ass I would kill him myself for thinking such a thing. Or I'd kick his butt to Timbuktu and tell him to re-evaluate his life” she told Duke sternly but lovingly, meaning every word she said even if the last bit was an amusing thought. She removed a hand from Duke to wipe her eyes as she felt tears wanting to fall down her cheek, then pulled him into her once more. “no one wishes you stayed dead..not him, not me, no one. We are beyond glad you're back with us. I know he doesn't always make you or anyone feel like it, but he is. So as difficult as it is right now, I need you to not think he wishes you were dead, trust me I know that's really hard right now. I thought the same years ago for a while but it's not true. In no way or universe is it true” She explained.

She let her words sink into his mind for a moment before stroking his cheeks with her thumbs, “so…how about I see to these ripped stitches and check the rest of you over before Bobby comes in and fusses you like a child?” She gave him her reassuring smile in the hopes it'll help him, “but remember I'm here if you ever need to chat or need advice. Right now, we got even more in common than you know and if telling you secrets of how I dealt with this will help? I'll tell you everything”.

NATALIA

Cason's voice broke through to her, making her look up at him. “Sorry…old habits die hard I guess” she replied, knowing that the biggest reason for getting ahead of herself was purely out of habit. She was used to having to deal with these moments on her own more times than not and she just started undressing slightly as if she was on autopilot. So she took the scolding from Cason without any snarky comeback.

She let him come over and sit in front of her before she felt his hand brush some of her hair out of her face and down onto her chin to move her head side to side. She remained pretty silent as he looked her over thoroughly, the only time she winced slightly was when he hit a bruise and not dried blood on her cheek. She let him run his fingertips over her shoulder that had been badly broken, watching his face as he focused so intently on her. His sigh of relief bringing a tiny brief smile to her lips before he continued down her body and eventually to the back of her head.

When he turned her head to face him, making her look at him once more, she gave a nod. “It weirds me out too…” she admitted, deciding that was better than saying ‘told you so’. It took her a few seconds to clock he called her sweetheart again, and when she did she just wanted to wrap her arms around him, but she refrained from doing so. She tried to remain well behaved even though she felt like being clingy on him. “I know I've said it before, but I'm so grateful you came for me. I really didn't think I'd ever see you again, or any of those chaotic lot out there. I was ready to just give up fighting until you pulled me out” she finally admitted. She knew it wouldn't be easy to hear, but she couldn't pretend she was only almost ready to give up when she had gone so far passed that point in the pool.

Sighing, she looked down, ready to just lay down on the bed, even if she was covered in dried blood and dirt and fall asleep. “I know you don't sleep…but I really need to…” she commented, shifting her body to start laying down as she just wanted to sleep and not see any more water.

SAM

Sam let her cry on his shoulder, knowing she needed to just let it out. If he wasn't out of tests, he would have cried with her as he hated seeing her go through all this and no doubt feeling like she was being pulled from every direction. He knew he could tell her she wasn't a monster until he was blue in the face but that wouldn't just magically wipe away how she felt inside. All he could do was keep telling her and hope that even if it made her less monstrous for a little while, then it could be enough. He wanted to make her feel as much joy or hope as he could, even if it felt like it was harder to do with each passing day.

He glanced down without moving his head as she let go of his arm with one arm and wiped her face before clinging onto him again. He let the tiniest smile appear as he just saw the Anna he had always known in that one little action. For the briefest of moments, he saw the Anna he met when they were kids and when she was upset, she'd do the exact same action to try and pretend she wasn't crying. She was still in there deep down and he wasn't going to give up on trying to make her feel her old self between the hard times.

When she said she didn't know why he was all in but was glad he was, he looked her right in the eyes back and smiled softly at her. “I'm all in with you because I know what you're going through and I've lost you once…I'm not losing you again. I should have never let you go all those years ago, so I wanna make up for that” he told her honestly, returning the kiss when she placed her lips on his. He reached one hand up to under her chin and held it between his index finger and thumb. He didn't want to pull away but when she did, he did too, opening his eyes as she placed her hand on his cheek to feel his heartbeat and center herself. “I love you too, always will” he replied.
THE LUX BAR

Chas rubbed his temples as he tried to think of what else was in play that they didn't know. He also couldn't help but wonder if Kay or John figured anything out back at John's. As the others continued to talk, he kept trying to think of theories, but it was when Serena spoke that he mentally came back into the room. "that's right. It did happen the moment we got back from there. Kay had been kidnapped there and we had to all go to get her back. By the time we got back to John's, we were all knackered and Kay was just a mess. You didn't look so hot yourself either come to think of it" he replied, aiming the last bit to Serena.

"That was when you guys found me in the kitchen hooded and trying to avoid you lot as I didn't want to have to reveal myself or Drake so soon, but that didn't exactly go to plan" Fia added.

JOHN'S PLACE

When a shadow wrapped itself round Kay, it made her initially flinch before she got a sense of calm from it, making her relax a little bit. She made herself try harder to relax and make her breathing slow and steady once again. She listened to the words that came from the mysterious voice that sounded like an older Serena, but it couldn't be....could it? The moment the shadow hand reached up and touched her cheek, she closed her eyes and leaned into it instinctively, trying so hard to not let a tear fall that was now threatening to bubble up and over her eyelid. Everything that was being told to her seemed a lot.

It was difficult to try and remember absolutely everything as she listened but gave a nod. "I promise" she replied, even though she didn't want to promise what she was being made to. It didn't feel right to promise to not let Serena show mercy to whoever takes her and to let whatever manor they would be at burn. Let no one escape? Recreate what their parents did in the past? That was a lot to handle. "What manor? I don't know how to be that strong...but I'll do what I can" she told her.
MIKA

The moment Duke finally looked at her and started crying, just letting out absolutely everything he was feeling she knew he was in a worse state than people in their group had realized. Not one moment did she judge him for it though, she wanted him to let out his feelings and emotions so he didn’t bottle it all up. She wanted him to let her in and feel like he could be open. As much as she wanted him to talk, she wasn’t going to rush him into talking, this was something he had to take his own time doing and she’d wait for however long he needed her to.

When he managed to say he loved her, she knew it was a start. It was agony seeing him sob like he was, feeling like she hadn’t witnessed this from him since he was a kid and he just came into her room, climbed onto her bed whilst she was watching tv and hugged her- the motion that told her she had to turn the tv off and hug him. Now she felt this was very similar to those nights with the way he shook his head in her hands. He needed her more than ever and she wasn’t going to leave him high and dry. Then he spoke again, asking her about her beliefs in Heaven and she didn’t honestly know how to answer it at first, so when he continued to talk, she let him.

She let every word just get drilled into her mind, listening and taking it all in so when it came to her actually replying back, she could with wisdom and care. She gave a delicate nod to his description of a dream someone wouldn’t want to wake up from- she knew those well. She still remembers the one she had as a young girl when she passed out on Bobby’s doorstep, barely still pieced together it felt like. She was just a teenager but in that dream she had in the days she was out cold in Bobby’s, it felt like she never got attacked- her parents didn’t die. She could still picture every single moment of when she saw her mother first, making her run over into the arms of her beloved mother. The mother who always had her back, defended and loved Dean like a son when her father couldn’t.

She dreamt of being reunited with them both, being happy she was with them. Spending time enjoying their company, laughing and joking. She dreamt of times when her mother would walk into her room and Dean was hiding under her bed, thinking he was well hid until her mother greeted him as she exited the room, causing both herself and Dean to start laughing out of embarrassment. She dreamt of the night Dean took her out on a date for her birthday and gave her her treasured necklace of protection, that she still wears today. She knew what Duke had gone through all too well and she wanted to believe it was Heaven, or a form of Heaven so badly, to know that when they die they didn’t just end up dust on the ground. But could she say for absolute certainty that she believed Heaven existed? No.
His words didn’t once scare her, but they did make her sad as she would always worry about him. He may have grown taller than her, but she still saw him at times as the little dorky brother. She didn’t take her eyes off of him as he kept talking, describing what he went through, how he scared the hell out of the nurse, even when he said he was convinced he was in Heaven. Taking it all in, she thought over her words carefully before finally speaking. “I don’t know if I believe in Heaven but I want to believe it’s real. I had a similar experience when I was just a teenager and I passed out on Bobby’s doorstep after the wendigo tried to kill me. I was there for what felt like months, but was actually days. I didn’t want to wake up and accept that my folks were truly gone. I didn’t want to say goodbye to them all over again. So if you had the same experience? And I believe you one hundred percent, then maybe there is a Heaven.” she replied softly.

“I haven’t told a single soul until right now that. You’re the only one who now knows.” she added, pulling him into her and hugging him. “So you can always know that I will understand what you’re feeling okay?” she said, kissing the side of his head protectively and if either Esme or Dean didn’t or gave him shit for what he experienced, she would call them both out and defend Duke until she had run out of breath to do so.

“As for those two in there? You can bet your ass I will have words with at least Dean. I’m not going to let him push you away from Esme. As much as I did understand why Dean took charge, you’re in no fit state to lift someone, but he went about that situation in there all wrong and I will tell him.” she told Duke and she wasn’t going to change her mind on the matter. She knew as well as anyone that if the roles were reversed, she would have been called out for it as well. “I can see as well as anyone how much you love that girl and need her. I will make Dean back off, I promise because I’m not having him hurt you anymore than he already has.” she told him, pulling him away just enough to make him look at her again, “ya hear me?” she asked.

NATALIA

When Natalia mumbled, she didn’t intend to make Cason frown. She was just so done with everything in this moment she couldn’t make sure her filter was fully switched on. She glanced over at Bobby when Cason asked him where everyone was sleeping to rest up and recuperate for a few hours. Hearing that Mika would probably take her old room was exactly shocking, that woman was very attached to her old room and bed. She just hoped it would be Dean that goes up with her and that Dean wouldn’t stay with Esme- if for no one else’s sake but Duke’s. It was clear Duke wouldn’t handle Dean being with Esme any longer than was strictly necessary and she didn’t think Mika would accept Dean choosing Esme over her either.
Nat nodded when Bobby told her to take his room whilst he was going to be up anyway. “Thanks Bobby” she replied, whilst Cason looked and sounded surprised Bobby was trusting him to be stay with Nat. The fact Bobby was being so civil made Nat have a sneaky suspicion that someone in their group asked him to be nice, and that suspicion was fully on Mika as she did catch Mika whispering to Bobby when they all made it into the house.

She then turned her attention back to Cason when he clearly aimed his next words to her. “Okay…” she said, slowly getting up, leaving her empty bottle on the table. Giving a nod of agreement to him leaving to grab her stuff, she gave Bobby a brief hug as thanks for being nice to Cason before walking into Bobby’s study via the living room, not even giving Dean or Esme a single glance even though she knew at the back of her mind that Dean wanted to talk with her at some point still. She couldn’t even gain the energy to make a sassy quip, opening the door and walking inside, closing it behind her and heading straight to the bed.

Sitting on the edge she sighed, feeling the soft mattress underneath her. She peeled herself out of Cason’s coat, realising now she was still in it. A small hiss escaped her but she continued to try and remove her shirt, hissing and wincing as she struggled to get her arms out of it, biting her bottom lip to stop herself from crying from the pain. It was then Cason reappeared in the room, just as she finally got it off, sporting now only her jeans, boots and sports bra.

SAM

Sam wasn’t expecting to hear anything from Anna, let alone any action toward him so when she did say she wanted him around, he exhaled a breath he didn’t know he was withholding. He let her grab his arm to scoot closer to him and rest her head on his shoulder. He remained close to her, reaching his free hand across and placed it comfortingly over her own hands. Letting her take the lead in how close they sat was proving to be the right course of action it seemed and he would continue with this idea of his.

He gently rested his own head upon hers whilst she pressed her ear firmly against his shoulder whilst she explained what she wanted to drown out and not hear anymore. He wished he could say he was shocked to hear she wanted to rip out Cason’s throat and no doubt drain him dry, but he sadly couldn’t. Before she came back to his life, he felt the same way about Ruby’s blood once. The come down was proving excruciating for Anna, but at least it wasn’t so bad that she had to be locked up in the basement….for the time being. “You’re not a monster baby girl… the world may be making you do monstrous things right now but you yourself are not a monster. The fact you’re terrified of being around the others, trying your hardest not to harm Cason shows that.” he replied to her.

“None of this is going to get easier but I won’t stop being by your side fighting for and with you.” he added, readjusting his head to place a firm but loving kiss on the top of her head, then placed his head back where it was. He wasn’t going to ever leave her side and he was most definitely going to strive in not making the past mistakes he had already made. She had made him proud despite everything that had gone down, he just needed to make her proud of him now.
MIKA

Duke's initial flinching didn't take her by surprise as she figured he might still be a tiny bit jumpy after everything that unfolded, but the moment Mika felt him behind to relax in her arms and against her shoulder she knew he knew he was safe with her. She was also glad that what she said was agreed by Cason as he seemed to nod at her words. But then Esme absolutely lost her temper in her tired state at Cason and herself. She tried to rationalize it by putting it down to the woman being exhausted and in pain and not take offense. Yet, her outburst told Mika that there was no way she was leaving Duke with Esme if she's going to be like this.

She sighed, and forced herself not to say anything back when it was clear that even Dean was trying to defend their words and calm Esme down. As much as she appreciated for once, Dean attempting to have her back around Esme, she still couldn't help but see how he was with her and it felt like Dean truly wasn't fully over Esme and that hurt. Not just because he spent a while being in love with someone else when she wasn't around, but also because moments like this act like a sledgehammer of reality hitting her with the fact she was partly to blame back in the day for driving him into Esme's arms. If she just had been a better person back in the day and not caused so many arguments, he never would have felt the need to find someone else. Bobby's angry scolding made her shake those thoughts out of her head, he was right. Now wasn't the time for arguing and shouting matches.

As Cason and Bobby began to discuss what very little they did know, she wasn't sure how much Duke would be able to hear, but she didn't want to get him out of the room just yet as she herself was curious to what the two men had to theorise. Tilting her head down, she kissed the top of Duke's head, not wanting to let go of him in the slightest but her head lifted up when Anna declared she needed air and just walked out towards the front door. Sam looked worried and so she gave him the nod and tilted her head towards the direction Anna went in, “go after her” she mouthed to him, which seemed to work as she watched Sam put his drink down and follow Anna out.

As the conversation started to fizzle out, theories she found interesting to say the least, she knew Duke would have heard enough. She gave him a light tap on his shoulder, “come on…let's get you in the RV” she told him softly, but in a way that told him she wasn't going to take no as an answer. She looked up at Bobby, “gonna get him in the RV so he can rest up in quiet and have the space” she told him, so he knew where to find Duke if he decided to check on him himself. She gently pulled Duke up onto his feet, keeping a protective hold on him the whole time as she guided him to the back door to reach the RV. She barely even looked at Dean in the main room as she focused on Duke, not even sure how to tackle the Dean and Esme moment right now. It was the least of their worries and she had to stay focused even though she was probably one of the only people who did still want him around. She just had to keep her focus on Duke, he needed her more than the rest of them right now.

Letting go of him with one hand, she opened the back door and guided him outside to the RV, seeing that Bobby had left the door to it I locked for them, she got Duke inside and sat him down on the makeshift bed of his. “Okay, this is much better” she sighed, squatting down in front of him so she could look him in the eyes. “I'm not gonna ask you how you're holding up or any other stupid question. It's clear you aren't, none of us are. There's been far too much to compute in the last few hours, but I will tell you this” she began to say to him, lifting her hand and making him look at her, keeping his head in her hand. “I got you okay? I'm not gonna leave you to deal with everything on your own, you're my baby brother and I'm never deserting you. Dean is an asshole sometimes with control issues- we both know it. And if you need to get anything off your chest, you can off load to me, just as you always have been able to. I can empathise with more than you probably realise” she told him softly, a tone that she has only ever used with him.

She stroked his cheek with her thumb, just wishing she could take away all of his pain, physical and mental. It broke her heart seeing him as this shell of the person she grew up with. “I love you Duke. Always will” she told him, “so talk to me?” She requested. She felt if she didn't get him talking first, she'd never get round to checking the ripped stitches on his stomach.

NATALIA

Nat was well and truly lost in her own head I til she felt Cason's foot nudging hers under the table, making her snap out of it and look up at Cason to see him giving her a reassuring smile. She gave one small smile back, before looking back down at her beer bottle on the table. she tried to focus on what was being spoken about all around her but it felt like there was a million and one things all being discussed at the same time and her brain just couldn't comprehend anything being said. She just wanted to find some kind of bed or bed like item of furniture and crash for a few hours, preferably hugging Cason.

Esme's outburst knocked her out of her mind yet again and she was beginning to feel so frustrated at all the bickering. She got it, they were all exhausted but she was so fed up of hearing raised voices and drama. Which she realised was quite something considering even she knew she was usually the one who started the arguments or kept them going. “can we all just stop?” She mumbled, her voice drowned out by Bobby's scolding. She was aware of Anna leaving the room and eventually Sam but she didn't react to any of it. She was done.

When the conversation did eventually come to some sort of end, she looked up as she saw Mika take Duke outside to the RV, thinking Duke was so lucky to have someone just get him out of the tense atmosphere. “so…can we just get everything done so I can go crash somewhere please? I’m desperate to get some sleep” she asked nobody in particular in the room. It was solely a plea to be checked over already so she could leave the tension. “So if one of you is gonna check me over, please do so soon” she then said more to Cason and Bobby this time. It was getting clear that she was close to just falling asleep here at the kitchen table if she didn't move soon and she would rather not add back pain to everything else by falling asleep slumped over the table.

SAM

Hearing everything for the first time from everyone felt like so much to take in when they were all so tired, but somehow Sam managed to keep up with every single bit of information. When Cason told them all that a lot was to do with Anna and her unwilling connection to Lilith, he just wanted to wrap Anna up in bubble wrap or an invisibility cloak so he could protect her from what was coming. They knew Lilith was a big player in all of this but every little snippet of new information just made it feel so much bigger than all of them and he didn't like what it was doing to Anna's mental state. He saw how every word spoken was making Anna even more anxious and uncomfortable from the way she was fidgeting on the worktop, wanting to grab her hand and give her a reassuring squeeze, but before he could do anything, she muttered about needing air and was gone out the front door before he could even react.

He wasn't sure at first whether he should go after her or not, but when he looked towards Mika and saw her mouth to go after Anna, he gave a nod and went after her. He hoped it was the right thing to do as he walked through the hallway, glad to be out of the tension and Esme's outbursts. Opening the door, he stepped out, closed it behind him and sat on the step beside her as he saw her hugging herself and clearly upset. “I don't know if you want me around, but I'm here if you do…I won't speak or go anywhere, I'll just be a body for comfort if needs be.” He softly spoke to her, not reaching out or making any sudden moves. He just sat next to her to let her make any moves she wanted. The most important thing to him right now was just letting her know she wasn't alone and didn't have to comprehend all of this on her own. He never wanted her to feel like she had to deal with this alone because she wasn't alone, even if she felt differently about the fact.

He noticed the pulled stitches on her and desperately wanted to take care of her but he knew right here on the steps of Bobby's front door he couldn't do that until she felt ready to go inside again where there were kits to actually tend to her. Part of Sam wanted to talk but he promised her that unless she wanted him to, he wouldn't speak. This was all to be on her terms and time, he'd wait hours if it meant it for her. Crossing his arms over his chest, mostly to stay relatively warm he stared out in front of him, seeing the sun was trying to poke out from beneath the clouds as it rose to tell the human race that it was the start of a new day. A sure sign that it really had been a long night if they were already coming into the next day and none of them had really slept or relaxed yet.

His mind going through everything that had been spoken before he and Anna left the room, wondering how they were all going to just bounce back to their usual selves from knowing what they now know. They could have come back with a minimum of two less people in their group, four if they were truly unlucky and the more he realised that, the more it terrified him. He almost lost his brother and sister all in one night and he wasn't even there when it almost happened. It was a painful truth he had to accept if he were to ever be able to move forward and get focused at whatever was coming their way.
SAM

Sam let Anya go to the fridge and when she pulled out a beer, he guessed that it was either for herself or for Dean, considering how determined she seemed to be at getting Dean on her side. He stood waiting for the two of them after Lexi had called out to him to find out where they were in the bunker, soon spotting them coming into the kitchen.

He watched as Dean came on in first and smirked at his surprise that there was home cooked food ready to be served. "yes Anya did it all...mostly for you I should add" he clarified after Anya gave him a smiley nod. He saw she didn't have her phone in reach, so he figured he would confirm it for her. He watched as Dean walked up to her and took the beer from her hand that she offered him, glad that he was at least trying to be nice.

It was a relief that he was willing to talk with her, even if it meant the food has to be the bribe. It was a start at least. He looked at his brother when he got asked about bringing girls back who could cook and sniggered at his lousy attempt to find something to complain about.

"I didn't know Anya could until she mentioned it and insisted on cooking. But I say we're pretty lucky for it" he replied with a smirk. He then walked over to the plates and grabbed some food for himself before heading to the table and sitting down.

LEXI

Dean initially not liking that they couldn't see Sam and Anya from the top of the staircase and doorway made her want to roll her eyes. They were at a weird angle so it didn't surprise her they couldn't see much.

She smiled more when he reached up and pinched her chin lightly, whilst being amused at the whole thought of Sam and Anya in the kitchen. The smell of good food drawing him in. "Good" she replied simply, following him down stairs and into the kitchen where she saw the sight before her. It seemed they really did go all out and it was getting some kind of seal of approval from Dean.

She listened as the brothers and Anya spoke between themselves, whilst she hoovered behind but still very much in the kitchen. Whilst she hoovered, she grabbed a clean glass and went to the fridge so she could grab a soda instead of a beer. She had drunk enough alcohol for the time being and she felt the need to just drink something different until the next alcoholic beverage called her name.

She smirked to herself when Dean pointed out Sam's ability to bring home women who really knew how to cook. He wasn't exactly wrong even if it was a desperate attempt to complain. "Like Sam says...count yourself lucky on the food department with us or we may just make the most disgusting meal next time" she teased, giving Anya a wink to show she was just messing about and on the girl's side.

Grabbing a plate, she went to the table and sat down, impressed with what Anya managed to concoct from the groceries Dean and herself had earlier purchased. "well considering this big lug hasn't said it yet, I will. Thank you Anya, this is very kind of you to do" she said honestly, whilst giving Dean a light jab in his side.
THE LUX BAR

Fia quickly felt stupid when Lucifer corrected her, not stupid...she felt like he really put her in her place. So she just looked down and gave a small nod before looking up at Drake as he agreed with what Lucifer was saying. She gave him her old sarcastic smile as he pointed out how they have messed up before. "alright..no need to rub it in" she said, sounding all of a sudden so much like John that it was even clearer she was definitely his kid. She of course didn't mean her words to him maliciously, it was just her personality showing through, and it was her way of trying to not think about what Drake admitted earlier about her.

That was a whole different matter to deal with at another time when their parents weren't in impending danger. Not only that it brought up the realisation that Fia had been so focused on everything else in her life that she had been completely oblivious to the fact that Drake COULD feel romantic feelings toward her. Romance just hadn't been on her mind before now and she refused to let it distract her from what was important.

"Okay, so we come to the conclusion that Bane is heavily involved in this whole situation, now what?" Chas spoke up, breaking up the playful bickering the teenagers were sort of having.

JOHN'S HOUSE

From where Kay was stood, she could hear the mutterings of Bane and John actually talking but she couldn't work out exactly what was being said. It was probably a good thing as well as if Kay had heard Bane say what he did about her mother being possibly alive, she would have absolutely lost it at him. She had grown up with the knowledge that her mother- Fira was dead. That her father went to the morgue and confirmed it was his wife on the slab cold and dead. She was at home dealing with her father blaming her for her mother's death, becoming abusive before he just walked out on her, leaving her, a very young child at the tender age of 9 alone in a big house, with nothing but the echoes of what was her family life.

She couldn't let herself get hope that her mother may be alive after all and not once did she come find her. She had good parents and they were her adoptive ones, her best friend's parents. They were the ones who raised her when it was important and mattered, even if it meant out of worry for her mental health, they sent her to a shrink who was questionable at best. "You must focus on your breathing my child" Fee said inside her mind, but Kay didn't want to hear the obvious. "Leave me alone Fee" she wheezed out, thumping her head in an attempt to shut the entity up.

Her breathing continued to get more rapid and her eyes began to fog over in retaliation. Shaking more and more, she let herself fall down the wall and squat on the ground whilst she just let her anxiety completely take over. "I can't....breathe...." she gasped.
SAM

Seeing Anya smile brightly at his compliment made him smile all the more. She really was a breath of fresh air in this bunker and he was glad that although Dean had a couple of moments of being a grumpy older brother, she still wanted to stick around and even try and show Dean she wasn't some crazed maniac who needed to be booted out of the bunker as soon as he got back. Looking at the pie she had made, he was honestly so impressed and knew if Dean wasn't impressed? Then Lexi certainly would be as it would mean she wouldn't be the only one who was a very capable cook in this place. Even if it was possibly a temporary thing.

He was even impressed by the smell and look of the casserole she mad specially for Dean, knowing that should make him one very happy man and if it didn't then there was no hope for his brother. When she typed out and let him know what she was thinking, he couldn't stop the chuckle from escaping his lips. "If he doesn't fall asleep after all this I think my brother might actually be an alien" he joked back to her.

LEXI

The moment Dean had tilted her head a bit to kiss her back more, she knew like he did, it would be dangerous if neither of them pulled away soon. She didn't want to pull back, she wanted to continue feeling his lips upon hers, his hand on her chin. She wanted to reach out, lay her hands on him and not break a part until it was far too late for them to go back. So she knew in that moment she had no choice, she had to pull away and suggest they headed back even though it was a complete turn around in attitude.

She bit her bottom lip at the corner as she forced herself to sit back in her seat and let him drive back to the bunker, desperate to behave herself even though this pull he had on her was difficult to ignore. She also couldn't help but keep thinking there were most definitely worse cars to hook up in the back of.

---A BIT LATER---

When they got back to the bunker, Lexi was glad to be back. It also never failed to impress her the way they came in and all the old classic cars that were there but clearly not the Winchester Boys'. She looked at him when Dean turned to her and said how he feels like he'd be a total hypocrite now if he says anything to Sam and Anya. She couldn't help but smirk, feeling like her initial plan in kissing him worked a treat, even if after their lips touched it became a much more selfish reason.

"That's all I can ask for. Play nice, be civil and not weird around her. Sam is a nerd, it wouldn't ever surprise me if I saw him suddenly playing chess, but it also wouldn't surprise me if he dived straight into a book to find another lead" she said back to him, cranking the passenger door open and placing one booted foot out of it.

She got out of the car and closed the door behind her, not really bothered if she left her duffel in his trunk or not as she just headed straight to the door to staircase that took them into the bunker. Opening it, she leaned in and saw no sign below of Sam at the war room or at a bookcase so she decided to call out instead. "Sam!? We're back!"

Sam heard the faint sound of Lexi's voice and pushed himself off the table edge, stepping out of the kitchen, "in the kitchen!" he called back. With that heard, Lexi stood back up straight and looked back at Dean, "they're in the kitchen and there's one hell of an amazing smell in the air. So one or both of them has cooked since we've been out" she told him with her signature smile.
NATALIA

Hearing Esme's voice be the next to speak made Nat go silent. She stared at her bottle on the table, her hands at the base of the bottle, one finger simply tracing over the dark glass bottle. Flashes of what she went through kept repeating through her mind now she had said everything out loud, whilst also half listening to what Esme experienced. She only managed to mentally press pause on her memories when Esme mentioned how she too was tortured in that same place. It all now made sense to her why Esme said she knew what Nat was going through and had gone through. No wonder Esme felt genuine empathy for her situation and never got surprised by her outbursts defending Cason so strongly. She knew at some point when they weren't all beat up and tired she could talk with Esme now that there was someone who can truly get her.

As Esme continued to talk, Nat went back to spacing out once again not wanting to look at any of them, especially after she did moments ago, see how Dean and Mika reacted to what she said out loud. Everything Esme said about what she did on the top floor of the asylum sounded like a strange echo, almost like she was listening to their conversation from under that watery pool all over again. Which just triggered her memories in her mind to play all over again. She could hear her own screams in her head as she felt the blade cutting through her flesh or when her shoulder got hammered down upon. The lingering pain coming back as if someone had just whacked her with the hammer all over again. Nat didn't want to hear anymore of what happened after that, but she knew she couldn't move from her spot as her body just refused to move.

She only snapped out of her memories when Esme's legs finally gave out from under her and made her drop to the ground before cursing about the action. Like the others, she looked up quickly to see both Duke and Dean rush to Esme's side and aid, only for Dean to push Duke back and make it his duty to pick Esme off the ground and carry her to the couch in the main room. Seeing Duke get angry, jealous and hurt at Dean having to be the girl's saviour didn't go unnoticed by her, just as it didn't to anybody in the kitchen.

Bobby's questions were completely valid in her eyes, they were questions she also wanted to know answers to. There had to be more of a reason as to why the demons felt the need to take her and convince Esme back to the asylum. She didn't want to be left thinking they only took her because they could and they considered her an easy target out of her family. She didn't want to be an easy target or someone who just became a liability like the demons tried making her believe. "I wanna know too" she mumbled, pulling her bottle closer to her and up to her lips to take another swig of the drink. When Cason finally spoke up and said he might have a theory about that, she finally looked up from the table top and looked at him to listen.

Hearing the ultimate goal was to get Anna for Lilith, she didn't know how to process that. She didn't blame Anna for anything that happened, far from it. Cason was right, they all did just get swept along to create chaos amongst their group. This wasn't anyone's fault- not directly at any rate. She felt so sorry for Anna having to find out more and more was stacked against her, which she figured wasn't going to help Dean's conflicted opinion about the girl.

Then came the moment all of them were dreading- the moment that meant they had to come clean about Esme not even being human. Yet the way Cason bluntly told Bobby after he hinted that she and Dean still looked rough made her scrunch up her face in dislike. The words still didn't sit well on her mind, so she could only imagine how uncomfortable they were making Esme. She couldn't even begin to think how she would react if she was told she wasn't human after thinking her entire life she was.

SAM

Being in the kitchen finally, he let Anna wrap a corner of his flannel shirt between her fingers so she had that connection to him to feel safe. Sam knew that she still didn't know how she felt about him leaving Cason and they still had a lot of work to do to get the level of trust they once had with each other back again. So if just grabbing onto his shirt was what she needed right now, he would let her do so. He looked up when Dean came over with a glass of bourbon for Anna, he knew his brother was attempting to make small gestures of apology to her to show her he wasn't going to just give up even though she told him she was done with him.

He gave Dean a nod before looking round at the others in the kitchen, seeing Duke in his own world next to Cason, Mika against the back worktop where she usually was seen, Natalia sitting opposite Cason and Esme adjacent to to Mika. He sighed as he forced his mind and body to try and relax but the tension in the air was just too thick and it felt like he could cut it with a knife. So he had to admit, he was glad that Bobby entered the room and demanded information, making him feel like he had to be the one who started talking first.

After Nat had spoken her part and he tried to make himself move on from her haunting words in his mind, he listened partially to what Esme had to say and what happened with her. He looked wide eyed when she explained how she somehow made the whole building come down ontop of herself and Dean which got him wondering how either of them were still alive. He was also surprised that yet again Dean just willingly almost sacrificed himself for someone who wasn't Mika and he couldn't imagine that sitting well with the woman. It was messy and getting more and more complicated as each of them spoke up. He really needed to sleep this whole crap off at this stage. His mind couldn't take anymore information going into it, yet it seemed more information was coming.

He watched everything quickly unfold when Esme collapsed to the ground but stayed awake. He watched as Dean and Duke silently confronted each other over who would pick up Esme and take her to the couch until Dean won out, but it was clear Duke was angry and he couldn't say he ever knew a time when Duke was like this personally. He watched Mika instantly go to Duke's comfort whilst Dean was in the living room putting Esme down.

MIKA

With Dean's hand on her lower back, Mika began to relax a bit more as all she wanted to be close to be Dean without no one else really around. She promised Bobby she would go rest but at the moment that was the last thing she was able to do. At least, fully anyway. She hated hearing everyone discuss what happened, giving Bobby the lowdown in as much detail as they were able to do until Esme collapsed and she watched Dean get to her before Duke could. She understood why he did, it was second nature for him to rush to anyone who just drops to the ground when they're injured, but the fact it was Esme somehow still hurt her heart.

She saw Duke show jealousy and anger toward Dean and that hurt her just as much as she hated seeing her chosen brother get pushed out and away from the woman he loved and always had loved. She had always known how much Duke had cared for Esme, even if for a long time in the past, she didn't know who Esme actually was. There was always a part of her that knew Duke was in love with someone and he was always the one that people looked passed when he was an incredible guy.

With Dean out the kitchen with Esme briefly, she instantly went over to Duke and leaned over him from behind, wrapping her arms round his shoulders to hug him. She didn't even say anything at first, just let him know she had his back in her simple action, knowing exactly how to comfort him when he needed it but didn't ask. Then came the news of Esme not being human and she felt Bobby's eyes fell onto her, making her look back at him with sadness, not letting go of Duke. "We only found out after Cas healed Dean and for the most part Nat. He said he couldn't heal Esme because she was not human, but we don't really know what she is or how it's possible. She knows more than we do" she explained, nodding her head toward Esme in the other room.

Right now, Duke was her priority even though she didn't know how much longer she could be strong for everyone else before she eventually broke. "I know how you feel Duke....I got you little brother...I got you" she said softly and quietly to him, feeling so lucky and privileged to even be holding him right now. She wanted to protect him at all costs and show him that she was never going to hurt him or leave him. She just hoped he didn't hold it against them all for leaving him at the hospital to go get Natalia.
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