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@Raijinslayer
This is completely self inflicted though. I don't know what's been up with mom as of late but she's fucking pissed. I know she means well and I'm lucky that my parents care but just...Holy shit, it's taking a toll on my mentally. Would you believe it if I told you I had //three// mental breakdowns in one day? Euhg.
Graduating high school as quick as I can is mostly just to get her off my case. I wake up to her screaming about how useless I am, how I don't work hard enough, how I should just give up, asking me what I'm even trying for, etc. She's been getting a bit better about it after my dad had a talk with her but it's still a constant worry.
If I can finish a credit by roughly the week, I can graduate at least half a year early. And if I do that, then I can also do whatever extra courses I want while I save up money to move out, since by law I'm allowed to stay at my alt school even after I graduate and continue to earn credits up until I'm 22. Don't intend to do that since that'll mean living with mom for 5 more years, but at least until I'm 18 or 19 methinks.
So I get her off my case and I make more time to get out, as well as working in a school environment to keep my brain from not dying over the months between moving out and uni.
On the bright side, she finally agreed to buy a proper binder...Only took her over a year and two instances of the one she got for 50 cents from the creepy garage sale lady (which I told her again and again is not proper and could do permenant damage to my ribs and/or lungs) cutting to a bleeding point twice, but eh.
Sorry this became vent-y. Orz
This is completely self inflicted though. I don't know what's been up with mom as of late but she's fucking pissed. I know she means well and I'm lucky that my parents care but just...Holy shit, it's taking a toll on my mentally. Would you believe it if I told you I had //three// mental breakdowns in one day? Euhg.
Graduating high school as quick as I can is mostly just to get her off my case. I wake up to her screaming about how useless I am, how I don't work hard enough, how I should just give up, asking me what I'm even trying for, etc. She's been getting a bit better about it after my dad had a talk with her but it's still a constant worry.
If I can finish a credit by roughly the week, I can graduate at least half a year early. And if I do that, then I can also do whatever extra courses I want while I save up money to move out, since by law I'm allowed to stay at my alt school even after I graduate and continue to earn credits up until I'm 22. Don't intend to do that since that'll mean living with mom for 5 more years, but at least until I'm 18 or 19 methinks.
So I get her off my case and I make more time to get out, as well as working in a school environment to keep my brain from not dying over the months between moving out and uni.
On the bright side, she finally agreed to buy a proper binder...Only took her over a year and two instances of the one she got for 50 cents from the creepy garage sale lady (which I told her again and again is not proper and could do permenant damage to my ribs and/or lungs) cutting to a bleeding point twice, but eh.
Sorry this became vent-y. Orz