@PaulHaynekShe knew he'd ask her, but she just let out a soft sigh in thinking about it.
"I want control over my own mortality. That way i'm not stuck with immortal life and i can watch over and protect my homeland. After dieing... you... i don't know how to describe it.. but you miss being alive. You miss the real world." she said to him, a distant look in her eyes.
"I may not have been perfect, or even worth saving after everyone i killed... but i don't want to die again..." she said, looking back at him, clearly caring a lot about this. It almost looked like she was forcing back her emotions and tears of all things.
"i fear death. i accepted it once, when i went through it the first time. But now i beg those who have omnipotent powers in the heavens to let me win this so i can do some good with my second chance in this realm."