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Name: Taylor
Pronouns: They/them
Age: Mid 20s
Relationship: Married (happily, I might add)
Time Zone: Arizona (we hate daylight savings, so it's MST year-round)
Writing History: I've been on a number of different roleplaying websites for over a decade and a half
Hobbies: Writing, fitness, driving/exploring, hiking, camping, traveling, tabletop games, anything NEW (I love trying things I've never done before)
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Format: 1x1s only. Maybe I'll try a group RP again someday, but I've never had one last longer than a few months
Posting Speed: Depending on my schedule, I can usually post at least once per week
Favorite Genres: Modern, Historical, Romance, Action/Adventure, Horror/Dark, Fantasy, Slice of Life, Dystopian, can be convinced to write some Sci-Fi
Hard 'no's: Fandoms. Sorry, but I can't maintain interest in characters/worlds I didn't build with my partner
Template: Public threads or PMs. I prefer to keep all my RPs in one place, so no emails or G-docs or the like
Rating: Comfortable with 18+ content, but it's not a necessity and I prefer not to center a plot around explicit scenes
Level: Advanced. Will consistently provide around 400-700 words per post, but can occasionally leap to 2000+
Character preference: One main character, but large side casts are greatly enjoyed. Because I write long posts, I prefer not to double
Gender preference: Male. You'll be hard pressed to convince me to play a female that isn't a background character. It's just not my forte
Romantic Relationships: MxF or MxM (currently prefer MxM)
Character Images: Faceclaims or detailed descriptions only. I envision the characters like real people in my mind, so I can't take anime seriously
OOC chat: Yes please! I'm a total extrovert who loves to get to know the amazing minds behind my partners' characters

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Crow walked quickly down the corridor that led away from the Great Hall, hoping that if he moved fast enough, Elizabeth wouldn’t be able to catch up with him again. He was still thrown off from seeing her again so suddenly. He’d never expected her to remember him and even hunt him down after seven years apart. Of course, he wasn’t gullible. He knew she was most likely here because she just wanted the benefits of his new status, not because of some long awaited romance like she claimed. It was just frustrating not to be able to turn her away. Liz hadn’t known him for long, but she knew him well enough to find it suspicious if he turned down her offer for a fling. The last thing he needed was for someone else to start watching him more closely.

The viceroy sighed and ran a hand through his hair as he made his way up the stairs that led to his father’s bedchamber, slowing his pace slightly now that he’d traveled far away from the Great Hall. Though Elizabeth had proven to be stubborn that morning, he hoped she wouldn’t be determined enough to hang around him for too long. He didn’t want to dodge around her until he and Penelope could start courting. The thought of staving off the noblewoman’s attempts to flirt with him for weeks made him cringe.

She’s going to make it harder for Penelope and I to spend time together too, he realized, letting out a quiet groan of annoyance. It was already difficult enough for them to sneak around William and keep a distance when Naida was around. He wasn’t excited to add yet another person to that list and hoped it wouldn’t be much longer before they could start courting, so power-hungry noblewomen would stop trying to win him over.

By the time he reached his father’s bedchamber, Crow’s mood had waned quite a bit. He hesitated outside the door, wishing he could go back to his own room to take a nap instead of endure a lesson in a language he couldn’t even read. Between his lack of sleep and Elizabeth’s unexpected arrival, he was in no mood to learn. However, ditching the king sounded much worse, so he took a steeling breath and knocked.

There was a brief moment of silence before the door opened, revealing a familiar face on the other side.

“Ah, come in,” Hunter bowed respectfully and stepped aside to let the viceroy pass.

Crow nodded wordlessly and entered the room, taking a moment to look over the enormous space. Like last time, his father sat at the long table in the center, but to his surprise, they weren’t alone. The viceroy’s gaze wandered to the left side of the room, where a number of female servants bustled about, preparing the queen’s dress and hair. They worked on countless fabric fastenings and a complicated looking braid. It seemed like a lot of work for just one person.

The queen turned in his direction, and the viceroy reddened slightly, realizing he was staring. It was hard not to when he found the intricacy of her routine so unusual, but he forced himself to look away so she wouldn’t think his behavior was strange.

“Collin, you’re finally here,” Albin spoke up with his usual warm smile and gestured to an open chair beside him. “Have a seat.”

Eager to get away from the queen’s unnerving gaze, Crow was quick to comply with the command. He stepped over to the table and sat down, looking over the collection of papers and scrolls his father had laid out for him. Just a glimpse was enough to tell him that written Gorman was completely different from written Missenar. He didn’t recognize a single character on any of the pages. The letters were all made up mostly of lines and dots with few curves of any sort. He swallowed nervously, unsure if he was prepared to handle learning such a complex looking language.

“Just relax.”

The viceroy looked up to see that his father was watching him with an amused smirk. Albin seemed to have picked up on his nervousness and reached out to rest a hand on his shoulder. “It’s intimidating at first, but you’ll get the hang of it,” the king went on confidently. “Just don’t let yourself be overwhelmed.”

“You say that like it’s easy,” Crow muttered, looking over the mass of foreign characters in front of him again.

“I only brought all of these out to show you what you’ll be able to read by the time we’re finished,” Albin explained, turning to the papers as well. “This is what you’ll be starting with today.” Pushing aside the majority of the scrolls, the king gestured to a smaller paper with four rows of characters on it, not too unlike the one Udolf had used to teach him the basics of Missenar.

“Those are the letters and numbers, right?” Crow guessed, looking up to meet his father’s gaze.

“See? You’re understanding already,” Albin grinned. He pointed to the first and longest row, “These are all the characters used in Gorman speech.” Moving his hand, he pointed next to the shorter second and third rows. “These are special symbols to indicate tense, when you’re talking about something that happened in the past or that hasn’t happened yet at all; and these indicate spiritual sentience.”

“Spiritual what?” Crow blinked confusedly.

“The Gorman people are incredibly religious,” Albin answered. “Their writing and speech is reflective of their beliefs. You may not know this, since you learned the language orally, but the people of Gorm have syllables that they use to identify something as living, nonliving, or a spirit. To them, it is important to identify every creature and object correctly, because they believe that the gods, good and evil, can manifest themselves in human form. According to their legends, evil beings are incapable of understanding the difference between living and nonliving things, so the language itself protects them from being tricked by a malicious spirit.”

“That’s… complicated,” Crow knitted his brow as he examined the third row of characters more closely. “I think I know what you’re talking about though. I didn’t know that’s what they meant, but I noticed a long time ago that Gorman has the same syllables for words that describe creatures or objects.”

“This will be easy for you then,” his father smiled approvingly. “If you already speak the language correctly, you’ll just need to memorize the characters themselves. Now then, let’s start with the basics, so you’ll have a proper foundation to build upon.”

“Alright,” Crow nodded, feeling a little more sure of himself after the king’s words of praise. He picked up a quill from the table and followed along, paying close attention as Albin taught him about the Gorman alphabet.
Makes sense xD
Liz chased Crow off
Crow sat tensely as Elizabeth spoke with Penelope, keeping his gaze lowered to his plate as if the food was suddenly interesting. It felt strange that someone from such a distant part of his life had reappeared and was now conversing with the woman he was currently in love with. He wasn’t sure what to think about it. In a way, he supposed the situation wasn’t so different from when the knight had met Hazel, since they had a history too, but he and the herbalist had already moved on from that part of their lives. Meanwhile, Liz was an unclosed book. They hadn’t even been able to part ways properly seven years ago, since they had been interrupted by her father. He had no idea where they stood with each other now.

It won’t ever be the same though, he reassured himself, glancing up at Penelope across the table. Whether Elizabeth thought so or not, he was never going to be with her again. He just wished she had stayed put in Colchester instead of seeking him out now, so he could have avoided the discomfort of explaining it to her.

As he looked at the knight, he paused, noticing that she seemed unhappy about Liz’s presence at the table. He bit the inside of his lip. Knowing how difficult her morning had already been, he wished he could convince the noblewoman to leave, so Penelope wouldn’t be stressed by her. Unfortunately, it seemed like Elizabeth wasn’t going anywhere.

“The princess?” she mused, looking between Crow and Penelope with interest. “Sounds like you’ve got friends in high places, huh?” Turning to Crow she flashed another smile. “Although, I suppose it’s only natural since you’ve got such a high rank, yourself.” When the viceroy just shrugged in response, she went on. “You know, I was surprised to hear you even took a noble title in the first place. Last time I saw you, you were going on and on about how great it was to be a criminal with no rules. What changed your mind?”

Crow shifted his weight again. “I guess I just got my priorities straightened out,” he answered vaguely with another subtle glance at Penelope.

“Mhm,” Liz studied him. “Well, I’m glad you did, since it means we’ll be able to see each other again.” Her grin broadened. “I got a room in the castle, so I’ll be able to stay in the citadel for a while.”

“Did you now?” Crow forced a smile in return, though inwardly, he cursed whichever knight had given her permission to be a guest in the palace.

The noblewoman nodded, “I want to catch up with you, and that couldn’t happen if I didn’t get a room. Now, we can spend as much time together as we want.” Leaning a little closer to him, she reached beneath the table to rest her hand on his leg. “Of course, we don’t have to talk if you prefer,” she added in a lowered voice, casting him a coy wink.

Crow fought the urge to flinch at her touch, wishing again that she would have chosen a different time to approach him. It was difficult not to push her away when Penelope was sitting so close by. “I hate to bring down your expectations, love, but I don’t have much free time these days,” he offered her an apologetic look, discreetly pulling back from her to put some distance between them. “It might be better if you just go back home rather than waste your time here.”

“We’re talking now, aren’t we?” Liz pointed out slyly. “I’m sure we can make time if we try hard enough.”

Gods, she’s stubborn. “Perhaps,” he admitted, taking a bite of food. “I just wouldn’t get my hopes up if I were you.”

“When did you become such a downer?” she rolled her eyes, nudging him teasingly with her shoulder. “I’m starting to think I should have followed you when you left my bedchamber. You sound like you need someone to brighten your perspective.”

“I’m just being realistic,” Crow shook his head. He ate another large bite of bread, suddenly eager to finish his breakfast so he could get away from the persistent woman.

Liz pursed her lips, her blue eyes dancing to Penelope for a brief moment before returning to the viceroy’s face. “Alright then, how about after supper tonight?” her sultry smile reappeared. “If we finish our meals fast enough, I’m sure we’ll have plenty of time to catch up with each other later.”

Crow hurriedly took a drink of his water to conceal his surprise at her brazen remark. Elizabeth had been bold when he’d known her years ago, and it seemed that quality hadn’t faded at all since then. “I just remembered I have plans with Naida after supper already,” he lied, shooting her a helpless look. “Sorry, darling. It’ll have to be another time.”

“Oh,” Liz frowned and then leaned into his side playfully again. “Well, it can’t be helped. Just don’t keep me waiting too much longer, okay, thief?”

“I wouldn’t dream of it,” Crow said, cringing at his own words. He quickly finished off the rest of his plate and stood up. As much as he wanted to spend more time with Penelope, he was far more eager to get away from the noblewoman. He supposed they would just have to find time to meet up again later. “I’ve got another lesson this afternoon, so I should get going.” He casted the knight one more apologetic glance before stepping away from the two. “I’ll see you later.”

“Bye, Collin,” Liz said perkily, following him with her eyes as he hurried out of the Great Hall. Once the viceroy was gone, she turned to Penelope with an upturned nose. “For your sake, I hope you meant it when you said you just share a mutual friend. You may have been his guard, but I was his lover. It’s only a matter of time before he comes back to me.” She rose from her seat and smiled arrogantly. “You don’t stand a chance.”

Elizabeth Payne
Age: 23

Brerratic Noblewoman

Bio: The daughter of a low ranking lord in Colchester and Crow’s only noble fling. Though she was rebellious when she was a teenager, Elizabeth (Liz) now aspires to use her strength and determination to advance her family name. So, when she learned that Crow was given the title of king’s viceroy, she wasted no time in securing a room in the castle to use their past to get close to him again.
Figured it was a good time to throw in Crow's old fling cx

I've got a CS almost done for her! It'll be up pretty soon
Crow held Penelope’s gaze with a contemplative frown when she admitted she hadn’t been getting much rest lately. He should have noticed it sooner, but with his recurring nightmares, he’d been too focused on himself to realize that she wasn’t faring much better than he was. Silently chiding himself, he made a mental note to pay closer attention in the future. He didn’t want to turn into the type of man who would put her problems on ignore just because he was having a hard time with his own issues.

As she tried to assure him that she would be fine, he studied her for a moment longer before nodding. “Well, I won’t keep you long then,” he said, casting her a warm smile. “I don’t want to stop you from getting enough sleep before your shift.” Though it wasn’t much, he wanted to do what he could to help her. After all, he knew better than anyone how torturous it could be to go too long without getting rest. If spending a little less time together that morning meant she wouldn’t have to endure as much fatigue, then it was worth it to him.

He turned away from her at the sound of approaching footsteps to see that Preston had returned with his breakfast. Eager to fill his empty stomach, he drummed his fingers against his leg beneath the table while the attendant performed his usual taste test to make sure it was safe. As soon as the boy was done, he picked up a utensil to start eating. However, he didn’t get a chance before a new voice spoke up from behind him.

“Oi, Lockton.”

Crow blinked and turned around in his seat, surprised to see a noblewoman he didn’t know walking up to their table. She was tall and rather pretty with long brown hair and clear blue eyes. Must be another one looking to court, he groaned inwardly. Despite his conclusion, something about her demeanor seemed strange to him. She wasn’t acting like the other meek girls he’d been introduced to so far. There was a swagger to her step that made her appear confident and an edge to her voice that nearly sounded mischievous.

Curiosity piqued, the viceroy met her gaze evenly, “That’s me. Do you need something?”

To his confusion, the woman laughed. “Wow,” she propped her hand on her hip. “You don’t even remember me, do you?”

“Should I?” Crow knitted his brow, looking her over a little more closely. Thinking about it more, there was something familiar about her. He just couldn’t put his finger on what it was.

“I’ll give you a hint,” the woman smirked. “Seven years ago in Colchester. The last thing I saw of you was your bare ass climbing out my window.”

Crow’s eyes widened and a blush colored his cheeks as he finally recalled who she was. “Liz?” he glanced furtively at Penelope, wishing the noblewoman would have picked a different moment to approach him. They didn’t have the most savory history together, and he wasn’t sure how open she would be in front of the knight.

“So you do remember,” Elizabeth grinned at him. “Thank gods. At least now I know for sure that you haven’t turned into a selfish pig.” She gestured at the empty space on the bench beside him. “May I?”

Crow shifted his weight slightly but, unable to think of a good excuse to get rid of her, casted Penelope a brief apologetic look and turned back to the woman with a forced smile, “Go ahead.”

“Great,” Liz brightened as she slid in next to him, a little too close for comfort. “You know, I never thought I was going to see you again, Crow—or, it’s Collin now, right?” she spoke eagerly, resting his chin in the palm of her hand as she held his gaze with a sultry smile. “Suddenly I find out you’ve gone from rogue to near royalty! It sounded too good to be true. That’s why I just had to come to the castle to see you for myself.”

“You came all the way here just to see me?” Crow raised a brow.

“Of course,” Liz turned slightly red and averted her gaze. “I’ve never forgotten that night seven years ago… To tell you the truth, I was always hoping we’d cross paths again someday.” Her cheerful demeanor returned as she looked up to meet his gaze again. “And now, here you are.” Her blue eyes swept over him. “And, might I add, you’ve grown up to be quite handsome.”

Crow shifted again, “Um, thanks.”

Elizabeth giggled, “Oh, don’t be so tense Collin. It’s just me.” Suddenly, she seemed to take notice of Penelope’s presence at the table. The noblewoman turned to her with a sheepish look, “I’m sorry. How rude of me.” Extending a hand, she casted the knight a friendly grin. “Elizabeth Payne. It’s a pleasure to meet you.”
Crow finally told Preston about his nightmare ^^;
As Penelope walked over to the door, Crow trailed a short distance behind her with a hint of worry on his face. It could have already been too late for them to hide what had happened that morning if the next guard had already replaced her in the corridor. He wasn’t sure what they were going to do in such a case. It would be difficult to convince the knight to leave his post long enough to sneak her out. Nevertheless, his mind worked quickly as he tried to think of a good excuse, unwilling to give up without giving his best effort first.

Fortunately, it seemed like they wouldn’t need a plan at all as Penelope announced that she’d gotten lucky that morning. Crow felt his shoulders fall a little with relief. The last thing he wanted was to cause more trouble for her than he already had. If she’d been caught, not only would their relationship be found out, but she would also probably get in trouble for leaving her station in the hall. She didn’t deserve that.

“Thank the gods,” he sighed, casting her a weary smile. “Bye, love.”

A brief silence followed when the knight left the room, which was eventually interrupted by Preston.

“So,” the attendant crossed his arms as he eyed the viceroy across the bedchamber. “You said you were going to tell me what’s going on. If I’m going to help you tomorrow, I need to know.”

“Fine,” Crow exhaled resignedly, too drained to continue fighting with the servant over the matter. He stepped away from the door to recline against the footboard of his bed, hesitating for a moment before he worked up the nerve to explain the situation. “Have you ever heard of a place called Tamsworth?”

“I think so,” Preston tipped his head slightly in thought. “It’s that cursed village to the east of Myrefall, right? The one where the people were all massacred by knights.”

“That’s it,” Crow nodded and then averted his gaze, shifting his weight uncomfortably. “Well… I was at that slaughter fifteen years ago.”

“Really?” Preston’s eyes widened.

The viceroy nodded again, “It’s where I got this.” He gestured to the jagged stripe of discoloration on his right side, where the tax collector’s sword had cut through his flesh as a child. “I was lucky to have survived that day,” he went on quietly, grimacing at the unpleasant memory. “But when I recovered… I started having nightmares of the attack.”

“Wait, you’ve been having these for fifteen years?” Preston’s brows raised in surprise.

“No” Crow shook his head. “They nightmares away for a long time after they initially appeared. It’s only been a few days since they started recurring again.”

“Oh,” the boy said contemplatively. “Why did they come back?”

“I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I’ve been through a similar situation recently,” Crow lifted his shoulders in a shrug and tapped his torso, where the more recent scar from Jaxon marked his skin. “Whatever the reason may be, that’s why I’ve been waking up in a panic… Visions of the past keep coming back to haunt me.”

Preston fell quiet for a moment. “That’s awful,” he murmured. “I can’t even imagine—”

“Don’t,” Crow sighed. “I didn’t tell you to earn your pity. It was just to get you to stop pestering me, so please don’t try to coddle me, alright?”

The attendant pursed his lips, “Alright.”

“Thank you,” the viceroy stepped over to the boy. “Now that that’s settled, I’m going to get dressed so we can get something to eat.”

Preston dipped his head and handed over the clothes he was carrying for him. Once Crow was finished getting ready for the day, they headed down the corridor that led to the dining chamber. The two walked in silence for the most part, neither one in a talking mood after the stressful events of the morning. When they reached the Great Hall, Crow took a moment to look around. His gaze landed on Penelope, and he smiled to himself, happy to see that he hadn’t missed her.

Splitting up from his attendant, the viceroy made his way through the thin crowd of nobles to sit down across from her at the table. However, his eagerness faded slightly when he noticed that she looked just as tired as she had been earlier that day. He was beginning to think he should ask her if she was alright.

“Are you feeling okay?” Crow ventured curiously. “You look like you could pass out any moment now.”
Preston reminded them of something else they needed to worry about cx
As he studied Penelope’s face a little closer, Crow was surprised to find that she seemed drowsy. At first, he felt a pang of guilt, jumping to the conclusion that she was tired because she had gotten up early to help him handle his panic attack. However, he pushed the feeling aside when he remembered that she had already been on guard in the hallway near his room. Perhaps her shift had just worn her out? The more he thought about it, the more likely it seemed. She probably just needed to get some rest after staying awake for so long.

“You should be alright now that Eldon’s gone,” he assured her, stepping back over to his bedside to collect the linen shirt he’d left on the mattress. “There aren’t very many people who come through this way aside from the occasional guard, and they shouldn’t find your presence suspicious since you were assigned to be up here last night.”

“They might find her lack of presence suspicious though,” Preston spoke up as he sifted through the open wardrobe for a change of clothes for the viceroy to wear for the day.

Crow turned to him with a frown, “What do you mean?”

“Well,” the attendant went on, draping a dark red tunic over his arm. “Don’t the castle guards usually switch shifts about this time?” When the viceroy didn’t say anything, he turned to Penelope. “Whoever is supposed to relieve you might find it strange if you’re not where you’re supposed to be.”

Finally understanding what the boy was saying, Crow paled slightly. Between the amount of time it had taken him to recover from his panic attack and the delay caused by Eldon’s appearance, Penelope had already been in his bedchamber for quite some time that morning. While he wasn’t sure exactly when the next guard would be replacing her in the corridor, he was certain they had to be arriving soon.

“He’s right,” he casted the knight a wistful look. “As much as I’d love to have you around longer, you should get back to your post before someone realizes you’re gone.”
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