[IC] When I Lost You (Magic223 and Tsubasa)

[tsubasa]

Natasha groaned as she came to, her head throbbing in pain. What the hell happened? Last thing she remember was.... What was the last thing she remember? Clint... and those icy blue eyes... And a solid kick to the side of the head. Well, that explained the throbbing. Where was she? She took note that she hands hung above her head and that her feet barely touched the ground and how she was bloody cold. She looked up at her hands to see herself in handcuffs draped over a large hanging hook. She was hanging like meat in a freezer. The cold made sense now. She kept looking around and noticed the door to the room in front of her. It seemed like someone was awfully confident that she wouldn't be able to get herself out. She looked back up at the hook, it was far too large for her to lift the handcuffs up and over, that was most likely why she was dangling. If her feet had been flat she could have created more height. Not like this though. Her next bet was to start swinging, the hook wasn't meant to keep sturdy when being swung. Maybe at the right angle, it would move forward and dislodge her. However, as she started to move her legs to swing, she cried out. A unexpected shooting pain rose up her left leg. Had Clint broken it? Did they do it just to prevent this escape?

Realizing, as she dangled from the roof, that this had all been set up perfectly just to stop her. The handcuffs were to long to allow her to grab the hook, she was too high up and the hook was too large to lift or maneuver herself off it, and with her leg, not only was swinging going to be excruciatingly painful but it was going to make getting out of there incredibly difficult. Besides, she didn't know what was on the other side of the door. For all she knew, Loki could have gathered swarms of men to stand outside that door. Of course, she could only even assume that it was Loki who had done this. Then again, it was Clint who had knocked her out, so surely it was him...

There was a clang followed by a thud. Natasha looked to the door and stared at it. There were few times in her life that Natasha had ever felt helpless. Even in hostage situations, she was always in control... But in this moment, hanging from the ceiling and glaring at the door in front of her, no means of escape (yet), no information on what was happening or where they were, she felt entirely helpless.

[Magic223]

Clint had no way of fighting Loki's comands he was no more than Loki's slave right now. Even when he had moments he tried to fight, it hurt and Loki would make sure he never broke free of his control.
So when Loki had made him capture Natasha that was what he had to do. Despite his feelings for her. But the man wasn't actually able to feel bad for doing it or know he was wrong.
Being under control made it too hard to feel that way.

He had taken her back to where Loki was hiding out. Which was some abanonded building. Clint followed what ever it was that Loki wanted him to do, even if it was simple things like getting the crazy god food. It wasn't like Loki could easily do that , people were afraid of him. Sometimes even threatening them made it hard.
It seemed almost as if Clint was a different man. Loki had sent him out again for something.

So it was Loki who opened the door. He smirked seeing Natasha chainned up. "Ah perfect." He smiled darkly, The god looked rather amused. He wanted to make sure that Clint killed her, Capturing her was sure to make that possible. "Your parnter has done good work chaining you up."
The god grinned evilly. "Your not getting away this time and Barton will fufill his role." LOki was really tormenting her. He knew she couldn't do much when she was handcuffed. The god didn't even need his staff.

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Natasha looked at the god as he grinned at her, how much she wanted to just look away from that sickening grin. However, she knew if she did, she would be admitting weakness. Feeding that lust for him to be stronger and mightier than that of the humans. She couldn't let his head get any bigger now could see. She smirked, "So, you hope."

This was just another hostage situation and all though, he held all the control, she couldn't let him believe that. He had to think that she had already concocted part of a plan and that this was all just another step in it. She looked to his hands to find them empty, she didn't know if they worried her or infuriated her. Was he that confident in Clint that he didn't even bring any kind of protection against her? Then again, Clint knew her quite well. It made her curse the fact that she had ever let anyone get as close as he had. The life the two of them lived was filled with lies and betrayal. She should have known to never allow it.

Her brain started to work as she sat there hanging looking at the god, how was she going to get out. She rose an eyebrow, "So... Where is he? I'm defenseless... Why not get it over with?

[Magic223]

Loki was looking at her with a dark look in his eyes. The god smirked. "Oh I will make sure of it." He was determined to not lose . He didn't like been beaten. He wanted Clint to kill Natasha. After that he was determined to kill Clint as well. He was sure he could rule new york without doing that , but it was too amusing for him to not take two SHIELD agents down with him.

The god was looking at her still "Barton, I sent him out for something, He'll be back." He smirked. The god was considering to torture her a bit first as well.
He smirked "Enjoy your last moments." Loki kicked her. He hoped Clint wouldn't take too long. "I am going to make sure Barton realizes what hes done before I kill him,"

Clint soon headed back and walked in. He walked up to Loki "Anything else you need." He looked to Natasha. His eyes narrowed darkly. In his right mind he would never hurt her.
"So when do you need me to kill her.?"

[tsubasa]

Natasha grunted when Loki kicked her, causing another burst of pain to run up her leg. She might have cry out or screamed in pain if didn't know that was exactly what Loki wanted from her. She looked up at the god and opened her mouth to speak when Clint walked it. She met his glassy eyes as he narrowed them and asked when he was needed to kill. Her eye twitched but any of response to his question was easily covered. She was afraid of death, even death at his hand. She lived every day knowing that she could be taken out by some threat. Friend or foe, it didn't matter, she had always expected. What she was worried about, was Clint. It was one thing being killed by someone who you thought was a friend and killing someone you knew was your friend.

She set her jaw and looked at the two of them, "So soon?" she asked with a small smile on her face, "After you went to so much work to getting me here. Getting on the hover carrier, knocking me out, getting Clint and I off the hover carrier, locking me up and away, even going as far as breaking my leg to make sure couldn't get away... Just to have him kill me... hours for ... I've been awake for what? Ten minutes?"

[Magic223]

"Well you were captured so that I could make sure Clint killed you and so you don't try break the control I have over him too soon." The god was smirking darkly. He really was determined that Clint would kill her.
He knew he was rather bored as one reason for all of this.

"I want him broken before I kill him, what better way than having him kill you, I know how much you mean to him," There was an unsettling smile on his face.
"When I am done with both of you, he will probably beg me to kill him."
Clint looked darkly at her, he was still awaiting for what he had to do. He had a feeling that Loki didn't want him to kill her just yet. The man was patient though.
He heard Loki tell him not quite yet. He walked up to Natasha. There was part of him that was trying to fight her influence but he couldn't. "Soon Natasha, soon," Clint smirked. There was a look in his eyes that really wasn't him.

[tsubasa]

Natasha looked at Clint as he walked over to her and smirked, speaking words with venom. She looked at him and matched his smirk, "We'll see about that."

She held his gaze, she wondered if she gave him one good wop to the head, if they'd make it out of this alive. She doubted it. Loki had every intention on killing Clint, he was just seeking maximum damage and somehow figured out that that was her. They had been partners for years and in their line of work, dating was increasing difficult. Running off on dates for reasons of 'it's classified'. Where do you work, 'it's classified'. Can you tell me at least what you do, 'Sorry that is level 5 information... So, it's classified'. People liked honesty in relationship and that wasn't exactly something their line of work would allow. Unless that person was on the same level as you. Not to mention, she thought, getting back on her previous line of thought, Clint was too close for her good leg to get a nice hit on him.

She moved slightly in her dangling position, her shoulders now starting to scream. She winced as her leg joined on the yelling. She bit her tongue, don't play their game... It doesn't hurt.

[Magic223]

Clint looked at her darkly "Oh I am sorry, but its true... I do what LOki asks and he wants you to die." He was struggling to fight against it. All that was in his head, was to do what Loki said, which was kill her.

He knew Loki was going to kill him sooner or later. But being under Loki's control. He was going to just do what ever pleased the god. So he didn't seem bothered if he had to die. he walked up to Natasha and dug his nails in. Everything they had been through was a bit blocked off. It didn't seem to change his opinions from what he did remeber, The man was focused on her.
He kicked her.
Loki smirked evilly "Make her suffer first." The god commanded.

[tsubasa]

Natasha watched as Clint closed the last of the distance between them. She bit her lip as he grabbed her, his nails digging into her. She was thankful for her cat suit, had it not been for that preventing him from digging into her skin, she would have felt more pain. She muffled a cry as Clint kicked her much like Loki had earlier. Hanging from the ceiling she was like their own personal punching and neither showed any signs with having a problem of using her as one.

Her handcuffs were digging into her wrists, slowly starting to try and break through her skin as her feet yearned to touch the ground. Her shoulder cried as her body felt as though she was being pulled away from them by gravity. Her leg screamed each time she managed to put pressed on it. Her sides burn from kicks both men had delivered to her. She held Clint's eye after he kicked her. The two of them had learnt how to hold out from torture together... He knew what and how to break. Even if Loki didn't want any information, Clint knew how to get the man was he wanted. Clint knew how to make her suffer and now, she had to hold out against her well muscled partner beating her while she just hung there defenseless. Even if she was on the ground, on her feet, she left like she was still be rather defenseless. She couldn't kick and handcuffs made punching hard.

She set her jaw and looked at Loki, he had the upper hand, but she couldn't tell him that. It wouldn't stop him. She smirked, "A human has caused you that much grief?"

[Magic223]

Clint smirked as she bit her lip. He knew that she would try to contain any pain she was feeling. He had been with her long enough to know she would hide pain. She was an assinian and so was he. Barton had learned to hide pain as well even when it was hard.
Right now because he didn't know what else to do, because of his invaded mind, his target was her.
THe man smirked darkly.

Clint knew she would hold out on the torture as long as she could . ClInt smacked her in cheek. He was ready to pull a knife and end her as soon as Loki wanted it. But for now Loki wanted him to torture her.
The god was smirking watching them, "Keep it up... I want you to break her first." LOki was smirking darkly. The god was enjoying watching that. "Ohh because Its fun, Your not giving me grief but also it is a warning to anybody who tries to stop me."
Loki knew that somebody would try stop him, he didn't want to be stopped.

[tsubasa]

Natasha's head moved as Barton's hand collided with it, her hair falling to cover her face. She stayed like that as she listened to Loki speak. After a moment, she laughed and met his gaze again, tossing her hair out of her face as best she could, "If you think you killing me is going to stop the others, you have another thing coming."

So, the team wasn't really working as a team but Loki didn't need to know that. She just had to hope that when it came down to it, they would band together and deal with the sadistic god in front of her. She looked at Clint, held his eyes for as long as she could before shaking her head, "I'm not going to break... That's something we both know isn't it?" She looked back at Loki, "And here I thought you might want a bargaining chip with S.H.I.E.L.D when we ultimately defeat you... Don't you think that might release you for the living, breathing, uncontrolled Agent Barton?"

She leaned her head against her eyes and watched the god, hoping that she might convince him to spare for Barton. Even if he still intended on killing her... Then again, she guessed she wouldn't know. She glanced at Barton, she really hoped that amongst all this mind control, he didn't remember what used to break her in training....

[Magic223]

Loki laughed and was looking at her "Is that so? Because they would be stupid to come cross me," he was smirking darkly "And they won't be able to save you," He was going to make sure of that.
He wanted to make Sure Clint killed her first.

Clint smirked darkly "Not break? we will see about that, I remeber how to break you." He laughed darkly. He was sure he could play with her feelings too. He knew how she felt about him.
He was not going to give up on torturing her.
"I do what I want." Loki growled. He looked at her. He intended on making sure he got what he wanted "I don't need a bargianing chip with them, " He spat. He wasn't going to give her what she wanted either.

[tsubasa]

Natasha's heart pounded in her chest as Barton's words. Did he have that information just locked away in his head, just in case. She had tried to repress those memories, sitting with him and trying to make each other talk or having someone do it to them, to ensure the other wouldn't blab. Maybe, when Barton was forced to flip, these memories presented themselves. A sickening feeling filled her stomach as the thought of him offering up this information to Loki, sparking this sadistic plan. She looked at Clint, attempting to hide any all signs of worry from her face, "Perfect. I get to practice."

She shook her head, "Soon you are going to find, Loki. That you are just going to have wished that you had," she rested her head on her arm and looked Clint, "Can we get on with this? Might as well just get it over with. You can try to get me to beg for mercy and I'll die without a word... How unsatisfactory."

[Magic223]

Clint glared at her, . He got closer to her and kissed her mainly as torture. Clint knew how to mess with her, He then stabbed her in arm. The assianian was determined to make her suffer.
He seemed to be waiting for an indication from the god on what to do. He could see Loki was tiring and wondered if Loki would leave them be for awhile. He smirked and dug his nails in again.
"This is not going to end quickly. You need to suffer first,"

"MMPhh never." Loki snapped. He yawned a bit. Even for a villainous god, he did need sleep. Loki didn't want her to know he was tired. But he knew he hadn't stopped for quite awhile to rest.
"Have fun torturing her." He laughed darkly and walked out of the room.
Clint slapped her, he was determined to break her down. The assianian knew how to make her suffer if he had to. He had no way of fighting what Loki wanted of him. He didn't seem to have the desire to have that control broken as he wasn't himself.

[tsubasa]

Natasha's eyes widened when Clint kissed her. No! He didn't know how she felt about him... She thought she had done so well hiding away those feelings. Then again, Loki had picked up on them. She kept her eyes open and refused the urged to kiss him back. She grunted as he stabbed her arm, the blade biting into her skin. She glanced at the blade in her arm, the blood oozing out from under it and slowly soaking her arm. Crap, he must have hit an artery. If he removed the blade, it wouldn't be too long time she died of blood loss.

She could feel blood trickling down her face and cheek as she stared at Barton. She moved her arms to the one hand was higher. She grabbed the chain of her handcuffs lifting herself up before she managed to send her knee into his temple. She leaned her head back for a moment, breathing. When she looked back up at the door and Barton. Her vision was getting woozy, her head spinning. She wonder if she got a concussion from when Hawkeye hit her. If she had, closing her eyes was the worse idea. However, she couldn't stop her head from drooping and her passing out, hanging there.

[Magic223]

Clint didn't expect her to attack him. He was knocked out once she hit him on the head. The was enough for Loki's control over him. He was unconnious and breathing heavily. LOki meanwhile was asleep and didn't know what was going on.
Barton awoke and was looking around. He groaned holding his head. He realized what he had been about to do and he felt guilty. He cared about Natasha and he didn't want to hurt or kill her.
He saw that she was wounded. He knew it was his fault.

Quickly as he could he unchained her and carried her out of the buillding. He was a bit dazed and confused. But he had to focus on getting her medical help. She was still unconnious when he did. He just hoped she didn't wake till he got her there.
The man knew she would be mad.
Clint stayed outside the room letting the medics tend to her. He had been very close to killing her and it made him feel sick.

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When Natasha woke again, nothing hurt. Her arms no longer hung above her head and she lay on her back. She stared at the white ceiling as her vision cleared. There was a beeping sound coming from some machine that seemed to be somewhere around her. There was woman hanging over her all the sudden, "Hi, Mrs. Romano, I'm glad to see you're awake. I'm Dr. Morrison."

Her head was spinning as the woman continued to talk to her. Why did she call her Romano? Or Mrs for that matter? How had she gotten here? The doctor smiled at her again, "Don't worry. It is normal to feel a little disoriented. You are on a few pain meds and had to be sedated earlier."

"Why?" Natasha asked, her voice hoarse and gravely. She felt as though she hadn't spoke in days. The woman seemed to be looking at a bag that was connected to her arm, "Well, you woke up we were tending to you and... It was to prevent you from hurting yourself. You seemed to be flailing like you were trying to hit someone."

Natasha nodded. Dr. Morrison leaned over her and shone a light into her eye, "Can you tell me your full name?"

Natasha hesitated, could she? She was in a hospital and she knew that Loki wasn't the one who brought her here. The doctor had just called her Mrs. Romano, which meant she was under an alias... That she didn't know. Whoever brought her here, wanted to keep her hidden. Whether it was from S.H.I.E.L.D or Loki, she wasn't sure. Due to her lack of response Dr. Morrison smiled, yet again, "Don't worry. We are just going to run a few more tests... I'll tell your husband."

Natasha watched the woman leave, so the Mrs thing hadn't been a mistake. She was just curious to who it was she got married to while unconscious.
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Dr. Morrison left the room and smiled at Clint, "She just woke up. Her vitals look good... However, she wasn't able to tell me her name... We are going to run a few more tests but please, feel free to go sit with her."

[Magic223]

Clint was waiting for her to wake. He knew it was his fault. He couldn't seem to get that out of his head. Even if he hadn't been himself when he did all that. He knew he had to apologize he was just scared she would hate him.
He knew he would deserve that.

"Oh Tasha... I'm so sorry." He quietly. He knew that she maybe angry at him for awhile. Clint felt like he would have alot to explian. He hadn't been himself for awhile. He almost forgot what it was like to be able to think clearly for himself.
It had felt like he would never get to be himself again.
Natasha was important to him. He never wanted to harm her.

Still feeling sick from what he had done, he ran to a bathroom and threw up. He was groaning. If he had killed her he didn't think he could ever forgive himself. He still had no idea if she was going to live.
He walked out after and sighed. He knew he needed to calm down and not panic.
Barton sees the Doctor "Oh ok.." He was glad to hear she was alright and went into room.

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Natasha heard the doctor talking to someone just outside the door. Then she heard her shoes walking away and finally, her 'husband' walked in the door. Her heart pounded and the monitor sped up along with it. Oh, how much she wanted to disconnect herself from it. After a moment, she realized his eyes were not longer seeming to glow blue. Her heart rate lower as she looked him, walking over to her bed. He looked so distressed. She wanted to be mad about what he did, after all, she was lying in a hospital bed with a broken leg, a stab wound and who knows what other injuries. But looking at him, and knowing that he probably regretted everything he had done. She gave him a small groan and rubbed her head, "What happened?..."

She figured the greatest gift she could give him for saving her life, after unwillingly torturing her to the point where her life needed saving, was pretending like she didn't remember a second of it. She closed her eyes, "Are we on the hover carrier?"

[Magic223]

"Loki had me under his control and made me hurt you.... ," Clint started. He wouldn't look at her, he couldn't. His heart was beating rather fast. He looked very distressed and sat down.
"I...... you do know I would never do that in my right mind." He wasn't sure if she truely didn't remeber or if she was faking it. He was traumatized from having his mind played with and from what he had done. He knew that Loki had found his weakness and used it against him.
His body was still shaking a bit. He gulped and tried to calm down.

"Yeah we are," He said answering her question. "I am so sorry Natasha." He hoped that she would foregive him. It hadn't been like he knew what he was doing. He had a hand in his hair.
He felt dizzy and distraught and wanted to lay down.
The assianian shivered a bit.