harinezumikouken — Roleplayer Guild

So yeah, as the title reads, my girlfriend broke up with me. All I’ve wanted to do is just lie down in bed and ignore everything around me while I wallow in self-pity and guilt. Unfortunately, I still have responsibilities as well as family and friends who keep me from doing so. Everyone keeps getting me to do things like hang out with them or do work for them, saying that the best thing to do is to get my mind off of her. Problem is that everything seems to remind of her. I play a game and I think, “We played video games together all the time.” I watch a movie or tv show and I think, “Why does every story have to have a romantic sub-plot to remind me that she left me?” If I listen to any song about love I think, “Why does this person get to find love and I don’t?” Anything related to Australia or New Zealand makes me think, “That’s where she’s from.” I can’t even leave my own damn home without seeing some random couple walking down the street and thinking, “I’m such a failure that I couldn’t even keep the relationship going long enough to get the money together to go see her and do normal couple-stuff like hand holding and kissing.” Hell, just being on the Guild reminds me that we first met on this very site. I’ve just felt too heartbroken, depressed, lonely, and every other synonym for sad you can think of to bring myself to work up a post. Despite all of this, I do feel that I underestimated my ability to recover from emotional injury though and don’t actually need a week or more until I’m ready to get back in this as I originally said in my last post. For those of you who were in one of the two RPs I was GMing, I’m sorry but both had her somewhat involved in their creation and I find it hard to go back to either. It’s no excuse to just suddenly leave you all high and dry, but people seemed to have been losing interest anyway.

In short, I should be back for good and will try to post sometime today.@Guess Who

Not sure if you need to be hearing this right now, but I'm going to share this with you because I would've done the same to my younger self. If I had the means to talk to my younger self, that is. It's really stupid and cliche to say, but there are other guys and gals out there for you boss. I went through five relationships before I ended up with the woman of my nightmares. Each of them ended up in different nasty ways. Each break up, my fault or not, was painful. It happens. You're young. You have plenty of time to find someone else. It may be hard to think of finding someone else so freshly wounded, but you will. Cry your tears, beat your chest, and scream at the wall. Let it all out, then pick yourself back up and quit your snivelling so you can get back to enjoying your life. If you need anyone to talk to, you can rest assured in confiding in this crusty salt-dog. 

If it helps comfort you any, I've been together with my wife for 8 years. Happily married for 3+ years. I'm no expert, but I'm not talking out of my ass. My wife and I have been through a lot of shit together, all sorts of Hells and High Waters. You'll find your co-op partner some other day.
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