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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“Yeah, I guess it was. It’s at least given you time to recover some energy, even if it’s only a little.” Iris smiled slightly happy on a different subject and not her feelings, although the idea of opening up to him wasn’t a bad idea as she had done it once. The problem was she’d only feel guilty for doing it because of everything she had caused, why should she unload her feelings making herself feel better when she felt she didn’t deserve it. “This will probably be the best place we stay.” Sighing at the realisation on the fact she couldn’t do more to make him comfortable.

Hearing his joke, the half-smile tugging at his lip at his lip as he spoke about his bucket list and how couch surfing had been on it only made the guilt resurface. Without noticing the tears left her eyes as she looked at him, listening about how he was living life on the edge and to screw safety. Bowing her head in shame she looked at the bandages in her hand she knew she hadn’t been quite finished with her breakdown, her emotions were still running haywire and it was hard to control. “You never deserved this… it’s all my fault.” Whispering more to herself as she focused her gaze on the bandages in her hand.

“What have I become? I don’t…” Sighing as she shook her head shaking away the tears before she looked back up, “Sorry… I.. I will be fine, ignore me.” Trying to smile as she moved over thankful he had leaned a little closer, taking the time she gently began to loosen the bandages trying to take care and not hurt him anymore. Gently removing the old bandages, she cringed seeing the wound, it wasn’t the best looking and she knew there was plenty of time before it would heal. It worried her that it could get infected. What if it got infected whilst they were still here as there was no way she could treat it. Not without medication.

Placing the soiled bandages to one side she grabbed the new set and began to wrap them around his bicep, again it had to be tight but not too much so he couldn’t feel his arm. With ease she had re patched him up with the new set of bandages with albeit shaky hands, she had done a good job and she was happy with it. “How does it feel? Not too tight right? I hope it doesn’t get infected… I don’t know what to do on that front.” Smiling sadly as she looked at the bandaged bicep, “All we can do really is hope that rest will help you recover quicker, at least tonight will be comfortable.” Rambling slightly as she fiddled with her fingers, a part of her felt nervous being alone with him now.

Cas had every right to be angry at her, a part of her wanted him to shout at her, blame her because she was at fault. Another part wanted nothing more than to hug him and say how everything was going to be okay, but she knew that was not appropriate. Not when they could never be with each other and that wasn’t just because of the betrayal but because of their social status, plus she was certain that his father was after her head.

The Arrangement [Suki & Kassarock]

Deciding it was best not to push the subject of the old poetry Elise watched as he plucked a book above her with ease, a part of her didn’t think it was poetry especially with how quickly he had stepped away from it stating it was irrelevant. “Ah… thank you.” Feeling herself smile naturally as she took the book from him, but for a moment she felt their fingertips touch in the brief exchange, and it was hard not to blush, not feel her heart skip a beat. It was hard not to feel something when a part of her desired to be loved. Don’t be a fool, that is not on the cards for me.

Reprimanding herself she glanced down at the thinner book from the last in her hands, the faded coloured cloth and beautiful golden font. Slender fingers tracing the letters upon the book as she took a moment to glance at it, taking a peek at the pages inside as she tried to forget about the touch and how for a brief moment, she had forgotten herself. I am foolish, he probably thinks I’m some stupid girl with feelings. I don’t have a desire to be with him, to be loved. No.

What had made it worse was that she had rambled about her feelings, shown weakness and given him something he could use to his advantage which was all too clear at his response. The way he had changed, forced a laugh at no doubt her expense made the hairs on the back of her neck stand up. “Trouble you? Yes, because my sole aim of coming here is to trouble you. Get over yourself.” Instantly she had become defensive, angered by his words but it was hard to hide the hurt as he continued.

Feeling her heart stop it took an additional few seconds for Elise to process what he had said, it was a wave of emotions as she felt her walls crumble. Would they care enough to reply? They have just left me here, sold me off. No communication. Nothing. No. I won’t cry, I won’t give him satisfaction. He would love it if I broke down like some weak child. The hurt was soon replaced by anger and a frown crept up on her face as she clutched the book in her hands narrowing her eyes at King Ozragad.

“THEY gave me to you. That means nothing because I have not given myself to you and I NEVER will.” Speaking up firmly as she glared at him, “No one could love you, you’re just a bloodthirsty warlord who only knows how to kill.” Her words were laced with venom as it was clear he had struck a chord with her with his words. Anger coursed through her as she dared to fight back, speak up against him as she couldn’t, no wouldn’t let him win.

“You know what. I don’t want to learn about your people. I. Don’t. Care.” Without even thinking the book in her hands went flying towards him as she threw it with force, the anger clouding her judgement on how stupid throwing a book at him was. Although Elise wasn’t finished, the idea that her family didn’t care had really affected her and even though it had been something she felt hearing the words from him made it worse. “You might as well keep me as a prisoner or kill me because I will NOT marry you. I refuse.” Elise felt her hands tremble as she clenched them into fists, shaking with anger.

“I will NEVER marry you.”

The Arrangement [Suki & Kassarock]

Hey don't worry about it! Hopefully it picks back up with some more writing! How have you been?

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Yes! I'm thinking of starting running you know.

Yay! I managed to get one up before bed too!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Maisie looked up grimacing as she heard his voice, she felt Iris stiffen in her arms probably embarrassed on the fact he had walked in on them. “No no, it’s okay. Yeah, it is a good idea we change that. It could get infected if we don’t.” Speaking normally, not drawing attention to the scene of Iris crying.

No. Did he hear what I said? I hope not. Oh gosh, why does he always see me crying like this? He must think I am pathetic. I am pathetic. Stiffening at the fact he had walked in on them, already berating herself on the fact she could not keep her emotions in check and had broken down completely. Pulling away from Maisie she wiped her face hoping she did not look a state, but even she knew her face would be blotchy from crying. “Did you eh… enjoy your shower?” Iris tried to smile pushing all emotions aside best she could; her voice shaky as she glanced over at Cas trying to avoid the subject of her emotions.

“Let me get some new bandages, I think I have a few left in the bedroom.” Maisie smiled as she rose to her feet to find some more bandages, casing a glance at Iris she gave her a warning smile. “Eat up, I mean it.” Warning her as she moved towards the bedroom to get some supplies to sort out the wound for Caspain.

Glancing over at the pie on the table Iris sighed, picking it up in her hands as she slowly started to pick at it. Eating a little bit, she forced herself to eat because Maisie would not let it go if she didn’t, she started to feel a little awkward but then she was still quite emotional. Upset and somewhat lost, but it did not matter now. It had to be pushed aside because getting him home was more important than anything right now.

“Here we are!” Maisie grinned holding some new bandages, “Although I highly doubt, you’ll be able to do this yourself.”

“I will do it. It’s not a problem.” Iris smiled looking up as she put the plate back down, the pie half eaten.

“Well alright. I should set up the rooms and get some sleeping bits for everyone. I think I have a spare blanket at least. You sure you’re okay on the sofa? I feel bad.” Maisie sighed as she looked over at Cas before glancing to Iris and the barely touched food. Holding her tongue she would get to the bottom of it later. Passing the bandages over she gave a small wave before disappearing into the bedroom to find comfort for everyone.

“Will you be okay on the sofa? Especially with that arm?” Iris asked gently as she took the bandages looking over at Cas, face still blotchy and red in places from the tears she had shed earlier. “Did you eh.. want me to help? I’d be happy to re patch that up.” Smiling as she looked down at the bandages in her hands smiling, it was at least something she could do to help him.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Yeah maybe!? I have to travel to work each day so I enjoy my walk outside haha. I do miss having a normal routine!

Oh gosh don't worry about it! I'm always happy to wait :)

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh gosh, yeah it seems to be quite common at the moment! People not being able to sleep.

I'm so tired though, I'm hoping I can get some rest this evening :3

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Maisie smiled waving him off as if it was nothing, she didn’t mind one bit, not when it came to her dearest friend as she would do anything for her. With ease she had already sliced and plated a slice of pie for Iris handing it over, “Go sit down and eat. I’ll make you a drink.” Turning back to the kitchen she pulled out a mug to make her a cup of tea hoping it would calm her friend and help towards sleeping later, Maisie already knew that it would be a problem. Growing up with Iris she knew her, probably better than herself right now. Frowning at that thought she shook her head busying herself with making some tea.

Sighing to herself Iris held the plate in her hand before moving back to the sofa sitting herself down looking at the food, it smelled amazing but at the same time she didn’t feel all to hungry. Although Maisie will kill me if I don’t eat something. Thinking to herself as she absentmindedly pushed around the pie on her plate, it smelled amazing. It looked great and she knew was probably hungry, but she just didn’t feel it right now.

“Iris…” Maisie sighed softly as she moved back over catching her push around the slice of pie, placing down the mug of tea on the table as she sat down next to her friend. “At least try to eat a little.” Urging her friend to eat.

Shaking her head Iris placed the plate down on the table, “I can’t… I… I don’t know. I thought I was hungry. I probably am.” Placing her head in her hands as she couldn’t face her friend, she could feel herself tremble as she tried to keep herself together and not breakdown.

“Hey… hey.” Maisie smiled edging closer as she pulled Iris into a hug, but the minute she did she felt her friend crumble in her arms. Tears had started to fall, and she could hear the quiet sobs of her friend as she kept her arms firmly around her, moving her hand she stroke her hair gently giving it a moment before she would talk. For now, she’d let Iris cry it out in her arms even though it pained her she couldn’t help more.

“I… I’m such a horrible person. W-Who even am I-I? I.. I don’t know anymore.” Her words choked out as she gripped at her friend, seeking the comfort that she was providing. “I… how could I do that to someone? I broke his trust. I ruined everything…” The tears rolled down her cheeks as she couldn’t stop it, she had opened up the flood gate of emotions. “I’ve lost my family… My f-father, he will kill me. I’ve lost everything and it’s all my fault.”

“Iris… you lost your dad some time ago and you know this deep down.” Maisie sighed feeling her own heart break at how broken her friend was, “You may not remember it, which might be a blessing but… he wasn’t the same person. You know this.”

“It… d-doesn’t excuse what I did to Cas!” Shaking her head as she didn’t move from the hug, she didn’t want her friend to see her in such a state. “Not that it matters now… who w-was I-I kidding. As if he could like someone like me…”

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Haha yeah! It's always the way!!

Hahaha I have a lot of trouble sleeping generally so sometimes I just always check in here xD

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

I'm still struggling to find a face claim for Maisie haha

Ahh me too! The plans will be great :3

Right I think I need to go to bed, I'm super tired! I shall see you around tomorrow :)