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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ohh very nice! Sounds like a pretty fun weekend though!

Hey no worries! Oh gosh how drunk did you guys get?

I had a good weekend! We had a huge DnD night for my friends birthday were we all had some alcohol which was fun!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Once she had opened up her emotions it was hard to stop it, the tears wouldn’t stop coming as she held onto Cas who was trying to soothe her through her sobs. Already her mind was racing from the fact she had tried to conceal it, the fact she wasn’t as strong as he may have thought she was to other thoughts how pathetic she must look right now and what an absolute mess she had to be. That she couldn’t handle being interrogated by the soldiers or being in a prison locked away for her crimes like she should be. It was all ridiculous thoughts but with all the pressure and emotional turmoil her mind was unforgiving making her truly believe she was not worth it.

I committed treason; how can you make that better? Words she desperately wanted to ask him, but she couldn’t find the courage because neither of them would really like the answer to it. Death was the most common answer, but perhaps they would pardon her and allow her back into the districts as she had helped him home. It was funny, they had spent so much time on an adventure in the districts breaking him back into the Capital and now roles were reversed, she was the captive but she felt like their options for breaking her free were very limited. Security in the Capital was vastly different to the districts.

Iris was calming down slowly, and she was trying to control her tremors, his gentle touch and kisses made her feel loved by him and of course gave her a brief feeling of joy. The way he brushed away her tear stained cheeks confirming to her just how much she meant to him prompted a slightly smile from her as she looked at him with puffy red eyes. “I don’t think it will be that simple Cas.” As much as she wished it could all be over, that with a snap of his fingers everything would be normal, and they could just live some sort of life together, but that would never be possible.

Reaching up with her pale hand she touched his cheek gently as her smile wavered on her face looking at Cas, “You know the crimes I have against me. I’ll never be able to take back what I did to you and that’s something I have to live with.” Rubbing her fingers against his cheek she let her hand drop to her side before looking down at her lap, eyes downcast in shame.

“I love you Cas, but… I. I’m not strong enough to go through that again, the questions… the interrogation.” Already she could feel the tears well up in her eyes again as she tried not to remember the questioning, but the imprint it had left on her was hard to forget. “I’d rather…" Hesitating before she said the next part. [color]=f49ac2] "I’d rather they just kill me already, let’s not pretend that’s not the punishment.” [/color] It was something that she had been thinking about, she had accepted the fact she was most likely to die. What’s the point in me living anymore anyway? Thoughts she didn’t dare to voice out loud to Cas.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

No worries! That sounds like a great night!!

Ohhh I hope you have fun with the games and drinking! That will be me tomorrow night :3

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

It was strange, Iris didn’t know how to feel as she saw him walk inside commanding an air of authority about him. Split between her emotions of wanting to hold him, to just be in his arms and forget about everything the other part, the fearful part of her instantly thinking that maybe he was here to tell her about her death. Or maybe he was here to tell her how he had used her to get back home, all ludicrous thoughts of course but with everything that had happened she knew she would deserve that kind of betrayal considering what she had done. It would be karma coming back to bite her.

Though the way he tried to get rid of Harry didn’t match with her thoughts of him coming to announce her death, the security guard could be present for such news after all they probably knew about her fate before she would find out. Watching the exchange as Cas changed tactic as the guard had said how Jacob knew which room she was in she felt nervous, the idea of being alone with Cas in the room made her feel light headed because she knew she had to keep her emotions in check. Iris had to be strong, make him think she was okay because then he wouldn’t be angry, because ultimately even though his father had ordered her arrest his father was in the right. She was a traitor to the crown, part of the rebellion that had hurt the crown Prince.

Seeing Harry leave the room she heard the door close behind him and before she even had time to think she felt Caspains arm around her. Comforting her. Apologising when it wasn’t his fault, it was her fault and he shouldn’t take the blame for any of it. Hesitating to return the hug she knew she was feeling overwhelmed, but she tried to make her voice sound strong. “I’m fine, honestly. Nothing happened.” He didn’t know what could have happened to her, she had hoped Jacob wouldn’t tell and maybe he didn’t. Maybe she could get away with pretending to be fine, though her heartbeat quickened as she tried to calm her emotions and keep them in check. “D-Don’t worry about it.”

Iris’ breath hitched in her throat as she stumbled over her words, feeling him pull her in closer and the familiar scent of him caught her off guard breaking through the cracked walls she was trying to keep up. Within an instant her walls came crumbling down and she couldn’t kid herself anymore, she couldn’t keep up the act as she finally returned his hug, her own grip weaker than it should be as her body shook gently. A barrage of emotions flooded out of her, first came the tears and then the sobs as she was unable to stop the gate that opened of her emotions. Iris wasn’t stable and as much as she had wanted to appear like she was fine she was far from it; she was a mess and she didn’t want him to see her like this. Not when he had been through hell because of her, not when it could have an impact on his relationships in his life because she was just one person and he had an entire nation to think about.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

It's so cute though bless him, he's barely just recovered! ;A;

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Whilst sat in the chair Harry listened out to all the sounds around him, he was trained for this and even though his eyes were closed he was still on full alert making sure that no one came to harm and that no one moved her from this room. I bet Matthew is not impressed, he hates it when the prisoner he questions gets moved. Or given treatment for that matter. Mulling over his thoughts on Matthew who had interrogated the girl, the fact the Aproveset had been used so quickly was interesting to him. Usually it only came after other means, the usual questioning techniques. Violence, though perhaps they didn’t want to hit a girl. Aproveset was certainly the easiest. Though Matthew has an obsession with that drug, pushing it further each time. Sighing to himself as he pondered his thoughts letting the girl have her own space for now.

Well hopefully Matthew will be suspended for this, it was clear he did not follow the correct guidelines. Though, she is the daughter of the rebel leader, the King will want her dead and stick up for him. Wondering just what would happen over this, Matthew was often protected as it wasn’t the first time, he had done something like this.

Feeling her body tremble Iris glanced at the cup of water that was on her table, she hadn’t even notice it get there and all she could feel was confused. Well, water was a good thing and something she could do with, trying to swallow she could feel how dry her mouth was. Reaching out to the glass she took hold of it in her hand but as she wrapped her fingers around it, she frowned, her grip was not nearly strong enough to even attempt to lift it from the table. Letting her hand drop back to her side she fell back on the bed sighing softly closing her eyes just wishing for death to come kill her.

Snapping to attention Harry looked up hearing a knock on the door and before he went to answer it the Prince walked inside, and he stumbled not expecting to see him back in the hospital. Bowing his head respectfully hiding the shock to see him here, “Your Highness.” Taking a step, he allowed the Prince inside the room, automatically he looked out for Jacob knowing he wouldn’t be far behind the Prince.

Your Highness? It felt like her heart stopped when she heard those words, had Cas come to visit her? How did he know she was here? Jacob had said he wouldn’t tell him, she didn’t want him to know. Maybe he doesn’t know, maybe he just knew I was in the hospital and thinks I was taken care of? The little colour she had regained instantly drained at the idea of Caspain being here, as much as she had wanted to see him, she didn’t want it to be like this whilst she was in this state and still trembling. “C-Cas…” It was barely an audible whisper that came from her lips as she looked over at him, eyes wide seeing him standing in her hospital room.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ahh that's good to hear!

Omg deffo! Cas being all demanding there! You can see the growth in his character ;A;

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“Sorry, I didn’t catch any of that.” Iris mumbled as she looked down at the cards in her hand that had been deal to her, she still didn’t feel right, and she couldn’t keep pretending otherwise even if she didn’t want to show weakness in front of them. If she was honest, she still couldn’t shake the effects of that drug that had been injected into her system, even though it had to be gone it was hard to shake away that feeling. It’s probably just my mind making me believe such a thing. It’s something I never want to go through again… the pain. It was like I wasn’t myself. I'm not myself.

“No worries we can play cards another time. You could probably do with some rest.” Harry smiled as he started to pack away the cards taking them gently from her hand. Whether or not there would be another time to play cards with her he doubted it, but he could see she wasn’t up for it. What little colour she had had drained from her face and he wasn’t going to push her, after all she was in the hospital for a reason. Shoving the cards back into his pocket he moved his chair back to its original place before looking back over at the girl who didn’t really seem present. Looking at the bedside table he could see a jug filled with water and a few cups around it, moving over he poured out two glasses of water. One for himself and the other he took in his hand and placed it on the table where the cards had been set up moments ago, not wanting to disturb her he sighed and settled himself back in his chair but he kept an eye on her noting the sudden change in behaviour.

Focused on her own thoughts Iris fell into a somewhat trance. It was as if the lights where on, but no one was home. I… maybe I’ll get to say goodbye to Cas one more time. I don’t know how he dealt with everything I put him through, that my father put him through and Ethan. It had to be painful… but… that drug. Without even noticing tears had left her eyes as her mind wandering back to the interrogation, she wasn’t fine. As much as Iris wanted to say she was fine, that it didn’t hurt, and she was okay in reality she wasn’t, and she still wished for someone to just end it for her. It was the easy way out she knew that, but it was honestly starting to feel like the only viable option as she had nothing to really live for.

Harry had started to feel a little awkward, of course it hadn’t been the first time he’d been a prisoner who had cried, Harry had seen grown men cry after the Aproveset and this wasn’t different and he shouldn’t feel more sympathetic because was a girl as she had been part of the rebellion anyway, but she seemed pretty harmless. Closing his eyes, he sat back in the chair folding his arms, he wouldn’t think about it. Instead he would use the time to focus on more important matters until Jacob told him otherwise.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

How is Kai? I hope all good!

Yaaaaas super excited! I can't wait to see Cas question Jacob haha

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Omg bless Cas ;A;

I bet the Warden is like well oh shit xD