sukikyoufu

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ahh yeah! I suppose things must feel quite different. How is the new home coming along?

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Although a day ago Iris had spoken of her distaste to reality TV and how she didn’t get it after watching a bit more their charms had grown on her. The way people would try to impress someone else, the editing which threw in some funny comments and then the element of the competition it was hard not get invested in the show. Plus, there really wasn’t much else she could do in his bedroom, though she figured she might ask to start borrowing some books so she could read a bit more as that was something she had been interested in.

“Oh no no, as Miles said not me. I would be worried if I couldn’t dress myself. Though again there isn’t much colour in the districts or choice, so it has been nice to see more fancier clothes.” Scoffing as Miles continued on agreeing with Cas that she would do an alright job she couldn’t help but shake her head, “Oh no trust me. I know nothing of guys clothes. You would honestly both look like clowns if I were to dress you... It has been nice though to watch it, I never thought I’d be interested in this reality TV after I dismissed it yesterday.”

As Miles proclaimed he should go on the show she felt a twinge of guilt knowing she had rejected him moments ago she tried to smile playing along, “Maybe you should, I’m sure the women would be interested. I guess sometimes you have to wait for the right person. I could definitely see you on one of these shows though, especially with your confidence.” From what she had seen on the TV shows everyone had some sort of confidence about them and Miles was not different, as she had always seen him so carefree happy and confident so it was easy to see him on there.

Sitting back in the chair Iris felt her gaze drift over to Cas as they spoke about how he was a prude in the sheets she couldn’t help but disagree to that, not when they had experienced a few close encounters together. It was true, he was probably surrounded by beautiful women vying for his attention and somehow, he had bonded with her. Though he had made a point, a lot of people had probably seen him as a steppingstone to be queen and most times she had forgotten about his heritage as it didn’t matter to her. Sure, his lifestyle was grand and full of luxuries, but they had spent a lot of time together struggling in the districts and still feeling the same for one another. If she was totally honest with herself, she knew she was scared to become something serious with him as she didn’t think she was worthy.

“I’m sure you will find someone like that, who accepts you for who you are beyond the crown.” Iris couldn’t help but smile as she spoke to Cas, eyes full of care and she knew he would understand her words that she did deeply care for him and not because he was an easy ticket to an easy life. Iris had never seen him like that, and she hoped he knew that.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

It so is though haha.

Have you ever experienced a weird day when you're not sure what you've done, but it's been busy?

Yes!! I'm excited to flash back to him :3

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“Yeah alright awesome.” Iris rolled her eyes as Miles happily chimed in with his own thoughts, happy that he was choosing to sit elsewhere as it meant Cas could sit next to her. Though it wasn’t something of great importance it was just nice to know she was closer to him, it was nice that Miles respected the decision and she was glad they had cleared the air at least.

Smiling as Cas sat next to her, she looked over as he spoke about how her feelings were valid and a part of her wished she could tell him how she truly felt. The truth was they had not been able to talk about all the events openly as the minute they landed in the Capital she had been arrested, then the escape and now sat amongst friends she couldn’t just talk about it. Not without giving away her feelings, or what had happened in the prison. The thought sent a shudder through her because she wasn’t over it, the interrogation had scared her and as much as she was putting on a brave face and ignoring it somehow it would find a way to come back and haunt her. They had never truly been safe in the districts so there never had been an opportunity to discuss things like a normal couple would, they were no where near what anyone would consider a normal relationship as things had happened in such an odd order.

“Thank you, I appreciate that. As much as being your prisoner is far better than that penitentiary it still sucks to be locked away.” It was nice to know that Cas would try, and she didn’t doubt that he would, but it wasn’t going to be easy though nothing had when it came to them. “The food is much better here too, though I have to be honest. I don’t think my taste buds are quite the same as you guys.” Hinting towards the fact she didn’t really like the pizza last night, but it was okay as she didn’t mind her night had been enjoyable regardless.

“I can understand.” Not prying too much into why he had left home she was glad he was here none the less, “Oh! Well.” Rubbing the back of her head sheepishly as she remembered admitting to her slight distaste of the reality TV, “I guess well, alright you caught me I didn’t think I’d enjoy it but this dress to impress show kind of got me hooked.” Sheepishly she looked back over at the TV which by now was at the stage of contestants running around trying to get an outfit together within budget and the briefing of the one vying for the date. “As I said to Miles if I were to ever go on here, I’d get it so wrong, I know the outfits I’d choose would be horrendous.” Finding herself chuckling as she admitted to Cas that she had somehow enjoyed a bit of reality TV which was none other than a dating show at that.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ahhh yeah! Mine was due in April I think, but then it never happened and now I just CBA to box something. As you said when it bothers I';; go xD

Well I am considering I might wait until the Kings death, it would give me something to write about whilst Iris is left behind in the hotel.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Removing her hand from her face as she looked up from the sofa she caught sight of Miles walking inside accompanied by Cas, finding herself sit up a little straighter on the sofa she grinned unable to stop herself at the sight of him. “You just can’t stay away lately.” Briefly glancing at Miles watching the flourish of his hand as he claimed he felt special with all the visits, “I’m starting to believe it myself, perhaps we are special with all these visits lately. Though I am not complaining, it’s a nice distraction.” Thankful that he had come at the right time because it would make things so much easier especially when it came to the awkwardness.

“Pfft, you both probably think you’re better than everyone else let’s be honest.” Iris snorted at Caspians comment looking back over at him still smiling as he greeted her warmly. It was definitely good to see him again even if it had only been yesterday when she had last saw him, though time was feeling a bit strange to her cooped up in Miles bedroom and the lack of sleep wasn’t helping. That was something she knew she needed to get better with, but there was nothing she could do about it now plus she had neglected to tell anyone because she didn’t want to cause a fuss.

“I’m doing alright, though I am getting a little restless being cooped up here. I know it’s for good reason, but… I guess I miss going outside and just being able to do whatever I wanted too I suppose.” Trailing off slightly she knew she shouldn’t be bitter over it as after all it was for her benefit, but she couldn’t help how she felt about being stuck in his bedroom without being able to fully feel comfortable.

“I know I shouldn’t complain, I have it easy here. It’s just the uncertainty of not knowing what is happening next. Plus, I can’t live on this sofa forever, I’m sure Miles wants his room back and his own personal space.” Iris smiled softly as she opened up just a small bit to how she was feeling, in all honesty she couldn’t wait to have her own personal space because then she didn’t have to keep acting like everything was okay when deep down it wasn’t.

“How are you anyway? What brings you over this way?” Glancing at the clock it was still quite early in the day and usually he would visit in the afternoon, a part of her thought that something had to have happened and she knew she couldn’t just outright ask it. Not if he didn’t want to talk about it in-front of his friends. That and Iris was certain that showing so much concern could bring to light her feelings for him, Miles wasn’t stupid he would catch on and as soon as she thought about that she averted her gaze from Caspian looking at the hands folded neatly in her lap to stop herself from fidgeting.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh wow that’s quite a long time! Ohhh balayages are very in right now! I need to do something about my roots, but I’m just so lazy hahaha.

No worries! Ohhh I like that! That works nicely, maybe tonight after the argument he receives that text message?

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Iris felt herself ease up a little as Miles assured her, backing off in a nice way and not making it into a big deal that she had turned him down. Letting out a shaky sigh she felt a rush of relief as it hopefully meant that they could still be friends and nothing had to change, it seemed that way with his words so she was happier in that fact. Oh, thank god, he doesn’t hate me. He just thought I was hot it was nothing more than that. What a relief. Finding herself smiling alongside his assuring one just glad that it didn’t get worse. “Yeah no, that’s fine. I’m glad we’re still cool though.”

It was a compliment that he thought she was hot, she never would have thought that people inside the Capital could have been interested in her as she didn’t think herself as any sort of contender against how beautiful people were here. Should I say I’m flattered? No, that would just make it worse. Pushing away the thoughts as she felt her body relax and not tensed, stopping herself from fidgeting with the sleeves she was glad that he had such a lax attitude and somehow turned it into some sort of positive.

“Thanks Miles. We can still be friends. If of course you want a former rebel as a friend, very dangerous of course.” Finding herself laughing nervously feeling loads better that they had cleared the air over something she had never considered until last night when Cas had mentioned it. Least he had mentioned it because she would have been totally oblivious to it all and at least she had been prepared for it. Not that it made it any easier for how awkward it had been. The jokes however did make it seem less bad and of course she knew she wasn’t going to be dangerous, but considering that she was part of the rebellion and they were considered a threat to the Capital it was an easy joke to make.

Before she could make anymore jokes or somehow make it even more awkward the doorbell had gone, and she couldn’t help but sigh thankful for the distraction. “Oh no of course, It’s probably important this early.” Waving it off with a smile as she watched him leave, she moved herself over to the sofa now he wasn’t there. Not that she was against sitting next to him, but she didn’t want to sit down after rejecting him, next to him. Hearing the door shut behind him she sunk into the sofa shaking her head with a grimace, that had not been her proudest moment because she had been so awkward at the scene. I hope I’m not here for much longer.

Raising her hand to her forehead letting it drop to in front of her eyes mulling over her thoughts, hoping that whoever was at the door would be a good enough distraction for them both to not bring up the awkward subject of rejection.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh nice! Did you get a different colour? Enjoy the game day!

I couldn't sleep so I ended up writing in the end. Thank you! I hope so too

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“I don’t think I would, you’d end up hating my outfit choice and faking you liked it to not hurt my feelings.” Iris jibed back glancing down noting how close he had edged towards her on the sofa inwardly cringing because it was either going to get really awkward or she was overthinking the movement. To Iris it was hard to think someone could possibly like her especially with her background and surely, he would be more interested in some upper-class woman with more to offer. It was also what something she worried about with Cas that the events of what they had gone through was the sole reason that pulled them together. The movement of Miles arm around the back of the chair subtly hinting towards placing his arm around her and she quickly looked at Miles seeing him lean forward towards her slightly.

“Iris… I think you’re beautiful.”

Within an instant Iris umped up from the sofa with both her hands outstretched in front of her as she shook her head red on her cheeks from how embarrassed she felt over this awkward situation, anxiety bubbling away in her stomach as she knew she had to approach this subject. “M-Miles… I. I’m sorry.” Words falling out of her mouth quickly as she stumbled over them unsure on what to say without hurting his feelings or make it even more awkward because she had to stay here. There was nowhere else for her to go and she didn’t want it being awkward between them. “There’s no easy way to put this.” Finding herself look at every inch of the room avoiding meeting his gaze because she found it difficult to look at him, especially as she didn’t want to see his reaction.

“It’s not you, you’ve been kind and a lovely friend... Wow this is all sounding so cliché and rubbish, but I eh. I’m not interested.” Fidgeting on the spot from where she stood, she found herself fiddling with the sleeves of her top feeling incredibly awkward already because she hoped to avoid something like this.

“Oh. No. Of course” Miles shook it off the sound of disappointment in his voice as he sat back on the sofa folding his arms looking over at Iris who had practically bolted from him. It was hard to mask the sound of disappointment in his voice because he had been interested in her, she was beautiful and spending time with her had been enjoyable and a part of him had thought that she might have felt the same. Now however, he knew he was wrong, but he wasn’t mad just feeling a little bummed out and slightly awkward because now he would have to share his room with her his failed attempt.

“I’m so sorry Miles, I hope this… eh. Doesn’t make it awkward, but I get it if you don’t want me staying here. I understand! I mean I should probably look at going home or finding some sort of permanent solution anyway so…” Unable to stop what she would call word vomit as Iris blabbered on needlessly feeling worse by the second as she knew she was not helping the situation.