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3 mos ago
Current In my experience, this RP site is used by adults. It's actually what drew me here- the other site I was on was populated primarily by teens!
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8 mos ago
It may be that time again... to start another RP!
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10 mos ago
Even more sick than yesterday, so replies will be delayed. =(
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11 mos ago
Convention ended today, getting caught up on posts!
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About Me:
Sadly I am 40+, happily married with two sons. I've been role-playing since I was 14 years old, starting with AOL chatrooms and instant messenger (the dark days), before graduating to IRC, Gaia, RPNation, and then this website. When not roleplaying I am a GM of a raiding guild on Stormrage server, listen to Kpop, read books and manhwa, and binge on TV shows/movies when I am stressed (sci fi, fantasy, drama, Korean).

I'd love to get to know other RP folks, especially if you're my age!

What I like/want in RPs:
Romance (necessity, I respect not everyone likes it)
At least 2 paragraphs per post
Sci Fi, (High, Low, Urban) Fantasy, Futuristic, Supernatural, some modern or psuedo-historical
Someone who plays male characters
Plots that allow me not to have to write realistic melee action (but I love to read it!)
Characters 18+
Players 18+
Intrigue/mystery in a story
Cooperative world building

What I don't like:
Players under 18
Children or teenage characters
Western or prehistoric settings
Plots with only action
Almost all furry/anthro pairings
G-rated romance

Message me if you think we'd be good RP partners for each other! Please note I do require romance, though I certainly do NOT want that to be the summation of the story nor do I necessarily want it to be "fluffy." I also adore romances that have with characters with significant flaws and baggage, where there is conflict and disagreement, as there would be in real relationships. Some mundanes/players believe that all love stories develop "organically" in the story- but my real life experience has taught me you can have no chemistry with someone that would be great for you, all the chemistry in the world for someone you never thought you'd like, and romance is not 'organic' and predictable in practice. As a mundane/player we make the decision for romance because, quite frankly, we aren't the characters no matter how alive they might feel. They don't truly exist physically to have chemistry. If you feel differently we will not be a good fit for each other.

Additionally, I require players separate themselves from this characters. This should go without saying, but just because we write a romance together does not mean there are real feelings beneath. I am truly happily married. Please, please, please don't expect any fiction to translate into real life.

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"I know you can get hurt," Rhiane replied defensively, though the hard edge she usually had when they argued was gone. "I just... didn't think that you would," she added a little more quietly. There was no reason for a farmer, a faceless servant struggling to not fall prey to destitution, would dwell too long on the health of their royalty. Before she entered the contest he was far beyond her reach. If Luke wasn't plastered on the news, or Queen Camilla broadcasted speaking about changes in policy or law, it was easy to forget about the monarchy. Peasants did not have an impact. The rebellion still struggled to prove to potential members that their revolution could change the country- it was one of the many reasons they were driven to such drastic measures as murdering the nobility and razing their holdings.

"It's different to see it," the farmer admitted as she watched him recline and heard him speak about the strength of the throne. On this topic they had differing ideologies. While she understood the need to not appear weak, as it had been drilled into her even before she was crowed winner of the tournament that made Luke her fiancee, she thought that the crown's approach was flawed. The more they tried to fashion a vision of perfection and the less they were beloved by the population. Everyone wanted to feel that they were understood, that they had things in common, that their rulers hadn't shed the last vestiges of humanity. It was easier to hate Queen Camilla when she refused to show a hint of a flaw. Loathe as she was to admit it, Luke's tarnished image could earn him more admirers if he embraced it, and played to it by showing a 'blemish' of his choosing.

"Why would you take the blame for me?" Rhiane was confused if not a bit sullen. "Besides, you shouldn't move more than necessary," she continued with a gesture towards his leg as he ripped the fabric. "It's fine," she added, more to convince herself than him, though the stains trails of tears had left on her cheek would argue otherwise. "I'll accept the consequences. They could find someone to replace me," the princess elect theorized aloud, "someone who will listen to you better and not argue about talking to farmers."

Rhiane was willing to fall on her sword, though she didn't appreciate the repercussions it would have beyond her own death. No matter how they explained to the public she would still be perceived as a martyr, her name shouted in the streets, her 'murder' a galvanizing event for the coup. Whatever unlucky woman was chosen as her successor- if there was one- was unlikely to be as adept at manipulating others with effortless charisma, was unlikely to be able to stand her ground against Luke's kilometer-wide stubborn streak, as practical about the expectations upon her, as willingly to suffer in silence and smile immediately thereafter. Rhiane had the misconception she was replaceable professionally and personally. Luke had no attachment and she was ignorant of how exceptional her test results were, how it had been far from a tie, and how there were fields in which she so solidly defeated the competition it was impossible to released the actual evaluations.

"I can take over," she told him firmly, pushing his hand away as she took the syringe in her right. To get as close as possible she moved herself over the separation between their seats, placing the rest of the emergency kit on the center counsel, and crouched as best she was able in the space between the dashboard and his legs. With great difficulty she made certain her left arm did not graze the injured thigh that she was about to set work upon. It was cramped, uncomfortable, and Rhiane was certain that she looked ridiculous, but she'd have better control if she wasn't reaching as far.

"Remove the bandage on the count of three. One, two three," she ordered. As soon as he did so she carefully and quickly applied the liquid in the gash. The sight of blood did not bother her in the slightest. She was still pale and not quite herself, but she was so hyper focused on her task that for a moment he disappeared, the car disappeared, the agony shooting through her left shoulder disappeared, and she was as sure and steady as a military medic. Once she was satisfied with her handiwork- which took less than two seconds- she rubbed on the localized anesthetic to numb him to the continuing pain. Ideally she would have applied this first but it was impossible with how heavily he had been bleeding.

"We should use this on your forehead too," she said thoughtfully. "Sebastian told you I loved art, and it's true, but I liked a lot of things when I was in school," Rhiane said with a wistful laugh. "Probably hard to imagine me as the best student in class, isn't it? I wanted to be things I was bad at, even, like a singer. I used to try to hold little concerts for my family and Edwin would smile at me but Gerald couldn't hide that my high notes made him cringe." She leaned over him further, dabbing at his brow as she tried to distract them both with her rambling answer. "But even before Mom fell ill we all figured out we'd probably all be farmers. Our teachers tried to be encouraging but... it just wasn't possible for us to be accountants, or lawyers, or doctors, or engineers."

Rhiane was smart enough she could have gone to university, but Luke might not have considered the strangle-hold poverty had on her and her peers. It did not matter if they had the intelligence or the aptitude; numerous factors worked against them. If their tuition was covered then they could not afford the books, the commute, the daily supplies. If they were just wealthy enough that college could be budgeted, their parents desperately needed them on the fields when harvest came. Their education was poorer and it was harder for even brilliant minds to score well on standardized tests. Collusion existed to keep the middle and higher class children as incoming freshman rather than those of undesirable laborers.

"I'm only going to say this once because you're being nice to me," she said as she took a fresh bandage to clean his brow. "But I like to imagine who you'd be if you weren't a prince. Sometimes it feels like the crown wears you instead of you wearing the crown," Rhiane elaborated casually, "I think everyone likes the Luke that is himself first, and prince second. Stupid, isn't it? " she said with a smile to herself. But it was almost certainly the closest anyone had come to telling Luke that they liked him without title, power, or prestige. Lords and ladies of the court liked Luke because he was the prince, and women flocked to him hoping to attach to his face and wealth, but Rhiane's feelings pierced these attachments. It explained why he hadn't been able to convince her to kiss him; none of his accoutrements appealed to the odd commoner, only the more intangible aspects of his person.
For all the times that Rhiane had withdrawn from his touch, she did not do so now. There was a fleeting resistance when he tried to brush her cheek and pull her closer, though her expression was that of overwhelming guilt rather than the blush that he had grown to expect, as if she felt herself unworthy of his compassion. In her mind the princess elect only let herself cry on his shoulder because she didn't want him to injure himself further trying to dry her tears. The reality, however, was that she wanted to hold onto him. Even a wounded Luke felt safe and reassuring. Too often people believed that words alone could bring comfort to another in distress. Rhiane knew from experience, however, that a more tactile affirmation was exponentially more effective. It was why even familial relationships became strained over long distances with the passage of time. Humanity was meant to interact with one another beyond simple speech.

And Rhiane was more vulnerable because she liked Luke. She could not realize it and would not admit it to herself, much less aloud, but somewhere in the depths of her heart she liked him. It was not because he was prince, or wealthy, or handsome, but because he had proven himself to be so much more than she had imagined. Luke felt a responsibility to the kingdom that she admired, and even if he was callous and occasionally vindictive, he made decisions carefully rather than in the heat of the moment. He went to sleep late so he could understand issues better rather than rely on advisers, argued with her when it would be simpler to lie to her face, and had moments of mischief when she thought she could see glimpses of his father's love, the person that Luke could have been without a crown, the strength of a half-peasant that he wildly underestimated.

It took several long minutes before Rhiane's sobs began to abate with his diligent efforts. Her right hand clung to the same shoulder her face was buried in while her left arm dangled at her side. He could see her move it, shift it slightly with her shoulder or twitch a finger, and there were no bones protruding, but there was something clearly wrong with the limb. When the vehicle had flipped and rolled during the crash she had kept her hands locked on the steering wheel. The placement of her left arm had put it closer to the door, making it entirely possible she struck it unintentionally on impact, or had damaged it when she was tossed by momentum in that direction. Regardless of the cause she was turned in such a way he could not inspect it without causing alarm.

"I... I did step on the brake," she finally answered. "Nothing happened." She lifted her head to wipe away the tears. Her make-up team had applied mascara that had now bled away and stained his shirt, though there was nothing either of them could do about it now. Rhiane rubbed away some of the black smudges under her eyes and, while she was coherent and mostly soothed, she was visibly not convinced that this wasn't all her fault. Her gaze met his only once before drifting away. She sniffled and took a small bandage out of the box to wipe away the blood on his brow that made it so hard to look upon him without being consumed by regret.

"I knew I would die when I became princess elect," she admitted softly, "I knew I'd have an expiration date. I was okay with that, and I still am. I just didn't think that you could be hurt or killed." It was naive but she clearly understood that now. The panic she had over seeing him harmed was genuine. A normal person would have the opposite reaction; valuing their own life above others. It was exceedingly rare for the reverse to be true as it was with Rhiane. Firefighters regularly demonstrated such conviction, but soldiers and law enforcement did not as often as the world believed, and every nation spent large sums of cash to cover up how quickly the brave could become cowardly when their mortality was on the line. Rhiane might have made an exceptional servant of the community had she a touch more impulse for self-preservation.

"We'll need to rip your pant leg," she said with a gesture. Rhiane could do it herself but given that she was only moving one of her two arms she would give Luke a chance to do it himself it he preferred. There was no chance that the farmer would be remotely precise with her tearing of the fabric. It was better to preserve their clothing as much as possible. When the rescue arrived their attire would be the least of anyone's concerns, but until then they had to contend with the chill of a day approaching night, and the possibility that the cool temperature of the mountains would make them increasingly uncomfortable.

"I don't understand," Rhiane said as she rolled over the spray of the anesthetic in her palm and stared down at it. "I don't understand why all of a sudden they want to kill you." Her voice was so quiet it was barely audible with the calls of nearby birds in trees.

Luke had not revealed to Rhiane that she had been the intended target of the poison. No one had. She was as ignorant as the common peasant to the fact any attempts were being made on her life at all. This had been a strategic decision but made her oblivious to the machinations of the rebellion. For years the queen had obscured the successes of the revolution, of their violence against the heir and throne, of the losses that they had suffered. Queen Camilla and Crown Prince Luke were not to show any weakness. Because of this, however, Rhiane could not appreciate that there were as many casualties as there were, that the reputation she was saving was as poor as it was, and that the stakes were as considerable as they were. Rhiane was approaching her marriage as a PR stunt just as the numerous ones before it; no one had informed her that the stakes were higher than the last generation.
Rhiane was dazed, frozen in place, staring straight ahead into the forest beyond their destroyed windshield. Her brain was still struggling to process what happened when she turned that tight corner and something, some animal she had never seen before even in a textbook, was staring her down like a harbinger of death. She had been too stunned by its appearance to initially react. Luke had reached over and grabbed the wheel instinctively, steering them towards the left and around the creature, taking control during her moment of inaction. It had been the wrong choice but there had not been a right choice. They would not have been able to stop in time, a head-on collision with the beast would have killed all three almost certainly, to the right had been the ravine, and going to the left had left them so off-balance it was impossible to correct their course.

"The brakes," she murmured to herself. In that second before before they became airborne she had slammed her foot on the brakes. The pedal had been hammered into the floor but there had not been an ounce of resistance. Vehicle 014's wheels should have burned rubber before the momentum claimed them in a downward trajectory. Something should have happened- but nothing did. Had she been more cautious in operating the 4x4 intially, Rhiane could have had an opportunity to notice the sabotage before their lives flashed before their eyes. Logically fault lay with whomever cut the lines, dooming their trip even if she hadn't been reckless, but the princess elect blamed herself. This could have been prevented if she had not lost herself; they could have perhaps found a way to safely slow down to a stop rather than be flung through the terrain.

She finally released her death grip on the steering wheel to lay her shaking hands in her lap. Suspiciously none of the air bags had deployed when they struck the railing and flipped down the embankment. It cemented her fledgling theory someone had manipulated their circumstances. One defect could be accidental but two, two that would ordinarily lead to death, was damning. That neither of them were crippled or mortally wounded was nothing short of miraculous. "Should have..." she whispered again to herself as her eyes slid down to the spot where a balloon of air and fabric ought to have erupted minutes before.

Luke's hand grazed her shoulder and she jumped several inches. If it was not for him she might have been lost in the haze of the terrifying mystery for hours. "You're hurt," she said, avoiding his question unintentionally. Rhiane awkwardly pulled herself out of her seat, heavily favoring her right arm over her left, and spotted the shard embedded in his thigh. All color drained out of her face. For as courageous as she had been in the contest, in jumping off a cliff into water, in confronting her own mortality, she looked stricken. The rebellion had labelled her a martyr but were not that far in that assessment of her personality; she would much rather sacrifice her health and well-being for almost anyone else.

"I'll.. I'll... stay there. There should be an emergency kit in the back," she said as she crawled over the center console. There was some loss of mobility in her left arm, her legs were bruised from being around, and her mind was fuzzy, but none of these things bothered her the wake of her discovery that Luke had been harmed. A brand new first-aid kit was tucked under the rear passenger seat. Fortunately it was wrenched free easily so that Rhiane could move back into her seat. With mounting panic she unlatched the box and dug through its contents. She was genuinely unaware, but Luke could see she was still only utilizing her right hand, leaving her left to dangle uselessly at her side. Moving it earlier had proven it was not broken but the way she ignored it completely spoke to some level of impairment.

"We should patch you up so you stop bleeding," she prattled on to herself more than to him. There was a pair of gloves, antiseptic spray, needle and thread, a localized anesthetic, bandages, and something with a name she had never heard of before but that boosted an ability to heal cuts and abrasions more rapidly. "To reach it I'll need to get on top of you," she said as she tried to force herself to focus on a solution rather than the problem. Getting upset would do neither of them any good. Rhiane plucked the anesthetic spray out of the package and tried to steel her nerves. It was not as if she had never played nurse before. Neither her father nor Gerald had been able to handle tending to Edwin or her mother before their deaths.

Unexpectedly, however, a tear fell from her left eye. Another fell from her right. It was when she was staring at the moisture on her pants that she felt a choking sob rise up in her chest. Rhiane, the mighty and proud, who would argue Luke into madness, who didn't wince at the insults of the court, and whose throat had been burned with poison, was openly weeping. "I'm sorry," she heard herself saying between two heaves of emotion. "I never wanted you to get hurt. I'm sorry," she repeated, almost like a personal mantra. She was paralyzed with fear again, not at what had happened, but at what might have happened because of her stupidity.
Once Luke had returned to the cockpit to facilitate the landing, Tobias had given the princess elect time and solitude to compose herself. As soon as the wheels had touched ground, however, he was the first to to arrive at the door to Rhiane's private quarters. Lia and Octavia exchanged quiet knowing looks. There was no damning evidence that the handsome, elusive, taciturn guard was beginning to harbor feelings for his charge, but he was undeniably different. For years everyone in the palace had watched him be aloof and detached with his daily interactions. To see him so attentive, even more than his station required, made them incredibly suspicious. Rhiane herself was obviously oblivious, but it was hard to miss the quiet ease the pair had around each other, as if they were old friends rather than strangers only a couple weeks before.

In the war silently brewing between the cousins no one knew the entire story. Only Rhiane and Luke were privy to the fact they argued more than they agreed, that they had not shared any intimate moments while alone, and that they had agreed to keep their relationship professional. Luke was ignorant of Rhiane's suppressed feelings, Rhiane unaware of Tobias's fledgling crush, and Tobias unknowing that his calm, supportive disposition gave him a slight edge against the proud heir to the throne. For the people that were observing glimpses of the hurricane of emotion, misunderstanding, and acting, it was too confusing to understand.

"Was that really necessary?" Rhiane asked as she caught the keys.

Her demeanor had shifted the moment that Luke had strolled up to the vehicle emblazoned with 014 on its side. With Tobias she had been relaxed, telling him about a time she had unsuccessfully attempted to work her fields in the winter with an advertised 'winter crop.' It had been a failure but relevant to their next destination. That was one of Rhiane's many lessons that not climate and soil were both essential to the success of a seed's germination. Tobias had been as stoic as always but had not discouraged her from weaving her tale. That he listened so intently had made her smile, laugh at herself, and fall comfortably into her casual charms.

This charisma was more constrained with Tobias's departure. With Luke she was polite but guarded, conscientious of their proximity, and apprehensive about his attentions. This was visible to their entourage but it was glaringly apparent to the target of her anxiety- Luke himself- because he was so physically close to her. Because they had not resolved anything with their 'debate' not even an hour prior she was cautious. Rhiane had already been verbally rejected emphatically once; she was not about to risk anything to make herself an easy target a second time.

"I drove trucks on the farm," Rhiane said as she moved into the driver's seat and turned on the engine. She made a point of waiting until Luke strapped himself in before she decided to disclose that was the extent of her experience. The jalopies she had at home were wildly different from the machinery she was now about to operate. "How different can it be?"

With entirely too much acceleration they blasted past all the other vehicles. Rhiane was used to trucks that were of poor construction, that were often in disrepair, and didn't have as much power as what she was now driving. Instead of being alarmed by their rapid rate of travel, Rhiane was positively delighted. She was a giddy as a child graduating from a tricycle straight to a motorbike. Being the future queen hadn't had many tangible benefits she cared about- but this one finally appealed to her and almost made up for being disparaged for being a lowly peasant. In ten years she'd be dead. There was no sense wasting time with a little speed or a light testing of its turn radius.

Vehicle 014 barreled ahead, taking pinpoint turns, twisting and turning around every curve as its operator let out a peal of maniacal glee. Luke could have fallen out the side and she might not have been noticed. For just a few minutes it was her, the road, and a half ton of metal obeying her every whim.
Rhiane had provoked him and braced herself for the impact of his rejection, but it still stung despite her attempts to mitigate the emotional damage. No one wanted to hear they were unworthy, that their feelings were ridiculous, that they were unwanted by another individual. It had little to do with romance and everything to do with human nature and the very basic need for reciprocation of caring. That he could so smugly dismiss her and then request she perform an intimate gesture, with the laughable excuse they needed to practice, cemented her resolve to distance herself from him at the first opportunity. Certainly she had agreed in public to feign affection but she had made no such promise in private and there was nothing to gain if she indulged him now or in the future. Even his proposal had been for a kiss during a broadcast, not in the cockpit, in exchange for speaking to the farmers. She could imagine now he'd ridicule her if she had obeyed- he'd mock her ability, or her submission, or her weakness, or any variety of perceived lesser qualities simply because being a bully amused him.

"No," she stated quietly but defiantly.

Truthfully Rhiane wasn't certain what exactly had just transpired. Before Luke had faced off against Tobias he had said something about Lia and Octavia, but had not offered any explanation as to what the bodyguards in question had been talking about. It had to something concerning her, but she could not imagine what they might discuss with the future king and not her. The princess elect had been careful not to expose any aspect of herself that could be construed as a salacious secret to her new entourage. If anyone suspected her more true nature, her candid practicality, her baggage of the soul, it would have been Tobias. The cousin to the throne's heir was more observant than nearly anyone else she had met, the court included.

More mystifying than his throwaway comment about the two female guards had been the stares between the two men as they argued about safety protocol. There was no love lost between the pair. They were cordial and polite most of the time but there were walls erected between them from long before she entered the picture. Tobias was generally stoic, and Luke generally apathetic, so it was hard to imagine what could generate such animosity as she had just seen evidence existed. What made it more perplexing is that it had very suddenly appeared. When Tobias had been to escort her to the engagement ball there had been no posturing, no glares, no bristling as her arm was transferred to one to another.

"No," she repeated more firmly. "Why would I? You wanted me to in front of the cameras, but there's no camera here. Or are you now raising the requirements, only to perpetually increase them later, so that I am following your every whim in the hopes that I might get a prize just outside of my reach?"

Rhiane turned her head to the side. Her cheeks were still flushed with embarrassment and an emotion that eluded his grasp. Had he been kinder, more gentle, more understanding she might have foolishly acquiesced with his demands. She was not certain if she was more disappointed that he continued to be his mother's son, or that she almost took the plunge and risked everything to see what might be hidden behind his lips. Now she was certain only loathing, disgust, and scorn still dwelt there. Any fantasy that he was an equal measure of his peasant father had been dispelled.

"I didn't believe your mother's propaganda," she said softly with her eyes on the adjacent wall rather than hers. "I explained to you my difficulty in my acting. Whether you realize it or not, the populace will discover today, tomorrow, years from now that the romance is not genuine. Love is not something you that can be easily emulated when you've never felt it for someone," she said with more injury in her voice than she intended.

"I'm sure you can find someone more worthy to kiss you," Rhiane said as her eyes remained locked on the wall. And therein laid one of their many problems. Because it had been reinforced many times over that she was leagues beneath him, it was increasingly difficult to simulate a believable chemistry; with each interaction the future queen became more adamant the distance between them was too large to be crossed, and that there was nothing to be gained by trusting, but liking, by believing. Undoubtedly this had once been an issue with the queens and kings of past- but perhaps they had fallen to physical passions without as much thought as to their birth.
There was no use wasting her breath trying to deny the blushing; anyone with two functional eyes would be able to tell she was. If anything the shade of pink that had bloomed across her features only seemed to intensify despite her rich bronze tan. Rhiane was humiliated even before he pointed out her childish response to his teasing, but the jab at her principles was mortifying. She was not royalty yet but she felt a certain level of responsibility for the often-overlooked citizens of their county, and to have him verbalize she was prioritizing her feelings over their need for recognition struck her deeply. Had she been able to melt into a pile of goo and disappear from the plane entirely she would have seized the chance immediately.

"I never said I thought it was counterproductive and unnecessary," she retorted hotly, both irritated and offended. Luke had made no honest effort to woo her nor had she decided that the situation merited her dipping her toes into the pool of romance. Their first dance together had forged an agreement that they would keep their relationship as a business partnership at best- which was what nearly every arranged marriage among the nobility was. Rhiane had always conceded the fairy tale illusion that the queen wanted to craft of the engaged couple was 'productive' and 'necessary'; it was the execution of the plan that she struggled with.

The princess elect was grumbling internally with annoyance when Luke turned her chair, leaned over her, and tilted her head upwards. The glow of her countenance was now scarlet and she squirmed in her chair as if passively seeking a way to escape. Despite the discomfort she did not dare move; she knew he was both faster and stronger than she was. Rhiane stared up at him with wide eyes and parted lips in shock and confusion as he dared her to come up with a time he had pushed her away. Her words failed her. It was not that she lacked an answer, but rather than his presence, his intimate posture, and his breath on her made it impossible to find her voice.

She had heart palpitations and was on the edge of a heart attack or panic attack when Luke suggested practicing- only to be interrupted by the co-pilot. Something about seeing his expression out of the corner of the eye pulled her back down from where she had been thrown into mental orbit. Until that moment she had been worried about what a kiss would reveal. Things were not so easily hid in a kiss as they were otherwise. She'd be able to feel his revulsion and contempt, his disgust for her heritage, his detachment as he tried to imagine she was someone else. More than that, however, she was worried about emotions might be conveyed unintentionally as she entangled herself. Rhiane knew better than anyone that part of her distance to preserve the integrity of a very vulnerable inner self. What she could deny, suppress, and ignore could surface in an instant where control was lost in embrace.

"All my acting," she said once they were awkwardly alone again, "has always had some truth in it. I've never dated, I've never been in love, and I've always intended to keep things professional," she explained quietly with mustered confidence. Rhiane had slept with men but they had been physical affairs only. There hadn't been long talks, sharing dreams of the future, exchanging secrets, or stealing glances at one another. After one or two fulfillment of one another's needs they had gone their separate ways without expectation or attachment. That's what she expected of Luke, for him to want to keep things impersonal, but he seemed to enjoy pushing her for his own amusement.

"Even us lowly peasants have our pride," she said, a slight tremble still in her words, and her intentions transparent. Instead of avoiding invoking his ire as she had been doing recently, she was now purposefully provoking him in order to to push him away verbally. If she belittled and rejected herself he couldn't do it to her; if she made him so angry he didn't want to even touch her then she wouldn't have to find excuses as to why she was impossibly attracted to such a difficult, devilishly handsome individual. She had discovered by accident he loathed her self-depreciation. "You don't have to lower yourself by pretending to like me we're by ourselves." There was a flash of vulnerability despite objectively daring him to say he disliked her intensely.

If she had spoken less impulsively she might have realized someone as intelligent as Luke would read between the lines. Once his head cooled he could make several conclusions about her behavior, but most importantly that she was was not the robot she feigned. No matter how pragmatic her approach, she wouldn't put this much effort into forcing distance unless there was danger otherwise. Luke's stoic cousin showed no interest in most women but he did not flee them. He ignored them and turned them down, but Tobias had never been compelled to avoid anyone.

There was a hard assertive rap on the door as Tobias unapologetically pushed past Carver. "Prince Luke, Miss Black. I apologize for the interruption," he said in a monotone that belied his lack of remorse, "but unless Miss Black has been cleared to occupy the co-pilot seat, I need to escort her back to her quarters per safety regulations."
Rhiane rolled her eyes so hard she thought there was a very real danger they would detach. It was true that she had won the contest that catapulted her to the position of future royalty in no small part due to her charisma. As darling as she was to most of the nation, there were very hard limits as to whom she could affect. All of the aristocracy had a bias against her and thus an immunity to her charms, with the sole exception of Luke's sister, who admittedly seemed to like everyone. Luce Viscomi was a lady that did or should know how the courts felt about the princess elect, and yet she had still had faith that Rhiane might reach Luke, the man who had the most reasons to hold her in contempt. It would take weeks, months, years before the staff of the castle was friendly towards her. Either Luce was ignorant of the polite rejection and scorn of her peers and superiors or she had been convinced the fictional romance was real.

Truth be told they were caught in a cycle. Luke was stubborn and didn't want the interference that Rhiane manifested in his personal life. She was a disruption, a distraction, poorly educated, low born, and forced upon him. Because of the circumstances he didn't want to listen to her and became irate, which just made her not want to listen to him, and that in turn made him even less willing to listen to her. Neither one wanted to bend. On separate paths they functioned well, but when there was a convergence there was a battle of opinions and wills. He had heard her this time, she mentally conceded, yet it hadn't changed anything. His stance was unwavering, hers was unwavering, there was no revelation a peasant could manipulate the audience better than even Luce Viscomi gave her credit for, and all she had accomplished was wasted effort.

When they had first met, Rhiane had professed she was be completely honest with Luke. She apologetically and masterfully navigated social situations like a professional, putting on a mask of such mixed sincerity and deception that not even she could tell where one began and the other ended all the other time, but she had no such pretenses with Luke. He was always granted a front row seat to her truest self; as such, he saw a wide range of emotions flicker over her face.

After rolling her eyes she had been annoyed, then indifferent, then doubtful at his suggestion they sneak off somewhere without asking permission, but upon his suggestion of a trade the color drained from her face. The cool and composed woman looked petrified for a moment before she turned her face away and flushed from the apples of her cheeks to the tips of her ears. "I thought you weren't cut out for theatrics," she said, quoting his words earlier with a slight tremble in her voice. "Besides, didn't you just explain why you wouldn't and shouldn't talk to the farmers?"

Although it sounded as if she was turning him down, there was a distinct lack of refusal. Rhiane was afraid. She was a daredevil when it came to jumping off cliffs into water, trusting he'd keep her from drowning because she couldn't swim, she didn't whimper and cry about being poisoned within an inch of her life, she hadn't flinched at any physical tests of the contests, and hadn't been intimidated by anyone at title who looked at her with loathing. It was romance that was her kryptonite. She was so terrified of attachment that would end in heartbreak that she had chosen to be alone rather than risk rejection. The princess elect had alluded to this before in casual conversation; she had proclaimed that there was no chance for her to have actual love, so she had chosen to be a contestant for Luke's hand precisely because realistically romance was impossible, and they could be companions with a more pragmatic relationship.

Rhiane was torn. On one hand she was personally invested in seeing her peers publicly respected and listened to by Luke. She had no delusions that he would suddenly make changes in law or policy, but them having his attentions for even a few minutes was priceless, and this offer may never happen again. On the other hand, she would be offering up her deepest vulnerability, something she was loathe to do even with the people she trusted the most. "If I agree you wouldn't be able to push me away in front of the press," she tried to point out. It was clear she considered this a distinct possibility; that he'd be so disgusted by holding her hand or sharing a kiss that his revulsion would override composure. She had not shared this thought with Luke, which undoubtedly shed some light as to another reason she withdrew in his presence.
Rhiane collapsed into a seat without a pretense of elegance once Carter was out of the room. Perhaps her fiance would find it unladylike but it spoke to a level of comfort she had around him in most ways. She had decided to be honest with him the moment she won the contest and so she was, becoming more casual in private, without bothering to fix the hem of her pants as she sat or crossing her ankles as proper etiquette dictated. "The poisoning was so four days ago," she complained though not loudly enough anyone would hear. "I've tried to have a message passed along that these dietary restrictions are ridiculous but they are unconcerned with my opinion on the matter." This was no surprise. Even when she was on death's door she had not seemed to take the event quite as seriously as the physicians would have preferred. No doctor nor nurse would trust her to be objective in analysis of her own recovery. Years of experience taught them that if their patient was reluctant to medicate, made frequent jokes about their situation, and underestimated acute conditions, they would continue to prematurely jump back into action.

"Not quite," she said with a shrug to his question about the peasants. "You know, I was thinking on my long journey to the cockpit," the Princess Elect remarked jokingly- she was tall for a woman and less than half a foot shorter than Luke- "about what it must like to be a crown prince. I've seen how much time and energy you sink into trying to help govern the country and spearhead projects of interest to you, but even among the nobility I would wager there are people that underestimate you, or don't understand some of the unique pressures of your station. They might judge you for missing an appointment, and tell others you are lazy, when you have a more pressing matter above their clearance. They might think you have such luxurious accommodations you must always be relaxing because they don't personally see you up late at night working. They might think your mother's praise is more easily earned, that everything comes naturally, that you do not struggle, because they see someone handsome, clever, wealthy, and powerful, who will one day be king."

Rhiane pulled her gaze away from the gently lit clouds and turned towards Luke, propping an elbow up on the side of the chair and leaning her chin into her palm to make certain he had her full attention. "People have a habit, myself included, of listening to others but not really hearing them. Back when I was a farmer, laboring in the fields, I didn't want a knight to ride up, sweep me off my feet, and pay off all my debt. I wanted to be heard. I wanted someone to understand how I had to work when I ran a high fever, because medication was too expensive, and the crop had to be harvested. To know that when there was enough bad weather I'd have to live off one meal a week. To not think because I rested in the winter I was lazy, because I destroyed my hands and back the other three seasons of a year. I know I can't make you talk to the peasants, Luke, but I think they are looking for, and hoping for, is someone to really see them and what they do, someone who is important, someone who might remember them when they are creating future policies."

She returned to reclining in her chair as she stretched her legs out farther in front of her. If she had taken off the heels she was wearing, which had returned to her daily attire as soon as her ankle was considered healed sufficiently for the strappy contraptions, she could have rested her feet on one of the consoles and taken a nap. Rhiane had plenty of sleep over the last few days but the soothing vibrations of the airplane and the utter lack of public to engage with made it a tempting place to doze. Two of her recently chastised bodyguards were wide awake but most of their retinue was enjoying shut-eye. There were not nearly as many security concerns while thousands of kilometers above the ground.

"In any case, I also wanted to remind you that Ms. Viscomi will report whatever we do, or do not do, to Queen Camilla... and the implants can be controlled from a considerable distance. I've shared close quarters with far less dashing individuals but I know it will hamper your work if you're seen as uncooperative and have the leash tightened. You'll have to listen to my, what was it? Loud snoring? at an even closer distance." She jested with a wink as she crossed her legs. Much as he detested being bound to her, almost certainly because he had other people he'd rather entertain or things he'd prefer to do alone, it bothered her less and less. Rhiane didn't mind the lack of solitary time. When Luke was particularly vexing she'd roll her eyes and wish she could run away, but he had been in better spirits since they began their journey she thought.

"I wonder if Ms. Viscomi could be persuaded to allow more sightseeing," she mused to herself quietly as her eyes drifted over the soft colors of the sky beyond the glass. Rhiane didn't have control over her diet nor her itinerary. Idly she considered it could be seen as a positive indulgence if they didn't just meet the people but also saw more of the national landmarks. There were architectural masterpieces, natural wonders, and breathtaking views that drew tourists that Rome's princess elect had never seen in person. Most of these spots were a source of pride for the locals. The crown wanted to warm the public to the newly engaged couple, but perhaps an argument could be made that a visit to attractions would encourage nationalism and be considered firm endorsements by royalty.
"- you, there's something different," one of Rhiane's female bodyguards was saying.

Two women had been appointed to the security detail for the princess elect when the decision was made to bolster their numbers to match Luke's. While the queen could not and would not admit aloud why she had chosen them, it was undoubtedly because there were places Tobias could not easily follow Rhiane, and since the poisoning incident they were reluctant to let her even use the bathroom by herself while in public. Both women had their accolades as guards at the palace but did not hold a candle to Tobias; they remained his subordinates even in their elevated positions.

"I haven't noticed anything amiss," the other female bodyguard responded skeptically. They were towards the center of the plane and seated in adjacent chairs conversing in hushed tones. The first to speak was Lia and the latter Octavia. Both were of aristocratic backgrounds, Lia's slightly more prestigious, and relatively good friends with one another. Neither had noticed Luke striding out of the room and possibly near their vicinity as they bent their heads together.

"He just looks at her differently. It's subtle but he... I don't know, he watches her intently, and not just because it's his job. Don't you think it's tragic? Half of the castle would be happy to be with him and the one woman he might have the mildest hint of feelings for and she's taken," Lia lamented. She was among his admirers even though she was wed. Like the royals her marriage had been a political arrangement, not a union born out of love.

"I think you're imagining things," Octavia sighed. "The person I feel most sorry for is Prince Luke," she whispered to Lia.

"Marrying a peasant," Lia remarked with a sad shake of her head. "They tested everyone thoroughly in the contest, and as nice as she is, I find it hard to believe an exceptional farmer is better than any lady he could find in the capital." What she was suggesting was unkind but the popular opinion in the palace and the upper echelons of high society. While they stopped short of accusing her outright, they thought Rhiane was less intelligent, less beautiful, less clever, less artistic, less everything of matter. To consider her their equal or better was so uncomfortable it edged on blasphemy. It did not matter objectively if Rhiane could beat them in a hundred tests- their bias had to persevere and they had to be better.

"I'll speak with the farmers of course, but you didn't come here to ask me to speak with them," Rhiane said to Ms. Viscomi once Luke had disappeared beyond the threshold of the door. She knew the answer before it left her lips. All the world knew that the princess elect was a farmer before she had been catapulted to national fame as fiancee to the heir to the throne. This stop would be less spectacular than its predecessors; there was a passive expectation in having a former former speak with farmers from another province. Newscasters could even potentially find the scenario boring. At the same time, the media would latch onto the absence of Prince Luke. They would see it as a sign of rejection of Rhiane's past, of her prior peers, of her upbringing, and some of the citizens most likely to join the rebellion.

"I take responsibility for being uncomfortable with public displays of affection, Ms. Viscomi, and I have seen some of the same criticism you have. Can you prepare a list for me of the names of the farmers I'll be meeting with as well as, if possible, a physical description? I think that it will go much smoother, and leave a positive impression, if I can try to commit their names to memory beforehand," Rhiane suggested with a smile.

"Yes, of course, but..." Ms. Viscomi began to protest. Her goal of trying to persuade Luke into addressing the farmers of Adrossa personally had not been met; furthermore, she had failed to elicit a promise from Rhiane she would help advocate on her behalf to the stubborn royal.

"You'll have to excuse me, Ms. Viscomi," Rhiane said as she stretched out her long limber legs and rose from her seat. Tobias turned from staring out the window. "I promise to review all the information you compile for me, but first I was invited into the cockpit by the prince, and I don't intend to refuse the offer. It is the queen's wish we become more familiar with one another is it not?" she said as she flashed a charming smile. As she moved forward to step out of the room Tobias did not follow. Rhiane was safe on the plane and it was quite evident that this was a private affair in which he would be imposing regardless of how silent and stoic he remained.

"Of course, Miss Rhiane," Luce agreed with slightly more forced enthusiasm. There was no easy way to object. She had pointed out a lack of intimacy not even a minute ago. To keep Rhiane locked in conversation would impede the rendezvous at the front of the plane and make her a hypocrite, something she was not eager to do. If she contradicted herself even once both Luke and Rhiane would latch on and twist it to their advantage when a future critique was called into question.
Rhiane had been combing through articles, blogs, blurbs in social columns of editorial pages, and the like for reviews of how well-received she had been the day prior. While she knew that this was something that Ms. Viscomi was already constantly monitoring in her capacity as their PR advisor and coordinator, she liked to see with her own eyes what others were saying. Moreover, she knew that the focus of the queen and therefore her employees was on how Rome in particular was reacting to the newly engaged pair. Not only did Rhiane want the details of exactly what her country's people said about her, she wanted to know the impression of international citizens, who were harder to understand but incredibly candid. Commoners in other nations did not have to worry about Queen Camilla intervening if they wrote a large volume of negative comments. The queen was powerful but not so much so that she had free reign upon all the world's inhabitants written words.

Almost everything she could find was a glowing endorsement of her disposition, her humor, her humility, or other personality aspects that were found to be endearing, but there was one consistent criticism in those that had any: absence of affection. It was not abnormal for anyone to doubt that Rhiane and Luke were madly in love with one another. In their heart of hearts everyone knew that it was at least a partially fabricated fairy tale; however, if they were trying to sell the public on love, the public would at least want glimpses of infatuation. Much as Rhiane would prefer to blame Luke, simply to preserve her pride, she knew she was just as at fault for this crack in their polished image (if not more).

The young woman had sworn off romantic fantasies and forced herself to become even more pragmatic than she already was after the death of her mother and father. With stalwart dedication she never let physical intimate encounters infringe upon her feelings. Men had used her and she had used them to fulfill a need, nothing more, and she made herself view it as no different then wanting to eat, drink, or sleep. What had changed was that she had pretend she was in love with Luke. This already a difficult task before she got to know him well, but she had erroneously assumed because she found him attractive, because he was intelligent, because he was invested in the illusion of marital bliss they would come to an easy arrangement that suited them both.

Now she had to admit in that facet of becoming princess elect she was failing. Today it was a vague statement buried in paragraphs of praise, only spoken by every hundredth person, sandwiched between compliments about how she was the princess everyone had been waiting for to represent them, but it wouldn't be such a trivial concern for long. In a few more weeks the raised brows and hard stares would grow. By the time the wedding actually rolled around the indifference they had, the distance, the barely-friends aura would be even more apparent.

But what was even worse than being unable to act as if she was in love- at least so convincingly that people could be convinced it had miraculously occurred in an arranged marriage- was that she didn't want to pretend with Luke. He was handsome, he was clever, he was thoughtful, and he was charming when it suited him, and could have been a genuine Prince Charming; but Luke was only warm when circumstances forced him to be. Luke didn't like Rhiane and she would rather not fight for his consideration. If he loved another woman, or man, or no one at all, there was nothing she could do about it. Trying to earn his approval was a battle she would rather not join, and would instead rather spearhead initiatives for better medical care for the poor, scholarships for those with ambition but dwelling in poverty, funding for the arts so that their culture could thrive under more than just the aristocrats.

Rhiane was so lost in thought she was startled when Luke approached and addressed her. She almost jumped out of her seat in surprise before taking a deep breath and gaining her composure. There was no reason for her to feel guilty about anything, she reasoned, and definitely no reason to be uncomfortable around her fiance.

"Aren't you supposed to be flying the plane?" she teased as she powered off her device to give him her full attention. "It wouldn't kill you to get some sleep," she suggested lightly, "I can't actually sleep enough for both of us to be rested, even if that's what it feels like I've been doing."
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