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Hey there! I'm Yana (formerly known as Hylia Incarnate)

I’ve been roleplaying since facebook group RP days, and my style’s grown into multi-para/novella! I love weaving emotional, character-driven stories—romantasy, slice-of-life, and a dash of drama are my bread and butter. I’m down for any pairing dynamic; gay, straight, chaotic, and I’m smut-friendly as long as it doesn’t hijack the plot.

These days, I mostly write with my best friend of 10 years. We’ve built an angsty little gay universe that I adore, but I’m hoping to branch out and keep things fresh! If you're down for deep character arcs, angy boys, and the occasional emotional crisis, we’ll probably vibe just fine

I am consistently inconsistent. I deeply apologize.

If you would like, I am also on Discord at the same username!

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Adelia had remained just behind Eliot during the interaction with the little girl, her armor-clad hands clasped lightly in front of her as she watched the exchange. It was.. sweet. Unexpectedly so. The kind of thing that tugged on something deep in her chest, something tender and aching. She didn’t know if it was the innocence of the child or the softness in Eliot’s expression as he tucked the flower into his braid, but for a brief moment, the world quieted. She could almost forget it was a dream.

Then came the buffoon.

Lord Jeffery Darwin—if that was his real name—announced himself like a warhorn to the temple, all booming voice and inflated ego, practically dripping entitlement. Adelia’s posture stiffened the moment she caught sight of him approaching, her eyes narrowing subtly as she stepped instinctively closer to Eliot’s side. The man was huge, broad as a doorway and just as dense by the look of him. The kind of noble that thought his wealth made him charming, and his lineage a free pass to touch what didn’t belong to him.
She let him speak. Because she had to. Because Eliot hadn't dismissed him yet.

But gods, it took effort not to curl her lip at the performance. The audacity of this man. That arrogant tilt of the chin. That puffed-up chest. The way he loomed as if that would make him more desirable. When Eliot looked over at her, she caught the silent plea in his eyes and that was it. That was all she needed.

She stepped forward with calm precision, positioning herself just slightly between the two men. Not overt or hostile. Just... there.

Her voice was low, polite, but honed like the edge of a blade. “My lord Darwin,” she said with a courteous incline of her head, “I thank you for your gracious words to Her Majesty. However, the princess is spoken for. The royal line is to be kept pure, just as she is. I'm sure you understand why the King and Queen haven't reached out to your house.” Adelia’s smile was the kind they carved into statues: polite, cold, and unmoving. It took all of her patience to not thrust her sheathed sword through him. This is just a dream..Why are you getting so heated about this?
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Adelia had seen a lot in her life. Five siblings, endless sleepless nights, a high school cafeteria food fight that probably counted as a federal offense, but this? This took the cake. No, it baked it, frosted it, and served it on a silver tray while wearing lace gloves.

Adelia had to bite her tongue, physically bite it, just to keep from bursting out laughing right there. The way Eliot froze, caught like a cat with its paw in the fish bowl, then slowly lowered the hem back down like it was radioactive. It was a miracle she stayed upright. And then he was by her side again, arm hooked tightly in hers, dragging her down the corridor in a flurry of silks and mild panic. Her posture straightened instinctively at the contact, the knight facade falling into place like a shield. But then he leaned in, soft voice curling at her ear, familiar despite the dreamscape. A short, dry breath escaped her lips. “Yes, Your Majesty. I can tell,” she murmured back, keeping her tone dutiful, though the glint in her eye betrayed her.

This is one of those waffles dreams, she thought dryly. Of course it is. The moment I said “Barbie Fairytopia” out loud, my brain decided to punish me.

She kept pace easily beside him, her armor clinking softly with every step, the weight more ceremonial than cumbersome. As they passed through the halls, she watched Eliot’s head bob like a man possessed, acknowledging every servant, guard, and stray dog they passed. By the time they made it to the main gates, his smile had started to twist into a thin line of help me. Adelia merely raised a brow in amusement, her stride steady and unaffected. “Perhaps we’ll get you one of those little parasols next,” she said under her breath to him. “For neck support.”

Then, the courtyard opened up and even she had to pause for a moment. It was beautiful. Chaotic, colorful, and loud. Tents had been pitched, with linens blowing gently in the breeze. Fruit stalls sat beside smithies, embroidered gowns flapped beside racks of iron tools. Children wove through legs like darting minnows, and the smell of roasting meat clung to the summer air. A bard strummed on a lute near the well, singing something in a language her waking self probably wouldn’t recognize.

She let go of Eliot’s arm once they stepped onto the cobblestones. She didn’t ask just gently slipped free, stepping ahead of him and surveying the space with a soldier’s eye. The habit was instinctive, even here. She scanned exits, noted the rhythm of the crowd, mentally clocked anything that looked out of place.

A knight’s duty.

A flicker of motion caught her attention—two small children darting through the crowd, one with a stolen apple in hand, the other laughing with wild freedom. The merchant gave a good-natured shout but made no move to chase them. Adelia’s shoulders eased. This wasn’t a dangerous village. Not yet, anyway. But she couldn’t shake the pull in her chest. Not just from the dream, but from him. Back in the waking world, Eliot had felt like a rush of static, brash, charming, all whirlwind and caffeine. Here, in this quiet corner of dream logic, he felt..different. Not false, just softened. Like seeing someone in a different light, and realizing they cast a longer shadow than you’d guessed.

Adelia adjusted her grip on her sword and called back over her shoulder with a wry smile, “Stay close, Princess. If anyone tries to kidnap you, I might not feel like ransoming you back.” She didn’t wait for his reply. Instead, she strode forward into the crowd, head high, boots ringing against the stone and let the dream carry her wherever it wanted.
Adelia stared.

No, gawked might have been more accurate. Though the moment she realized it, she sucked in a breath and smoothed her expression over with knightly grace so swift and precise, even the castle tapestries might’ve applauded. Still, there had been that one second. That one little breathless second when the sight of Eliot in full princess regalia had nearly knocked the air out of her.

The lace. The braids. The gown. If this was a dream, it was committed to the bit.

She was still taking it all in—the sweep of embroidered fabric around his(her?) ankles, the way he moved in it like he hadn’t just nearly tripped on the hem (classic), and the glint in his eyes that screamed he knew exactly how ridiculous he looked and was thriving in it. It was all so wonderfully absurd that it made her lips twitch dangerously at the corners. Her breath hitched—once, twice—as the laugh tried to sneak out, but she choked it down with a sharp exhale and dropped into a deep bow that clanked faintly with the sound of real steel.

“Your Majesty,” she said, voice smooth, formal, and only slightly strangled with effort.

Straightening, she brought her hands behind her back, spine straight, chin up. If this dream wanted her to be a knight, then she would damn well commit. And if Eliot wanted to play princess, then fine—she’d play along. But she wouldn’t lose her composure. Not yet. “You look..” she began, scanning him with careful, measured eyes, lingering a heartbeat too long on the delicate braidwork looped like a pastry crown at the back of his head. “..radiant.” God above, his hair looks like a croissant.

Too much? Maybe. But it bought her time.

“I’m told I’m to escort you on a political tour through the village,” she continued, stepping just past the threshold, voice settling into something steadier now. “Ensure your safety, uphold your honor, possibly fend off rogue assassins. You know—standard protocol.” Her eyes flicked back to him, and this time her smirk was harder to hide.

Gods help her, if he curtsied, she might lose it. The steel of her armor was warm from the sun and surprisingly light, like the dream itself was encouraging her to move with purpose. Her sword shifted at her hip as she stepped further inside the room. With a faintly amused tilt of her head, she added with perfect, knightly decorum, “Though I must confess, I hadn’t realized Her Highness would be in such fine form this morning. I trust you have been properly prepared? Educated on your role for today?" It was as close to a tease as she dared.
In The 100 11 mos ago Forum: Casual Roleplay
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In The 100 11 mos ago Forum: Casual Roleplay
I'm good 0.0 I'm waiting for my turn unless we don't care about turn order--
By the time Adelia finally made it back to her dorm, the room was blissfully cold, the buzz of the Waffle House’s fluorescent lights still etched behind her eyelids, and her face ached from laughing. Eliot’s sudden panic and dash into the night had left her stunned for a moment, and then grinning like an idiot as she watched him disappear. She murmured, “Five hours, huh?” with a chuckle as she turned the key in her door.

The moment her head hit the pillow, exhaustion took her under like a wave, and the world dissolved into that strange, syrup-slow space just before sleep.




The clang of steel echoed softly down a sun-dappled stone corridor.

Adelia blinked into a light far too warm and golden to be her dorm room’s horrendous ceiling fixture. She sat up sharply—only, she wasn’t in bed. She was sitting on a narrow bench beside a heavy oaken window, a breeze fluttering gauzy drapes beside her. Her fingers gloved in worn leather brushed across a polished scabbard at her side.

“What the..”

She stood, and her armor clinked with the weight of someone who had earned it. The breastplate was fitted, silver-trimmed, with a crest she couldn’t quite recognize but felt oddly familiar. She looked down at herself; boots worn but shined, sword sheathed, a dark cloak tossed over her shoulder like she’d just stepped out of a bard’s dramatic retelling.

Adelia moved cautiously through the castle’s halls, the sound of her steps hollow against the stones. Servants passed with bows and murmured “Lady Adelia.” She barely acknowledged them, too busy trying to process how real everything felt. The smell of baked bread from the kitchens, the hint of lavender oil from a nearby brazier—everything was too vivid for a dream.

Still, she didn’t question it too hard. It was a dream, obviously. Probably the waffles she knew she shouldn't of had. And honestly? This beat the hell out of stressing over textbook readings.

She wandered until she found herself at a sunlit gallery, gazing out onto a courtyard blooming with wild roses and fluttering pennants. A squire appeared from a side door, panting slightly, bowing with a hand to his chest. “My lady,” he said breathlessly. “You’re needed. Princess Elliot requests your escort. The political tour begins in the hour. You’re to ensure her safety through the village square.”

Adelia blinked once. Then twice. “...Princess Elliot?”

“Yes, my lady. You’ll find her in the west tower chambers. She’s expecting you.”

Adelia ran a hand down her face, suppressing a groan. “Of course she is.” With a resigned sigh and the faintest grin tugging at her lips, she turned on her heel and headed down the corridor toward the west wing. Her boots echoed off the stone, her sword tapping lightly at her side. Princess Elliot. Really?

Even in her dreams, it seemed, the universe wasn’t going to let her forget that chaotic, endearing whirlwind of a guy. Well, alright then. She could play along.

Straightening her spine and letting the knightly persona sink in fully, Adelia marched forward like she had a mission to complete. “Guess it’s time to meet royalty.”

The west tower was taller than it looked from the outside.

Adelia climbed the winding stairs, her hand brushing the cold, ancient stone of the walls as she went. A thin shaft of light followed her from a narrow window slit, illuminating the occasional banner or faded mural painted with gold-trimmed warriors and serene, watchful monarchs. The climb wasn’t hard—her dream self was strong, but it was long enough to give her time to think.

Princess Elliot. She still couldn’t say it in her head without stifling a laugh.

What would he even look like in a dream like this? Probably some ridiculous gown, dripping in gems, cracking bad jokes from a velvet chaise. She shook her head at the image, one corner of her mouth quirking upward. This dream really is on something else.

At the top of the stairs, the corridor opened into a high-vaulted hall with stained glass casting fractured rainbows across the flagstones. There were two guards stationed at the ornate double doors at the far end—doors carved with a floral crest she’d glimpsed on her own armor. The guards bowed low at her approach, stepping aside wordlessly.

Apparently, she was important here. Trusted. The Lady Knight with full access to royalty.

Adelia took a breath, then raised her gauntleted hand and knocked firm and clear on the chamber doors. Three raps. Confident. Knightly.

She stepped back half a pace, folding her arms neatly behind her back, adopting the air of someone who'd done this countless times before. But her eyes flicked briefly toward the sunlight falling through the high windows, and she couldn’t help the small laugh under her breath.

“Alright, Princess Elliot,” she murmured softly to herself, amusement laced through her voice. “Let’s see what version of you my brain cooked up.”
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He had not expected the ritual to feel like a true binding, but the heat of Azariah’s spark lingered still. Not on his hand, but deep in the bones of his wrist, where the ribbon lay knotted. Its warmth was subtle, but insistent like a presence unwilling to be ignored. Eryn did not glance at the joined flames, he did not need to. He felt it.

The moment they became one.

It was like a sigh loosed from the gods themselves.

And yet the moment he would remember most wasn’t one of fire or vows. It was Azariah slipping his hand into his. Unannounced, unasked. I will meet him there, Eryn had said. Azariah had heard it and chose to answer.

The heat from the rising steam made Eryn flinch. He had spent most of his life in the colder reaches of the Pearl Isles, where mist clung to stone and silence carried on icy winds. He had always preferred frost to fire. But now, he supposed, this was a fitting introduction to the life he was about to enter, one warmed not by solitude but by another's presence.

Had it not been for the desperate need to unify the houses, to support his father and the legacy of their line, Eryn would have chosen a different path. A quieter one. He had shaped his entire life around his role as a speaker of prophecy. And now?

The priestess of Solvya, strikingly similar to Azariah, Eryn noted. Were they related?

She stood between them, her eyes drifting between the two men. Azariah, composed as ever, spoke his half of the vows with steady clarity. Eryn let the moment stretch, holding onto silence while he could still claim it. What role did he have now, if not the one he was born to fill?

When his turn came, the words came easily. They had been etched into his memory, like a prayer spoken too often to forget. He repeated Azariah’s vow without falter, though a part of him still watched from the outside.

The priestess offered him the match. Eryn struck it once, letting the flame catch, then turned toward the braided Lunevere candle. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Azariah conjure his own flame, small and bright, with a flick of his fingers. Eryn quirked a brow. Of course. He hid a quiet smile as he touched the wick, lighting his half in time with his soon-to-be husband.

Husband.

The word sat strangely in his mouth, as if it belonged to someone else.

The two flames met in the braided center, twining upward into a single tongue of light. Eryn watched it burn with a curious reverence. Somewhere deep within, he was relieved it hadn’t gone out. Some whispered that a snuffed candle was a sign—an omen that a union would be watched by restless spirits.

They turned together to walk the aisle once more. This time, his steps felt lighter.

He had done what was asked of him. Fulfilled his part.

A glance toward the gathering drew his eye to his father. Serath stood near the back, eyes turned skyward, his face drawn tight with tension. Others did the same—waiting, hoping, dreading.

Then, sunlight struck through the high skylight above them. Warmth bathed Eryn’s face like a mother’s touch, gentle and sure. He let out a slow breath and a single tear broke free, tracing his cheek.

Even without a formal blessing, even without knowing what came next, this feeling, this moment was enough.

And then the murmurs began. Whispers stirred in the back of the hall, voices pointing, questioning. Those nearest the great doors turned to look beyond them. Through the arched windows, the sea shifted. The waves recoiled all at once, sweeping far from the shoreline like a great inhalation, only to roll gently back in. A calm tide, some said. But others, watching the rhythm, felt something more.

Perhaps it was Liraren’s blessing after all.

A few nobles shifted in their seats, guards adjusting their postures, servants beginning to prepare for the couple’s departure. Just as the murmurs rose to speaking volume, the crowd was immediately hushed.

It wasn't commanded. It wasn't asked for. It simply happened. She stepped through the marble arch like a shadow cast in daylight—tall, austere, and arrestingly composed. Kizoh, Royal Advisor to Princess Lilith, moved as if time bent slightly to accommodate her.

Her gown was a sculpted masterpiece in shades of onyx and smoked garnet—structured shoulders giving way to a tapered bodice that wrapped around her like lacquered armor. The matte fabric glinted subtly at the seams with burnished crimson threading—subtle, but unmistakable under the torchlight. Every line, every fold, was deliberate, as though she'd been stitched into it by hands long dead and dreaming of conquest. Her hair, pure silver, flowed in sleek, gravity-defiant layers that gathered attention to her crimson eyes that seemed to pin the newly wedded couple in place.

When she smiled, it was all cheekbones and diplomacy. Her lips, painted in a shade too dark for court but somehow made allowable on her, curled with a kind of affection that made the air colder, not warmer.

Eryndor felt it before he understood it. The twist in Azariah’s hand, the way his posture coiled just slightly tighter. That must be Ishaan.

Kizoh stopped a measured distance from the couple. Not close enough to crowd, just close enough to command.

“How radiant,” she murmured. “Salt and flame woven by goddesses, bound in law, presented in court. A perfect match, don’t you agree?” Her tone was honeyed, soft, but too clean to be kind.

“On behalf of Her Highness, Princess Lilith, heir to the Solencian throne and guardian of the Accord, I offer the Crown’s formal blessing.” She paused then dipped her head, a perfectly regal angle, though her eyes never left theirs. “May your union serve the realm.” When she looked upon Eryndor and Azariah, it was not as one addresses people. It was how one assesses tools. Weapons or chess pieces, each with their own consequence if moved correctly.

The silence that followed was not just quiet—it was suspended. The entire court waited to see whether she would continue. She did.

Turning slightly, Kizoh’s gaze slid across Eryndor like a silver needle through fabric. “A moonborn in chains of gold. How the tides must whisper about you.” Her voice was thoughtful, almost affectionate. “Tell me, Heir of Lunevere... when the sea calls, will you still answer with obedience, or prophecy?” A flick of her crimson eyes, now to Azariah. “And the Heir of Nymere. Fire, so recently reined. How obedient you've become.” Her smile returned. “Does the brand still burn, I wonder? Or has it cooled now that you've found a prettier cage?”

Eryn’s hand tightened ever so slightly on Azariah’s, but he didn’t dare speak because then she lifted two pale fingers and Ishaan stepped forward. He bowed, crisp, mechanical. “For the Crown,” he intoned.

Kizoh turned back to the couple one last time. “May your loyalties be long-lived,” she said, almost gently. “And your secrets few.” Then, with the rustle of her scarlet-threaded hem and the silence of knives being drawn, she was gone.




The carriage ride was a blur of whispers, of glinting glass and ceremony-slicked silence. Every step taken afterward felt too watched, too heavy with expectation. The blessing had passed. The gods had spoken.

But that... that man...

Eryndor’s spine had stiffened the moment he saw Ishaan.

Not from recognition—Eryn had never met the former marquis in person—but from something worse. An absence. A void so complete it seemed to warp the air around it. The kind of silence that Luneveres recognized instantly: not the stillness of peace, but the hush before a knife was drawn.

He'd felt Azariah’s fingers tighten around his, and this time, Eryn hadn't hidden his response. His own hand returned the pressure, not fierce, not desperate, but resolute. Now, seated beside him in the dim confines of the Nymere carriage, with the firelit chapel behind them and the future looming ahead, Eryndor finally exhaled. “He’s been graced.”

That was what they called it when Kizoh marked someone as hers.

It wasn’t a blessing. It wasn’t even a curse, not in the traditional sense. To be Graced was to be rewritten. Not overtly, not at first. Those who were Graced smiled more than they should. They answered before questions were asked. They remembered everything and nothing at once. Their words were polished, palatable, and hollow.

Some said it began with a ritual: no blood, no magic circle, just a quiet moment when Kizoh looked at you too long, and something inside you shifted. Others believed it was the crimson thread in her garments that did it, woven by Delicanian priests in secret towers where sound could not reach.

The symptoms varied. Some forgot their family names. Others lost the ability to lie. A few became brilliant speakers for the Crown—eloquent, untiring, and completely unbothered by contradiction. All of them, however, shared one thing:

They no longer looked at the world the way they used to. They looked through it. As though they'd glimpsed something beyond the veil—and had chosen to obey it.

Ishaan was the worst kind. The kind who still looked like he might be saved, but Eryndor knew better. He knew that look. It wasn’t loyalty. It was vacancy.

When Azariah helped him into the carriage, Eryndor had expected to withdraw his hand. The ritual was done and the appearances upheld, but their fingers were still linked, resting between them now like something uncertain. Something not-yet-defined.

Azariah had asked if anyone had come with him.

Eryn looked down at their joined hands. Eryndor hadn’t meant to hold on for so long. It had begun as a gesture of ceremony, steadying himself as he stepped into the carriage, but now, minutes later, neither of them had let go. The weight of it had changed. It no longer felt like obligation, or even kindness. It simply was. Eryndor shifted, not pulling away, but adjusting so their knees touched faintly.

“No,” He hesitated, then continued with a wry, delicate edge. “they thought I wouldn’t need anyone. That I would adjust.”

That was Lunevere pragmatism: sacrifice what could be borne, lose what was already lost.

He looked up at Azariah fully now, his gaze no longer unreadable. There was gratitude in it. “But I’ll manage,” he added, gently with a hint of a smile. “You offered a party once. I think may take you up on it.” Their hands were still joined. Eryndor’s gaze dropped to them again, half-expecting the illusion to vanish. But Azariah’s grip was gentle, thumb grazing once across the back of his hand before going still again.

"You're..not quite what I expected." He confessed, returning the graze of his thumb against Azariah's. "Though, this is much better than what I imagined."
Adelia walked alongside him, the night air brushing cool against her skin, her arms folded loosely across her chest more for comfort than cold. She snorted at the mention of a fight at Waffle House. “Honestly? That does sound about right,” she said, glancing sideways at him with a grin. “If someone isn’t yelling about hashbrowns or fighting their reflection in the syrup dispenser, is it even really Waffle House?”

She laughed again when he mimicked her music dilemma so dramatically, the image of him swerving off the road to protest Barbie Girl sending her into a fit of giggles. “Oh no, now I have to play it,” she teased, her voice faux-serious. “Just to see how long I’ve got before you dramatically roll out of the car like we’re in some low-budget action movie.”

She watched him toss his keys with an ease that mirrored the rest of him; unbothered, confident, always leaning toward chaos. And yet, somehow, she didn’t feel nervous following him. Not in the way she might’ve with someone else she just met. Maybe it was the way he wore every emotion on his sleeve, or the way he laughed like he had nothing to prove. Or maybe it was just that for the first time in a long time she felt like she wasn’t the only one trying to figure it all out as she went.

When he made his phoenix dream confession, she slowed a little, giving him a look that was both impressed and oddly amused. “Okay, now that’s kind of poetic. You dream of burning bright and flying free, and I’m out here brewing potions for fairies.” She shook her head with a laugh. “Clearly, I’ve got the more practical fantasy life.”

As they neared his car and the lights blinked on, she shifted her weight and tapped her fingers against the root beer can still in her hand. At his final warning she leaned her elbow casually against the roof of the car, mirroring his posture.

“Well,” she said, brow quirking as she leaned in a bit with a wry smile, “I was raised by a man who drove ten miles under the speed limit and braked three seconds before every stop sign. I think I’ll survive.” With that, she slid smoothly into the passenger seat, pulling the door shut with a satisfying thunk. She looked around the interior briefly, then down at her drink.

“And hey,” she added, glancing at him with a flash of teasing in her eyes, “if you do drive like an old man, it just means I’ll have time to mentally prep for those waffle dreams. Lady Lavender has a kingdom to defend, after all.” She buckled her seatbelt and gave him a little nod, chin tilted upward. “Let’s ride!" Adelia fumbled for a few moments, trying to wrangle the knotted mess of her celllphone charger before plugging it into his AUX. She pressed a few buttons and soon enough "Paralyzer" by Finger Eleven began to play through the car's speakers.

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