Flicker had been sat cross-legged on their seat with their eyes shut for the last half an hour or so, something both Jørmund and Aura would recognize as them attempting meditate. It's something they would often do when they wanted to calm their mind.
One of the first clues Flicker had had that they were different from the other children of their village - aside from their glowing orange eyes, of course - was that they were unable to enter the trance-like state that other elves could achieve. They needed to sleep, just like every other non-elf, and in that state they were vulnerable, both to attack from outside forces and to the whims of their unconscious mind, the latter of which would subject them to all sorts of weird dreams often linked to whatever anxieties were plaguing them in the waking world. Still, there had been times where they'd witnessed their mother, Nerina, in a trance and had attempted to copy her, sitting cross-legged next to her as they tried with all their might to achieve that same semi-conscious state that came to naturally to their kin.
It never worked, of course. Most of the time, Flicker would find it difficult to remain still and give up, or otherwise would doze off while sat up. Still, there were those occasional times where they felt... something. Something calming, almost, an outer body experience of sorts where they felt both very present and very far away at the same time, and a small part of them hoped it had brought them one step closer to being a 'true elf'.
They stopped these attempts during their teens, partly because their emotions were so volatile as to make it nearly impossible and partly because their desire to fit in with the rest of their kind had greatly diminished. Still, they had ended up taking it up again once they joined the Order, at the request of their mentors, and still partook when they wanted to still their mind of troubling thoughts and improve their focus on the task at hand.
That's what Flicker had been attempting to do now, as the past few days had been so stressful that they felt it was necessary to at least achieve some sort of calm before they reached Cascade's village. The water genasi was depending on them all to help her people in this trying time, and Flicker doubted they'd be much help if they were stuck in their own thoughts. Unfortunately, the exercise didn't help much as they ended up dozing off and finding themself in a very, very strange dream. Stranger than usual, in fact, and when they were startled awake by the movement of the cart, they felt more anxious than before, looking in every direction around them both hoping and fearing that they would catch a glimpse of the strange images that had just haunted their sleep.
Eventually, they were able to catch on that they were, in fact, awake this time and took a deep breath, running their hands over their face as small yellow and white sparks started sputtering from their hair. They were aware of Jormund and Cascade talking about the cold, something they themself weren't usually that bothered by, but as they felt their senses returning, they realised that, yes, it was in fact unusually cold.
Needing something to do, they conjured a small flame in their hands and held it near their own face, allowing the heat and light to anchor them to the here and now, rather than the places their mind was trying to take them. It was weirdly comforting, in a way.
"How much longer have we got to go, you think?" they asked, keeping their eyes on the flame in their hands as they spoke.