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Her threads were unraveling, like a canvas worn by time, colors bleeding into shades of exhaustion. Juniper was surprised by how quickly the sensation arose, it was fast and sharp like the sting from a wasp, but she’d expected it to creep across the floor like a beam of sunlight until it had reached her unmoving frame. She didn’t want to be here. She didn’t want to watch a stranger's face drain of color, to see fear bloom across their features in ways that were intimately familiar.

She didn’t want to know it was all a result of something her friend had said, callous and cool. Grief could twist people, this she knew, but it revealed them too. Had Jim always been so uncaring when it came to others feelings? First Imogen, and now perfect strangers. June didn’t look at Jim again, she couldn’t bring herself to. Everything else slipped away from her, the new man and woman who had joined them were noted, a small part of her brain categorizing several ways to incapacitate them before moving on.

"No wonder you’re desperate for allies," The woman was admirable for keeping it together as well as she was, if it had been June…she may have hit Jim. "I can’t imagine an invasive, judgemental prick like you has many friends."

Juniper closed her eyes, let the sound of an ally they could have had walking away wash over her, and tried to untangle the sudden mess her emotions had become. This meeting had been a handle on hope for June, she’d clung to it once the option had been given. Her mind wandered for a moment, to the days before she’d known, where she’d spent dark nights in damp alleyways trying to beat information out of men who had no information to give. She’d rather be there now, if only to have an outlet for it all.

"What the fuck happened to me doing the talking?" June used Imogen’s anger to ground herself, the tempo of her heart slowing into a more steady beat. Why did she feel so angry? The way Jim had targeted them, innocent, unaware of whatever inner turmoil they faced, it reminded her too much of other people. The kinds of people who never could be considered heroes. "Diplomacy and trust is how you make allies, Jim. Not this," Imogen wasn’t done with him, and she wasn’t surprised. She took a steadying breath before allowing her eyes to flutter open, taking in the angry set to the other woman’s jaw. "Just because we don’t get the luxury of anonymity does not give you the right to strip that away from others,"

That was it, she realized, feeling stupid for how long it took her to pinpoint her deeper source of anger and betrayal by his actions. June took another step away from Jim, because it was betrayal she felt sinking into her bones like cancer. June was tired, and she missed her dad and brother more than she missed sleep. All she wanted was to hear their voices again, to feel their hug, to know she was safe to live her life because they were there.

She felt like Atlas now, the weight of Gotham laid across her shoulders like a hot brand searing into her skin. Did these strangers feel it, too? Did they struggle with staying to fight for New York? She knew she wasn’t the only one feeling the pain of this loss, but did Jim know how it felt to have something so crushing placed into your hands and told it was your job to stand against everything that longed to destroy it? Did he know how it felt to stand alone in a fight that you knew you couldn’t win, but to still choose to fight anyways? Even if he didn’t, could he not put himself in any of their shoes for even five minutes? They’d all taken up mantles that felt too large to lift, but he was the only one lashing out.

"I told you I was handed the responsibility of planning my father and brothers funeral, and I know you understood why. Having a secret identity isn’t just about anonymity, Jim. It’s about keeping the people you love safe from the people who would use our identities to hurt them." Her words rang through the lobby like trumpets at Jericho, voice cool and surprisingly empty. It was the tone Juniper typically used when she was Nightingale, when she was wearing a mask. "Those two have their own city to protect, have a place they call home that is in utter disarray. They’ve been in those streets every night trying to keep it all from falling apart, I’ve seen the news and I know you have too."

Juniper turned away from him, she felt feverish and exhausted and there was nothing she could do about it. She had too many things to do to allow herself to get wrapped up in personal feelings right now. "Will you be sharing my secret identity with everyone too? Would you take away something as intimately personal, something I’d only give in trust, from me, too? We’ve all only just met each other, you didn’t even give them a chance. This is our only hope, why are you trying to—"

She bit her tongue, stopping the words that wanted to spill out before they could, and June went to the man who had been left on the couch, not looking back at Jim.



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"Phil, why don't you get Ms. Murdock and Mr. Parker here some water before we start discussing family matters. They had a long trip down from Manhattan, and I wouldn't want them to feel like strangers."

The man's words were bouncing around in Theo’s skull like a pinball in an old arcade machine. The squeeze of Myla’s hand ought to have hurt any normal man, but it only brought him back to his senses before he slipped too far into his own mind. He wasn’t surprised by how she was reacting, by the anger he could practically feel rolling off of her. He understood, and he’d been working with Hell’s Angel for long enough to know she wasn’t always sweet as sunshine.

"Up from Manhattan," a drop of cold rolled down Theo's spine at her voice, and his hand squeezed her own back gently. He supported her, no matter what. "Bridgeport, Connecticut is Northeast of Manhattan. I figured a Stark would know how to read a map." Myla's words were biting, calculating, and he felt a small thrill at the realization that she was smart. Way smarter than Theo was, he would have never caught that mistake in his own rage.

Her anger always reminded Theodore of winter, all relentless chill. He was glad it had never been directed at him, glad that it wasn’t explosive in nature. He felt a flare of amused pride at her sass toward the other man, at how she stood up for herself even though he could see how sweat beaded on her forehead, the flush he’d been admiring on her cheeks fading. He resented Jim for taking that from him, from stealing the little bit of peace Myla had in this unfamiliar place.

He was angry too, but not so much about his identity being dragged but hers. Theo knew he was different from Myla, he had powers she didn’t and with that power came the knowledge he could protect his loved ones more efficiently. He knew what was most important, and it wasn’t standing by while someone else suffered, and he couldn’t stand to see her suffer.

Her hand slipped from his own like a dream fading at dawn, and he watched her walk away for a moment, mouth falling open but no words coming. Should he go after her? Did she want him to? The aftermath was quiet, even with the other women speaking up in their defense, and his heart felt heavy with the weight of it all. This hadn’t been a trap, but it was challenging in ways neither of them had expected. He knew that Myla would rather take a fist to the face any day than having to be vulnerable in front of people she did not trust, and that choice had been stolen from her.

Theo pushed up from the couch resolutely, turning away from the room to go and follow her, but the woman that had seemed so intimidating earlier approached him before he could even get a foot across the lobby, her hands raised in a gesture of peace, the knives from earlier having vanished once more. "I’m sorry," her voice was soft and repentant enough that it gave him a reason to pause, pushing aside the distress rising in his chest at the fact that Myla wasn’t there in the room with him right now. She was outside, alone, upset, and anything could happen to her. "I can’t make it any better or take it back, but I can try to help. I understand, kind of. Do you think I could go with you?"

Theo floundered for a moment, feeling like a fish out of water. He glanced toward the others, toward the blonde who had welcomed them and her chosen beverage, toward the man and woman who had come in and collapsed on one of the other couches, toward the older men who were watching on in a silent, judging sort of manner. He looked back to her, running a hand over his face and trying to keep his nerves from fraying any further. He’d traveled for days, slept on the fucking forest floor, all so he could watch his best friend get bullied? It was bullshit, all of it was.

"Why do you care?" Theo’s voice came out harsher than he’d meant it to, his anger wasn’t at this woman, it was at the man she’d been standing with earlier. He didn’t back down though, because it was Myla they were talking about and he wasn’t sure if anyone deserved to see how upset she actually was.

"Because, I was taught to have compassion for everyone. Sometimes, I forget why it matters. It’s easy to, when I’m angry, when I’m tired, but compassion is what separates us from them." The woman took a deep breath, as if saying those words aloud cost her a great deal. "My dad taught me that, I’ll tell you, and her, all about him…if you’ll let me."

That was something Theodore could understand, and it was almost funny. She knew exactly what to say to disarm him, unintentionally or not, everything he knew about compassion and responsibility came from his own father. He hastily turned back, picking up Myla’s purse, letting the silence stretch.

"Fine, but if she wants to leave we’re leaving." His eyes cut toward Jim, and he clenched his teeth to keep in the more cutting things he wanted to say to the man. Instead, Theo swallowed his anger and headed toward the door. "We have enough shit to deal with back home, without being harassed by some dick with an ego. We both gave up a lot to be here, not everyone has the same resources as a fucking Stark."

The woman followed, as silent as the wind, no comment to his words. He nodded to the older man trying to clean up the glass, stepping through what remained of the doors and going toward where he could hear Myla’s heart thundering in her chest. Any thoughts about the other people fell away, all he could focus on was her and making sure she was okay.

The woman behind him fell back some as Theo crossed to Myla, pausing right in front of her with an air of uncertainty about him. He reached out, slowly, so that she could hear his movements and react if she wanted to, but all he did was tuck a curl behind one of her ears. The tips of his fingers brushed along Myla’s jaw, a tender gesture that telegraphed more than words ever could.

"I’m here, Myla. Whatever you want to do, I’ll follow you." His voice was soft, and he let his arm drop back to his side. Theo didn’t want to leave, not until he got some answers, until he knew why they were there, but he would if it meant staying with her. The fear of having almost lost her still echoed in his head like the bang of a gun firing, Theo didn’t think he could survive it twice. "One of them wants to talk to you first, before you decide. That’s all I’m asking, just listen to her, okay? This one and the other lady gave that asshole hell, and if by the time she’s done you want me to go back in there and punch him I will. If you want to leave we will, but if you want to stay, I’ll be there too."

He wanted to hug her, to wrap her up in his arms again and let her know she wasn’t alone, but he didn’t want to cross boundaries, didn’t want to make her feel more vulnerable around someone neither of them really knew. So, Theo didn’t, but he gave her the choice because it didn’t matter to him. He’d be fighting the good fight either way, as long as Myla was beside him it didn’t matter where.



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It took twelve breathes a minute, for one hundred and eighty minutes, before Nicolosia was gifted the embrace of unconsciousness. She tries not to think about the darker things her mind always wandered to when she attempted to sleep, like how it felt to lay her bare hands over a boys throat, how pressing her thumbs down until the cartilage of his trachea collapsed, how his skin had shifted from pale ivory, to screaming red, to dull and bruised purple. It hadn't worked, of course it hadn't, because once the thought started her memory filled in the blanks, and instead of falling asleep she'd spent thirty minutes with her own hands pressed to her throat. Her fingers laid delicately over her pulse, counting the beat of her heart until the panic that had made the edges of her vision grow dark and fuzzy faded away.

When she eventually fell asleep, she dreamed. It is not any sort of peaceful dream, it never is, rather the dream is filled with blood, and pain, and tears. There is a sickness in her dream that drains the life from the land, that makes each breath from someone's lungs wet and putrid. In her dream, she can hear an ancient song, hymns she cannot understand reverberating within her very bones and drawing her in. It feels as if the trees are calling out to her, like the ground is trying to swallow her where she lies, and she knows it is the ghosts of those she's killed haunting her even now. In this dream, the day bleeds into a night that oozes with those ghosts, an air of nostalgia dripping down her lungs like liquid sorrow, and the birds sing that song, the one she can’t understand, and it urges her to let go. The dream twists further; blood blooming across pristine snow, the death rattle of her brothers last breath, the way her father's tongue curled around the word exile.

She wakes up too hot, sweaty and gasping, feeling like her fingers were slick and sticky from blood. It's the boom of thunder overhead that reassures her it was just another bad nightmare. Nicolosia didn't bother to try again, some nights just weren't meant for resting. Instead, she dragged herself from the warmth of her bedroll and decided to use the harsh downpour in a more productive manner than most might. The woman stripped down to her undergarments, and stepped out of her tent with a bar of soap in hand. It felt a luxury to have chosen a spot so far on the edges of the camp, her tent opening was faced toward the surrounding wilderness and her comrades in arms were spared a free show as she used the relentless rain to clean herself from days worth of sweat and grime.

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Her hair was still wet where it was braided back as Nico sat in the canteen hall, breathing in the smell of heady jasmine, red sandalwood, sweet carnations, and warm leather that was a unique mix of her soap and armor. It had been so refreshing to cleanse herself in the chilled rain, her mood raised so much so that she wasn't even irritated by her current predicament.

"Is there something you needed? She'd finally asked of the man who had been standing in front of her table for no less than six minutes. She hadn't meant to be intentionally rude in her lack of acknowledgement, rather she'd just hoped he would go away before she needed to address him. The subtility of her silence seemed to be lost to him though, so here they were.

"You're one of the new recruits, right?" His voice was gruff and sort of gargled, like he was in great pain and speaking only caused him further suffering. It was this that finally made her look up at the man instead of her nearly empty bowl. Nicolosia's eyebrows rose slowly as she took in his battered form.

"What happened to your face?" She asked, a touch more politely than he had spoken, and yet the man still sputtered indigently. She felt it was a very fair question though, because both his eyes were black, and he looked like his cheekbone was perhaps fractured.

"That's not any of your business."

"You look as if you fell and caught yourself with your face." It was very interesting to watch how spots of his face, unblemished with darkening bruises, turned red and splotchy in his budding anger. Someone at a nearby table snorted, though she didn't bother to look at who it was.

"I said," he ground out the words through clenched teeth, leaning over where she sat some as if his intent was to loom imposingly over her. "Are you one of the new recruits."

Something primal prickled at the back of her neck, and Nico allowed her eyes to slide away from him. His appearance was one part of an equation she'd yet to solve, the other half was near, otherwise he wouldn't be posturing quite so much. She spotted it quickly enough, another table not far from her own where a group of significantly less battered men sat watching their exchange. A soft breath escaped her, and she readjusted how she was holding her spoon.

"What do you want?" Her voice was as cold as snow now, hazel eyes sliding back up slowly to the mans face. She categorized how he seemed to be favoring his left foot, how his right arm hung limp at his side, how he had no scars blemishing his bare arms. The fear that howled at the back of her mind constantly grew softer, and there was a spark of feral resignation in the air around her.

"Your axe," his voice was ragged and strained, she could see how sweat streaked down his temple. He was nervous now, but angry still. "It looks sturdy, someone like me would be more capable of wielding it efficiently than... you."

The unsaid than a woman hung in the air between them for a moment, and Nicolosia tilted her head ever so slightly in a manner that was birdlike in nature. Her free hand curled delicately around the edge of her table, arm loose and unimposing as she weighed her options. This was going in an...undesirable direction.

"You've recently had your ego bruised," she hazard a lazy guess, taking no enjoyment from how his eyes bulged and his hands curled into fists. "I can only assume that you're attempting to pick a fight with someone who you believe you can win against in order to save face with your peers, but I feel it's pertinent to make you aware of how this will escalate if you attempt to use violence against me."

He looked flabbergasted for a moment, before tensing as Nico dropped her spoon in order to draw her dagger from it's sheath at her waist. Her movements were slow and careful, trying to telegraph that the gesture wasn't inherently threatening in nature. The blade was bone white, polished meticulously, with what appeared to be runes carved into the surface, though they were none the man likely could have placed. She weighed it in her palm, humming softly but never taking her eyes off of him.

"I had a friend when I was younger, his name was Ejvind." Her voice was very brittle, but her hand was steady as she kindly raised the dagger up for him to get a better look at. "We learned the stars together, he was very dear to me. One day though, it came down to me or him. It broke my heart to slit his throat."

She didn't break eye contact as the words spilled from her lips, sticky and sweet like honey. It wasn't the full story, not even close, but someone like this sniveling rot didn't deserve to really know anything about Ejvind and their history. It didn't matter if he looked at her as if she were a monster plucked straight from his nightmares, so long as he stopped looking at her.

"I don't like killing like that, it's too messy. Someone else tried to steal from me not long ago, before I came here. He didn't like that I fought back, he tried to kill me, so I gouged his eyes out with my thumbs. That's messy too, the eyes are so soft and tender though, all it takes is a little force and dedication. I usually prefer cleaner kills, I don't like to prolong the process, it's better for it to end all at once." Nicolosia sighed, soft and theatrical. The canteen around them grew a little quieter as her words carried. It was better to nip this in the bud now, if anyone assumed she was an easy target they'd end up in a casket. "This dagger was gifted to me from Ejvind's mother, it was crafted from his femur bone and presented to me as a reward for having bested him in battle. I do not know where you hail from, nor do I care, but you ought to care where I am from."

Nico stood then, her chair scrapping loudly across the cobblestone underfoot. The man took a reflexive step back, he looked as if he was going to be ill. That was good, she didn't care to scare the fool if it would save his life because if he attacked her here, in a place she'd slowly began to feel safe, she would kill him. It wasn't in her nature to let such a transgression go.

"Because," she slid the dagger back into it's sheath, leaving her arms loose at her sides. "Where I am from has made me cruel. If you attack me, I will not be as kind as the last person whom you challenged and lost to. Do you understand what I am saying?"

There was a distinct pause, and she could feel the vein in her throat jumping from the beat of her heart. Fear coiled like a rock at the bottom of her stomach, and she hid the fine tremble of her hands by clenching them into fists so tight that the scars across her knuckles drained of color. If he attacked her, she would have to fight him, and she wouldn't be able to sleep at night until she was certain his threat was extinguished. Nico's good mood from the rain slipped away like smoke between her fingers.

He didn't speak again, simply giving her a jerky shake of his head before he pivoted sharply on his heel and stalked back to his table. Nicolosia watched him go, pulling her emotions in from the whirlwind they'd become until they were a tight knot in her chest. It was only when he'd sat once more, his back to her, that she turned on her own heel and swiftly left the canteen.

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Nicolosia walked until the panic subsided, her dinner no longer threatening to crawl up her throat. She had to remind herself that she'd chose this, she hadn't been asked to join by some mysterious hooded figure in a tavern - which was a good thing, she might have gutted him - or something ridiculous like that. She'd heard about The Rethari Blades and went to join up on her own, she'd gone looking to fight the good fight because there was nothing else for her to do. She'd chosen this and she refused to let her fear, the all consuming and rageful beast that it was, make her turn away from it now.

"Lovely. A suicide march dressed in noble intent. We should embroider that on our banner." A woman's voice echoed down the corridor, startling Nico. She hadn't realized how far she'd gone to come so close to the Main Hall. "Perhaps with a little skull holding a bouquet."

Well, that didn't exactly make her feel all warm and fuzzy inside. She pressed one of her hands over her mouth, attempting to stifle how her breath hitched and quickened. Her other hand rose, curled around her wrist until her fingers pressed into the raised and jagged skin of a scar. The action caused her no pain, it was old and faded by now, but it did help ground her some.

"Enough. This isn’t a jest,” Another voice cut through her panic further, and Nicolosia swallowed a few deeper breathes. “We don’t know what’s ahead, and guessing won’t make it prettier.”

The next voice was a familiar one, she'd heard her speak before but never directly spoken to her. Her voice commanded attention, quieting everything like a crack of thunder bellowing over the sky. Nico allowed the strength in the woman's voice to steady herself, her eyes slipping shut as she focused on the words she heard rather than the emotions she felt. "Then we stop guessing. We move. This is where we lose contact with the last of the Warden outriders. Dean, you're leading the team."

So it was a mission then, one that some of her peers would be embarking on. Nico bit the inside of her cheek hard, until blood filled her mouth and trickled down her throat. The flavor of rust and cooper bloomed across the back of her tongue, and she resisted the urge to gag on her fear. It sounded like a suicide mission, the other woman had been right, and yet...

"You’ll take Vae’nra, Rasaad, Fleur, Raeretha, and whomever else you deem necessary. You get in, observe, and get back. I want eyes on Weisshaupt. Signs, tracks, survivors if the Maker has left us any. But if you meet something you can’t fight... you don’t."

There was a long pause, the names spoken meant nothing to Nicolosia, but she could feel the conviction in the woman's voice even from where she stood outside the room. What she wouldn't give to not be here in this moment, to not have heard their plans. It would have been amazing to continue living in ignorance, or at least as ignorant as someone who joined a group who strived to damn well save the world could be. She just wanted to be another face in the crowd, another fool tumbling toward death but at least one that wasn't marching toward it. Fuck, she just wanted to go home.

"We’re not dying for ghosts and guesses. Not yet. You retreat. You bring word. We bring war only when we know what we’re swinging at." Her voice became softer, so much so that Nico's ears strained to pick up the murmured words. "We’ll hold here and prepare for the worst. That’s all we’ve ever had to plan around anyway."

The silence stretched, and she allowed herself to lean against the wall for a moment. Her forehead was hot and clammy, the damp stone felt nice on her flushed skin. Outside, the storm raged on without grace. She could hear her fathers voice overlapped with the woman's for a moment, so much conviction, so much unbridled but contained fear. Go forward slowly, it's not a race to the end. Be steady, my heart. You will live. She swallowed around the bile that crawled up her throat.

"When the sky clears, we move. I want blades sharpened, packs light, and your minds ready. No stragglers. No hesitation." The sharp crack of thunder split the air like a thrown axe, and Nico pulled away from the wall. She rolled her shoulders back, let her arms fall, and fought to remain calm. I don't want to die. It was the thought that was loudest in her mind, it always had been, but then a new thought surfaced with all the force of a strike of lightening. I don't want to hide. And really, her mind had been made up since she'd heard the first woman speak. "Dismissed. And may the Creators, the Maker, or whatever gods you still believe in, walk with us when we step into that dark."

Nicolosia waited for the occupants of the meeting to exit the room, spilling out into the hall she'd been lingering in, and then before she could change her mind- "Dean?" She approached the man who had turned at the call of his name, shoulders squared and face set. "I would like to accompany you on the expedition, if you will have me."


@Expllo Thank you very much, I'm so excited to be part of the story! :)

As for The Protectors Oath, it would be more akin to a bad hit. More so a hit that she feels she should have been able to stop or take in their place. Not something as simple as a punch to the face, more like if she watched them get stabbed or, as you mentioned, fall unconscious.
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