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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“I will win, trust me. I am repaying you. I’m just as stubborn.” Iris chuckled as she poked Caspian gently on the arm, a smile tugging at her lips from just being in his presence. It took a lot to not just hug him, show affection but she knew she couldn’t, and it was painful trying to hold it in. Especially as a part of her worried that they weren’t on the same page anymore, perhaps the week apart had made him realise he was better off without her. That was something she consistently found herself thinking about, that he was so much better off without her. I’m glad he rescued me, saved me but… he would be better off without me.

Thinking on it she wondered on how they could even work, when it came down to it there was no way they could be long term considering he was due to be King. Biting the inside of her lip she tried not to think on it, but the thought continued to swirl around her mind as she contemplated on their future together. As much as the idea made her heart race it was all just fantasy, a fairy tale that could never come true because she was not destined to be with him. I should just enjoy my time here with him, while it lasts.

“Huh? Oh, that sounds quite interesting. These certainly sound more on the high end of pizza. I’m used to just good old cheese and tomato.” Grinning as she looked at the photo of the restaurants specials, excited to try the pizza because as the boys had said this was one of the best pizza restaurants in the Capital and it was hard not to be a little excited. Especially when most of her life she had eaten stale bread and scraps, compared to the food now she couldn’t imagine liking the previous food she had tolerated in the districts.

“Yes! Garlic bread is the best. I won’t have anyone tell me otherwise.” Iris smiled looked over at Miles as he mentioned on how the chefs were professionally trained in Italy. “Well if this isn’t a good pizza they need to retrain the chefs then. I have high expectations now.” Chuckling to herself softly as she knew it was lie, she didn’t expect it to be the best nor would be disappointed because she knew whatever food did arrive, she would be happy to eat. It was a nice change from the slops in the districts that was for sure.

Lingering around Cas for a little bit longer she watched him order the food her mind trailing back off to her previous worries of not being good for Cas. Maybe I should just disappear? Back to the districts, he would be better off without me. Looking over Cas for a second before she stood back up moving back to the sofa as there was no need to keep hanging around him after he had ordered. Sitting back down on the sofa she found herself thinking on ways to escape, sneak away from the boys because they would all do better without her and she wanted the best for Cas and she was believing that she was not it.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

I mean I haven't seen Jay trashed yet so it will be fun! Haha.

Hey no worries! I have a huge managers meeting tomorrow sorting out a few bits in the store as a lot of movement etc has happened.

Will you be posting pictures of the hike? It sounds amazing! Omg are you going to take the doggo with you too?

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“I highly doubt it’s a law, if it is it sounds like a ridiculous one.” Iris chuckled shaking her head at the idea it was the law to celebrate with a bottle of bubbly. Of course, it wasn’t an actual law, but she enjoyed the light-hearted conversation. A part of her wondered what Miles thought of the districts, his view had to be like Caspians before he understood the reality of the places beyond the Capital. Though right now she didn’t want to think on it, everything from her hometown to the rebellion still hurt her and she knew it was still a fresh wound for Cas as well after everything they had put him through.

“I mean, I don’t think it’s spoilt to inherit a country with all the rubbish that no doubt comes alongside it. Think of the responsibility. I doubt you could run a country; you’d bankrupt it with all your silly laws and partying habits.” Iris snorted at Miles winding him up some more as he proclaimed that Cas was the spoilt one, at least Miles didn’t have to deal with a major responsibility. That and his life won’t be in the limelight, he won’t have peoples lives to consider. Then the troublemakers, the ones that cause crimes, he has to decide what to do with them and be okay with that decision. Finding her thoughts trail off she felt a great empathy for Cas and the idea that he would be the one to make these important decisions. It couldn’t be easy, especially when his relationship with his father was still rocky so he didn’t exactly have someone to turn too.

“Clumsy!?” Outraged Iris found herself frowning not catching on to the flirting of Miles, “You try walking in the dead of night and not stepping in a bear trap in those woods.” Folding her arms over her chest as she huffed at the idea, she knew it had been somewhat clumsy but it’s not like it was intentional. Though, what would have happened if I didn’t step in that trap? Things would be so different. I’d probably be dead, that’s for sure and things wouldn’t change. My father would have been alive if not killed by alcohol poisoning.

Pushing herself off of the sofa she moved over to Cas and stood behind leaning down to glance at his phone to check out the menu, “Just you watch I will pay you back and there is nothing you can do about it.” Teasing Cas as she peered at the device wondering what kind of pizza she wanted. “Hmm, what do I want. What are you getting? I can share with you. I doubt I could eat a whole thing.” Smiling as she enjoyed being that little bit closer to Cas, “Oh! Can we get garlic bread? Do they even do garlic bread? I eh… I mean is that okay to get some?” Feeling her cheeks heat up slightly as she felt a little embarrassed assuming it was just okay to add to the order, especially when she had no means of paying anyone right now.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Yeah that's such good news. Especially with the new house and everything!

Ohh that would just make things worse. I can feel it, but I love the idea at the same time of them not being able to talk until much later xD

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Iris couldn’t help but smile as she watched Cas shuffle his feet, noting the slight reddening of his cheeks. It felt good to see him react like that, watch him feel bashful over compliments from her. I just wish we could be alone. Biting the bottom of her lip as she tried not to fidget because she wanted to be close to him. A part of her didn’t know what was worse, being in lockdown away from him for a week or having him in the same room and not being able to express her feelings openly because no one knew.

“Customary for you maybe.” Iris commented rolling her eyes at Miles as he seemed to overreact at her comment on not liking his ideas, finding herself smirking because she knew how to wind him up. “Not that I had much to celebrate back home, but when we did, we certainly didn’t pop a bottle of champagne.”

Shaking her head at how Miles claimed it would be fun she knew she didn’t drink as much as they had that night, but she knew she couldn’t stomach such a thing. That and her own personal demons when it came to alcohol, she just didn’t touch the stuff, she was actually quite surprised she had let herself go that night and participated like she had. “I wouldn’t say hardier background… more spoilt?” Teasing Miles with a smirk on her face, it was a light-hearted comment still joking around with him and in no way did she mean the word spoilt maliciously.

When Cas piped up about what had happened, she felt her smile drop, although she knew it was in good humour and she had to remind herself of that fact. It was true, Cas had endured a lot and he was definitely hardier than Miles considering, but even with the gibe the reminder that he had been beaten almost to death was a painful one. Hesitating briefly, she composed herself knowing that it was silly to get worked up over it, that was now in the past and they were both safe. “Well I think I’m much hardier than you both put together.” Boldly making a comment of her own as she tried to put the smile back on her face, “I managed to step in a bear trap and lose my memories at the same time.”

Glancing over a Miles as he spoke about inviting Jay to do the fun stuff, she had to stop the sigh from leaving her lips. It was just another person thrown into the mix, another person that was stopping her and Cas from being alone together. It was hard not to feel disheartened as she knew that everyone was just trying to help, but she just wanted to talk to Cas alone.

“Oh! Luigis was it?” Grinning at the idea of going there, she had remembered him saying how it was one of the best pizza places around and they had agreed to go together. “Didn’t I owe you that? Or was it just drinks? I definitely owe you a lot.”

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

That's great news! You guys must be so relieved too!

I feel so bad for them as they can't just openly address it haha. It's going to build up I can see it xD

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Nox-Fleuret. The family name, the one that had been proudly brandished across the rebellion and now it just left a bit of a sour taste in her mouth. Though it was just a name it was her fathers name, she couldn’t remember what her mothers last name was else she would have asked by now to be called it. I guess it doesn’t really matter? To Iris however it did, finding herself getting wrapped up just about her last name, she didn’t even bite back at the tease that Miles had said on kicking her to the curb around paying him back. Already he knew she was the type to pay people back, finding it hard to except kindness without some form of repayment. Caspian knew this about her also, but she didn’t have the heart to fight back on the matter.

Smiling at Cas at the mention of Jacob and how he had sent her to the hospital she nodded, “Probably because of you and I don’t think it’s anything to with authority. I think he believes in you like I do.” As much as she knew they had to be careful she still wanted him to know that she believed in him, hopefully he also took it as a she still cared for him. Maybe he would read into it more, she hoped he would because it hurt not being able to tell him her feelings for him and ask if they were okay.

Turning her gaze to Miles as Cas stated it was his home and what did he think she shook her head grimacing, “I don’t like your ideas. Especially when it comes to drinking.” Although it had been fun, she wasn’t a huge fan of drinking, or anything else for that matter when he mentioned his stash. Wrinkling her own nose, she shook her head agreeing with Cas on the idea that more alcohol was not the way to go with this.

“Food however sounds great; I’ve regained my appetite and let’s just say the food here is amazing. It's certainly been a treat.” Perking up at the idea of food, at the start she had been a bit cautious still feeling sorry for herself but she had soon warmed up to the idea of eating and now it was always exciting to experience the new foods that she could taste. It was the same when she had stayed with Cas, they always had such fancy food that she had never tried before and it now felt strange thinking on the slops they used to eat back in the districts.

“Whatever we have will certainly be better than anything I could ever cook myself.” Grimacing as she thought on the stale bread, she had offered Cas back when he was locked in her basement. Not that was something she had cooked because there wasn’t much food available to cook for him at the time because whatever money her family had was always spent on alcohol to appease her father. “I’ll be honest, I’m not that great when it comes to food. I’ve not really had much choice before, so I am happy to let you guys pick. I’m sure it will be amazing whatever you choose.”

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Deffo!

Oh! Did you ever get the results back from that test?

No worries, I understand! I feel bad for Cas though, the jealousy, bless him. Iris can't even assure him that she still likes him with Miles right there xD

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“I would never cheat!!” Iris found herself laughing as Miles turned it back to her, the idea that she would cheat was preposterous, but she liked the fact he would tease her back. Again, the bright chipper mood taking away whatever worries she had faced. They were still there in the back of her mind, but it was easy to focus on something else if only for a second. “I can assure you I did not pocket any aces; I didn’t even have pockets! I wasn’t even wearing anything with sleeves. You’re just a sore loser.” Biting back as she could see the smirk on Miles face and she knew already he was just winding her up, but she couldn’t even stay fake mad at him.

Though she found her gaze wandering back to Cas, the smile being replaced by a frown at the tone of his voice. Seeing him with folded arms over his chest she felt like he was becoming closed off, that he didn’t want to talk or share with them and she felt the worry creep back in. The thought that he actually might not be interested in her anymore, that maybe over the week he had come to find that he wasn’t attracted to her and it had just been the adventure that had drawn them close. I thought… we were together? Maybe I got it wrong? Iris had to stop herself from just outright asking him what his problem was, worried that it would just cause a fight and he would admit to not liking her anymore. Words she didn’t want to hear leave his lips. Iris knew she was probably overreacting to this, but the flashes of that vivid nightmare she experienced a week ago when he had said he never loved her haunted her.

What if I just said something that offended him. Maybe he doesn’t like the fact I’m insulting his best friend? I must have done something wrong. Nerves began to build up as she couldn’t help but fidget uncomfortably on the sofa worried to speak for a moment because she thought she had done something wrong. Watching Cas she felt herself ease a little as he confirmed she was safe, deciding to focus on this subject of the conversation making her feel a little silly as she had probably just overreacted and read too much into it. “Jacob knows?” There was worry in her voice, not because the guard knew but she still couldn’t shake off the worry that Cas didn’t like her.

“Rebel girl?” Smiling slightly as Miles made the comment, she relaxed a little more, Jacob could be trusted as Cas had said and she believed his word. “I can’t believe he agreed to it…” Shaking her head she was slightly shocked that he had agreed to keep his word and even throw the soldiers off of her scent. “I’m starting to build up a debt here for people saving my life.” Trying to make a joke, hoping that it would cheer up Cas a little, she still wondered what brought on that tone of voice. “Though thinking on it, I’m fairly certain that Jacob was the one that made the prison take me to the hospital. If he hadn’t have done that, I don’t know what would have happened.” Iris could remember hearing his voice bark the orders at someone about moving her, she was certain it was Jacob though it was hard to recall without thinking on that painful time.

Determined not to dwell on the matter Iris grinned at the boys clapping her hands together, “We should celebrate lockdown being lifted. I know I don’t want to sit around here dwelling on the past. I am safe, you guys aren’t going to be punished. We should be happy. What shall we do?” Hoping that it would brighten up everyones mood and keep her own mind off of the depressing thoughts.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

I think it would be interesting with either option whether he accepts or denies it. I’d be happy to go along with either. It would be interesting her going back to the districts and to see how Cas would react about it and what he would do. Then it would also be interesting if Cas ever found out she asked Jacob to do such a thing if he refuses. We can have a think on it and see how it fits in with the story when it gets there!