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2 days ago
Current Saying straight up that apology means nothing until something changes feels kinda fierce, but I will quickly turn around and feel like I'm being mean or awful for setting up boundaries lol.
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2 days ago
As a people pleaser and person with anxious attachment issues, it feels both relieving and awful to not accept someone's apology when they messed up the second time around with the same issue.
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9 days ago
Keep biting my tongue a lot lately because anger has been really hounding me. Don't want to start a fight, I want to be left alone, I have nothing good to say, but I want to vent so bad. Bad bad time.
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1 mo ago
You know that feeling when you've been denying your mental health decline all along and trying to moveitmoveit and then you just one day crumble unexpectedly and you can't moveitmoveit anymore?
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1 mo ago
Learned a new mistake: should not always represent myself as capable and someone who gets shit done. People will use it and give you burdens you're not meant to carry. Crazy expectations too.
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Bio

I would die for this man.



Advanced multi-para to adjustable writing. A fan of drama, action and detailed scenes in general. Very flexible when it comes to settings, slice of life is probably my weakest point due to the lack of interesting elements, but the only interesting slice of life roleplay I have had involved crime and a complicated relationship between a war veteran and his much younger romantic interest. I love psychologically challenging characters and situations.

The quality of my writing will reflect against my own partner - you will be my inspiration, as well as a demotivator. And please, communicate with me if we're writing. Please. I need to establish a writing chemistry with you in order for us to make some quality content.

But personally, I write a lot. Everything is labeled "mature" because I'm an adult who enjoys writing and reading nasty and messy stuff. What comes to your mind when you read those two words is entirely up to you, but you might not be wrong, but there could be a whole lot more than you can imagine!

Aside from that, I'm a sucker for world-building and character development. Slow burn is the shit I'm here for. Just add some dark subjects to the plot, and I'm all about it.

Roleplay rating (Sex, violence, profanity): 5/5/5

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Things to remember

  • I am mainly seeking advanced, descriptive and literate partners, as I put a lot of effort into my writing.
  • Reading my list of kinks is necessary before messaging me, as it covers everything without having me to address every single detail here. Don't worry, I made it readable and to the point. There is some extreme themes. PLEASE READ IT BEFORE MESSAGING ME.
  • Your gender identity will not effect my choice in writing with you. I am looking for people to write male characters, while I write female roles.
  • If we are going to write, it's important to me that you're 21+
  • When you message me, please tell me about yourself as a writer and a writing sample would be appreciated!




Demands that you have to meet before we start communicating:


We all have standards. And these are mine. I'm a woman who knows what she wants. Do you think you suit these expectations? Well, reach out!

  • If you see my writing sample in the spoiler you'll see what I like to see in writing in general, as well as what you'll get when we start writing. I expect similar amount of detail and effort in writing, both in smut and the story in general.
  • Decent grammar, I'm far from perfect and considering that English is my second language, typos sometimes escape me, I still try my best to give you a readable post.
  • SEND ME YOUR WRITING SAMPLE IN YOUR FIRST MESSAGE PLEASE AND THANK YOU.
  • I need at the very least 300+ words per post. Detail. All the nitty gritty stuff. I'll let it slide in some scenes where there's action and conversation sequences that feel like back and forth.
  • Please introduce yourself in the first post. Tell me about your writing, your likes and dislikes and throw everything my way. I literally mean everything. I'll sit down with my legs waving back and forth excitedly when I get a massive introduction post that is dripping with personality, inspiration and creativity. First impressions matter.
  • I always have romance and smut in my stories, I don't do fade to black.




Agent Amnesiac


How... Do you explain to someone that you... Didn't exist up until now? How do you explain to the people around you, who knew you for years, that you are unfamiliar with their faces, their voices, the environment you share? That the memories they hold of you are possibly fake? That you're not the person that they claim you to be?

Angela woke up in a hospital bed beside a man in a white coat and a strange tool that hung around his neck. His eyes were kind and understanding as she looked at him once she came to be from her very deep and restful slumber, but as soon as she began to wince in pain once she moved, he insisted softly that she should lay down and relax.

"Angela... You don't need to force yourself now. You've been in a coma for a couple of weeks. You need to take it easy." he spoke as he stood up and adjusted her pillow.

"B-but..." she spoke with her eyes wide and terrified, only to try and avoid any nearness to another human being as Angela looked at him like a doe staring into the headlights in the middle of the dark street. "Where am I?" Angela's mind was completely blank of any coherent thought or familiarity, yet the only thing that kept her focused and aware is the instinct that was primal and natural to every living thing. The doctor thought of this as a curious detail. He figured that the trauma she had experienced affected her somehow and he had counted on the possibility of her losing her memory due to the head trauma she suffered. But he had yet to find out just how damaged she had become.

"You are safe, Angela. You're in the same hospital you were born in, in your hometown. Do you remember your family? Your school? Your childhood home?" he proceeded to ask her as he took a small notebook from the pocket of his coat along with a pen as he sat back down on the chair that was settled next to her bed. He waited for her answer, ready to write whatever she would say, only to be met with silence. He lifted his head to be greeted by a frozen expression that was a mix of fear and confusion. She looked as if she didn't understand a word that had come out his mouth and he frowned a little bit, concerned by how tense she was.

"Home...?" she whispered, unable to process what that word meant exactly. It sounded familiar, yet the concept of it... It was alien, in some way. Like a word that comes from a foreign language that still rang a bell, but the meaning of it still quite unclear.

The doctor's expression switched to one of warm sympathy and sadness, realizing that perhaps her state was worse than he had anticipated. "What's your name, Angela?"

Perhaps that was a ridiculous question even though he has used her name in the sentence, but he did that on purpose. He wanted to see if she'll be able to connect the dots that he is referring to her as Angela - because that is, after all, her name and how everyone knew her.

"N-name?" somehow, this question seemed to visibly upset her further as her breathing grew heavier and her eyes watered. Her gaze left the doctor and looked around, almost as if it started to become clear to her that something was clearly wrong here. She looked around the room that was beginning to spin as she proceeded to look at her hands, feeling the panic to suddenly set. Her hands and forearms were riddled with still healing scars, which had flashed a sensation of pain in her nerves as a flash of incoherent and mashed memories began to flood her mind.

Angela grabbed her bandaged head as she began to hyperventilate once the loud noises began to echo within her mind. She heard sounds of something crashing, screaming and the sound of fire loudly cracking further into the background. She had no clue what was happening, yet all of it seemed familiar, despite the fact that every incoherent sound was out of order and out of sync with the images that would just pass by her like a speeding bullet train. Then, there was a man's voice, breaking through the noise. She couldn't see his face, it was blurry, as if she stared through the disturbed, flowing water that muddled her vision, but his voice... His voice was so clear, so specific and so loud.

"ANGELA!!! ANGELA!!!" he kept screaming and screaming that same name the doctor used as she continued to hyperventilate, her body curling up while she rocked back and forth on the bed. Angela started crying uncontrollably, her hands on her ears as she began to weep loudly, trembling as if she was suffering a deadly fever while the doctor called over the nurses who rushed without waiting for a second once hearing the sound of distress.

It became clear to him that something truly awful had happened if she reacted this way to few very simple questions, to the point where she couldn't even remember her name despite him even saying it, but the doctor heard her muttering into her knees as she did not yield to the pulling of the nurses who wanted to get her to relax, with the intention to sedate her.

"Angela... Angela... My name is... Angela..." she continued to mutter with her voice breathless and shaky.

The doctor knew that he needed to get to the bottom of this mystery that caused a disaster and find out what had truly happened to Angela Wright.


So the idea is basically simple: think of the X-Files, Supernatural and the SCP foundation. You have agents and people in the modern world who are specialized (or through the strange circumstances forced) to deal with unnatural, strange, supernatural and fantasy scenarios that shouldn't be discovered by the public. What could these strange happenings be? Quite literally anything we can come up with. Can be things as basic as ghosts and hauntings, demons, vampires, werewolves, cults, strange locations where people seem to be stuck in medieval times, etc. Or it can be cosmic horror. I am open to anything, as this kind of setting can allows to get as weird and as quirky as we want.

My character Angela is one of the agents of The Order which is the organization that leads these operations, a specialized person who went through training in dealing with strange and supernatural. She can have a partner who joins her in the missions. However, at the start of the plot, she is pretty much suffering from amnesia - something had happened and she went through trauma. It is quite unclear what had happened, as there were no reported witnesses to testify, but Angela will get her memory back as we go through the roleplay. We can have fragments of what had happened, as well as her rediscovering her family, her past before The Order and other things, intertwining the drama and everything that had happened in her life. Either way, as a gifted Agent, she continues to work for The Order, relearning how things go as memories come back. She can have visits at the doctor's, is assigned a therapist by the Order to slowly unravel her lost memories and other seemingly mundane activities that draw her to interesting situations.

She can have partners in the organization where she often would pair up to go into different missions and she can have different dynamics, not all of them necessarily need to be male, they can be female and it can be platonic. However, there's several gifted Agents who have some supernatural abilities that aid them in their quests. As someone who loves weird and taboo smut with both human and non-human counterparts, Angela will have the Gift of Lust, which will bring her in very... Interesting situations.

Either way, I love the idea of making this long-term roleplay with episodes with different happenings, for example every episode there's a new cryptid or anomaly being faced or something in Angela's private life is being discovered as a part of the main plot. Every episode there's new mission for her that she needs to deal with in different locations and with different anomalies and impossible situations that get sorted out, while the overall story that is the foundation of this roleplay slowly unravels.

Necessities for this roleplay:

  • Your role is a GM and you are going to be pretty much the puppet master of everything. While everything is under your control, you will not be pulling all the weight by yourself, as I always have tons of ideas that I'd love to suggest to you and throw other ideas that you can use. I'm very cooperative and like I said, I have tons of ideas.
  • I would like someone who is open and flexible when it comes to smut. My erotica is creative, experimental and sometimes weird, because I am just tired of doing the same thing over and over again. Just let me know where you draw the line exactly.


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