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Transformers: Savior From The Heavens { Angel & Anna }

The girl stared in shock as the pigtail blocked her means of escape. With terror in her eyes she turned her attention back to the femme. It seemed like the Decepticon would be getting her way after. Though the human couldn’t believe what the Cybertronian was saying. Home? This was the only home that the human had ever known. Though if she was understanding Raiza correctly the Cybertronian was talking about Earth. That gave the human pause. Could she really go to Earth? That was all she had ever wanted, but everything came with a price. She had no clue what it could be. The question was simple? Would she be willing to pay it?

Slowly the human nodded as her hands tapped out a simple message, <Please.>

The girl moved to collect what few possessions she had. There was the thin blanket that was no good at keeping out the chill. She also had a grapple that she used to get around the lab. She didn’t use it much. She had built it out of spare parts, and while Shockwave knew that she had it she didn’t like to flaunt it in front of the scientist. There was no reason to make him mad unnecessarily. The girl liked to remain mostly unharmed. So, she had tucked the grapple away; as hidden as it was going to be. If she was going to Earth, she would need it.

She scurried to the end of the counter only to stop at the edge. All of the sudden she was unsure. Should she drop to the ground? Should she climb on to the Cybertronian? The human knew that once she made a choice she wouldn’t be going back. If Shockwave got a hold of her after this, it would be the end. So, she had a choice. She could let the torture continue, or she could go with Raiza, and one way or another, it would be over. Wasn’t that all she had wanted?

She asked, <When? Now? How?> She knew the femme couldn’t understand her much, if at all, but she still had to try, <Please take me now.>

The Tree of Astra (LadyAnnaLee and Blackfridayrule)

Ridahne had a different story about Ravi’s Star. That wasn’t surprising. It was similar; a good person trying to keep others from being lost they way they were. That lead Darrin to believe that most of the stories across Astra regrading the guiding Star were similar. She knew she had next to know proof that was the case, but it made sense. It also made Darin wonder if there was actually not a Ravi, not the Overseer, but a Ravi from a long time ago that had formed the basis for the myths and legends. It didn’t seem likely that she would ever know the truth. Darin shifted her head until she was looking in the direction of The Tree. It was not one of the stories The Tree had chosen to share with her though she didn’t doubt that The Tree knew.

She looked back up at the sky, “You’re not a dog Ridahne.” She sighed, “Don’t even joke about something like that.” She waved vaguely at Ravi, “Ignore him. He thinks he’s being wise. Maybe he is being wise. He’s mostly just being annoying.”

Which probably meant he was being wise. Darin didn’t really care. All she knew was that she was enjoying herself. Even the bruises had been received. At least she was learning new things on this adventure. That meant even if she failed the trip itself wouldn’t be a waste. Darin supposed that was the best that could be hoped for. No, that wasn’t true. The best that could be hoped for was that she would figure out where The Seed was supposed to be planted. Lost in thought Darin started back to her feet. Her gaze had moved back towards The Tree. She started walking towards it. She wanted Ridahne to see truth. Maybe not the whole truth but part of it; in way that Ravi, the Overseer, could approve of.

She told Ridahne, “Come on. I have something to show you.” She led the way towards The Tree only to stop at one of the signs in front of a field, “I know it’s dark, but I noticed it earlier. All of these signs have at least three different crops on it. Some have more. There aren’t three different crops in the field. Rather it’s this fields rotation. One of each of this is planted each year. See what happens is a plant will use all of a certain nutrient in the soil. So, if you plant wheat in the same field year after year eventually your wheat yield goes down. The same things for carrots and beans; basically any crop.” She started moving back towards The Tree, “They all take different nutrients. So, what you do, well what farmers do, what I did, was rotate the crops. One year I would plant wheat and then I would plant beans the next year. All the farms in the village and in Lively did it. It looks like The Farm does it too. It gives the ground a chance to rest and recover.”

They were almost at the line that marked the boundary of The Tree. Well, the part of The Tree that could be seen. Darin bent down to place her hand on the ground. The Roots of The Tree traveled under all of Astra. The Barrier that kept people from getting too far from the coast of Astra were The Roots. Darin wondered how many people knew that. Her guess was not many.

She slowly stood back up, “The same thing is happening in Astra.” She let out a long sigh, “You just can’t rotate trees.” She smiled at Ridahne, “Come on!” She held out a hand, “Come meet The Tree. It’s so proud of you for stopping that evil. You have nothing.” Darin’s voice rang with earnestness and truth, “Nothing to be afraid of.” She laughed and it sounded joyful, “So let’s go!”

The Tree of Astra (LadyAnnaLee and Blackfridayrule)

Darin was used to moving. She moved practically all day since before she could walk. There was rarely a time for stillness where she grew up. She moved around the house. She moved around the field. She moved around town and around the market. Lately she had been walking or riding practically nonstop. Darin was used to moving. She was just not used to moving quickly. She could run and had before. She wasn’t the swiftness in her village, but she had never considered herself slow before; until today. Today was a lesson in a completely different type of moving that Darin wasn’t sure she was used to.

It had started out fine. Darin was more than capable of avoiding Ridahne’s hands as they came at her. The human was under no illusions. She knew full well that the Elf was holding back. Still she felt capable enough for the moment. Then without warning speed up. It was a slow process and at first Darin still managed to avoid most of the blows. It wasn’t long before the blows making contact greatly outnumbered the blows she avoided. Darin did the best she could, but she just couldn’t keep up. She was not surprised when, in an attempt to avoid a strike to her arm that had already been hit twice, she slipped over nothing and went tumbling to the ground.

Darin cried out, “Break please! Breaktime!”

The human felt sore and exhausted. She could also feel the bruises that were starting to form. She was glad for the leather armband that Ridahne had given her. It meant that the stitches on her forearm were spared top much damage though her whole arm was throbbing as she struggled to breath. Darin had never wanted to build up this type of stamina before. She had always been more interested in being able to work all day in whatever weather there was. The trick to that was eating enough and drinking enough water. Darin had a feeling that this was a completely different type of stamina. It would take practice. That was for certain.

Darin was still on her back from where she had fallen. She wasn’t in the mood to really get up right away. The stars were slowly starting to come out. Darin traced the constellations that she knew. There was the Snake peeking his head above the horizon. The three stars that made he’s head could be plainly seen and the seven that made his body would be visible as the stars traveling across the night sky. The Hunter would follow; chasing the Serpent in revenge for killing his child. Despite the fact that Darin had no sense of direction whatsoever she could always find the constellations. She knew all of the stories as well; at least the ones that the elders told. She wondered what stories Ridahne had about the stars. Were they any different?

Darin pointed at one star that everyone in Astra knew, “The Elders say that Ravi was a good person; they just got lost all the time. In fact; they were such a good person that when they died the gods granted them a boon. Ravi was so tired of being lost all the time that they asked for a way to make sure that no one was ever really lost ever again. So the gods placed them in the sky, so they could provide a frame of reference for everyone that looked up in wonder.” Darin twisted her head to look at Ridahne, “It that the story you were taught?”

Darin was vaguely aware of Ravi, the Overseer not the star, watching them. She knew he wouldn’t be able to stay away for long. Darin knew that inherently the Overseer was a good person. He was good in a way most people failed to be. He still liked to meddle more than was necessary wise. He had also hadn’t been questioned in far too long. He was used to people just doing as he told them to do. That wasn’t necessarily bad. It was just Darin couldn’t afford to just follow. She knew that. The Tree had told her that. She needed to learn how to be a leader and she needed to learn how to be a leader quickly. She never planned for that. She just hoped she was up for the task.

The Tree of Astra (LadyAnnaLee and Blackfridayrule)

The odds of me getting you a post before tomorrow evening out slim. The earliest will be tomorrow afternoon. I told my boss I work a day shift instead of a night shift. So, my sleep schedule will be all messed up and I'm not even sure I know what day of the week it is. Anyways I will get you a post ASAP.

The Tree of Astra (LadyAnnaLee and Blackfridayrule)

Darin had stopped crying by the time Ridahne had come over. Her face was still red and blotchy, but the human didn’t care. She just let her attention be grabbed as the Elf came over. Darin returned to starting off into to space as the warrior praised her for her actions. The human wasn’t sure she was surprised by the fact that Ridahne was apparently impressed by her. That was rapidly becoming predicable as well. The Azurein seemed to lover it when Darin lost her temper; as long as it wasn’t directed at her. That was an entirely different story.

Darin sighed as she spoke slowly, “You know there’s something in my village called, “wandering blood.’ The elders would look at a person and say, “Oh. They have wandering blood in them.’ That person would almost always leave. They were never pushed away. The village was just too small of them and Lively was just to constraining. They wanted to see the world. They wanted to go on adventures. They never came back. The elders almost always got it right. They even pegged my father as having wandering blood when he was my age. Before my mother committed to my father, he had to promise that he would prove them wrong. In the end he didn’t.” She sighed before forcing herself back to the original thought, “I never did. They never said I did. In fact, it was the one good thing about me. ‘That Darin’s stubborn, but at least she doesn’t have wandering blood.’ I never wanted to leave home. Even going to Lively was only done when I absolutely had to. Yet, here I am; farther from home then I have ever been or ever wanted to be.” She uncurled from over her knees to sit up straight, “And I don’t get to go home. Oh, I may go back to that little village, but I will never get to stay. It will never be home again and that breaks my heart.” She slowly stood and brushed off the back of her pants, “Anyways, enough depressing thoughts. Let’s let you kick my butt.”

Talbot nodded as he stood and went off somewhere. He would back. Darin knew that. He probably just thought that Darin needed something for training. He had gone to collect it. Darin watched him go with a soft smile on her face. If she was being honest, which she did try to do, out of all the people she had met so far on this journey Talbot was her favorite. He didn’t ask for anything from her except her best. He didn’t tell her what she ought to do. He just made sure that once she made a decision, she did her best at it. The rest of the animals scattered. Scattered was the wrong word. Slowly dispersed was a better word.

Darin slowly bent down to touch her hands to the ground, “Is a here a good place or should we move?” She held the stretch for a moment before moving into a new pose, “I would like to do what is best.”

That was true, but it wasn’t the whole truth. The whole truth was that Darin wanted to keep this exercise as far away as possible from the Workers’ attention. The way things were going Ravi would be out here before to long. Who knew what the Overseer would think of this training? Darin didn’t really care. Ridahne wouldn’t always be nearby to save her. She could already think of scenarios where the Elf wouldn’t be with her. Darin needed to know how to defend herself. That was non-negotiable.

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Darin nodded back to Ridahne as she whispered as well, “Of course.”

So, at least the problem about wielding a knife while it was dark was solved. Darin had to wonder why Ridahne had changed her mind. For some reason Darin didn’t think it was her clumsiness that had encouraged the change. The human almost wanted to say that it was the upset boy. Darin couldn’t figure out why one boy would prompt the sudden change. It was clear he wasn’t happy with her, but she sincerely doubted that he, or anyone here, would attack the Seed-Bearer. She could be wrong. Perhaps she was placing more importance on her title than she was entitled too.

Ravi spoke quietly to her, “That was uncalled for Darin. It was not your place to tell them the truth of my actions.”

Darin’s head whipped around to stare at him so fast it almost hurt her neck, “And it was not your place to guilt me into playing. It was not your place to touch me without my consent.”

Ravi interrupted, “Those we necessary. They will help you become the Seed-Bearer.”

Darin scoffed, “And what is that supposed to mean.” She scoffed, “You keep acting like my actions surprise you or are uncalled for; like a I am a child that refuses to make the decisions their parents want them to make.” She shook her head, “I am not here to be the Seed-Bearer you think I ought to be. By The Tree, I’m not hear to be the Seed-Bearer at all.” She spoke over Ravi’s protests, “I am here to do the job, and whether or not it is the best way or not I am going to do the job my way. You may not like it. It may irk you, but that is how I have always done things. I do not do what is expected of me. I do not do what society of my elders require of me. I do what I think I must to get the job done! That is what I have done since I was 14. That is what I plan to do until the day I die. Maybe it is stupid. Maybe it is naïve. But not telling your loved ones that you plan to leave them is stupider by far!” She stood up and pushed away from the table, “Excuse me.” She mocked a bow towards the Overseer, “I would hate to cause a scene in public.”

That wasn’t entirely true. She just couldn’t stand to be between two Elves who thought it was okay not to include their loved ones in their plans simply because that didn’t align with their plans. Alright, she had issues. What her father had done had left some scars on her soul and mind. It made her world view a little skewed. Perhaps she was not taking the job as Seed-Bearer as seriously as she ought. Perhaps she was doing it all wrong. She was doing it the only way she could think to do it, and to be honest, she was tired of people telling her she was doing it wrong.

Darin stalked out of the Main Farmhouse and found herself heading towards the small hut where Taja was resting without really thinking about it. Talbot was standing guard outside. He was laying down and for a moment Darin paced back and forth in front of him. He caught her pant leg in his teeth. She took the hint and collapsed on the ground next to him. She wrapped her arms around her bent knees. It wasn’t long before a sheep dog came out of the twilight and curled up next to her. The dog ignored the fox that did the same on the other side. Several animals gathered around Darin. Crows and ravens landing on the ground to search for something near her feet. A butterfly landed on her hair. Another fox joined the first one. It wasn’t until the grey mouser cat forced its way on to her lap and butted her head under chin that the young human, for the first time in a long, long time, started to cry. She never wanted this. She never asked for this. Now she was who knew how far away from home on a journey she apparently couldn’t do right for anyone with people after her who wanted her dead and stuck with an Elf who was very, very good at making Darin feel guilty whether she knew it or not. Darin wanted to go home. More than anything she wanted her bed, her goats and chickens, her Mama. She wasn’t ever going to get that again, and she was supposed to be okay with that. She didn’t want to be the bigger person. She just wanted to go home.

Transformers: Savior From The Heavens { Angel & Anna }

The girl looked up in shock as the cage fell to pieces around her. Shockwave wouldn’t like that one little bit. It looked like the femme, Raiza had stayed to watch. Why she had cut the cage open was beyond her. The girl quickly scrambled as far bac as she could before her back ran into something. Ignoring the pain was not fun, but it was necessary in this case. She blinked the stars out of her eyes as she did her best to keep the Decepticon in view. The only reason the girl could think of for the Cybertronian to cut the cage apart was so that why she could hurt her. That was the last thing the human thought she could take.

She quickly held up a pair of shaky hands to tap out a message, <Please. Please don’t hurt me.> Tears were still falling down her silent face, <I can’t take it. Please. Just leave me alone.>

It didn’t really matter what the femme did next. Shockwave was already going to be livid when he came back and saw the destroyed cage. Even if it didn’t make sense for her destroying it, it wasn’t like she could, the scientist would still find away to blame her for it. That would certainly hurt. Maybe if she stayed in the space of the cage he wouldn’t be as mad. That was certainly a possibility. He was still going to hurt her again, and if Raiza hurt her too, she would be hurting for months.

She tapped out, <What do you want? Please just leave!>

Then a terrible thought crossed her mind. What were the odds that the femme knew what she was saying? Shockwave had taken her vocal cords so long ago that she could barely remember it. the code she used to communicate was something that Shockwave had taught her. Her tears turned to sobs as she realized she couldn’t even beg for mercy. She truly was defensive. At this point she could only hope that Shockwave didn’t hurt her too bad for this infraction. It seemed like a vain hope.

She left off trying to send a message and started to rub away silent tears. Her vison was cloudy with them, and that made it difficult to see what was going on. She wanted some clue as to what was happening next. She didn’t want to be caught off guard for any reason whatsoever; not that there was much she could do. She didn’t even come up to most Cybertronians knees. There was no way she could fight off a Decepticon. She continued to try and get further away. There was a gap between the console her cage was on and the next desk over. If she could get down it Raiza’s fingers wouldn’t be able to get her. She could hide until the femme left or Shockwave came back. How bad was that? She was waiting for Shockwave to rescue her. At least she knew what he was going to do to her. She had no clue what Raiza would do.

The Tree of Astra (LadyAnnaLee and Blackfridayrule)

Darin shook her head, “This is something else.” She pointed out, “Look, there aren’t quite as many varieties of food, and the odds of there being as much music as there was last night are slim.” She shrugged, “When you get a room full of people together to eat after a day of good, honest work the meal tends to be jubilant.”

She started putting food on her plate. Without really thinking about it she made up a plate for Ridahne as well. The warrior seemed … odd tonight. Darin supposed that couldn’t be helped. Actually, odd was not the right word. It was more like the Elf was in a better mood. Darin had to wonder why that was. She didn’t think that it was anything she had done. Maybe Ridahne was just glad to do something besides travel. Absently Darin wondered if it was her place to ask. She thought she might just be willing to ask it.

Then Ravi had to go and distract her, “Tell us of your home Seed-Bearer. What is it like? What is it call?”

Darin hastily swallowed the bite she had just taken as she sputtered for a moment, “Um, uh, it’s not called anything. And you can’t find it on the map. It’s a teeny tiny village. The closest place is a place called Lively, about a day and a half away. It’s a small collection of farmers and shepherds. There are a few hunters; some trapper too.” She shrugged, “It’s not that exciting. A bit like The Farm I guess, but smaller, way smaller.”

Ravi laughed lightly, “What would you call it?”

Darin was at a lost for words before she thought of an answer that was true that no one would like, “Um … Home. I would just call it home.”

The Overseer raised an unimpressed eyebrow, “If someone made it to Lively looking for your village what would they have to ask in order to find it.”

Darin shrugged, “I guess they would just ask, ‘I’m looking for the village near here. How do I find it?’ Everyone in Lively would know what you are talking about, but no one comes to our village unless they are headed to the forest of the mountains behind us.”

Ravi sighed, “There are those among us that wish to visit; to pay their respects to both The Gardener and to your mother.”

Darin was caught off guard by that. That made sense. If she knew that a loved one had died away from home, she might travel to go pay her final respects. The problem was that there were people looking to kill her and destroy The Seed. She couldn’t let them figure out where she had come from. She didn’t need to give them the chance to gain hostages. That would cause to many complications. If a whole slew of people dressed like Workers headed towards her home anyone would be able to figure it out. The secret would be out before she could blink.

She shook her head softly, “I understand Overseer, but it is not wise. I am not strong enough to say I would pick The Seed if an enemy had my mother. I think it best not to give them any clues as to where she is.”

Someone protested, “That’s not fair! That’s not fair at all!”

Darin didn’t take her eyes off of Ravi, “When is life fair. If a bunch of Workers started traveling is any significant numbers towards a village no one has heard of before it wouldn’t belong until the enemies we all know are out there figure it out.”

The protestor stood and began to advance towards the main table, “Our loved one is dead! And you expect us to refuse to visit him because you don’t have the strength to pick all of Astra over one person.”

The human male about Darin’s age did not look happy. Darin wasn’t surprised by that. Most human teenage boys tended to have tempers that they couldn’t control easily. Darin did not blame him for that. She didn’t blame him for wanting to visit the final resting place of The Gardener. She would want to visit the resting place of her loved ones without a doubt.

She dipped her head once, “Yes. I do.”

The boy scoffed, “Why must we be the one to sacrifice for your weakness?”

Darin let out a single laugh, “Because this quest means we all must sacrifice. I am so far away from home I don’t know my left from my right. My Guardian has given up hope of any of her people truly seeing past her face.” She stood slowly, “And Ravi is dying early to keep The Tree alive just a few more years.”

The human boy flinched at that last one. He turned to look at the Overseer with a look of horror on his face. Ravi sighed as he nodded. He then shot Darin a nasty glare that she ignored. If he was going to seek to make her uncomfortable by making her play and requesting permission to send people to her home, she was going to tell these people the truth so that way they had time to prepare for their loved one’s death. Perhaps it was petty. Perhaps it was childish. It was still the way it was. The boy fell away from the table. He hadn’t given up this fight. He just needed time to think.

Darin looked around the room before falling back into her chair. The happy atmosphere was gone, and she was sad to be the one to send it away. She was exhausted. She wanted to sleep, but that wouldn’t be possible. She still needed to help with the evening chores. She still needed to let Ridahne kick her butt. Who knew when she would get proper sleep? She didn’t think it would be anytime soon.

Transformers: Savior From The Heavens { Angel & Anna }

The girl looked up at the femme in shock. She never left this room. It didn’t matter how much damage Shockwave had done to her. She lived in his laboratory; waiting for the next experiment and wave of pain. When Shockwave left the room, she was locked in a cage that was rapidly becoming too small for her. There was no way the scientist would allow her to leave to room or be in another Cybertronian’s care. That aside, why would the femme want to take her to the med-bay? Most Decepticon were the same. They relished seeing her in pain. She had never been checked over the way Raiza seemed to imply that she wanted to check over the human. Did the femme even know anything about human biology, because the human sure didn’t.

Shockwave countered, “Megatron gave her to me. You can have her when I’m done with her.”

Well that would be never in a million years. Did Cybertronians live that long? She knew they lived longer than humans. She just knew that the only way Shockwave would be done with her would be if she died or if he got bored. That didn’t appear to be happening anytime soon. She couldn’t keep very good track of the days, but he tended to do something to her every third time he fed her. It had been like that for a while now. Suddenly Shockwave backhanded her across the room. She didn’t break bones, but it still hurt as she landed in the corner where he tore her apart only to put her back together again. She stayed where she landed; not even daring to look up.

Shockwave spoke again as he moved to start the procedure, “My invitation to stay is still valid Raiza. Just don’t think you get to take her away.” Shockwave then loamed over her, “Let’s get started Stupid Child.”

Well now the Decepticon scientist was angry. She didn’t have time to ponder why before he was using his knife to cut into her abdomen. He wasn’t using pain killer and the pain cause her to jerk. An order to remain still was followed by a set of restraints locking her into place. She looked up at the mirrors placed in the ceiling to see Shockwave messing around with her insides. Her world had narrowed to the pain and the terrible images she could see above her. She didn’t know if the femme had stayed in the room or left. Just as she saw Shockwave pull something out of her she blacked out. She woke again as she was shoved into her too small cage.

He was still angry, “I’ll be back Stupid Child. Lord Megatron had summoned me. Be a good pet while I’m away.”

With tears running down her face the girl ran a finger over her abdomen. She didn’t know what he had done, but she hated when he took things out of her. She curled into a ball to silently weep. She just wanted it to be over. Why couldn’t it be over? What would happen if she just refused to eat or drink water? If she could do it for long enough, she knew she would die. Would Shockwave let her do that? That was the question she didn’t have an answer to.

Transformers: Savior From The Heavens { Angel & Anna }

The girl looked up as the door opened. It was Raiza, one of the femme Decepticons. She was crazy too, but not as crazy as Shockwave. It was very hard to beat Shockwave when it came to crazy. She was a different type of crazy. She was one of the few Cybertronians that the girl knew that would speak Earth languages. As such the human was always secretly glad when the femme came in. Any chance to get a connection to Earth was well received. The girl hesitantly waved at the Deception. It was safe enough since Shockwave wasn’t paying complete attention.

Shockwave spoke from where he was looking at a screen, “No. Not today at least. Today I am more interested in thy pathetic species reproductive systems.” He gestured at the human without really looking at her, “She is one of the ones that carries human young. She bleeds every so often as a result. I think I may have discovered a way to stop the bleeding.” Shockwave turned to give what the girl knew to be the scientist’s version of a menacing grin, “Won’t that be good Little Bit?”

The girl had to fight off another shudder, <Of course Sir.>

She wasn’t sure if she was lying or not. On one hand it would be good to stop bleeding all over the scientist’s laboratory without being able to stop it. She had never figured out why it had happened. There didn’t seem to be a pattern to it. On the other hand, the girl figured that it would require the taking out parts of her. As of now Shockwave hadn’t taken anything that she needed to stay alive. She could only hope that continued. Who knew? Sooner or latter he would get bored and then just take out her heart. Besides it didn’t really matter. Shockwave wanted the bleeding to stop. As such he was going to do what he had to in order to make it stop. The girl had no real way of stopping it.

Shockwave turned his attention back to his fellow Decepticon, “I start soon. Would you like to stay and watch? The girl cannot scream, but she still makes some delicious faces when she’s caught up in pain and panic.”

The human could not begin to fathom how much she didn’t want that at all. It was bad enough that Shockwave saw her at her weakest, and she knew that the Cybertronians didn’t see her as anything more than insignificant. That didn’t mean she wanted another on in the room to see her struggle with her pain and fear. Then again, like always, it didn’t matter what she wanted. The Decepticons were all so much bigger than her. The only thing she could really control was not getting squished, and even that was something in which her control was limited. If Shockwave or someone else really wanted to step on her she would already be dead.

Shockwave reached out to caress the girl’s check with one clawed finger, “What do you think Little Bit? Should Raiza stay to watch?”

She closed her eyes as her breathing became more erratic the longer Shockwaves finger touched her face, <It’s not my place to make a Decepticon’s decision for them. If she wishes to stay or if she has other things to attend to she must do as is best for her.>