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3 yrs ago
Current To those I RP with, I haven't dropped off of the face of the earth, just had a mental health crash but am recovering. Now to catch up on posting.
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3 yrs ago
The worst thing about mental illness is you have to look after yourself a disgusting amount. I know it's the only way to actually be in a fit state to look out for others, but it still feels wrong.
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3 yrs ago
Emeth: Then I'll be that friend who's the opposite kind of annoying, whispering "Do it, you know you want to..."
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3 yrs ago
Judging by the Internet's definitions of introversion and extraversion, you'd think everyone's either an extreme hermit or a party animal with no in between.
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3 yrs ago
Krystal: All part and parcel of the job.
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A frazzled British thirtysomething cat mum with something of a tea addiction.

I like a wide range of RP genres, but have two absolute favourites: Pokemon and magical girls. (If someone manages to combine the two, I'll be VERY happy!) I post fairly regularly, but sometimes shit mental health days crop up - if that causes any delays, I'll try to resume posting ASAP.

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Alara sat and smiled as the other girls entered the bar one by one. Greeting each girl that entered with a wave and beckoning them inside. Though really, she had to give it to everyone for quickly correcting Soma's mistake. It was nice that everyone was looking out for another. Sometime in the midst of it though, Alara went ahead and took it upon herself to slip away. She left a bit of her savings in the room for the team to do as they pleased. Transforming into her magical girl self and phasing out before anyone could stop her. She wasn't going to ruin everyone's time afterall, and surely there were some nightmares out and about even on today of all days.

Thankfully, the apologies and cleaning meant a crisis averted. Now to relax... To the extent that Tama ever relaxed. As she headed back towards the reserved room, a pulsing sensation between her shoulder blades nagged at her. It was as if her magic had other ideas, wanted to be used instead of caged in a crystal while Nightmares roamed the city. Tama slowed her footsteps, glancing towards the exit. No, she was here for a reason, she reminded herself. Overwork led to burnout, which led to desperation, which led... nowhere good. It was a wonder the other light girls still trusted her. Shaking her head, she turned away from the lobby and hurried to the karaoke bar.

At first, she stayed seated next to Yurei, sipping a cup of the green tea she'd brought along and trying - hoping - to leave the singing to others. She'd only just gotten out of an unwanted spotlight, away from her parents bragging about what a charming young lady they'd raised, by deliberately failing when they'd demanded she sing. As bad as she felt about having shown them up, at least she'd succeeded in getting kicked out of the Christmas gathering and fulfilling her promise to Luna. Even if she'd done her best, they'd have picked apart the slightest of mistakes once the dinner ended, as well as a whole host of other things about her. Better to spend time with friends who valued each other, than be put on display like some precious but useless trinket.

As the night went on, though, encouragements wore at her. She sighed and stood up. "Alright, alright. Seems unwavering determination really is a core magical girl trait." Despite her reluctance, getting up on stage for her friends was nothing like facing the scrutinising stares of her family. As she sang the first lines, in tune this time, her body started to ease from its rigid posture. Maybe taking some time out was worth it after all...

Her voice faltered as she noticed the empty chair. Of course. Trust Yurei to sneak out and about as usual... With good reason. For all the festivities, there could be more Nightmares around than on any other night. Would an evening of fun for the group mean one of tragedy for others? Trying to push away the thought, Tama resumed the song, but the lines kept evading her. The more duty weighed on her mind, the more the tingle in her upper back intensified. "Ah!" The yelp, amplified by the microphone, echoed through the room as she doubled over. The flesh around her gem had started searing with pain, the buildup of power almost too much to bear.

There was no way her reaction had gone unnoticed, but how would she explain it without guilt tripping her teammates?

Yui sat down on the couch, letting a deep breathe out of satisfaction after all this work they had just done over at the front of the bar. Soma really was something...but even as she thought this, never once did she even consider blaming, looking douwn on or being even slightly angry - it was not her fault. Also, friends sticked for one another! "I-I'll have some too, then!" Yui announced as Tama and Yurei served themselves some tea. It was not to last though, as she was first on the stage.

Her face quite red and hesitant, she nevertheless managed to choose a songand sing it through. Apparently, Yui had a voice that was more...surprising than most could have thought. There was something about Karaoke with friends...it took away most of her shyness faster than she could have imagined and without it, her voice surprised even herself. Now, she did miss quite a couple notes, but all in all she was pretty happy just having been able to go along with such a fast paced song. The song itself was qite good, and Yui thought she might actually keep it in mind...

Not surprising though was the speed with which she jumped off of the stage to go hide back beside Yurei. "Tama, your turn ! Show us how it's done!" she clamoured with the others, pushing her onward. "Th-that is...if you feel like it...! Of course..."

Her stare glued to Tama and the scene in general, Yui missed Yurei's departure. Something which she would be mad at herself at a later date, to be sure. However, the reason why she was staring was not only for the skills of her friend in singing but also because she thought to have noticed Tama feeling unwell. The more the song went on, the more she seemed out of it. Upon hearing her yelp, Yui stood up with a "Tama!" and ran to her friend.

"A-are you fine, Tama?"

>:3

Something small, warm and furry was brushing up against Tama's leg. By the sensation alone, it would have been easy for the Magical Girl to recognize the shape and form of a Mascot. Were it not for the televised head, it might have provided some semblance of comfort in Tama's time of apparent anguish; but that was what her friends were for after all. Noting Yui rushing to help her, the Mascot backed off from its nuzzling to sit patiently a way's away, tail curled over its paws.

>.>

Soma didn’t even think about the fact she was tracking mud even though she was just out in the fields, digging holes and refilling them for the better part of the evening and only just remembered about the party with no time to change. She didn’t resist, nor did she care much when she had to leave her boots, they were of no use here and the replacements were comfortable a good change in her already sore and aching feet. She also remembered to check her coat in at the door on the rack before heading back to the other making note to take her prize from the coat pocket; a tattered book that looked like it could turn to dust at any moment. Walking back down the hall to the rest of the girls and taking a seat at whatever was closest to the exit and sat down and began to look through the thing that had given her so much trouble to find.

“Fuckin cypher text, ” she said under her breath

"Ugh..." Her mind racing for an excuse, Tama spoke through gritted teeth. "Y-Yeah, I'll be ok, it's just, uh... The heating. Sitting by the radiator was a bad idea. I-I might need a moment to get some air..." She cringed at her pathetic attempt at a lie. The room's temperature was just fine, but she needed some reason to slip out without bringing down the mood for the others. They deserved to take it easy, whereas she had a responsibility to put right past wrongs.

Before she could leave the stage, she felt something rub against her leg. Something equal parts soft fuzz and hard angles. Wincing at the TV knocking against her ankle, she looked down and groaned at the sight of the mascot, which distanced itself as Yui drew closer.

"Well, I take it you're not here to join in the celebrations," Tama muttered, steely eyes fixed on the cat. No need for her to worry about killing the festive joy, this little critter would surely do so all by itself, if the appearance of a mascot meant what it usually meant. "Or to be the bearer of glad tidings. Are we needed somewhere? Yurei... Luna... Are they in trouble?"

Luna had certainly been gone a long time. Probably fighting Nightmares, with Yurei at her side, but if there was anything the rest of the team could do to help...
Sophia Danvers

Outside Mesalon Gym

@Heckno12

Great, Sophia thought, yet another person's pity. As if Amber hadn't annoyed her enough by going and getting six Pokemon first. As the little pink pixies on the screen started singing and dancing, though, Sophia couldn't help but lean forward, captivated. For once, she could let her troubled thoughts fade to the back of her mind, the mellow tune taking their place.

Music, her source of comfort since childhood, along with the proximity of Pokemon.

Resting a hand on Lacey's shoulder, she closed her eyes and resolved to focus on the song, only the song. Shame tainted the serenity at the thought of needing assistance to clear her mind, but maybe it was a step forward. Plus, she'd never let this on to Amber or to anyone else, but perhaps she did need to get away from everything for a while.

Breathing slowly, she let the haunting melody wash over her like moonlight from an otherwise dark sky...

Something pulled her from her trance. A voice. A nudge. Lacey's squeaks. A hard surface pressing against her face and left arm. She gave a few bleary blinks, then jolted alert as realisation and panic hit.

"I'm sorry!"

As the automatic cry left her lips, she propped herself up, only to wince and hunch over at the pain pulsing through her head. Through dancing lights, everything sharpened into focus. That same gentle voice. Azalea flowers. Rocks on patterned sand. Nobody would criticise her, she realised, surfacing fully into consciousness. Nobody would call her lazy or ungrateful, or ask how there could be any hope for her if she couldn't even get through basic training. It was only Amber, Lacey and Clarus around - although that didn't stop a shudder of embarrassment running through her.

"Look, I-I wasn't asleep there! I just find that position the most comfortable, ok?" she insisted, fighting the urge to roll her stiff shoulders or rub at the crick in her neck. Not that she was likely to convince anyone anyway.




Amber Pine

Outside Mesalon Gym

@Heckno12

When the song ended, Amber opened her eyes, that peaceful feeling that had finally settled over her like a blanket staying. With a soft smile, she turned her head. "Did that help? ...Uh, Sophia?"

The girl had curled up on the ground, looking almost calm as she slept. She seemed like she'd needed it, Amber acknowledged, but a hard wooden floor wasn't the best place to take a nap, especially for someone whose body had taken a battering. "Sophia..." She gave the brunette's shoulder a light nudge. "We should probably go back inside, there'll be better places for you to rest, or it might be an idea for you to go back to the Pokemon centre and take it easy."

Sophia groaned, stirred, then woke with a start and a response that took the researcher by surprise - a frantic apology. Amber inwardly winced, the other trainer's words from the ambulance coming back to her. "I have to be who certain people want me to be"... Now she understood Oscar's concern. Just how much pressure was this girl under?

"Nothing to be sorry about," Amber reassured Sophia, who denied the little doze rather less than convincingly. "It happens, easy thing to do, and it likely did you good. Now, let's head inside, and remember there's no shame in taking a rest there if you need to." Putting away the Pokegear, she stood up as Sophia leaned on Clarus once more, and both girls left the rock garden behind them for the comfort of the indoors.

Ok, timeskip then?
Depends what would work best, another day out could mean Jess' mom starts to notice the watchers, or we could gloss over the rest of the visit and get to looking into that counselling service if you'd prefer.
@TheWindel @KoL Thanks! Hopefully she'll last a bit longer than Luna...
@TheWindel @KoL Considering a slot for a light girl just technically opened up...

Ayumu Harasawa Phantasmagoria

@TheWindel @ERode

"Merry Christmas."

Ayumu stood alone in the cemetery, head bowed, eyes cast towards the snow-covered stone that marked her brother's resting place. In the background, from distant streets, she could hear the laughter and chatter of families, brought closer by the festive season. She tried to ignore them. For her, Christmas had never been a time of bonding and merriment. More like a time of verbal lashings, of tears, of shattered wine glasses once the guests had left and all pretense could be dropped. This year, even with that jerk of a stepdad kicked out, Christmas was even worse. It was her first one as an only child.

Her hands, numb from the weather despite her gloves, clenched as she recalled the past few hours. That attempt at a holiday dinner with her mom. The stress. The breakdown. Those words. If we hadn't had to focus so much on you, if you'd been there for him instead of always out doing fuck knows what, he might still be with us. The comment rang through her mind, biting into her much deeper than the cold. Surely her mom hadn't meant it. She knew what it was like to get the blame. Yet maybe she was right.

"I'm sorry..." Her trembling whisper contrasted with her usual confident facade. "Thank you for protecting me... I'm sorry I couldn't do the same for you."

Her eyes stung at the memories of the times he'd cheered her up, eased her pain while hiding his own. "You always wanted me to be happy. You wanted me to live for myself instead of caring what others thought. And I will... I promise I will."

She turned and trudged down the path, two words carrying through the chill air.

"I promise."

This was one last thing she could do for him, even if it wasn't in the way he'd imagined.

...

Stopping in front of the abandoned restaurant, Ayumu gripped the handle of the gift bag and took a deep breath. After a quick glance to make sure there were no passers-by, she let red and black energy streams flow from the mark on her shoulder. They seeped through her coat, turning her winter clothes into her magician regalia.

Phantasmagoria put on a smile, forcing a spring into her step. What better way to put up an act than to spend the day as her stage persona?

"The party magician has arrived," she announced, grinning at Touka and Maiko as she strode into the building. Jin wasn't anywhere to be seen, but would likely turn up soon, she wouldn't want to miss out on anything else. "Hmm..." Phantasmagoria looked around the plain, mostly empty room. "This place could do with some decorating."

At the click of her fingers, images filled the room. Christmas trees sprang up in the corners - rather unconventional ones, making the place look more like a haunted forest than a party venue. Warped, goblin-like Christmas elves danced through raggedy branches, some pairs of eyes gleaming scarlet, others purple, others sickly green or yellow to create a myriad of fairy lights. Wintry mist swirled, blurring the furthest end of the hall. What appeared to be a disembodied human hand rose up in the middle of each table, flames flickering at the tips of the fingers, a pine needle and holly bracelet around the wrist like the wreath of a candle.

Taking a seat, Phantasmagoria leaned back and observed the decor. Some might find the effect disconcerting, but it had certainly brightened up the restaurant. "Gotta get into the Christmas spirit," she said, hoping her chirpy tone disguised the way she tried to convince herself of her words. She was here to have fun. To be happy.

Like she'd promised.
Jessamyn "Jess" Bailey


The meal went by without further event, but even as Jess tried to reconnect with her mom, she couldn't ignore that odd sense of detachment. Part of it she knew to be from Roxy, who stayed out of the conversation, but some was in all likelihood her own. There was so much she couldn't let on, not even to those closest to her. For all intents and purposes, she and Roxy lived in a different world to the woman in front of them.

"Well," her mom said once she'd paid, "seems like that was just what you needed." Again, trying to convince herself. "Both of you ready to head back?"

Jess nodded. "Yeah, and thanks." Even though the watchers weren't planning to do any harm - at least not directly, not yet - the sooner she and Roxy were out of their scrutiny, the better.
Ayumu Harasawa Phantasmagoria

@I Need A Name @SimpleWriter


Just like that, Touka's announcement marked the end of whatever was happening before Team Fantasia could even properly take part. "Ohh, and just when things were getting good," Ayumu sighed, dusting herself off. Kiru wasn't going to be happy about missing out on a brawl of this scale. "It'll certainly be amusing to hear about tomorrow, at least. And to find out what people make of this." She gestured at the wrecked, albeit no longer completely frozen, landscape.

As Chie withdrew from the battle, Ayumu sauntered over to the pixie girl who'd been on the losing end of the fight. "You know, she's right," the magician said, her tone almost gentle, almost like that of Trick of the Light. "You're new to this, aren't you? Well, let's just say being a magical girl isn't all sunshine and rainbows, not by a long shot. Oh, it can still be fun, of course, as much fun as you want it to be. Once you know about the workings behind the wonders, you might as well use that knowledge to take centre stage yourself."

Before leaving to search for other club members, she took one more glance over her shoulder. "Consider it a kindness that I'm telling you this. Because it sure beats finding out the hard way." With that, she disappeared into the surrounding woodland, peering around for anyone left behind, then catching up with Kiru.

"Never a dull moment, huh?" she commented, assessing her partner's injuries. Force of habit, as it wasn't like she could do anything about them. Sometimes she wished she still had her healing powers, even if she'd gained some neat battle moves in their place. Oh well, she and the others might have some interesting cuts and bruises to explain, but nothing too severe. Dark magical girls were tough. Much tougher than their light counterparts, as the scuffle just now had proven.
Sorry I've been quiet, been struggling with stuff but it's more or less ok now. Anyway, not sure what else to write for the restaurant scene so do we have the three head back to the house soon?
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