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Cassandra

As everything seemed to comme to a close, as thengame was taken off line for maintaince, quite convient there, Cassandra found herself alone, which seemed to have become an increasing situation these last few days. Had the last few weeks just been...teasing? Just the worlds way of giving her hope that there might be something better out there, for her? Was she going to quietly slip back into the...nothing that she had been? After everything? She sat on her bed, laying back against the pilows, staring at the ceiling. Was she foolish to have thought she could make a differnce? She didn't even know what was truly going on anymore.

Maybe she never had. Maybe all she was, all she had ever been was a pawn in this twisted game of life. Maybe all she was was a pawn to everyone, being moved where she needed to be moved and nothing more. Had she been forgotten about? Maybe all she was destined for was making others great. Everyone else seemed to be advancing, but she wasn't. Or it didn't seem like that to her. 

She sighed. Rising, she showered and changed, heading out of her room, Cassandra shoved her hands in her pockets, leaning over slightly as shenwalked, making her small form even smaller, and slightly hunched as she did so. She didn't know where to go from here, and despite the fact she knew that Eris had been busy, both in the game and out of it, she couldn't help but feel a little...neglected. Perhaps she had just been holding on too tightly...but it was wonderful...having someone she could care for. Having...friends. as tears stung her eyes, Cassandra wiped furiously at her eyes, dashing them away, and drawing in a shaky breath. 

Sne didn't know where she stood anymore. Her feet took her down a path, perhaps following memory or maybe merely just walking. She walked down along shops, her heart heavy, her mind full. Was she still not good enough? Was she not worth that much, to anyone? She wanted answers, but she didn't know if she'd ever get them. She didn't know if...if Eris still cared. Everything that had happened...it had changed them all, and Cassandra didn't know if they'd ever get back what...they could have potentially had. It seemed like she didn't compare, to everything that was going on these days. 

Would anyone notice if she disappeared?

She suddenly stopped walking, her form slowly straighting. No. She wouldn't let herself think like that. She was wallowing. And that wasn't good. She was her own worst enemy. She knew this. Now...she just had to figure out how not to be. Keeping her hands in her pockets, but no longer slouching, cassandra glanced about her, finding that she had walked to a park. Blinking, a little perplexed, Cassandra stopped, wondering how she had got there.
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