Mistress Dizzy

The Orphan's Wedding

*soft laugh* I've been down the depression road.

I'll skip the story until another time, but I've been out of work for nearly a year. I got so depressed that I didn't care to live. Didn't actively try to kill myself, but knew in my soul that if there was a way I could just... stop living... step out of my life like shedding a pair of jeans, I would do it in a heartbeat. I just gave up.

I'm doing more or less better now, depending on the day and who you ask. My depression never came with body pain like this, though. The point just at the base of my neck and directly between my shoulder blades... hurts. It feels just stiff and awful and neither pain meds or a hot shower are doing anything for it. I likely can't afford a massage or chiropractor- even if I could the idea of strangers touching me is really, really really repulsive.

*rubs face* I don't know what to do. I mean, my medical doc isn't horrible, but the first time I went to his office and he saw the meds I was on (most of them anti depressants) he said, semi jokingly, that I was too young to be depressed. As if I had some magical youth armor that prevented the disease. Joke's on him, I've been that way since about 12. I just don't feel he'd understand what I was going through. I don't want pain meds. I have enough medication. I hate the fucking medication.

I'm sorry. Gonna cut the rant here because I feel myself sort of getting scattered. Plus I promised myself breakfast (egg sandwiches, yay) if I got out of bed on time, and I did, so I'm going to go cook.

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*nod* That makes sense too. It'd scatter the remaining people everywhere, and force them to live in a world they haven't been part of before. Korlash was lucky enough that he was young and adaptable when he got banished. Some of the elders will not be so fortunate.

Our Time has Come

I'm interested but I have questions.

1. What does it take to get into the Academy? A test of some kind? Or is it a recruitment from school?
2. How old do you have to be to join?
3. The information above is pretty one-sided. I don't know anything about the resistance and everything about the military. Does the resistance have a symbol? A slogan? Colors? Do they prefer force, or covert operations?
4. What other jobs are there for young people besides the military?
5. You say 'utopia' but don't mention the state of things. Is it like a 'no crime' utopia? Food for everyone utopia? No class separation utopia?

The Miller Valley Counseling Center - Support Group RP

AnnaBeth said
It'll heal. I had a severe case of pneumonia a while back, and it damaged some stuff. I've been checked over and over for cancer, and so far nothing...but they don't really know where the fluid on my lungs is coming from. So, best case scenario...it will eventually stop. Worst case scenario...I'm not sure.

*hugs gently* I had a walking pneumonia a few years ago. It started as a cold that just didn't go away. It was the worst month of my life. I'll keep you in my thoughts and hope you do improve.

The Orphan's Wedding

*fustrated tossing of objects* I got somewhere with the drawing for a bit, wrote something that's been sticking in my craw for days, and then... right back into... ugh.

I can't even... look at the reply box right now, it makes me anxious. Physically anxious. I just feel my body tightening up when I think about trying to write. I feel the ideas in there, rattling around, but I lock up when I wanna put them down.

Dammit!

Add to that the fact that I keep waking up in pain and my memory is like... shit.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm actually a bit scared.

The Miller Valley Counseling Center - Support Group RP

o.o Oh dear, Annabeth. I hope this is a situation where you'll be able to feel better soon and not have to carry all that around.

The Miller Valley Counseling Center - Support Group RP

Jin was very glad the overdressed thug's attention had been diverted to someone else. She didn't want to get thrown out of here before things even started. She collected her cards and stuffed them away, sitting silently until the 'counselor' walked in. Thank goodness someone volunteered to speak- and she was surprised by what he said. Adam... apparently she wasn't the only one who'd been forced to show up here. She did wonder why he felt the need to stand, though. She said nothing as Andrew said some lousy platitude. Of course she wasn't glad he was here! That meant he was messed up. Who would want someone to be messed up?

Once Adam finished, she flipped back her hood and addressed the room from her chair. "I'm Jin. I'm 17. I'm here because my brother's afraid I'll go to jail for breaking the law. Which is stupid, because I'd only go to jail if I got caught, and that ain't happened so far." She folded her arms across her slim chest. "And I may have some sort of insomnia thing going on..." That last sentence was mumbled, but then her dark eyes shot up and gazed right at Andrew. "And if you say 'you're happy I'm here' I'm gonna call bullshit on you. Unless they're paying you good, which is unlikely, you couldn't wish for any of us to be in the situation that put us in this freaking room." God, she hated it when people said things that sounded pretty on the surface but were bullshit underneath. Adults were like that.

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it's the fight scenes that throw me. i'm just not that good at them anymore.

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cool. i'll post tomorrow afternoon. just looking at the empty box is overwhelming atm.

also, can we throw in a trip to the ocean and some merpeople?

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The king does something (poison, magic curse?) that ensures that even if the elves don't die today, they will in a very short number of years. Korlash feels responsible for bringing trouble, so he offers to go seek a way out. (Rare antidote, countercurse...) Jin, of course, is right behind him.