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5 mos ago
Current my brain feels a little less like it's going to melt out of my ears. yay?
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5 mos ago
it's time to LOCK IN
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6 mos ago
turning my life into a turn-based rpg so life can take turns kicking me in the bum-bum
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6 mos ago
I'm so sleepee
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6 mos ago
"why do I have to do life things I want to sleep for the love of God let me sleep," I say as I voluntarily stay up, but IS IT VOLUNTARY. IS IT REALLY.
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About Me

Don't listen to what my profile says, I haven't been here for seven years (or whatever it says). I actually 'joined' on 19th Feb 2015, which makes it almost five years!

I'm not too confident in myself, but I like most of the things I write so I count that as a pass. Even less confident about interacting with people online (how do you read reactions and emotions through only text and know for certain if you haven't actually pissed off the other person or weirded them out or???) but I give it a shot from time to time 'cause I like role playing and that evens out. I've only just gotten back into it after a couple years, though, so I'm taking one RP at a time.

(also hey a somewhat decent description of me instead of a one-liner, that's nice)
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Fine with most things. More specifically, uncomfortable with smut, incompetent at historical genres (okay I can write it passably with research but I just wanna write and not think too much about it), and totally in love with fantasy, sandbox and slice of life. Granted, fantasy does hand out free headaches with all the rules and things needed to have worldbuilding with solid foundations, but at least you get to describe cool, flashy magic, right?
Others

I love cats. Also a Muslim. Think that's about it.

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𝚊 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚜


The sea was a beautiful thing. This, Joko decided for the umpteenth time as he sat by its shore, a long stretch of unruffled sand between poisonous black waters and the thick trees gently swaying behind him.

It could absolutely kill him. They all knew the stories of drowned forest fellows. How the water carried voices that pulled in anyone who waded in; how the darkness festering in its murky belly took hold of weak minds with vivid ferocity; how their people, who had not known better then, had lost themselves to confusion in unforgiving currents. Treading water was no less than seeking death.

That did not take away its beauty. His fingers, coated in dark violet dye, swept gently across the broad leaf spread flat against his knees. His work swirled and shifted before him as it took shape. So did the flowers pushing through the sand. The canopy above cast shadows on the lit, moonless landscape. On a nearby stone sat a hare, its coat an impractical shade of yellow.

The sea could kill him, if he tempted it so. So could the forests, or the animals, or the wandering travellers that made passage through their humble community. (They were lucky, so they had been told, for there were places that were beset with rampant fire and wanton culling. This did not distract Joko from noticing the greed glimmering in the travellers’ eyes, hunger that was borne of shrivelled hearts instead of shrunken stomachs. Most travellers left without trouble. The rest were best left undiscussed, as Joko had not been raised to speak ill of the dead.) But here he sat, untouched and unwavering, drinking in the calmness that came with freedom and time. His strokes of paint steady. His need to capture the bewitching unknown sated. Joko was content.

Then the world broke.

~

Oyuna was drowning.

There was no explanation for the why of it, no series of events leading up to this that came to mind. It just was. The more she struggled, the deeper the currents dragged her, snaring her like prey caught in thornsteel vines. The ocean spilled into her open mouth, crammed itself down her flexing throat. She could not draw breath. A creature drifted by as her struggles slowed, small and squishy and luminescent.

For a time, her mind wandered. She should be dead. She was not. She was unsure how long had passed by the time she thought to clench and unclench her fist. A smooth, white pearl came to be in the palm of her hand.

I see, she thought, and landed on her feet on the floor of the Corrupt Sea. Her lungs filled themselves with impossible air. A nightmare.

An irrational one, at that, but she supposed that fears would not be fears if they could be rationalised away. She blinked once, twice. The darkness of the corrupt water remained. Too much to hope that it would be that simple, eh? She flexed her fist again and when her fingers re-opened, her pearl shone, a light strong enough to illuminate a few meters of distance before her. Black sand swirled idly beneath her bare feet. Massive oblong silhouettes stood still in the dark. Something darted past her, an animal that should not leap as quickly as it did in water, in these depths. It did not glow, but it glimmered, and that was enough for Oyuna to follow.

They neared one of the silhouettes and did not stop until Oyuna found herself standing before the base of a stone golem, craning her neck up in awe as she stared up its skin of weathered rock. It never got any less impressive to see one of these up close; shards of stone conjoined in impossible ways, marked with engravings that her commune had yet to make sense of.

If only you could speak,’ murmured Oyuna. She lifted her pearl, traced her free hand against the sharp, precise markings in the stone.

It flashed. Not fleetingly, as they were wont to do, but a prolonged, sustained light that swirled and filled those engravings like oil in water. The depths lit up, as if the sky itself had broken open underwater somehow, and Oyuna gazed in awe at the hundreds of golems that littered the sea bottom. There were so many of them. She had only ever seen two, and the second had been far away from the first. To see all these golems in one place brought a buzz of excitement to her chest.

There had been rumours of a smaller tablet, a simple slab of stone that outweighed all these golems’ worth of knowledge, claimed to drift within the sea’s domain alongside these treasures. Oyuna had often dreamed of finding it washed ashore, as unlikely as the thought was.

But then the world had broken.

~

Giddiness. It swept over Adi head to toe, threatened to consume him entirely. To giggle was not befitting of a shaman, however, and so Adi did not. He allowed himself a small smile, however.

Before him stood a mass of clouds. They did not drift. Did not move, did not rain, did not hail. They were not white, and they were not grey. Instead, they were swirls of light blue and pink, colours that made him think of syrupy sap and sweet berries for some bizarre reason. They shaped a structure with a permanently billowing roof and soft, round arches supporting puffy walls. He did not touch them as he entered the open, door-less entrance, but the clouds he walked on felt simultaneously solid and malleable, like he might fall through at any time. He did not.

Inside was a room that was much larger than the outside, barren of furnishings, with walls the colour of violet midnight and a carpet of stars. He strode no further than ten steps from the entrance. Posture perfect. Breaths even.

I am Śramaṇa Adi,’ he said, quietly. ‘I seek an audience with you, our Grand Gifter of Guidance.

For a heart-stopping moment, silence. It stretched on long enough that Adi began to fidget, folded fingers rubbing the ruby ring on his left hand.

Then black mist seeped in from the walls. They gathered themselves in the centre of the room, a plume that rose high above him in a vortex of shadows. Water cascaded from its unseen peak in a neat roll, a waterfall that fell through the glimmering floor. Briefly, the water parted, allowing the moon – the moon! – to float out and up, settling on the lip of the waterfall.

I grant you audience, Śramaṇa Adi.

The Gifter’s voice was soft. A hushed lullaby to the ears. He did not speak any further, his faceless moon expectant. Was it tinted pink?

I thank you for it.’ The giddiness surged again and Adi had to fight to wrestle it back under control. Too much excitement in a dream was never good, no matter the refinement of the lullaby shroom tea. ‘I have come to you in efforts to seek closeness with you, o wise Gifter. We walk your realm and find answers that would otherwise have been lost in the limits of the real. For your generosity, we are grateful.

You seek answers,’ answered the Gifter. The pink deepened in intensity. ‘To explain the calamity that has shifted your community. To justify the suffering your people has withstood. What of the answers you claim you have found?

We are grateful,’ repeated Adi. Breaths even. Panic would get him nowhere. ‘But for as much as possibility lives in the Dreamscape, it only teaches us that our world could be so much more. That we could do more, be more. You have shown us much, but this broken world limits us.

The Gifter’s moon tilted on its axis. The pink had faded now, darkening to a dim blue. Adi swallowed.

“Dreamscape”.’ A fresh wave of water crashed over its waterfall, bluer than before. ‘Yes. I like that.

Confusion took hold. ‘Pardon?

Hm?’ The moon rolled again. Adi had the faintest feeling that the Gifter may not have been looking at him before. ‘Oh, yes. The answers lie within your reach, Śramaṇa Adi. Your only obstacle is to think what has not been thought before.’ The black mist from before wafted from the waterfall’s unseen bottom, reaching up to surround Adi’s shoulders. ‘You are a shaman, yes?

Y-yes.

Then you should be used to working for what you seek, instead of waiting for it to be handed to you. Ashuru is not broken, Śramaṇa Adi, or you would not be here.’ The moon flashed pink. ‘You have my answer.

Adi blinked bleary eyes open to a room with wooden walls and musky incense. His spine ached for the period of time it had stayed upright for, however long it had been, and his crossed legs had long fallen asleep. The mug in front of him was cold, left with the dregs of his lullaby shroom tea. He lifted his gaze to the lit stick beside it, soaked in the perfumed flower oil that gave the room its aroma as the singular flame at its tip flickered and burned. He looked back at the mug.

Perhaps a different method of consumption was in order.




ᦓ꠸᥅ꪀꪖ

Sirna had heard every word from Sarhush, all those days and nights ago. They had not intended to cause offence, either by word or action, but it seemed Sarhush had taken it regardless, leaving without interest in a response.

Interesting,’ they had murmured. ‘So very, very interesting.

Sarhush saw competition where Sirna saw complement. They were in no hurry to outdo the self-assured king. Civilisations would rise and fall; without dreams, they would not do either. What need did Sirna have to plant roots when the mortals did so themselves? Already, there were mortals aplenty wandering their realm of dreams. Already, there were those who dreamed not in sleep but in waking, as aspiring tribe leaders and knowledge-seekers. Sirna was content to watch from the sidelines as Ashuru flourished.

Except Ashuru did not flourish. Or, if it did, the gods who shaped it had a vastly different idea of what flourishing constituted of indeed. The world broke, the mortals died, and Sirna watched with avid fascination as the realm of dreams, previously a placid, gentle place, became home to an increasing number of rumbling spots of void. Dreams were abundant, but so were nightmares, and the mortals caught in between ranged from begging to a more sophisticated sort of begging. Prayer, the mortals called it. Dedicating themselves to Sirna, for the mere deed of existing within the realm they had created on a whim.

Truly, there was no need to rush in the way of Sarhush when this lovely planet and its inhabitants did so very much for Sirna, all on their own. In the wake of yet another shaman’s visit, Sirna stood in their temple, the foundations of which had been laid by nothing but the imagination of their frequent visitors. Their moon was colourless.

Hm.’ Their waterfall body had quieted to a dull trickle. ‘...Perhaps there is a little need.

They had sensed a few other developments aside from Ashuru cracking open like an unruly egg. The mortals dreamt of a pocket dimension, a plane of existence similar to Sirna’s own that differed in purpose. There were those artifacts that were lost out there in Ashuru too, free for the taking. Perhaps a wander through reality was in order. Playing with these mortal fools did get bothersome after a while, especially when all of them seemed to adore their rituals and order so.

Sirna huffed and let their moon sink into the crest of their waterfall.

~

@Tlazolteotl @JJ Doe I like chaos but wouuuuuld it be too chaotic if Teresa and Vicis could perceive/interact with Jay but not each other? LOL
Lost in Translation
@Tlazolteotl@Auragreedia


The father, Teresa quickly realised, wasn’t real.

There was no response, no cry of indignation at being grabbed. He didn’t even look at her. He strained against her grip and did nothing else. Somewhere by the side, Morgan had wrapped his arms around the child. The music pulsed. Teresa paused.

Ah,’ she said, and let go of the father. With a turn of her heel, Teresa unsheathed her sword.

Amongst the clutter of equipment on the stage was a haphazard string of cables that ran along the stage like an unruly group of snakes, coming to a head at an extension socket tucked behind a turntable like an afterthought. Slicing through the cables with her pristine blade was easy. Teresa stepped back, apprehensive.

Would the music stop?





Vicis’ Catharsis
@silver21


A baphomet? Not Baphomet in the singular – one of the many caricatures of the afterlife that the humans so loved to bow down to – but a baphomet? Questions abound rose within Vicis; namely, the matter of Hell being a real place! Why, he’d thought it mere conjecture on the humans’ part in their incessant efforts to impose ethics upon their unwilling neighbours. And perhaps it was conjecture still, for why would a creature of Hell depict itself a delectable snack and carry the scent of lavender?

“Kaiju”? I am not familiar with the term.’ The baphomet’s tone and crass language suggested it to be mockery of a kind, but Vicis was not so petty as to take offence from something that meant nothing to him. ‘I am an elder wyrm. A species thought to have been derived from snakes and dragons by fool human anthropologists but what I am...’ Vicis flicked his tongue. ‘...is all monstrosity.

He did not usually partake in conversation with his dinner, but seeing as he had already requested nourishment from the light being, Vicis supposed he could make an exception this time. (It had nothing to do with the many other exceptions he had found himself making as of late. Those were for... research purposes, of course. Much like his entire endeavour into this strange place with its talking lights and candled goats.) Good company was a rare find for creatures like him. It would be a shame to eat this ignorant, little baphomet so soon.

Besides, it was poor manners to interrupt what, so far, was turning into an amicable exchange. Vicis pulled back, far enough that he wasn’t leering too closely over the critter and close enough to maintain comfortable conversation.

Ah, but where are my manners?’ He nodded his head in a pale imitation of a bow. ‘I am Vicis, a humble creature of the Wild Lands. You have come a long way to grace us mere mortals with your infernal presence, o demonic one.

It was said genuinely enough, but there was a trace amount of scepticism lingering beneath the elder wyrm’s words. There was little reason to doubt the goat, but when there was hardly anything demonic about the self-proclaimed baphomet to espy in the first place, could Vicis really be faulted for not taking his word?

No, not at all.

<Snipped quote by Stanifly>

Just to clarify, what happened in Charlie's Catharsis was also in her own personal Catharsis mental headspace (not in what you described as "main area"). The Keeper made is so that others can experience other people's personal space in "Lost in Translation". (I am also thinking that, if the person allows it, they can invite people over to their own mental space; or it can bleed over to other people's mental space if they empathize enough)

ohh okok gotcha. I'll have a think on how to approach Vicis' problems. might spend a couple posts on small talk to warm him up to chat abt what's on his mind.

As a heads up I won’t be posting until at least Friday probably. Hanging with family for the holiday 🎄

dopee have fun!! :)
For group Damien, Vicis@Stanifly, Aelvira, Silas: anyone want to tackle their troubles first?

Idm going first with Vicis! just need to figure out a natural way for him to bring up his troubles. question though, so far we've seen 2 examples of how a catharsis can be carried out - in the main Catharsis 'area' itself (like with Charlie) and in the character's personal Catharsis mental headspace. which is the ideal route to go? is it dependent on how complicated the char's problems are, e.g. being able to solve it thru talking things out or having to cycle thru past memories/exps like mr. westbound here?

I did want to ask @silver21 @Stanifly and @Auragreedia, what do you guys think was weighing on Wesley/Westbound's mind?

p much agree w silver and Auragreedia's points! tho if you're asking what I clocked from westbound's issues it was mainly the fact that he could never seem to figure out how to connect w anyone and vice versa, and it just snowballed into resignation. can sorta relate lol ppl and social cues are a mystery to me sometimes
heheh, thank you! take your time, I completely understand. looking forward to the post 👀
Lost in Translation
@Tlazolteotl@Auragreedia


And maybe put the sword away 'til you reach the speakers. Don't wanna hit nobody on accident.

The assumption that she would draw her weapon wildly, without cause, stung more than Teresa would admit. She hadn’t even unsheathed the thing!

‘n pardon my language, but what’s gotten into you? Somethin’ troublin’ you?

For a long moment, Teresa said nothing.

The server we met, back at that first bar,’ she said, evenly. ‘He claimed that solving this man’s... Catharsis would show us the way to return to wherever we were pulled from. I imagine that would involve resolving our own troubles, whatever they may be.

What would her own Catharsis look like? Westbound’s mindscape was a caricature of a place obviously familiar to him. If their Catharses reflected the places they came from, what would be brought to light? Her home? The training grounds? Caden’s workshop?

Tipsy Chambers.

The bar that she’d arrived in had been familiar because she knew it. It was the bar that had been privy to her and Caden’s hushed conversations, where their tentative cooperation had shuffled into something more concrete. Reliable. The ache in her chest tightened.

Is that really what I’m going to have to come to terms with to leave?

She said none of this to Morgan, of course. That would be unprofessional.

I suppose it’s the uncertainty of what I’ll come to face that concerns me. Everyone’s got their own skeletons in the closet.’ She slowed her steps. ‘Speaking of...

They’d found it. A stage, filled with audio equipment. A child, left on his own. A father, coiling his belt.

In a few, quick strides, Teresa was on the stage, making a grab for the father’s wrist as he raised his belt for another strike. This place wasn’t real, not in any consequential way, but...

That’s enough,’ she said, sharp as cut steel.







The question had scarcely left his maw when the oddest little creature appeared on his other side.

Vicis would have missed its peculiar entrance if not for the abrupt tickle of lavender against his tongue, where there had been none before. The oddity had him glancing over – and behold! There sat a goat with a burning candle on its head, sipping tea! Vicis turned towards it with great interest, disregarding the silver-haired woman entirely. He was dimly aware of another human stumbling towards the bar, but Vicis paid him no mind. The light was catering to the new arrivals, but that, too, Vicis paid little mind.

My, my, aren’t you an interesting sight?’ A soft hiss escaped him in his enthusiasm. ‘Pray tell, what manner of creature are you?

None of the goats Vicis had snacked on in his lifetime had ever looked so human-esque. Doubtless the Blessed Knights would be eager to hunt it down if they knew of its existence. Or... perhaps they were the cause of its existence. After a moment’s thought, Vicis sent a considering glance at the human male leaning against the bar.

Bah. Strange clothes, but not a Blessed Knight. To ask him about the matter would be a waste of time.

<Snipped quote by Timemaster>

Also @Stanifly for that classic river of oblivion.

yo I'm down. still fiddling w a solo post but Sirna's been wanting to check out Moren's Afterlife pocket dimension anw so feel free to hmu whenever you wanna collab 👍🏼
no no, all good! just letting you know in case you wanted to take it a diff direction, but letting it be as is is food for the narrative too. I do love me some character miscomm / conflict heheheh
@Auragreedia oh she didn't unsheathe her sword btw, it's still on her belt. my bad, I should've been more specific LOL but you don't have to edit the post if you don't want to! I can work w this

@DaftJive no worries, come on in :)
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