The more the schemer thought about their situation, the more she realised she had lost the plot a long time ago. She tried to keep everyone’s needs and feelings in mind, to ensure that there would be as few imbalances between them as possible and that they all lived as happily they could inside a shared body, even if it did mean sacrificing herself but… What did it result in the end? They had been scattered to the winds because she went about it the wrong way. She also did not
really pay attention to the others, now that she could look back on it with a clear head.
It stung. Ember had thought she knew Hotaru and Sylvia well. She thought she could guide them as a proper adult should, never realising that her role was that of an older sister. Not a mother. Nor a grandmother. Not that she wanted to become that given their past.
It stung so much she wanted to cry.
But as she had learned oh so long ago, that it was up to the adults to pick up the pieces when children misbehaved. So Ember locked away her feelings for later, then reached out with her magic in an attempt to see what happened with her comrades, which brought back interesting results: she could still
feel the other two across the city. She could still identify them as well. Hotaru ran towards some sort of goal, while Sylvia remained in one place, just like Ember herself.
Even better, the connection felt strong. Solid. Maybe that meant their bonds were not completely broken yet. She also felt a link to the other bodies, the Oss scattered around the city. They felt almost as though they were attached to strings on her fingertips. A strange, yet very apt metaphor as she pulled on one as an experiment and the Oss immediately appeared beside her in a rush of magic.
She yelped as she scrambled away from the body, staring at it with wide eyes. That was not supposed to happen! Not only was it farther away than their usual reach - a distant part of her wondered how she could tell that - she definitely could not teleport them like this before. Did the split somehow make her powers stronger? In a sense, yes, but she could feel that other parts of her were much diminished in return.
The amount of magic she wielded, for example, got reduced to roughly one fourth of its former size. Ember frowned at that discovery, but it did make a certain amount of sense. Even if Chiaki slept deep inside their shared consciousness, even if they kept her safe from all the evils of the world, it made sense that she would also get an equal share of their power. Which also meant that there was likely a body Chiaki inhabited right now, if she followed her own logic.
Yet there was no such thing. She could not find Chiaki’s presence anywhere. Was she even ali- Focus, Ember! Hotaru and Sylvia’s lives are in your hands! Don’t you get lost in thought now! You can worry about her later!
Bringing her hands together in front of her, Ember clapped to bring herself into focus and cast her gaze back into the tapestry of strings before her. Now that she looked and felt at it closely, she could feel that there were threads between the Oss as well, along with the Khir. A web appeared before her, with each body being a node that connected to every other one.
She could definitely do something with this. Maybe she could start with Sylvia...
Running through the streets proved all too easy. Somehow, Hotaru felt more alive than ever before, her movements flowing into one another with perfect strength and precision. She did not even need to use as much magic as before to propel herself forward. Everything fell into its rightful place, as though she had been born into this body and if she were honest with herself? She loved it. She did not even notice the lack of her friends as she pushed her body to the limit, splattering the Miseria that happened to run into her.
Every step felt like a breath of fresh air. Freedom at last! The ability to step as she liked, to move her arms as she liked, to breathe as she liked! The more she ran, the more she felt like perfection embodied and the more she wondered: Why did it not feel like this when they worked together? They were supposed to be sisters-in-arms. Three parts of a greater whole. Something that became more than the sum of its parts, even if she would not put it that way herself.
But something happened. And now she felt- She felt-! She had no words for it, only grinning as she utterly wiped the floor with Miseria. There was a big one coming too, but in this state, she felt more than ready to take it on. Come hell or high water, she would be ripping it to pieces with her claws, disproving all “rumors” Ember worried about. There was nothing to fear with her at the helm when it came to battle, after all!
However, instead of a giga miseria or one of the freaky birds that she expected, Hotaru came up against a scene that had her stop. Fragments of concrete scattered as she stopped abruptly, trying to make sense of the situation: a gigantic dinosaur assembled from blood - likely Oros; - a torn up concession stand; a mechanical light girl flying through the air; Evil Eye hanging from a swarm of her own Mogalls; and another light girl carrying someone on their back.
It was Tsubomi.
Were those bitches trying to ruin
everything again?!
Hotaru blitzed forward as fast as she could, aiming to cut off Diamond’s route of escape or at least catch her with an opportune strike if such a thing presented itself. She channeled her magic into her legs along with her claws, reinforcing them so they would be able to menace anything that came her way.
Eventually, both tears and terrors faded.
Sylvia did not know how long she spent curled up, but she felt that her face had swollen and that a miserable weight settled in her chest along with her throat. Having done nothing to help herself or the situation, she had only exhausted herself beyond caring about anything. Because what was the point?
She thought she had escaped hell. When Ember reached out to them, speaking of a place where they could be free from Grandmother and Grandfather, she had thought she had been saved. She would no longer have to be a bad girl. She could be a good girl who got sweet treats instead of whatever punishment Grandfather or Grandmother decided on. All things considered, she felt it was a small wish, something that could be granted even to her, who had been born to a disgraceful daughter.
Of course, that did not mean she could be useless. She had to take on the pain of the others. To shield them from the most awful things they encountered. But could she really do that when Ember and Hotaru shouted at each other, hurling barbed javelins at Sylvia?
Could she protect “Them”? She did not want to. She wanted to run as far away from “Them” as possible. It was just too much and yet… and yet… and yet…!
She sobbed even though the tears would not come. Her throat had dried out a long time ago, feeling as though it were a desert seeded with razor blades. Her sorrow made her legs feel half-frozen along with the pins and needles that appeared because she hugged them so tight.
All because “They” fought again.
…
That is right. Maybe she was not at fault. Maybe “They” were at fault for all of this. Right. Right! That made sense. That made so much more sense! “They” hurt her. “They” hurt her a lot. Sure, Sylvia was a bad girl and she deserved everything that happened to her, but “They” still hurt her like this even though “They” didn’t have to do it. Everything made so much more sense now, because it meant she did not have to protect “Them” anymore.
She laugh-sobbed as she wiped her tears away, because she did not know if she could trust “Them” anymore either. Not unless… she did not know. Could she trust Grandfather and Grandmother? Of course not. They lied all the time. They punished her all the time. Because she was a bad girl. But did she deserve the punishments they gave her? A part of her nodded along and yet there lay a spark in her heart.
A spark that told her that maybe, not even bad girls had to be punished like Grandmother and Grandfather punished her.
She stuffed it in the corner of her heart, of course, because it was wrong. It could not be right. But it was right about one thing: “They” were wrong to argue again, because arguing meant that it was Sylvia’s fault. And she wanted “Them” to get along, so it was “Their” fault that it was Sylvia’s fault.
”Ember… Hotaru… were you… were you really my friends?” she wondered out loud as she tried to massage the blood back into her legs.
”Do you… do you want to hurt me…?” Because if so, then she could not remain around them. Even if it hurt a lot, she could not stay. She had to get away, just as she got away from Grandmother and Grandfather, because if she did not, then she would die.
She wanted to find it out. No, she needed to find it out. She… it felt like poisoned razors being dragged across her body when she thought about abandoning the warrior and the schemer. But if it had to be done, then it had to be done. She would do it somehow, even if it meant injuring herself seriously or talking with Kiyo about it. Sure, she seemed scary, but she also knew a lot about magical girls, so surely she would know what to do in her situation.
But first, she needed to talk to the others. So Sylvia gathered all of her strength before casting out with her magic and let the thread she felt brush across her, pull her into another location.
”Ember…?” Sylvia asked as she found herself staring into a pair of blue eyes. The schemer nodded in response even as the sounds of fighting, along with something big moving around could be heard in the distance. What is more, Sylvia could feel a magical girl approaching.
”Yes,” nodded the schemer.
”Listen, Sylvi, I am aware that you have a lot of questions and while I would normally answer them as well as apologise for the poor decisions I have made, I am of the opinion that we do not have time for that.” Ember all but rushed through her sentence as she stepped closer to the protector, grabbing her hand and bringing it closer.
”Can you still find it within your heart to listen to me regardless and trust me when it comes to our safety?”Sylvia flinched and retreated, the touch feeling like a whip of fire on her skin.
”I… I don’t know,” she responded honestly, her voice trembling..
”You… you shouted like…””Like Grandmother and Grandfather.” Ember’s voice carried a heavy weight, as though she knew she had committed an unforgivable sin.
”I… I apologise from the bottom of my heart. I swear that I will never repeat it again.” She knew how those words would sound to Sylvia. To the protector, who saw promises broken hundreds upon thousands of times. To the one who endured all the pain because Chiaki was too weak to face it all alone.
Yet Ember could do nothing but hope. She tried to imagine herself from the outside, to really see how she would look in Sylvia’s eyes. She found nothing to grasp save for dry straws.
Ember’s heart thundered in her body. Not their shared construct. Her body. Her nails dug into her palm. [b]Her[b] palm. She wanted nothing more than to pull at metaphorical strings, to appeal to Sylvia and to keep talking until she found the lever she needed to pull. She wanted to say she did not mean the arguments, that she did not mean to hurt Sylvia. That her intentions had been pure. But all of those would be one thing: a lie.
Sylvia took a step away from Ember and the schemer’s heart sunk. For not only did Hotaru no longer listen to her, she knew she had broken Sylvia’s trust. What she had built up over months of work, both when they were by themselves and when they spent time with the detention club, shattered like a piece of glass.
All because she did not
really pay attention.
”I… I don’t know if you’re… you’re like them.” Sylvia forced those words out. Her voice strained as she fought her
”I just don’t want to be hurt again.”It was such an innocent wish. Yet at the same time, Ember knew it was the most devastating thing Sylvia could have asked for.