Born to Roger and Laverne Barrows one January, Alaine was the couple's first child and quickly followed by five more in the next eight years. Roger was a pastor and worked in several different states throughout her childhood, so she and her siblings were homeschooled to help with frequent moves. Originally returning to the state she was born in, Alabama, when she was sixteen, Alaine and her family lived humble but happy lives.
But she was directionless. Two of her younger sisters went off to college, got engaged. One of her younger brothers joined the National Guard with plans to eventually become a cop, and the other brother and youngest sister already knew what they wanted to do with their lives. But her? No clue. She had options but none of them seemed quite right. She felt as if she was perpetually
waiting for... something.
It was hard, watching her parents be proud of all her other siblings while she sat there collecting dust, no clue what to do with her life. She'd always been decent at art so her parents suggested she get a degree for it, if nothing else; trying to appease them, she found an art school based in California and headed west.
She didn't like being on the opposite side of the country from her family, nor did she like the crowded city or having to share a room again. It didn't help that her roommate and suitemate were a toxic pair that made her sole semester at the school a nightmare.
Without telling her parents, Alaine dropped out before her second semester. Once again directionless, she stayed at a hotel for a week while trying to figure out what to do and applying to jobs, desperate to make the trip across the country and all the money spent
worth something.
Stressed and depressed after a week of dead ends, she tried to give herself a break by traveling to a smaller town and getting some fresh air out in the surrounding nature.
Instead, she was hit by a falling star.
Alaine still doesn't fully understand what happened. One minute she was out in the hills, watching the stars -- the next there was a dazzling light tumbling out of the sky and headed straight for her. When she woke up she didn't know how much time had passed. Her phone was fried so she had no way of contacting anyone as she hauled herself out of the small crater she found herself in. Unfamiliar energy crackled through her veins, pulsing in her nerve endings and buzzing in her head.
When she made it back to the town she was staying in she didn't know what was happening to her. Her body didn't feel like her own, she was disoriented. It was early in the morning, the sun just barely rising, and the first person she ran into was a kind old gentleman who noticed was something was wrong and stopped to try and help her.
She killed him.
It wasn't intentional. She'd been trying to explain what had happened when he touched her arm; the feeling was foreign, a jolt that caused a surge of unfamiliar energy through her body. Alaine saw stars -- literally. Behind her eyes she caught a glimpse of the cosmos, incomprehensible dark matter and glittering star-worlds. It only lasted a second and when she blinked, the old man was falling back on the pavement, a smoldering gash in his chest as dark light flickered around her hands.
Horrified and terrified, she tried to help the innocent man but it was too late. She knew she shouldn't have but she ran anyway, shaken as she struggled to comprehend what had happened to her, how her feet kept missing steps and instead of falling she
floated.
She managed to catch a ride to the nearest city from a stranger who she was careful to keep her hands off of, and when they left her she took to the task of surviving. Overcome with guilt and horror, Alaine did her best to scrape by for a few weeks; many times she considered going to the authorities or to a hospital, but she was scared she'd kill someone else. So instead she dedicated herself to controlling the new, strange energy coursing through her veins and slowly but surely she began to learn. Only when she felt sure she wouldn't accidentally murder the next person she touched did Alaine venture back among the public to purchase a phone with what little money she still had available; she needed to make contact with her family, which was the first step to finding some sort of normalcy in her new reality.
But, like the star that had fallen right into her, her newfound abilities couldn't be ignored. And, like all things, they needed practice in order to be controlled.
Alaine isn't proud of that period of her life -- it was a two-and-a-half-year stretch of shady work, struggling with powers she wasn't sure anyone should have, stumbling along the line of wrong and right that made up vigilantism. It came from the right place, the want to do good with whatever had happened to her... but it was tainted with the knowledge that she'd killed someone, that she
could kill. Throwing herself into situations where she was being threatened or protecting someone else who was in danger meant emotions were high and decisions couldn't be reversed.
The old man wasn't the only person she killed during that period. They weren't all intentional... but there were a few she didn't try to keep herself from hurting.
She was spiraling deeper and deeper into the mess of vigilantism and the web of lies she was spinning all around herself, between the diner where she'd gotten work during the day and her family back home who still didn't know what had happened to her out in the hills. Little by little she was losing herself and venturing into dangerous territory, which she recognized -- as a last-ditch effort, she packed up her bags and left town, traveling to a new town further west.
Denying herself vigilante work and any use of her powers seemed to be detrimental to her health however, slowly but surely driving her insane with the buildup of cosmic energy that had no outlet. She would've inevitably imploded if not for John.
She didn't know his last name, but he was an older man who'd been keeping track of the strange goings-on in the city she left. He'd pieced together that a new, superpowered individual had emerged and tracked her down, hoping to help; he seemed more knowledgeable about heroes than he should've been, for someone seemingly without powers himself, but he was able to help her get a new, normal job while simultaneously helping her learn more about her abilities and ways she could use them for the good of society.
Because she was still struggling internally with the guilt of what she'd done, intentionally or not, Alaine latched onto John's help and encouragement, eventually getting herself to the level of a functioning hero. John helped her pick out a name and even managed to procure her a customized suit from somewhere, and that was when he told her he'd gotten her an interview with SDN. He promised her they didn't have to know about the past two and a half years and said he'd keep her secrets as long as she needed him to, if she would in turn promise to use her cosmic-granted powers for good for as long as she was able.
It was a promise Alaine was happy --
relieved, really, to make.