Sara felt like she had trained and trained and trained and trained and trained. It had been a long day. Despite all the people she focused on the skills Hayasegawa was teaching her. She came away with improved focus and a slight increase to her Reiryoko. This allowed her to move just a touch faster. Hayasegawa also taught her a new Kido and Sara worked and worked until she could get Hado Sōkatsui to work 85 percent of the time. It was nice to have a spell that affected a wide range and wasn’t focused so much on aim. She didn’t want to become too limited.
After training Sara took the soul medicine. She also received a new soul pager, which was good since she had lost hers the night before. She wasn’t sure if the proper Shinigami were upset with her or not. Then she reclaimed her body and headed home. She waved off her stepmother, tried not to feel guilty about the pinched look of worry on the woman’s face, and headed up to her room. She wondered if she should use the soul pass or the mod soul and then decided that since she wasn’t planning to go anywhere yet and she could always change her mind later to use the soul pass. Exiting her body she sat cross legged on her bed with her bare Zanpakutō across her legs.
She lightly traced the metal with careful fingers. Sara didn’t want to start bleeding. Would spirit blood stain sheets. She didn’t want to use a medicine pill for something she stupidly caused. The spirit hadn’t spoken to her earlier. Could they not? Did they not want to? She wasn’t sure. The young woman didn’t want to force them if they didn’t want to. But she would like to hear the voice again. It had sounded like something out of a memory or a dream. Or maybe the memory of a dream. They had sounded like they were worried about her. Did that mean anything? But her most important question was would she hear them if it spoke again? Would she be paying attention? Her question about Zanpakutō spirits still hadn’t been answered.
She tried speaking again, “Hello. We might have to go out to fight again tonight. I’m not sure I’m ready, but I’m willing. Even if it doesn’t matter if I’m ready or not. Are you ready? You don’t have to talk if you don’t want to. But I’ll try to listen if you do."
Then Sara waited. It didn’t seem like the spirit was going to say anything, but she couldn’t help but feel something from the blade. It felt like amusement and readiness and concern. It was an interesting set of emotions. She wanted to ask about it, but if the Zanpakutō spirit was only expressing emotions then any more feelings of emotions would just confuse her more. She didn’t do emotions well. The feeling of amusement increased. Wait, could the spirit feel, or hear, what she was thinking. She squeezed her eyes shut, wrinkling her nose, as she tried to project friendless. She was worried more anxiety got through than anything else, but Sara tried for friendless.
After an about an hour Sara realized that she wouldn’t be hearing anything from her Zanpakutō tonight. Maybe it could only speak to her in an emergency. Sara wasn’t sure. She looked at the mod soul looking over a book. She should get some rest, but it was early, well early-ish. With a farewell to the mod soul Sara headed out. She wasn’t sure why she was heading out. She didn’t want to be caught off guard by a Hollow, especially not the one from last night. But the room seemed too small and this way she could tell the actual Shinigami that she was doing something to do her part. She still kept her soul pager handy, just in case. Hopefully she wouldn’t lose this one.
After training Sara took the soul medicine. She also received a new soul pager, which was good since she had lost hers the night before. She wasn’t sure if the proper Shinigami were upset with her or not. Then she reclaimed her body and headed home. She waved off her stepmother, tried not to feel guilty about the pinched look of worry on the woman’s face, and headed up to her room. She wondered if she should use the soul pass or the mod soul and then decided that since she wasn’t planning to go anywhere yet and she could always change her mind later to use the soul pass. Exiting her body she sat cross legged on her bed with her bare Zanpakutō across her legs.
She lightly traced the metal with careful fingers. Sara didn’t want to start bleeding. Would spirit blood stain sheets. She didn’t want to use a medicine pill for something she stupidly caused. The spirit hadn’t spoken to her earlier. Could they not? Did they not want to? She wasn’t sure. The young woman didn’t want to force them if they didn’t want to. But she would like to hear the voice again. It had sounded like something out of a memory or a dream. Or maybe the memory of a dream. They had sounded like they were worried about her. Did that mean anything? But her most important question was would she hear them if it spoke again? Would she be paying attention? Her question about Zanpakutō spirits still hadn’t been answered.
She tried speaking again, “Hello. We might have to go out to fight again tonight. I’m not sure I’m ready, but I’m willing. Even if it doesn’t matter if I’m ready or not. Are you ready? You don’t have to talk if you don’t want to. But I’ll try to listen if you do."
Then Sara waited. It didn’t seem like the spirit was going to say anything, but she couldn’t help but feel something from the blade. It felt like amusement and readiness and concern. It was an interesting set of emotions. She wanted to ask about it, but if the Zanpakutō spirit was only expressing emotions then any more feelings of emotions would just confuse her more. She didn’t do emotions well. The feeling of amusement increased. Wait, could the spirit feel, or hear, what she was thinking. She squeezed her eyes shut, wrinkling her nose, as she tried to project friendless. She was worried more anxiety got through than anything else, but Sara tried for friendless.
After an about an hour Sara realized that she wouldn’t be hearing anything from her Zanpakutō tonight. Maybe it could only speak to her in an emergency. Sara wasn’t sure. She looked at the mod soul looking over a book. She should get some rest, but it was early, well early-ish. With a farewell to the mod soul Sara headed out. She wasn’t sure why she was heading out. She didn’t want to be caught off guard by a Hollow, especially not the one from last night. But the room seemed too small and this way she could tell the actual Shinigami that she was doing something to do her part. She still kept her soul pager handy, just in case. Hopefully she wouldn’t lose this one.