The evening was chilly but Jean was burning up. Her sweat beaded and breath came hard as she muttered into the phone, “B-Burnside Park! He’s overdosing!”
The fallen addict’s phone trembled in her hand. “Okay ma’am, are either of you carrying any naloxone? Or any other opioid overdose medication?”
Jean’s gloved hand felt around. “No!” When she cooled down she’d leave a mental not to carry some around. Following the operators instructions, she was able to restore his breathing with some clumsy CPR and put him on his side, using some floating flames to keep him warm until she saw the light from sirens approaching. The EMTs arrived to find the alleyway otherwise empty, Jean watching from above for a moment before flying off.
At another park she took some water from the fountain, recharging herself mentally, washing out her mouth, and rinsing her face off. Already tired she was prepared to just go home, losing hope and feeling like time was being wasted. She knew it wasn’t true: this wasn’t the first time she’d possibly saved a life. She’d halted a prospective home invasion by psychically taking away the offending firearm, forcing the robber to retreat. But she’d also been too slow to stop a stabbing and too fearful to use her own phone to call it in, instead carefully moving the victim to somewhere they could be easily seen after pressing the wound closed with her mind, then lighting a fire in a garbage can. She still didn’t know what had happened to them.
She wasn’t thinking about giving up, certainly not entirely, but her value in symbols might have been getting in the way of her doing real good. It shouldn’t matter if she was a ‘mutant with a conscience’ floating around helping people or a superhero, but in her head that made the difference between a rando with no idea what they were doing and someone who really could make the difference. That said, even in her green and gold, she would still only be pretending to know what she was doing.
Worrying about Nathan, she started to float home for the night to get some rest (if she was lucky). But an errant thought from a ways off crossed her mind and fluttered her heart. Floating over, she found a currently vacant residence, it was lived in but not populated, not by its owners. Jean waited in the air above until a figure crawled out, freshly showered and fed off water and food that was not his. Floating down to the green skinned boy, she blurted, “Hey.”
He jumped, reflexively lashing an arm out before running away. Jean took the slap across the face, mental resigning herself to the fact that she deserved that before giving chase. Well, ‘chase’ was a bit of an overstatement, she just floated after him after going up a little in elevation. She watched him scamper over fences and through stretches of backyards in the rundown neighborhood. Once the first dog started barking the whole block was up in paws. The mutant boy hopped into the wrong yard, a snarling bulldog bearing down on him only to lose traction with the ground, whimpering as it floated away. The boy was bewildered but moved along, finally reaching a completely condemned house, slipping into the basement. Jean easily followed. She led with her voice, “I’m not going to hurt you, or turn you in. I just want to talk.”
Lit by an LED lantern, the abode was more than humble. Littered with stolen clothes and blankets as a ramshackle carpet over the concrete, there was an array of stolen devices and electronics. Jean caught some tools, noting that a number of them were under repair, taken from the garbage. A few cockroaches and rats scampered away while the boy grabbed a serrated knife, aiming it her way. Jean raised her hands. “I’m not coming closer!”
“Then get the fuck out!”
“Can we talk?” She pulled her red hair out of her collar and watched the boy’s yellow eyes flash with recognition, then a familiar anger.
Throwing down the knife in frustration, the boy growled, “Here to mindfuck me again bitch?”
“I didn’t...I shouldn’t have done that, I know, but I didn’t want you to hurt anyone! And I didn’t know what to do on short notice! If you were seen it would have been even worse.”
“I FUCKING KNOW THAT!” His voice echoed in the small chamber. “No one wants to see me. Can you tell why? Can you fucking guess?” Jean winced, eyes going off in another direction for a moment. “FUCKING LOOK AT ME!”
Jean locked her eyes in, taking a breath. “I’m sorry, I worded that badly. I just- I don’t want anyone to get hurt. I want to help you.”
“You want to make me your fucking pity project? I don’t need your fucking help. The inhibitors don’t make me look normal. You can’t help me: no one can help me. I can take care of my fucking self. Doing a great job so far.”
“No, I can see that. You’re good with electronics, huh?”
The boy paused. Anger was still very evident, but the compliment seemed to have slipped through a crack. “...There’s a pawn shop that lets me sell to them. I only...” He stopped, shaking his head, “I ain’t telling you shit. Get the fuck out already.”
“Well, can I come back, just to talk a little more?”
There was a low rumble in his throat. “Would I be able to stop you?” To prove his point, he grabbed a pair of MP3 players and hurled them at her, the two devices stopping in midair, floating back to their original spot on the shelf. “The more you stay away from me the better off I’ll be.”
“Look, I want to help you. My husband and son are mutants too. I want this world to be better for all of us. But if I can’t even help one local kid then I don’t know what I’ll ever be capable of if I put on a cape and go out there myself.”
“You’re going to become a superhero? Pfft,” he laughed to himself, turning away and finding a spot on the ground to lie on.
“Well I don’t think I was literally going to wear a cape, but yes. I...can I get your name?”
Reclining, he bitterly answered, “Can’t you just fuck around in my head and find out?”
“I want to know, but it’s not worth hurting you over.”
Silence, then, “Leech. Cuz I’m a fucking parasite, good enough for you?”
Despite herself, she caught the truth floating on his surface thoughts. James Rowan. She kept that to her chest. “Okay, I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care of yourself, alright?”
“What, the superhero bitch gonna take me in for stealing?”
“I mean, I’d rather you not, but taking property is different from taking lives.” She didn’t need to see his face to tell he rolled his eyes. Floating from the basement entrance, Jean went up and out into the night sky, hope and anxiety mingling within her. She later kissed Nathan goodnight and fell asleep leaning against his crib, until his early morning whining woke her before the alarm did.