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*chuckles*
Well, needless to say, the me of the present has seen some shit.
*Smiles and playfully pokes you in the stomach*
The you of the present needs to give himself a break.
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*Smiles and playfully pokes you in the stomach*
The you of the present needs to give himself a break.
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Because... Ive done a lot of wrong. I've.. killed innocent people. An entire planet. Several. In the name of conservation and protection.
And here you are. Standing. The only one bounding you to your past is the you of the present.
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I do. It's all Ive been able to see myself as, lately. I...
*attempts to stand up, and gets a little wobbly*
*Steadies you around the waist*
Why? I want you to see yourself as who you want to be, not who you think you are.
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*looks angry*
Do you honestly belive a monster liek me should be loved? I despise myself. Ill never live up to anyoens expectations, let alone mine.
Who calls you a monster? Why do their expectations matter?
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... I know... but am I worth anything to anyone?... after all the wrong I've done, and the rights that I've failed to do?
Why does it matter what anyone thinks? I think you're a success, but all that matters is what you think, Shinji. You don't need the approval of others. You need love, but how are you going to accept it if you don't first love yourself?
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*looks angry*
Tell my dead kids that I'm not a failure. Tell that to kirina, who I personally killed. Tell that to Charlotte, whom I hopped into a relationship with on a whim and not much emotional connection. Tell that to the entirety of the EDB after several wars and inssurections.
*Curls your fingers into a fist and places it against my cheek*
I'm not talking to them. They aren't here. You're here and you're real and your worth and success is your own. Not theirs.
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Shinji: its my self assigned job and duty to uphold and protect my people. I have done nothing but fail at every aspect of it.....
Then make it your self-assigned job to live for yourself. You're not a failure, but you have to give yourself permission to believe that.
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...what do you mean?
*Clasps your hands*
Shinji, you're here. Right now. With me. All of that is gone. Your past doesn't define you—you get to decide for yourself what makes you the one you are. Healing will be slow; I won't lie to you. It will hurt. You just have to open those wounds and give yourself permission. If nobody else is judging you here, why do you judge yourself?
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...the loss of my family... the people I've killed... the wars that I've fought. Every failure, every loss. It's like no mattter what Ive been forced to suffer through everything, no time to heal in between each traumatic event. It just keeps happening. I have watched my out fucking children die in front of me. It was all my fault... I shoulve kept them hidden, kept them away from all of this....
Shinji, where are you now?
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...just start asking questions... I feel that... I can answer that better.
What hurts?
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