A splitting headache woke Takae Shuuko.
It speared straight into her brain, then spread through her whole frontal lobe, almost as though it wished to obliterate her pathways of thought. And while normally, she would have switched to another body to fix the issue, it disappeared in a blink of an eye. Literally. She opened her eyes, took a look at her room, blinked, then the seemingly all-encompassing pain vanished.
It would not be the only odd thing she noticed about the morning.
Everything felt slightly off. Her arm was either longer or shorter than she was used to, or both. She missed the light switch, failed to find her hairbrush between the four others –
since when did she have four hairbrushes – and the room felt too large while the bed felt too small. She even hit her head in the doorway. Little annoyances like these piled up one after another until she started towards the shower in an attempt to freshen up herself.
But “Takae Shuuko” stopped dead before the full-body mirror in the hallway.
”This is not possible.” And yet, the mirror looked back at her with blue eyes. Red hair. A figure that harkened back to her school days. She looked exactly as though she were seventeen years old, give or take. And while she had started to experiment with altering the appearance of the Khir, those changes were still in their infancy. They took a long time, not to mention she could not do it with such accuracy, no matter how hard she tried.
So she knocked on the mirror. The image did not change. She pulled her cheeks and the pain did not wake her up. It seemed as though she were in reality, with everything that entailed.
”This is not possible.” She repeated it as though it changed anything, then bolted back into her room, only to find that another “Takae Shuuko” laying in the bed, clutching a pillow between her arms. Her long, blonde hair framed her as though she were an angel, not that Fourth Shuuko had any desire to let her remain asleep. Instead, she jabbed a finger between the ribs, resulting in an undignified scream and Second Shuuko scrambling away.
”W-w-why?!” Second Shuuko asked with tears brimming in her eyes. She hugged the pillow even closer, almost as though she were wielding it as a shield.
”I’m really sorry for waking you up like that, Shuuko, but I needed you awake yesterday.” answered Fourth Shuuko.
”S-s-shuuko?!” asked Second Shuuko. Her green eyes widened as she too, noticed the changes.
”What happened?””I wish I knew the answer, however, all I know is that this is not my doing.“ Fourth Shuuko’s lips pressed into a thin line.
”We are, however, in the same situation. And unlike before, there is no possibility of us pretending to be each other.“ Fourth Shuuko only said that out loud because she too, needed the reassurance that this was not a nightmare. She could hardly believe it either, but Second Shuuko’s served as further proof they were in reality right now.
For the next several moments, they just stared at each other. Then Second Shuuko smiled, but it did not reach her eyes. Nor did it really reach her lips.
”Does it really matter?” asked Second Shuuko. Fourth Shuuko’s eyes widened.
”Did something happen while we were talking?” Second Shuuko shook her head in response. Fourth Shuuko could not help but notice how lifeless the gesture looked.
”No, nothing that really matters.” Fourth Shuuko knew that Second Shuuko lied, yet she could not quite pick up on how or about what. The entire sentence felt as though it had been stripped of its essence, robbed of anything it should have possessed.
”Can you please talk about it anyways? Maybe it is not important to you, but I would love to hear about it.” Second Shuuko shook her head once again.
”It doesn’t matter. We’ll be late for school if we don’t start now.” Second Shuuko let go of her pillow, then stood up.
”Come on now, Shuuko.” The smile only became more eerie.
”I’ll do your hair if you’ll do mine.” She went straight to the makeup cabinet –
since when did Takae Shuuko have one in her room? – and expertly retrieved the hairbrush Fourth Shuuko could not find, along with another one that belonged to Second Shuuko.
”Please,” repeated Fourth Shuuko.
”Please tell me what happened so I can help you.””I don’t know if you can.” Second Shuuko’s smile dropped.
”Even if they’re repaired with gold, some things remain broken and useless.” She opened up one of the cabinet doors to reveal a mirror. For a moment, it looked as though a golden spiderweb criss-crossed its surface, the kintsugi washing away all imperfection.
”Please let me do your hair.” The eerie smile returned.
”If we can’t hide, we must look beautiful. We must hide all blemishes.” Fourth Shuuko felt her throat tighten. Those were phrases borrowed from the old bitch. Not word for word, because she would have never used it like that, but they carried her spirit all the same. Only that she used them whenever-
”However,” Fourth Shuuko refused to finish that thought, so she spoke up instead,
”please recall, that when molten gold is poured into an object’s imperfections, it is meant to highlight its beauty along with how precious it is to its owner.””That’s yet another one of the lies.” Second Shuuko arranged the two chairs.
”Now, be a good girl and sit still, or we’ll never get it done.”
Third Shuuko felt free for the first time in her life. From the moment she woke up, she knew her chains have been lifted, because even if it was in the same bed, Third Shuuko recognised in the mirror that she was Hotaru, and all the better for it. So she absolutely did not skip to school. No, she had walked to school like a digni-
She almost died of laughter before she could finish that thought. Dignified woman her foot! Neither Sylvia, nor Ember, nor the goddamned “grandparents” had any power over her anymore. She did not even feel the two others, so whatever twist of fate lead to this, it showed that she had not been at fault.
Right?
The thought took the wind out of Hotaru’s sails. Her head dropped, her gait slowing as she thought about it all, because even though the “heist” with Roche went well, the issue with Sylvia still sat ill with her. Why did the protector think Hotaru hated her? It made no sense. She only attacked the damned light girl because she wanted to protect both of them. Shouldn’t Sylvia be the first one to understand where she came from? Ah, she really was no good with these things. She needed to talk to Kiyo. Maybe the reliable “senpai” would help her out this time.
But would Kiyo even recognise her? That was the second question on Hotaru’s mind. She looked so different now. Perfect in her own eyes, of course, because it was the body she always inhabited in their shared mindscape, but also unrecognisable aside from her face. Even then, she looked more like a sibling of Takae Shuuko than Shuuko herself.
Shaking her head to dismiss those thoughts, Hotaru reassured herself that no matter how she looked or what she sounded like, Kiyo would never mistake her for someone else. Now, she only needed to track her down. Maybe Hotaru could accomplish it during the first recess?
Takae Shuuko knew that something was wrong. In her mind's eye, she watched two of her selves help each other get ready, the schemer desperately trying to get through the protector’s eerie facade. At the rate they were going, they would be arriving only during the second class of the day, a blemish on their otherwise perfect record. She could not find it in her heart to fault them for it, because the situation certainly did not make any sense.
Because, as the one to wake up first - even before Hotaru - she visited the faculty room and asked around. As it turned out, there were three Takae Shuukos on record in the school, each one in a different class, each one using the same kanji for their names. Which did not make any sense. They had all chosen the characters together. Even if there were three students whose names sounded the same, it would take an astronomical coincidence for the spellings to be the same. They had to have used at least one different kanji.
Unfortunately, before she could investigate thoroughly, students started arriving and she had to abandon snooping around. Even if it felt wrong, even if it drove a wedge into her heart, “Takae Shuuko” knew she could not be revealed right now. So she hid on the roof and hoped no one would be brave enough to look for someone who did not even exist.