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S T . D Y M P H N A ‘ S H O M E
S T . D Y M P H N A ‘ S H O M E

F O R W A Y W A R D Y O U T H S
F O R W A Y W A R D Y O U T H S

Joanie

The hallway at St Dymphna’s was hot that summer morning. Pretty soon the heat would be unbearable, save for the pockets of cooling that the clunky AC units brought them. It had taken Joanie a few minutes to rouse herself from the sofa she had found her sweaty back stuck to when she had been called.

Mrs Qadir had been waiting for her near the door to her office. She smiled as she approached and Joanie quickly realised she wasn’t alone.

“Joanie, this is Trey,” Mrs Qadir said, her voice gentle as she stepped aside.

A boy emerged from behind her. Thirteen, twelve, maybe. A young kid with dark skin and curls that stuck out in uneven directions, as if he had tried to flatten them and given up halfway through. His eyes were wide and uncertain, taking in the hallway as if he wasn’t sure he was allowed to look at anything for too long. When he finally let out a smile, it was bright and warm and completely unguarded. It lit up the whole hallway.

“Hey,” he said, lifting a hand in a small wave. He was clearly nervous yet masking it behind a front of confidence.

Mrs Qadir gave Joanie’s shoulder a soft squeeze before leaving them alone.

The silence that followed felt thick. Joanie stared at him, unsure what she was supposed to say.

Trey shifted his weight, glancing at the scuffed skirting boards, then back at her. He looked like he wanted to say something but didn’t know where to start.

“Um… I can show you where we play outside. If you want.”

“Yeah. That’d be cool.”

She started walking, slow enough that he could keep up. The hallway stretched ahead of them, warm light spilling across the floorboards. She felt a small flicker of pride at showing him around.

They reached the front door and Joanie reached for the handle.

She froze. Something was wrong.

The light shifted. The air thinned. The colours bent at the edges.

A cold ripple ran through her chest.

“This didn’t happen…” She whispered it before she even understood why.

Trey’s voice faded mid‑breath.

She turned to find he wasn’t there. The hallway was empty.

Her pulse spiked.

“Stop.” she whispered. Her voice echoed here.

A cold presence seeped through the hallway like frost creeping across glass. She felt him
behind her, not as a body but as a pressure. A cold intelligence. A searching hunger.

“Turn your head.” He ordered.

Her neck moved before she could stop it.

She faced the wall.

“Interesting.” His voice threaded through the memory. “This architecture. Mid‑century municipal. Reinforced beams. Narrow corridors. Built cheaply but meant to last.”

Joanie’s stomach dropped.

He was looking through her eyes.

A strange ache bloomed in her chest as the truth settled. This was not like Marth. Whereas the touch of his mind had had a softness to it, this was the opposite. It felt like it was pressing into her skull like ice water.

“Look at the ceiling.” He commanded.

Her gaze lifted against her will.

A faint vibration ran through the plaster barely visible, as she clenched her fist at her side. It was barely audible, but enough to form a small crack above the doorframe, thin as a pencil line.

He didn’t notice though, he was too busy taking in the building.

“This style was common in the east of the city,” he murmured.“Near the river. Or the old industrial quarter.”

Her breath hitched.

“Get out.” She panted

“Open the door.”

Her hand moved toward the handle. She fought it, her fingers trembling.

Her breath shook. “No.”

The crack widened, dust drifting from it like falling ash.

The hallway flickered.

She became her at eight years old, backpack too big for her shoulders, walking toward the same front door with Mrs Qadir’s hand in hers.

Joanie’s breath caught. She tried to stop her younger self’s hand from reaching the handle. She pushed against the memory, forcing her arm to lock at the elbow.

The door vibrated and the frame shuddered.

The crack above it split wider, jagged like a faultline.

“Show me.” he commanded, speaking angrily though Mrs Qadir. His voice was more firm this time. Gone was the calm and composed tone he’d begun with.

“No.”

The hallway warped again and she was fifteen, moving down the steps with Mina in toe. The sound of rain emanating from beyond.

Her fifteen‑year‑old hand reached for the handle.

“Stop.” She begged.

The crack tore downward, splitting the frame as the vibration deepened. The air hummed.

“You cannot hide it forever.”

“I’m not hiding.” she said. “I’m fighting.”

The memory flickered and she was back to first thing this morning, about to leave for her first day at Marth’s family’s B&B. Her bag was slung over her shoulder. She remembered the excitement. The nerves. The hope she’d do well. Oh how today had changed.

But her hand rose toward the handle again.

“I’m not doing this.” She stated, gritting her teeth as she fought against the force of his control. “You can’t make me.”

The crack ripped across the wall.

The floor trembled. The vibration ran up her legs like a warning.

“Enough.” he said.

“Then get out.”

Her power stirred. So she let it out.

A tremor erupted from her, running through the memory. The hallway shook and the walls shivered. The floor cracked like ice. The crack above the door split open, jagged and violent, tearing through the plaster like a wound.

The Icelander’s voice faltered.

“…what is that?”

Joanie’s eyes burned. “Me.”

The quake hit.

It was a seismic burst of thought. A shockwave of will. A mental tremor that tore through the memory like a faultline splitting open.

The hallway shattered and the entire image collapsed into dust and light.



The world rebuilt itself around her, but it wasn’t hers. It was cold and bitter. Snow pressed against her boots. A grey sky hung low over a sparse wood, the trees thin and crooked, their branches rattling in the wind like bones. Joanie’s breath fogged in the air, but it wasn’t her breath. Her lungs felt smaller. Her coat felt thinner. Her hands were smaller, trembling inside sleeves that barely kept out the cold.

She wasn’t herself. She was him.

She realised it with a jolt that made her stomach twist. She was seeing through his eyes. Feeling his breath. Hearing his heartbeat hammer against his ribs.

And he was running.

Branches whipped past her face. Snow crunched underfoot. Her lungs burned. Her legs ached. She stumbled through the trees, desperate to get away from the voices behind her.

“Haltu, gráhúfa!”

Stop, gray‑head.

“Komdu hingað, skrímsli!”

Come here, monster.

“Grákrakki!”

Gray brat.

The insults hit her like stones. They were cruel and spat with the venom of boys who had learned to hate before they even learned to shave.

She understood them. She didn’t know how. But she understood them.

Three boys crashed through the trees behind her, older, broader, wrapped in thicker coats. Their boots thudded against the snow. Their laughter was jagged, cruel, echoing through the wood.

“Þú ert ekki eins og við!”

You’re not like us.

“Hættu að fela þig, gráhúfa!”

Stop hiding, gray‑head.

Joanie’s breath hitched. She felt the panic rising in his chest. Felt the sting of cold on his cheeks. Felt the humiliation burning under his skin.

She tripped over a buried root and fell hard into the snow. The cold swallowed her. Her palms stung. Her breath shook.

The boys reached her.

One grabbed her sleeve and yanked her upright. Another shoved her back down. The third kicked snow into her face, laughing as it stuck to her lashes.

“Sjáðu hann.”

Look at him.

“Veikburða.”

Weakling.

“Grákrakki.”

Gray brat.

Joanie felt the shame like a physical blow. She felt the helplessness. Felt the fury simmering
beneath it, small and quiet and dangerous.

The tallest boy picked up a rock and threw it.

It struck her cheek with a sickening crack. Pain exploded across her face. Warm blood trickled down her skin, stark against the cold.

Joanie gasped.

He gasped.

Their breaths were one and she hated it.

The boys laughed as she touched her cheek, wincing slightly at the pain.

Something seemed to happen at that moment. It wasn’t loud or dramatic. It was quiet; a small, internal break. As if a line had been crossed.

Joanie felt the shift. She felt the cold inside him sharpen into something else.

He stood slowly.

The boys faltered as she outstretched her palms towards one.

“Hvað-?”

What-?

She reached for the nearest boy and Joanie felt her fingers close around the boy’s face. Felt the skin under her palm. Felt the boy’s breath catch.

Then she felt the drain.

It wasn’t physical. It wasn’t visible.
It was a pull.
A hollowing.

A quiet, terrible hunger. The boy’s eyes widened as his skin paled. His body shrivelled in seconds, compressing against his bones, before he collapsed into the snow, lifeless.

Joanie screamed inside her own mind.

“Stop. Stop, please stop!” She begged.

But he couldn’t hear her.

She moved to the next boy. They tried to run but unfortunately he didn’t get far.

She grabbed his wrist, yanked him close, and drained him too. The boy’s knees buckled and his breath vanished. His body fell limp beside the first.

Joanie felt sick. She felt horrified. She felt the cold hunger tearing through her like a storm.

The last boy, the tallest one who had thrown the rock, stumbled backward, tripping over a tree root. He fell hard, scrambling in the snow, eyes wide with terror.

“Ekki… ekki…”

No… no…

She stepped toward him.

Joanie felt the fury. The humiliation. The years of cruelty. The cold power rising like a tide within her.

“Please.” Joanie begged. “Please don’t.”

He didn’t hear her.

He reached out to touch him.

A searing pain tore through Joanie’s skull.

A white light exploded behind her eyes.



Joanie snapped awake with a gasp.

The Icelander collapsed in front of her, hitting the floor hard. His body jerked once, then went still, breath ragged, eyes unfocused.

Behind her, Mina stood trembling, gripping a fire extinguisher with both hands. The metal was dented from where she’d hit him.

Her heart leapt, filling with relief.

“We need to go, Joanie.” Mina’s voice shook. “Now.”

Joanie stared at the Icelander’s unconscious form, her heart pounding, her mind still echoing with the cold of his childhood.

Then she nodded.
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Eve; featuring Qing @Hound55
Death and all her Friends - X Fair Trade
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Eve woke up feeling like shit.

Physically? Shit. Mentally? Shit. Spiritually? Absolute shit.

Every layer a festering wound that she attempted to salve with handfuls of dramamine chased with cold black coffee as Petula Clark crooned through the tinny little speaker in her bedroom. She sang of pretty neon signs, forgetting all of your troubles and cares if you simply went downtown. Eve had been downtown and it was as shit as the rest of Calder City and certainly not something to be romanticised. What did the woman even mean anyway? What was downtown? Eve imagined that had Petula Clark spent a night downtown in Calder City, she would have left mugged or having witnessed some strange crime with an even stranger climax of one of the Vanguard swooping in to “save” the day.

She looked like shit, too, she discovered as she looked in the mirror. All red eyed and filthy to the bone. Messed hair, bruised knuckles and dirt at the edges of her skin. She tried to fake a smile in the mirror but it turned sour and threatened to pull her to tears. She took in a sharp breath to brush it away for now. It took a long soak in a filled bubble bath to wash what was on the surface away. Fragrances of pink pepper, bergamot, musk, and coconut floated through the apartment. She scrubbed away at it all, lathered, soaked, and repeated the routine again until her skin felt raw. Her mind was even more so. Stuck in violent replays that she felt across the body. She felt as though her entire spine had been yanked out and then stitched back in. The sadness for Uncle Mikey had found itself at the bottom of the current totem pole and that hardly seemed fair. She had seen just how bad of a man he was and all of his ugly sides and still she knew she would miss him and it wasn’t as simple as the world being better off without him. It would just keep turning.

When it came to the four Greys – that was different, it was only when she thought of them that she felt any kind of calm at all. She knew that Silvio had called the whole scene in. He’d looked at her face and had made the decision then that the only action was to remove this from his plate – despite that questions may come. This was bigger than him, bigger than the family and he’d done it for Eve; his attempt to gain back some kind of grace with her. Their spirits did not torment her at all when morning came, and there was a wondering that came over if that when on their way out they patched up a leak or two. Eve couldn’t explain it. All they had wanted was to be found. She imagined that there would be one hell of a police set up down there and she thought of Dominic Dusk then and whether he’d find out, and if he’d tie his own theories back to her sooner or later.

What exactly would the police do with her? If they really suspected her of anything? And if not, if they discovered the way in which she was able to find the bodies – or the way in which the threads had decided she would, perhaps. Would they take her away to one of the Vanguard? Would Silvio sell her out to save himself? Was he now implicated in it on account of his man being at the scene? In her naive mind it all seemed straightforward. Michael had been in the wrong place at the wrong time and was killed for it. It just so happened that Michael had a history of having dirty hands and the Calder City police would be all too happy to have a pin in the Raciti family now for one of the big mysteries. Eve had left Paloma Torres all alone, but she’d also been able to gift all of Paloma’s research to Dominic Dusk; it just so happened he’d caught her in the act of something twice now, and there was a third time he’d likely happily connect the dots on.

Only Eve was sure as sure of her innocence. Panic set in. Everything was a mess and nothing made sense. Eve let herself sink below the surface of the water.




The apartment looked like shit.

Like, really, really, really shit, highlighted even more by the harsh light of the early afternoon. The wall mount was hanging on by hopes and prayers, it seemed, and they weren’t being answered. Glass and ceramic all over the floor, and books had been torn from the shelves and strewn about. Carrie’s spine, too, had been broken and the paperback lay splayed out and crumpled on the floor. Water from a vase of flowers had spilt all into the fabric of the couch and left a fine stain too. When Eve approached and touched the wall mount, it gave way entirely with a crash that barely had the effect of making her jump; the chaos was not that chaotic when it followed her everywhere. But this, this she could fix today. Or at least, she knew someone who could. That same someone who could was someone who had liaised with death like she had, and maybe he had answers.

”Qing?” she spoke into the phone. ᵀʰᵉ ʰᵃⁿᵈʸᵐᵃⁿ ᵃᵍᵃⁱⁿ, ᴱᵛᵉ? ᴿᵉᵃˡˡʸ? ”It’s Eve, you know. Demon fusebox. I… Have some more work for you today, if you have time. I’d… Appreciate it. If you can’t today just let me know if you know anyone who can?”

“Ace of Tra–” The phone muffled as it was repositioned, presumably for work, on the other end, as Eve announced herself.

There was some hesitancy as he presumably manipulated whatever he was working with on the other end of the call. “Yeah, I’m available. I’ve only one other job today, and it shouldn’t fill my day. What are we talking here? More problems with the wiring? Do you want the breaker conversion today? Just–” Another muffle on the other end as he tried to better position the phone. “Just trying to get a sense of what I need to pick up for the truck to do the job, before I get there.”

Eve paused and surveyed the damage again. “Unrelated issue… Wall mount needs fixing. I think a bird flew in… Uhh.” ᴬ ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵇⁱʳᵈ?

“Well, I should be done here around midday. Call it one o’clock. Then I’ll be right there, is that okay?”

There was a pause on the other end of the phone.

“Is that– Is everything okay?”

“Peachy!” She chirped back. ᴵ'ᵐ ᶜʳⁱⁿᵍⁱⁿᵍ ⁱⁿ ᵐʸ ᵍʳᵃᵛᵉ “Nothing wrong here. Just, the wall is a little…” she wandered over to it and ran her fingers into the chipped out plaster. “There are chips in the wall. The whole thing just fell. I don't know what happened but 1pm is fine. That's fine.” That would at least give her some time to sweep away much of the glass. “Do you like bagels?”

“Do I like what–?” Qing was clearly preoccupied with whatever work was keeping him busy at the other end of the phone line.

“That’s fine. That’s all fine. I’ll see you at one.”

The knock at the door was familiar from the night prior.

Eve answered the door. Qing stood there alone with his tool belt, screwdriver already in hand.

“Oh.” Unable to hide brief disappointment, before gathering herself. Previously unsure what to expect when she called him again.

“Were you– were you expecting my father to be here with me?” He had one brow cocked in curiosity. He once again walked past her into her own apartment to get to work unprompted, slightly shaking his head.

¿ǝɥ ʇ,usı 'ǝɯospuɐɥ ןןıʇs s,ǝɥ

“Alright so where’s this…”

Qing stopped in his tracks.

“A bird, huh? Never known an ostrich to fly up into an apartment before…” He pointed at the screwdriver in his other hand. “This isn’t gonna be enough to get the job done here.” The wall mount was bent in a way that couldn’t have possibly been caused by a bird trapped in an apartment.

Then he noticed what was missing.

He couldn’t remember what exactly had been there, it wasn’t his apartment, but there were small things missing from her shelves. Pretty little personal touch things that he couldn’t put a name to, but changed a house to a home.

“I’m a freelance… Freelancer… Dancer.” “Not the Canaries– ballet.”

The ballet picture she’d pointed to was gone.

It was the night before.

He stepped slightly forward and around the corner at the television waiting to be mounted. A thoroughly shattered screen. Spider-webbed with cracks around a central point. Small central point. He looked around the room. A heavily scuffed corner on a coffee table. A picture began to solidify in his mind.

A strange man in her apartment. Fixes things. Next day, all of her stuff gets broken. He gets called up to repair something that was clearly beyond repair.

What kind of domestic incident had he just found himself in the middle of?

She’s a nice girl

Thanks Ba… now I’m seeing her as a person who needs my help, instead of a situation I should run the Hell away from.

“Uhh… Eve? I’m not here about re-mounting a broken television, am I?”

Eve's eyes scanned over the room too, and then back to Qing, and then back to the room, and whatever penny had dropped for him, suddenly did for her. ¿ʞuıɥʇ oʇ ɯıɥ ʇɔǝdxǝ noʎ pıp ʇɐɥM She'd tried her best to clean but the place was still, a visible disaster that was telling quite the story. “Oh God,” she said, frowning. “No, Qing…” her voice was softer and she turned to look at him. “No. I'm… I'm the bird.” She tried to smile, but it fell awkward along the way and she bit her lip instead.

“I… Messed my own apartment, so yes. Yes you are here to fix it, preferably before my Dad sees it. But I'm the bird.” ʸᵉᵃʰ, ᵃ ʳᵉᵃˡ ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵇⁱᵍ ᵇⁱʳᵈ. What did she expect him to think? Maybe to not think at all and just fix the problem, but there was something sweet in the fact that he had – if not also tainted with sudden embarrassment. “Do you think you can fix it?” She asked. “I should have been more… Transparent about the damage.”

“You? Your Dad..?” Qing collapsed onto the lounge and dropped his head back, staring up at the ceiling. “You have… no idea, how relieved I am to hear you say that. That’s it though, right?” He returned eye contact. “I’m not gonna come back here in a week and you’ve, like, ‘walked into a door frame’ or ‘fallen down the stairs’, right?”

“I don’t fix TVs. My father– my father has a shop though. Hell, if I told him that it was for you and that you called me the day after he’d probably have it fixed within the week…”

She smiled at that. ᴰᵒ ʸᵒᵘ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ᶠᵘᶜᵏ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵍᵘʸ?

Sucks to be Mrs Wing… Qing thought, With her month-long wait. He pictured Bo Wen pulling favours on parts all across the city to get it done for his potential future daughter-in-law over the next 24 hours.

“Maybe– maybe we could get you a rental and I could hang that? I don’t know. My father knows some people. You’d want to find the same make and model. In all honesty it’s probably easier to get a new one. But if you’re more worried about your father, maybe that’s worth it to you.”

“Either way, I’m going to have to get you a new wall mount. That’s toast. I’m actually… kind of impressed that you managed to do that.”

“I can fix your wall while I’m here though. Just came from another drywall job. People wanted me to put up a new wall so they could build a nursery.”

“Okay first of all, you don't need to worry about me falling down stairs… If I do that, I'll call a doctor, not you. Unless you're also a doctor and you haven't told me. I have a pretty nice doctor though.” She was thinking through everything he'd rambled on about.

“Don't worry about the TV either, I have another in my bedroom I can bring that out for now. Maybe… Maybe it's just better broken I don't know.”

That’s the second time someone’s considered if I were a doctor in the last twenty-four hours.

“Better broken? Why?”

“The TV? It seems like trouble to fix or something… And I have another, I mean you can take it and fix it if you want. I… Barely use the thing. Although that's not true sometimes I watch things– nevermind. Not important. I'm just… If all you can fix is the wall let's just fix the wall.” She glanced down at him on the couch and tilted her head. “Want your bagel now?” C̷o̷u̷l̷d̷ ̷I̷ ̷g̷e̷t̷ ̷a̷ ̷b̷a̷g̷e̷l̷?̷ ̷M̷y̷ ̷w̷i̷f̷e̷ ̷a̷l̷w̷a̷y̷s̷ ̷l̷i̷k̷e̷d̷ ̷a̷ ̷b̷a̷g̷e̷l̷.̷

Qing looked up at the customer. Then realised he was looking UP at the customer.

“I’m sitting on your lounge. I shouldn’t be sitting on your lounge… Job to be done.” He got to his feet.

“Oh and you might want to check your pants too, that thing took a vase of flowers in my whirlwind.” ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ⁱᵗ ˡᵒᵒᵏˢ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ʰᵉ'ˢ ᵖⁱˢˢᵉᵈ ʰⁱᵐˢᵉˡᶠ. ˙uosɐᒋ

“I don’t– think it was still wet?” He turned around on the spot, looking over his shoulder.

Eve smirked, tilting her head again as a thought began and quickly turned into words before she could stop them, “looks pretty peachy from my angle,” she said, eyes on his buttocks. ʸᵒᵘ'ʳᵉ ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵏⁱˡˡⁱⁿᵍ ᵐᵉ

Qing looked at the screwdriver in his hand. “Uhh… if I’m fixing the wall. I’ll go get–stuff– filler. Bonding– Wall-fixing stuff. From. Van.”

Qing walked quickly back out the front door and jumped in the back of his van.

Putty knife, poly-filler, bonding agent… He tapped the back of his belt, checking the sandpaper was still there.

“Looks pretty peachy from my angle.”

Qing cocked his own head to the side for a second and took a moment to regain composure, before returning to the apartment.

Meanwhile, back in the apartment, Eve had sat herself by the kitchen bench, a change of t shirt and in front of her, two takeout boxes. One of which she was eating from. “Food?” She asked as Qing walked back in. “It's chicken and cheese. Downstairs. They make good ones. Got one for you dad too.” It was said so matter-of-factly. N̷o̷ ̷s̷m̷o̷k̷e̷d̷ ̷s̷a̷l̷m̷o̷n̷?̷ ᴸᵉᵗ ᵐᵉ ᵍᵘᵉˢˢ, ʸᵒᵘʳ ʷⁱᶠᵉ ᴸᴼⱽᴱᴰ ˢᵐᵒᵏᵉᵈ ˢᵃˡᵐᵒⁿ Y̷e̷s̷ ̷a̷c̷t̷u̷a̷l̷l̷y̷,̷ ̷h̷o̷w̷ ̷d̷i̷d̷ ̷y̷o̷u̷ ̷k̷n̷o̷w̷?̷ “And I have OJ, or if you want to get straight to work. I'm ready!”

Qing immediately noticed the change of shirt.

ᴰⁱᵈ ʰᵉ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᶜʰᵉᶜᵏ ʸᵒᵘ ᵒᵘᵗ?

Looks pretty peachy from my angle. “...or if you want to get straight to work. I’m ready!”

Qing turned and in rare stunned silence returned to the room to get to work on repairing the wall.

He began to knock off the loose plaster around the most prominent hole with the putty knife. Then he felt a presence to his side, and did his best to stare straight ahead at the work at hand. Then he pulled the sand paper out and worked around the edges.

“So you’re making the hole bigger..?” She asked. ...ᴷⁱˡˡ ᵐᵉ ᵃᵍᵃⁱⁿ

“I’m making sure that all of the loose, crumbly plaster which is no good comes out, and now I’m roughing the edges so that the new plaster has something to properly hold onto once the bonding agent gets added.”

“If you say so,” she added, watching him closely with her usual curiosity. She reached toward his pocket and took a piece of sandpaper of her own, mimicking his movement carefully.

Qing watched as she removed a second piece of sandpaper from his toolbelt, and ran his eyes up her to her face in one long stare, while she crouched unreasonably close. Before soundlessly turning his attention back to the work at hand.

As Eve continued copying him, she breathed out, furrowing her brows like the silence was offending her. “Say, would you rather have a bionic arm or a bionic leg?” B̷i̷o̷n̷i̷c̷ ̷l̷e̷g̷ ᴬˢ ˡᵒⁿᵍ ᵃˢ ᴵ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ˢᵗⁱˡˡ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ... ᶜʸᵇᵉʳ⁻⁻ OOOu She asked, before turning to look at him, already ceasing from the work. “I think I'd go arm… I'm pretty fast as is, but with an arm I'd be able to open anything. Get into all kinds of trouble.”

“I– what?” He stammered, bewildered. He paused and thought for a moment. “Definitely leg. I use my hands and arms too much. I wouldn’t want any… you know... Loss of sensation, for my work.”

“You do have nice hands,” she shrugged. ˙sǝop ʎןןɐǝɹ ǝɥ “Might not get to be so precise with them if they're all metal and stuff. You're right.” She continued with her corner. “So how do you know when the edges are rough enough?” She asked.

Qing flushed, then silently looked to regather composure, sanding well beyond what was necessary because he wasn’t ready to speak again yet.

“That should be enough.” He confirmed her voiced thoughts.

“If you say so,” she repeated, placing her own sandpaper down. “So now we fill the hole?” ᴶᵘˢᵗ ᵃˢᵏ ʰⁱᵐ ᵗᵒ ᶠᵘᶜᵏ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵖᵒⁱⁿᵗ ɯıɥ ɥʇıʍ ƃuıssǝɯ ʇsnɾ s,ǝɥS

Qing opened his mouth to speak and then promptly closed it again.

He produced a small unlabelled tub from the few he’d retrieved from the van.

“This is a bonding agent… you can also use watered down PVA– err… polyvinyl acetate. Need to use this, because the plaster will suck all of the mois–”

Qing turned and stared straight ahead. Nope. Qing considered how to rephrase it.

“The filler will crack, dry out and be no good if we don’t use this stuff first.”

ᴳᵒᵈ ⁿᵒʷ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵈᵒʳᵏ ⁱˢ ᵈᵒⁱⁿᵍ ⁱᵗ. Eve looked at the substance and blinked, unable to stop herself from pressing a finger into it. ¿ʎןןɐǝꓤ ˙˙˙ǝʌƎ “Huh. Yeah it's sticky.” She looked back to Qing who wasn't as amused as her. “Oops,” she said with a slight smile before heading off to wash her hands in the kitchen. “So what do you even do on your days off Qing?”

“What are those?” He glibly muttered.

“I tend to…keep myself pretty busy. And the nature of the work does, even if I don’t. Or at least seems to. People always need something fixed.” I have a backlog of extended family who want me to fix things for free or at cost, and they have to wait behind the general paying work.

“I can't be helping…” S̷e̷e̷m̷s̷ ̷l̷i̷k̷e̷ ̷a̷ ̷n̷i̷c̷e̷ ̷g̷u̷y̷,̷ ̷I̷ ̷n̷e̷v̷e̷r̷ ̷h̷a̷d̷ ̷a̷ ̷l̷o̷t̷ ̷o̷f̷ ̷d̷a̷y̷s̷ ̷o̷f̷f̷ ̷e̷i̷t̷h̷e̷r̷.̷

Qing worked at applying the bonding agent. Brushing it on liberally. It was a product he believed heavily in, rather than making his own homemade PVA mix on the cheap. It kept the moisture level perfect, he’d always preferred ‘perfect’ over ‘cheap’ when it came to what he used. He didn’t feel comfortable with corner cutting solutions that he didn’t have the customer fully aware of. The products he used, he needed to have faith in.

“Other than that, I try and take care of my father. He hasn’t had it easy since we lost my mother.”

“Oh,” she sounded as she stepped back over to him, wet hands wiped onto her t-shirt, “I'm sorry to hear that,” she added quietly. “He's such a sweet man.” She gave a small smile. “Has it been a long time since– sorry, that's. That's nosy.”

“It’s okay. People, can’t really tell much from the outside from what I can see. A lot of…outward smiling. Tries to be a positive person for other people. But it’s the kind of thing that for him I don’t ever think is going to seem like ‘a long time’. We’ve a room upstairs which is all her stuff, untouched, unlived in.”

He thought back to the blanket he saw Shenden wrapped in last night.

“At least… that’s what I’ve mostly thought. Maybe things are ‘a long time’ until they’re not.”

“He’s not someone who lets his problems become other people’s problems.”

“He's strong,” Eve said. “You're lucky to have each other through it,” she added. She once again followed what he was doing in fixing the wall, applying the mixture where it needed to go. “I'm sure she would like her things used, touched. If… If they remind you of her you know. But I get it. I wish I had stuff from my mom.” She looked at Qing then and wondered who was taking care of him like he did his father. Busying himself fixing everything else for everyone else. Fixing a stupid hole in her wall. ˙ɯıɥ ɥsnd ʇ,uop 'ǝʌƎ sıɥʇ punoɹɐ ʎןןnɟǝɹɐɔ dǝʇS

She was quiet for only a moment longer before she gave a smile, “what was she like?”

“An asskicker.” Qing smiled.

“Wouldn’t settle for anything less than everything you had. Very few Chinese American tradesmen would say Tigermom pushed them… but most aren’t learning every trade. But she never pointed at the kid I went to school with who moved into law. More pushed me to… Being more of whatever I was going to be.”

“She sounds pretty cool,” Eve smiled. “Is that why you and your dad are so wild? She’s not keeping your asses in line?”

“My father’s… not an easy ass to kick.” He laughed. “He made himself a soft spot for her. Or as soft a spot as she was capable of having.”

Eve glanced sidelong at him, having considered what he’d shared. “I think you’re more like your dad than you probably think, I don’t think your ass is easy to kick either.”

“Peachy, huh?” He joked.

“Very.”

“I don’t think I’m quite the same. He wins people over pretty easily.”

“But no… mine’s not that easy to kick either.”

“You seemed similar to me, but yeah, fine, different but the same.”

“Do you– remember much about your mother?” He felt the energy shift. “Sorry, you mentioned her earlier…”

Everything. “Umm,” she thought about it. “Well… My mother was a nurse. She loved music. All kinds. Absolutely every kind of music. She was an asskicker too, probably.”

“Well yeah, she was a nurse. Most of ‘em have to be.” Qing remembered the efforts the Doctor and Shenden had to go to to not let Rock go before he was ready.

“She was just a good person, I think.” Eve nodded. “Knew what to do, always. And my Dad too. Super couple, honestly. Annoying, in hindsight.”

All the more reason to get this place all back in order before he notices, I guess… Qing thought to himself. So he doesn’t think less of her. Parental guilt, he knew all about that.

He chuckled to himself, and went back to brushing on more bonding agent.

“Sorry… was talking so much the stuff we brushed on needs reapplying.”

He opened up the tub of filler, and dug the putty knife in.

“You do talk a lot by the way,” her gaze turned to the new tub and she looked at Qing, and the tub, and back to Qing. “Now that looks like something I want to stick my finger in.”

“I get that a lot. Just don’t get this stuff near your eyes or breath in any dust residue of it…”

As she pressed her finger against it, she glanced up at Qing, and once again the words were already on their way out before she could stop them, “so I guess you’re going to fill the hole now.” ᴼʰ ᵐʸ ᵍᵒᵈ ˢᵗᵒᵖ noʎ ɯoɹɟ sıɥʇ sʇǝƃ ǝɥS ᴺᵒᵗ ᵗʰⁱˢ, ⁿᵒᵖᵉ. ᴺᵒᵗ ᵗʰⁱˢ.

Qing didn’t fluster this time. He saw it coming all the way. He merely sighed in response and slapped a blade full of the plaster filler onto the wall. Spreading it through the hole and overlapping the wall.

“Nice try. Not getting me twice with the same line.”

ᵀʰᵉ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵗⁱᵐᵉ ᴵ'ᵐ ᵒⁿ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵍᵘʸ'ˢ ˢⁱᵈᵉ She laughed at that. “Not even a twitch of the eye? Come on.”

“Now, we wait for that to dry. Sand it down to meet the wall. Paint it. And that’s basically how it’s done.” Qing ignored her pleas. “Got any of the old paint in storage anywhere?”

“That’s it huh?” She looked at it with a raised brow before slapping her hands together and brushing them across her t-shirt. “Not too bad for my first time? – paint paint, paint. I dunno. Maybe, somewhere?”

“Not if you wind up satisfied with how the hole got filled, no.”

“I’m pretty satisfied,” she chuckled. “But, if we have to wait – you, food. Mangia! Mangia!” She clicked her fingers. “Not in this Italian household will you not eat lunch.” She moved through to the kitchen again. “Not taking no for an answer,” she added from behind the fridge door that was suddenly opened. “I’ll check the cupboard for a paint.”

She pottered down the hall.

Qing moved to the kitchen table and pulled out his phone. “Just a second, I’ll make a call about…” He trailed off as the dial tone rang.

”Hey, Ba, it’s me. Look, I’m at that nice girl Eve’s house from last night. She called me up this morning and said she had some other work for me. Well, amongst the stuff I’ve been doing here she seems to have a television with a broken screen. I was wondering if you could give me an estimate for time and cos–”

Qing winced and held the phone away from his ear to protect from the sudden outburst.

“Yeah, okay. Sure. I thought it might be like that.” He hung the phone up and pocketed it again.

Eve paced back down the hall, having heard the other side of the phone from rooms away. “I found this paint, I don’t know if it’s the same one, but… Who cares, going to get covered up anyway.”

“Five days. And between you and me, I’d be surprised if he didn’t get it done in three… Especially when I give him his food and tell him you were thinking of him as well.”

“He called me pretty. Of course I’d think of him,” she said nonchalantly, making her way to the sink to wash her hands again, leaving the tub of paint on the bench. “Five days, sure. It’s not urgent though, please don’t go out of your way for my television.” Whether he wanted one or not, she poured an orange juice for Qing, and placed it in front of him – thinking through her next question, biting back on it only slightly.

Qing laughed at her hospitable request to not trouble himself.

“You have no idea what that old man is going to make my life like in the interminable minutes between when he has finished repairing your television and I have delivered it. ‘Qing! You deliver tv yet?’ ‘Qing, I tell you tv finish!’, ‘Qing, why I still see pretty lady tv here?!’”

He realised what he said in the painful second’s gap after he finished imitating his father.

“‘Cos that’s, you know. What he’d call you.”

She smirked and nodded. “Sure Qing, sure.” She’d won back a momentary fluster from him. “I’m serious though, I have another one I can use and if you have other customers, or, a chance for a day off,” she gave a wink. “Which you didn’t answer, by the way. Maybe I asked it wrong. If you did have a day off – what do you want to do?” she added with a point of her finger. Just a little more, and she’d play her trump question, and only hoped he wouldn’t flee the scene immediately after.

“Oh. Ohhhhh. Were you asking me out? I took that as a hypothetical. Like ‘what do you do for fun’ cultural thing.”

What DO I do? He scratched his chin at the beardline and genuinely thought about the question. It’d been a long time since he’d had a day where he didn’t have some kind of work at hand.

“I mean, I guess I’d see a movie or something.” Then he remembered she was involved with dance. “Never really seen theatre since, like, school dragged us out to a local performance. That might be something nice if I had someone who could talk me through understanding it better?”

“Mhmm, you would sit and yap through a theatre show too, wouldn’t you?” she said with a raised brow. “But alright,” she added, genuinely surprised he’d given her a genuine answer and she felt something in her chest that caught her off guard. “Now– Now I know how to ask, where to. What to ask you out. I’m glad.” She blinked, and picked up her own glass and busied herself with it. “So, you just. Wait for that.”

“Well, I’m guessing the performers wouldn’t talk back to me if I asked them point blank during their show… So Hamlet, why’d you kill that guy?”

“And if you just paid attention, you’d find out – mistaken identity!”

“...”

“Well I guess we aren’t seeing Hamlet then.” He spoke up. “Spoilers…”

“We’ll start you on The Lion King,” she shrugged, stepping out of the kitchen again. “Qing, I actually need to ask you something serious, and… I might need you to trust me to ask you.” The mood shifted with a whiplash.

Qing leaned in. He had no idea where this was going or what she meant by that description. But his face gave tacit unspoken agreement.

“Are you… Energy sensitive?” she asked, speaking almost conspiratorially. “I… Think you might be, attuned.” She’d wanted to blurt it out, question him – point a finger, ask him straight up; something guided her, thread unseen, with another approach.

“You tōng líng zhě..?” He closed his eyes and repeated the translation. “Psychic. Like, supernaturally… a medium? Or something like that?”

“Medium, maybe that. Psychic… I think so,” he hadn’t mocked her like Dominic Dusk, so that was a start. She braced to test the water more. “I suppose you could say I’m a little acquainted with death… and death energy. Traces and the like.”

What are you accusing me of..? You telling me you can ‘see’ what little’s left?

“Okay.” Qing said, remaining non-committal.

“You have an energy about you that is like mine, but different,” she tilted her head, looking closely into his eyes. “Like you’ve spoken to spirits too. Maybe I was wrong,” she added at the end, drawing back.

“Ohhh. You’re talking about shen.”

“Y..Yes. That’s exactly what I am talk-” she replied, blinking. “What’s that?”

“Well… it’s part of the three pillars of vitality. Bridging between your physicality,” Qing pounded his chest to demonstrate his corporeal form, “and consciousness.”

“You’ve got your jing, your chi, and then your shen.”

“So, I felt your shen?” she asked, holding her own hand against her chest.

Qing stared at her for a few seconds.

“Well… what was I thinking?” He asked her.

“I’ve never been able to read minds, I’m not that kind of psychic.”

“Well then it wasn’t my shen. Shen pertains to… human spirit… psyche… That of the soul which you would attribute to the mind. Am I… making this clear?”

“A little?” She looked away and out across the room. “Mine got so overwhelmed last night I pulled a television off the wall. Maybe… I don’t know, I thought I felt something on you. In you, with you.”

The spirit transforming to actualize potential… He thought. Furthering life within a form, outside of its form…

“You’re not crazy. But what you sensed on me was something different. Interesting that it was familiar. Perhaps not surprising, but interesting.”

“Different how?” she asked, returning to his gaze again, all curiosity in her eyes again.

“Because the energy you describe that I am sensitive to. It’s called ‘chi’. Whilst the shen is of the spirit, the chi is more…the energy of life itself. The breath of life.”

”Chi,” she repeated back to him. ”The breath of life, that sounds nice, actually,” she thought it funny then, what he explained didn’t quite feel aligned to her – but were they sat here, life and death both? ”So you don’t… Feel anything from me?”

“Doesn’t work that way.” He smiled. “You’re outside of my form. My system.”

”Just my luck.”

“Think of it like water. Water takes the form of whatever it’s in. The same vessel, I could.”

It sort of made sense to her, ”so you’re saying if I was wet, you could feel me?”

Qing flushed immediately.

“Now you said you were going to keep things ‘seriously’.”

”That one was right there, I’m sorry.” She shook her head as she said it as if to shake away the impulses of humour again. “Okay, serious mode back on. Your chi, that’s your energy, what do you do with it? I mean… What can you do with it?” she asked, the seriousness had returned as quickly as it had left. ”Am I allowed to ask you?”

“Well… I guess it’s not such a big thing here. But it’s part of what saw my family run to America.”

Breathe in.

His arms moved as he pooled that which flowed within his form.

Breathe out.

He extended, let the chi flow into his fist and held a steady glow.

Slowly he let it dissipate and the glow from his hand faded until it was normal once again.

“That wasn’t particularly practical… but it’s a decent enough visual demonstration.”

Her own hand reached out gingerly to his and her fingers brushed where the light had been, as if to feel that it had really been there, or really gone. ”I think I understand,” she breathed out. ”I don’t… I can’t do anything like that… Why would that mean you… Have to run here, and leave your home?”

“Well, to skim over… decades of Chinese history. The Cultural Revolution saw the Chinese Communist Party cracking down on a lot of traditional elements. Such as certain teachings that my family had devoted themselves to learning, so they could better understand…” He held his fist up again, in silent demonstration. “Even the modern CCP still targets practitioners of qigong. Albeit with more subtle movements. People just disappear. The real tragedy about it is… most of these people, for them, learning qigong, it's limited in terms of how much they can get out of it. But my family… we’re the real secret reason why the Party was scared of qigong as an issue in the first place.”

“A power they couldn’t control. Held by the individual.”

There was nothing awkward about what Qing said now, only his own truth and there a pride in it; she watched his fist. ”So qigong is really important to you for a lot of reasons.” She had no experience of her own to compare it to, but she understood all the same. ”So your… Dad? He has chi too?”

“Close. EVERYONE has chi. But yes, my Dad is chi-sensitive and can manipulate chi within his own form as well.”

”In his jar of water?”

“Yep. Just like his mother could. And her mother again. Four generations.”

“I don’t… I don’t think what I have is shen, Qing. You talk about something that’s beautiful I don’t think… I don’t think what I have is very beautiful.”

“I think it might just be able to miss some of the beauty when dealing with the shen of people.” He mused. “Uhhh… It wouldn’t surprise me if people’s innermost thoughts, their unspoken moments, that which they hide most from the rest of humanity - people don’t really hide their most beautiful aspects from the world, most want to give off as good impression as they can. How to put it… People are capable of great acts of good, but also great evil. The parts which only you can see… wouldn’t surprise me if there’s a lot more darkness dwelling there.”

“But that doesn’t mean there isn’t anything beautiful in the human spirit.”

Mrs Wing was just a different shade of red.

“I just can’t believe that everyone is a net negative. A waste of chi put to ugly use.”

”No,” she forced a smile. ”There is a lot of good, there is so much of that. But, still, to endure it. It’s a lot to bear.” The happy ones are the worst. She stood up then, paced back toward the wall and toyed with her own fingers as she looked at the patched up hole. ”You did a good job with this,” she said, changing the subject and glancing back over her shoulder with a smile.

“Ehh… Your beginner’s luck. Mixed with having a good teacher. Still have to sand it down and paint it, though.” Qing held out a piece of sandpaper for Eve.

“Or does it lose its appeal when you don’t get your own sandpaper?” He smirked.

”It is a lot more fun to pick it out of your pocket, yes. But maybe I’ve teased you enough this afternoon.” She took it from his hand. ”And so I’m clear, what you’re asking – the part that is next is that you want me to rub the hole?” ʸᵒᵘ ᵈⁱˢᵍᵘˢᵗ ᵐᵉ, ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ'ᵐ ᵃˡˢᵒ ᵖʳᵒᵘᵈ. ᵂʰᵃᵗ ⁱˢ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᶠᵉᵉˡⁱⁿᵍ? She stared dead on into his eyes with a raised brow; the beginnings of a grin fighting against her. Until he broke eye contact and shook his head with a chuckle.

“That’s the last one I promise,” ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵇᵉᵗᵗᵉʳ ᵇᵉ she laughed as she got to work.

Qing went back out to the van and dug around.

He returned a few minutes later with a simple metal framework and a spirit level.

“I found this in the depths of the van. It’s nothing fancy. Won’t extend or swivel. But it’s a wall mount. And you can have it for free.”

”You’re not giving me things for free,” she said, ”But alright, let’s go. I’m keeping all of my drill jokes to myself, but I need you to know I have them.”

“If I didn’t look right then, I wouldn’t have known that I had it. Not like I’ll miss it.” He reasoned.

”Bagels for wall mounts, fair trade.”

“Fair trade.” He agreed. “But now you’ve got me nervous about using my screwdriver.”
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“Leaving? What do you mean you’re leaving?”

Sienna nearly dropped the martini glass she was holding in shock. When the Velvet Room’s chef, Chef Eric had emerged from the kitchen at the beginning of his shift and had asked to speak with her, this wasn’t the conversation she had been expecting to have. Not by a longshot.

“I got another job offer, I’m sorry. It’s an incredible opportunity - they want me to be the Sous at that new restaurant in Midtown. The Chef de Cuisine they’re bringing in has a few Michelin stars because they want it to be next.” Eric explained sheepishly, “Don’t hate me, Sienna. You and I both know I’d be an idiot to turn that kind of chance down.”

She sighed, knowing he was right.

“Of course I don’t hate you. As your friend I’m happy for you, that’s amazing,” The brunette paused, “But as your boss and the owner of this bar I’m devastated. You can’t blame me for that, I’m losing a good one.”

“I know, and I’m sorry to put you in this position.” His apologetic tone told Sienna that he meant every word, and after the years he’d worked there, it was justified. “They want me to start as soon as possible, but I also don’t want to leave you high and dry. I’ll still come in tomorrow and we can talk more about next steps.” With a nod, he disappeared back into the kitchen, leaving her to process the news.

Once he was gone, Sienna grabbed a clean towel from the back of the bar and screamed into it, the cloth doing little to muffle the sound. First, the whole “neutrality” situation, and now this. She wasn’t exactly having a great week. Maybe her good karma had finally run out.

“What the hell am I going to do, Marcus? How am I supposed to find a new chef that fast?” She buried her head in her hands, stress creasing her forehead almost instantly. Her head bartender paused from unloading the racks of clean glasses back onto the shelf and placed a reassuring hand on her shoulder.

“It’s going to be fine. You can always just bring someone in temporarily until you find a permanent replacement,” he suggested, “After all, you know a lot of people, Sienna. Someone ought to have some free time to come and assist until you hire someone else.”

“I do, don’t I.” She drummed her manicured nails on the surface of the bar, thinking, the sound ricocheting off the mirrors in an otherwise silent room. Marcus also was deep in thought, seeing if he could think of anyone who could provide aid in this hour of need. After a moment, a lightbulb went off and his eyes lit up.

“What about that guy who came in a few months ago? The childhood friend of yours… I want to say Logan was his name? Isn’t he a chef?”

“You mean Link?” She pondered it for a moment, considering the notion. Lincoln Darby was a Cedar Grove native like her - the two had grown up together and their parents were good friends. He’d gone off and became a successful chef right before she opened the Velvet Room and while they weren’t very close anymore, she could give him a call. He’d come in on more than one occasion to support her, so he was familiar with her bar and what she was trying to accomplish. “It’s not the worst idea I’ve ever heard.”

“You’re welcome.” Marcus smirked, shaking his head, before disappearing back into the kitchen with the empty racks.

Sienna reached into her pocket and took out her cellphone, scrolling her contacts until she found that familiar name and pressed it. The phone rang, once, twice, before a deep voice responded on the other end. Sienna perked up.

“Link, hey. It’s Si. I need a favor.”
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Present - Morning Marth Oldfox The Docks (The Collapse Site) Marth@Memoria, Joanie@Natty (Mentioned)

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Emile Oldfox drove with both hands on the wheel. And not once did he question Marth's certainty. He only drove.

That was how Marth knew his father was frightened.

Ordinarily, Emile filled silence the way painters filled a canvas, with his own color of language. He'd make small observations, with some passing remark about clouds or brickwork or the tragic emotional life of bad signage. But now the truck moved through Calder City with no music on, no commentary, and none of the gentle, somewhat aimless nonsense his father was known for. Only the trucks old engine, the wet road hissing beneath the tires, and Marth in the passenger seat with fingers pressed to his temples and the small strained sound of him breathing through his nose. Eyes shut.

Whenever Marth opened his mind, the city became too loud. But not outside. From within. Every mind they passed brushed against him in fragments. And beneath it all...

Joanie.

Or at least, what remained of her mind's telempathic signal.

Marth listened to the thin thread tugging somewhere under his ribs.

They drove deeper toward the Docks, where the first psychic ache had pointed him. Marth reached again, carefully, trying not to tear through the city's noise and take half of Calder into himself with it.

~ⱼₒₐₙᵢₑ~


His thought went out softly.

~Cₐₙ yₒᵤ ₕₑₐᵣ ₘₑ?~


For half a breath, he felt her.

Then the thread went cold.

Marth’s eyes opened.

Émile looked over. “What?”

“I lost her.”

His father’s hands tightened on the wheel. “Lost her how?”

“I don’t know.” Marth swallowed. “It was there. She was there. Now it’s faint. Like something moved between us.”

He hated the helplessness in his own voice. He hated that his gift, which could make a stranger’s private sorrow feel like thunder, could suddenly leave him with nothing but a direction and dread. Marth did not know how else to say it. Joanie’s pain had been a lighthouse when it struck him at the Gables. Now it was a thread under dark water.

Then they saw the collapse.

A street near the old route had folded in on itself. Dust hung low over wet pavement. Emergency lights strobed red and white against broken concrete. Police tape held back a crowd of witnesses who stood pale and stunned in the morning chill. Firefighters moved through the wreckage with careful urgency, their radios crackling like insects.

Emile pulled over, but Marth did not get out. The place was loud with too many sounds and too many thoughts. Marth opened too far and the collapse poured into him, mind's replaying the fragments of the moment again and again in broken, distorted loops.
~ᵣᵤₙ.
Gₑₜ Bₐcₖ.
ₜₕₑᵣₑ wₑᵣₑ ₖᵢdₛ.
Wₕₑᵣₑ dᵢd ₛₕₑ gₒ?
Dᵢd ₐₙyₒₙₑ ₛₑₑ ₕᵢₘ?
ₙₒₜ ₘₒᵥᵢₙg.
ₙₒₜ ₘₒᵥᵢₙg.~


He searched for the shape of her mind in the chaos. He had hoped at least. But he knew, from the fear in her psychic voice, that she was not here anymore. Just the private little songs of the living remained. Marth closed his eyes and tried again to reach out to her, forcing himself narrower.

~ⱼₒₐₙᵢₑ~


Not the woman crying at the bus stop.

~ⱼₒₐₙᵢₑ~


Not the paramedic thinking of blood on concrete.

~ⱼₒₐₙᵢₑ~


Not the man praying under his breath.

~ⱼₒₐₙᵢₑ~


For a moment, he whispered to his father, eyes still shut. "She's not here."

That was all Emile needed to hear. He put the truck back into traffic and they circled the Docks some more.
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Eve watched across the way as she settled into her seat at Silvio’s. At hers. Time really didn’t exist, she’d been here before and would be here again. She couldn’t tell which Eve was sitting, the one that was thirteen and new, feeling the leather upholstery for the first time, wide-eyed and parentless. Eldest only daughter; now youngest third child. Was she the one who was seventeen? Caught out after curfew with a boy, fractured wrist from falling off the trellis after midnight. Was she twenty-one again and celebrating Ralph’s engagement in her pajamas, with a glass of champagne at eleven am, and fast food fries and Ralph’s awkward announcement and Cosima’s beaming smile? Or was she twenty-two and alone in the kitchen in the dark of the night making sense of something that had happened to her that still didn’t make any sense at all. It was just compartmentalised away next to the other baggage she’d gathered up over the years.

The household kitchen was just a place. She’d observed so much of the human condition here.

Beyond the glass panes that were the window to the indoor pool and she saw a woman swimming lazy laps in a bikini, hardly ten years older than Eve. One of Silvio’s girlfriends. He’d never remarried after his wife died, he’d just gotten older but the girlfriend of the month stayed the same age. The girlfriend climbed out of the pool. As expected, the glamour filters had been sculpted onto her skin and she did in fact have a perfect face and she was probably an exotic dancer or model of some kind; that had always been Silvio’s type. ᵂʰᵒ ᵈᵒᵉˢ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵍᵘʸ ᵗʰⁱⁿᵏ ʰᵉ ⁱˢ ᵖⁱᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵘᵖ ʷᵒᵐᵉⁿ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵃᵗ? This girlfriend was moving around in the space of Silvio’s grief and stress for the day and Eve wanted to think it unhealthy but she remembered her own reaction to it all was to shred her apartment to pieces and then fire double entendres at someone unsuspecting. Eve was the wink wink to her father’s nudge nudge. They were not all that different. They both turned their pain sideways.

“I’ve got prosciutto and melanzane,” Silvio said. Opening the fridge to take out a small platter. “Come on, eat something.” He said, placing the antipasto platter in front of her. 𝙶𝚊𝚋𝚊𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚕? 𝙾𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 The same one she’d seen a thousand times before with the same gaudy little bowl, the chip still there from when Ralph had sent it rolling across the bench while fighting Joey for the last olive. They weren’t even children when that happened; they were two grown men at a wake. The platter always got brought out for occasions and holidays. Today the platter was out because Michael Marino had been shot and nobody really knew how to deal with it unless it was with gabagool, prosciutto, and sundried vegetables.

He was being soft with her, she could tell. She could feel the restraint in his body, the awkwardness. He poured her a coke in a glass and placed it in front of her, coasterless. “Thanks,” she sighed.

“Funeral will be in two weeks,” Silvio sighed. “Marone,” he continued. His own can gave a crisp crack as he opened it, the fizz filling the silence. ᴵ'ᵐ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᵍˡᵃᵈ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵘⁿᵗ ʰᵃˢⁿ'ᵗ ᵖⁱᵗᶜʰᵉᵈ ᵘᵖ ⁱⁿ ʰᵉʳᵉ. “Shoulda seen your aunt Rosalie,” he shook his head. “We’re going to need to fall around her, Eve. And the girls. I got some shit taken care of for them. Food, meals on wheels or whatever. Just for now, you know.”

Eve sipped from the glass, the full sugar burst onto her tongue and fired off into her blood. She always drank a diet. M̷y̷ ̷w̷i̷f̷e̷ ̷l̷i̷k̷e̷d̷ ̷D̷r̷ ̷P̷e̷p̷p̷e̷r̷,̷ ̷t̷h̷e̷ ̷c̷h̷e̷r̷r̷y̷ ̷o̷n̷e̷.̷ In her mind she did think of Rosalie, pictured her falling over herself in tears with that all-exhaustive, all-consuming grief. The way that the wound of his absence would sit in the wrinkles around her eyes and she’d carry it in her body and it would be heavy for the longest time.

Maybe things are ‘a long time’ until they’re not.


Beside that she pictured the very real images and replays of all of Michael's goomahs over the years that Eve had seen through his eyes and from his perspective.

“I’ve lost guys before,” Silvio continued, snapping her from her thoughts as he moved around the space. “This was something else, shouldn’t have happened.” He paused. “I shouldn’t have yelled at you.”

“It’s okay,” Eve said with a shrug. ǝʌƎ ʎɐʞo ʇ,usɐʍ ʇı She was the fifteen year old about to let him make an excuse for himself.

“It’s not,” he added, taking a seat opposite her at last. “But you have to understand from what I was seeing. Things are just changing so quickly Eve, new families popping up in every district. Never used to be like this.” He took a sip from his own glass and sighed, placing it back down and getting himself back up. “I just– I needed you to be there, and when you didn’t answer–” Eve already knew he was reaching for something stronger, and he did, pulled out a bottle of scotch. Some thirty year old thing, and a glass. Eve saw in the cupboard a bottle of vodka that she knew to be entirely water. Eve and Joey at eighteen and nineteen had gotten into the actual stuff years ago and that was when Eve realised she enjoyed the kind of sickness that the excess of alcohol made her feel the next day. It would be another year or so before she found coke. Silvio glanced over his shoulder to look her up and down and then got a second glass.

“I just wasn’t thinking straight when I saw him,” he said as he sat back down.

ᴵˢ ʰᵉ ᵉᵛᵉʳ ᵗʰⁱⁿᵏⁱⁿᵍ ˢᵗʳᵃⁱᵍʰᵗ?

“And you needed me to tell you what had happened.”

“I just wanted to know who did it, wanted to do something.”

“That’s not how it works–”

“Fine,” he shrugged as he sipped from the glass. “But I woulda settled for fuckin’ anything, just. Something to say I’ve done enough to figure this shit out.” He toyed with the glass in his hand. “You know what the worst of it is?”

Eve shook her head.

“I knew the second I saw you that you didn’t want to do it. And I asked anyway.”

He didn’t ask you. “But you didn’t ask.”

His eyes sharpened and he gave a wry smile. “No.” He drank again. “I didn’t.”

What was she to tell him? That he had made her afraid of him, and of herself? That he pushed her to the wolves as he always had. For what had she done really? Nothing she hadn’t for him already. ʇןnɐɟ ɹnoʎ ʇou s,ʇı ǝʌƎ Neither of them spoke for a while, and Eve let herself rewind to family breakfasts at fourteen in the room. Her making toast and eggs and bacon. Fetching cereal while Ralph and Joey wolfed it all down and knocked it all back and made a mess and maybe there would be a slice of bacon left, always the one closest to overdone and the piece of toast that was a little burnt and the last dregs of the milk; she’d make her breakfast from that after they’d all gone and left and she didn’t push in and she didn’t do anything that would make them dislike this stranger.

“I called it in, Eve,” Silvio said then - breaking the silence. “Had to. They said they found some concrete traces from wheels of a van. They’re looking into it.” Eve knew how much it would have killed him to involve the police but she also knew that he had no choice with this, not really. “They’re getting those kids out today,” he added with a tone of disbelief in his words. “They’re not - we’re not – not suspects, you know. Got nothing on us, on you.” Because that was what mattered, what really mattered to him. Whether or not he could get booked for it, whether he was snitching on another gang. How it all made him look and whether it pushed or pulled at his standing. That was all that mattered. It was hideous. He was trying to reassure her and she thought back to her anxiety spiral of the morning and the doom she’d scrolled herself to and only some of that weight lifted. She sipped at her scotch.

“I hated seeing you that way, I didn’t know – I didn’t realise. I thought you were–”

“Dying?” she cut in.

Silvio winced and looked away briefly. Yes, that was what he had thought.

“Jimmy pissed himself,” he said, meeting Eve’s eyes again and right then she could see herself in the reflection of his own, blue like hers. Like pools. “You scared the piss outta Jimmy. Even the dog didn’t piss.”

“They shouldn’t have been there, why were they there?” Eve asked but her voice was too quiet but something was rising in her chest.

“Jimmy’s only ever thought of you as a sweet kid–”

ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵗᵉˡˡ ʰⁱᵐ ᴱᵛᵉ. ᴸᵉᵗ ⁱᵗ ʳⁱᵖ.
Tell him


“But I’m not sweet though am I?” Eve cut in. “I’m not a sweet kid.” I'm a woman. She hesitated on her words. ˙sıɥʇ op uɐɔ noʎ 'ƃuıoƃ dǝǝꓘ He’d stopped in his tracks - glass halfway to his mouth, his eyes fixed to her in expectation. “Your friends think I’m a sweet kid, I know they do because all I do is keep quiet and smile and nod. Because you tell me to. Do they know what I’ve done for you?” she spoke daringly, ᴱᵃᵗ ˢʰⁱᵗ ˢⁱˡᵛⁱᵒ letting a match dance over the length of fuse that had always been there. His jaw had tensed, his eyes darkened just so to have her back down, bite it back, blow out the match. “But then. But then,” she continued. “Out there, people look at me and they think I’m crazy. I’m trying too hard. Or they know I'm a Raciti, so I must be spoiled or trouble and they assume I’m a brat and maybe I am.” Nobody sees that I'm Eve.

“Eve–”

“Everyone has an idea of who I am and what I should be except for me and shouldn’t I get to decide?”

“Honey–”

“Maybe I was dying. Maybe I do die a little bit. I don’t know. Nobody has explained this to me." She took a breath. "But I go somewhere else and then I am all of those people and they're me and then I wake up. Back into the dark after tasting all of it. Do you know what that’s like?”

He thought about it some. He did not know. He did not answer.

“It’s not sweet,” she paused, her lower lip trembling so she brought her glass to her mouth and drank again. He waited. “It’s always scratching at me. All of these voices that want out of me. Clawing to get out.” ᴶᵃˢᵒⁿ ɐıʌıןO C̷o̷n̷n̷o̷r̷ 𝙻𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚣𝚘 Paloma

He said nothing, just averted his eyes and returned awkwardly to his drink. She finished her own in a single mouthful. The only sound between them was the gentle splashes from the pool from beyond the glass.

"Funeral is two weeks away," he said after some length of time where they both sat with that silence. Drawing them back full circle to the start, to the point that mattered and made sense. "You'll be there. You and your brothers."

“Of course.” Surprised and unsurprised all the same at the way he refused her subject. She once again wished she could tell him more about how she felt. Explain why she so often sat in silence around him and start to unspool why they orbited each other like this.

The ghosts of herself all breezed past her then; all pieces that in their totality that didn’t fit right. She was a girl once, she was a grown woman now. She was here and and she would be here again next year and the year after that and she’d see this version of herself from beyond the moment and with the hopeful and keen hindsight that she could've, should’ve handled everything better. Maybe one day she’d have it together, and it would all be worth it and she could gather up each ghost of herself and reassure them that it was all worth it. It was all worth it. And she’d eat an olive from the same bowl.
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