A lifetime away from the struggles of a town that was without power, Theresa Patterson was fighting a different battle. Last night had been such an ordeal that the only thing she had wanted to do when entering the poor excuse for a room was turn the air conditioning on, turn on Netflix, and fall asleep to
Is It Cake?. The only flaw in her plan was, as she had learned through a lengthy conversation with the woman at the front desk during check in, was that the Old Road Motel didn't have Netflix. Honestly, that should've been a deal breaker, but it hadn't been Theresa who had arranged for this motel stay, that went to her bosses at Waldron and Sons who had decided to finally listen to her idea about southern towns being potential hotbeds for development. Leave it to the big shots in the board rooms to book her the crappiest hotel in the area. No Netflix, no HBO, hell, not even ESPN, but the Old Road Motel prided itself on its selection of adult entertainment options.
That explained why there was a condom machine in the bathroom.
It wasn't the lack of viewing options that was this morning's battle, however. To Theresa's great surprise, the air conditioning did work so at the very least she was able to enjoy the winter-like conditions that came with every hotel as she watched Netflix on her phone until sleep claimed her. That same air conditioning was now making a sound that was like a mix between a sputtering car engine and a hinge in desperate need of replacing. It hadn't happened immediately, but if a machine could cough then that's what the air conditioning unit did as Theresa was in the middle of brushing her teeth in the bathroom, eyes looking not in the mirror at the annoyed face that would have stared back and asked what the fuck she was even doing here, but at the condom machine hanging on the wall like a threat.
Odd as it was, the machine had Theresa thinking about Ryan. About the dinner at the Polish restaurant where Theresa laughingly admitted that she didn't even know Poland had cuisine other than beer and pierogis; Ryan hadn't found it quite as funny as Theresa had and that was part of the reason for the dinner. One last chance for Theresa to feel what it was like to have a romantic evening, though how romantic could it really have been if she went home alone and had to delete her lock screen back to a default wallpaper just so she wouldn't be one of those dumped women who kept a constant reminder of her ex no matter how serious the relationship had been. It was probably for the best. If Theresa had brought Ryan down here to the middle of nowhere, their relationship probably would've ended anyway. Or maybe it would've been a strengthening experience. The kind of couples trip that turns a two and a half year relationship into a lifelong commitment.
All of that was in her head as she looked at the condoms and heard the loud BANG of he air conditioning machine, snapping her back to the reality of her situation. The toothbrush fell from her mouth, clattered against the counter top, and fell to the bathroom floor. She didn't even take time to spit the toothpaste out before poking her head into the room proper. The television was still playing at a low volume, the local news was talking about some kind of power outage down in the Pines and had Theresa been focused on that she might well have considered this whole stupid idea to be a big goddamn mistake, but instead she was listening for the white noise of the air conditioning. Nothing. She dipped back into the bathroom, picking up her toothbrush and spitting the toothpaste out in the same motion. Only after running water over the bristles and putting the toothbrush back in its holder did Theresa's eyes look in the mirror.
How was it possible to look so tired at nine in the morning? It was a miracle she had managed to brush her hair, but the June humidity would likely make her hair frizz and not in the cool afro sense of the word. She had to do her makeup. She had a whole-ass skincare routine, all for the sake of appearances, all for people who were probably going to tell her to fuck off as soon as they found out what she was here for. Theresa smiled at the mirror. It reached her eyes but only because it was practiced.
The reflection didn't smile back at her.
Half an hour and one phone call later, Theresa was finally ready to go to work. The phone call had been appropriately weird, with the front desk seeming very confused by the fact that Theresa was saying the air conditioning was making weird sounds. “It’s supposed to makke noise!” was the first barrier she had to break through in explaining herself. Victory was claimed when the voice on the other line said they’d have someone come and take a look at it later, and it took every ounce of restraint Theresa had to not make a comment of if ‘take a look at it later’ meant literally. As in, someone would go in, look at the air conditioning, and leave. So she just smiled that pretend smile while looking at the turned off television screen and the face she was starting to recognize looking back at her, thanked the front office for their help, and hung up.
In the pocket of the slacks she was wearing, because the nature of her job meant she had to look the part with her blue button down and a suit jacket hanging in the closet ready to grab on the way out, was her cellphone and her father was a phone call away. He could have thee air conditioning fixed in record time. Growing up, everyone knew to call George Patterson if they needed some home repair done; he was more reliable than an out of town corporate contractor and often took payment in a casserole dish or saran wrapped. But it had been ten years since Theresa had spoken to her father. Did he still do contracting work? He was never more than a phone call away even as she was miles and miles and state lines from home.
So why was it that she never felt further away from him than when she was a half an hour away from his front door? She had to see him while she was in town, right? Had to knock on the door, hear him make a corny joke like all dads did, hear him call for her mother and explain how there was a stranger at the door. Have the awkward reunion dinner where they ask hard questions about her life, her job, her relationships and the lack of children. Peach cobbler and slightly melted vanilla ice cream for dessert.
No. She’d not seen her parents in ten years. She could go another ten days.
With the air conditioning matter handled for the moment, Theresa grabbed her blazer and left her motel room. The upside for a motel like this, with the building being laid out horizontally, was that her car was literally outside her door. The sun was already in the air and the weather was threatening to grow hotter as the day went on. Ahead of her was the long road home. Flat land, flatter scenery, and her future within her company all beckoned her forth. For her own sake, she really hoped this wouldn’t turn out to be a waste of her time. A waste of company resources? That was fine. But her time was precious and she could think of a hundred other things she could be doing rather than returning home and trying to convince people she once broke bread with that now she wanted them to accept the fact that the town would be better off with modernization. Tearing down the old. Building up the new.
Throwing the blazer in the passenger seat, Theresa pulled out of the parking lot and turned onto the long road home. Her only companion was the
music synced from her phone, turned up to drown out her thoughts. She hadn’t seen the road from this angle before. Theresa had driven away, never looking back, and yet as she saw the sign welcoming her to Pines Holler as she rounded a bend, she was already seeing the cracks that she hadn’t noticed before.
Was the welcome sign always so weathered? The roads so worn down? Had that store always been boarded up, that glass always there, the faded graffiti that looked liked the letters ‘ZF’ on fire always been there? This place was home to people, it was home to her until it wasn’t. But even as she looked at the unfamiliar sights through familiar eyes, there was something in the back of her throat; not quite nostalgia but…an uncertain familiarity. Lou’s was still there. Clark’s General Store or as she called it with her dad as a kid ‘The Woodshop’. The sight of a McDonald’s and a Bojangles gave her a little hope that modernization was possible. Inevitable.
Theresa found a parking space just beyond main street. Waffle House and Dollar General serving as beacons on opposite ends between which were the first stops on her journey. Leaving the blazer in the car but grabbing a handbag where she could store her clipboard and notebook and everything important in her life, Theresa stepped out of the car and onto Pines Holler soil for the first time in over a decade.
”Heavens, is that…Old George’s daughter? That you, Tessa?” An older woman currently fanning herself as she stepped out of a small shop carrying a plastic bag waved to Theresa. The kind of wave that was full of familiarity, as if it was only yesterday that Theresa was waving to the grown ups on her way to go fishing in the crick. Theresa inhaled a sharp breath. Recognized in record time. Old people were supposed to have memory problems.
”It’s Theresa.” Yes it was. And she was home.