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hehe lore go brrrrrr
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Wasn't the Black Knight "None shall pass," though?
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You ever realize that you haven't changed your status in months, go back to change it, and then wonder what the *fuck* your previous status was even talking about?
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No, no, they clearly are referring to Ohio -- which Georgia is geographically south of, so the theory is still sound.
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Oh, hi. Thanks for checking in.

I'm an exceedingly enthusiastic roleplayer who's been writing for about ten years now and yet still hasn't managed to produce any kind of solo piece of writing worth reading. I like to consider myself a good writer, but that's kind of a matter of opinion, as many would argue that my tendency to ramble on at entirely excessive length about things is boring rather than interesting. I'm also incredibly OCD about formatting, so if you're wondering why my bios look so fancy, that's why. It's just something I do because... reasons, I guess.

Anyway, as you've probably noticed from my avatars and RP choices, I'm more than a bit of a fan of anime and manga, but also enjoy movies, video games, the occasional comic book... the list goes on. For you see, I am not a mere dork - I am the one spoken of in legends, the one whose dorkiness transcends all forms and boundaries. I am... the Legendary... OMNI-DORK!

...Anyway, thanks for dropping in to check on my profile! Hope to RP with you sometime!

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Location: Uhladein, Eastern Marches




It seemed the battle had already reached the city's keep by the time the blood-soaked huntress arrived at the foot of its walls. One of the gargantuan Voidspawn attempted to scale the rampart, only to be immolated by a shrieking blast of fire from the pinnacle of the citadel, while another was ripped to shreds by a small figure that she was pretty sure called her "granny" for some reason. Well, whoever the brat was, they were at least right about one thing, though -- she had neither the time nor the inclination to dawdle here and let her prey be taken by another.

Seeing as the tiny huntress who'd called out to her had already launched herself into the midst of those enemies still on the ground, Fianna instead turned her bloody-minded gaze towards those that were now fleeing from the eviscerated husk of their fellow, scrambling desperately up the wall and out of reach. She exhaled faintly, her breath condensing into a cloud of vapor in the frigid air as, absentmindedly, she clenched her off-hand into a fist and raised it to point towards the beasts on the wall.

A disgusting series of loud pops and squelches split the air like gunfire as the air pockets within her knuckles suddenly expanded, the bones of her fingers erupting from within and launching themselves like so many tiny darts into the bodies of several of the Voidlings -- piercing them through with surprising force as tendons of muscle drew taut in their wake, reforming her mutilated fingertips into wire-thin tendrils that, with a mighty tug, ripped her victims down from the wall, and into the waiting blade of her sword -- cleaving five of the abhorrent beings with a single blow. Their bodies sloughed off the blade like water, dripping upward back along her "fingers" and into the stump of her arm, which swelled up like a balloon, muscles re-knitting together and their surface hardening into a chitinous shell, from which all too many digits extended like the legs of a centipede.

Glancing back, she noted that whoever had called out to her looked to be handling the remaining voidlings at the base of the wall just fine on her own. She opened her mouth, fumbling momentarily as her battle-clouded mind tried to recall how to properly form words.

"Leave these... to you."

Raising her newly improved arm, she shambled up to the edge of the wall, then brought her gargantuan, misshapen limb down like a hammer, plunging its many legs into the stone. They writhed and skittered, piercing like pitons into the cracks between the bricks and "walking" upward, while the apathetic huntress dangled below, until she reached the top and dragged herself up as, with several snaps and cracks, the many sharp limbs condensed themselves into a more recognizable, albeit still-clawed facsimile of a human hand, joints splitting, merging, and warping into four "fingers" and one "thumb."

What voidlings had avoided being picked off by her earlier attack or by the girl at the base of the wall, she quickly finished off with a few deft strokes of her sword. Their oversized mandibles couldn't even pierce the hardened armor of her shieldlike arm, and, as they had offered no danger, also offered no real sense of reward as she saw them crushed to dust beneath her mighty blade. More... she needed something more. And so, she began to stalk along the wall, searching for a foe that could truly remind her she was alive...

Breathe



A deep breath. A sense of tightness -- of weight -- built within her chest, and with it came an old, familiar ache. Pulsing deep within, spreading outward -- a chill that wasn't cold and a heat that brought no warmth. Something unseen was pressing down upon her lungs, forcing out the air again and again, making her body feel unbearably heavy even as her head felt so light it seemed as though it would fly off.

Another deep breath. It was alright. His words might have stung, but it wasn't as though she'd lost everything -- or even lost anything yet. She just needed to stay calm, and smile, and do her best in the days ahead. The Prince had complimented her, right? Well, it wasn't exactly a compliment, but he'd seemed supportive enough when Nathaniel was trying to goad her into a fight just a moment prior, so she could probably go without forcing the issue. And her squadmates seemed nice enough, too, her roommate notwithstanding! Signar had been a little rude about her size, but she hadn't forgotten the way he had tried his best to reassure her. Right... He'd already noticed her panicking before, and had gone out of his way to comfort her. If she kept this up, he'd think she was pathetic, right? A boy might let his feelings show so easily, but Julian Baker wasn't supposed to be a boy -- "he" was supposed to be a man among men!

That was why she couldn't afford to show an unsightly face now. It was fine. Everything was fine. Her disguise, her future, rested on being accepted as one of them -- and that would never happen if she let herself get rattled so easily. So, she just needed to breathe. Breathe.

The phantom pain in her chest disappeared as quickly as it had come, and slowly, she drew out her lips into a smile. The hand she'd clenched over her heart loosened its grip, and slowly, calmly, lowered to her side. One more deep breath, and then she started to turn around. Her face looked perfectly normal -- she was sure of it. She'd just go on and get some lunch like nothing out of the ordinary had happened--

...

Why was there a hand on her shoulder?!

She twitched with a slight start, and spun about, already reaching down to her belt on instinct with her dominant left hand to draw a weapon that wasn't even there, even as she reached up with her right to shake off the assailant's grip -- Only to stop when she came face to face with the enigmatic blue-haired boy, who gave some sort of cryptic comment before quickly stepping back and letting her go. She took a step back, too, on instinct, and stared him down with the momentary look of someone sizing up an enemy before a fight, before suddenly remembering that she needed to smile, and snapping her face back into its usual grin in a heartbeat.

"Ehehehe~," She chuckled nervously, raising the hand that had gone to her belt in search of a knife on instinct to scratch her cheek absentmindedly, and hopefully cover up her rather embarrassing reaction. "I appreciate the sentiment, but... I think there's more to being a knight than just fighting, you know?"

Stuff like dreams, and honor, and protecting the innocent... Not just blindly fighting whatever enemy stood before you, and seeking victory without knowing the cause. A knight was supposed to be more... hero-like!

...Of course, all these thoughts ran through her head without the slightest sense of irony, but she did realize a moment later that he'd probably been trying to console her. But, well, there was no reason for that, because Julian Baker definitely wouldn't be hurt by mere words! Definitely not.

...A loud rumble broke the awkward silence between them, and she averted her gaze, rubbing her stomach. Right. Food. That thing she hadn't been able to have for the last several days. Probably should get on that.

"Right, well, uh... I dunno about you, but I'm half-starved, so how about we go along with this whole lunch idea and get some grub, yeah?"

She gave another chuckle and another awkward grin, then hastily shuffled past Kai and out into the common room where the others were gathering. It wasn't that she hadn't appreciated his gesture, it was just... something about him felt strange. The way he'd managed to sneak up on her without making even the slightest sound, or the way those wild red-bronze eyes of his had been sizing her up just now. His hair, bearing, and manner all felt just the slightest bit uncanny, and she couldn't help but wonder just how much he'd seen through...

Location: Uhladein, Eastern Marches




There is a certain kind of beauty in disaster -- in watching a grand edifice come crumbling down to the earth, leaving only dust and ruination -- in the crackling of flames as they devour everything in their path -- in the creeping of darkness that swells and surges in the fire's wake -- in the momentary flash of striking lightning, and in the anticipation of the coming thunder. And with that beauty, there is a certain clarity -- for when that blinding bolt lights up the sky, suddenly, even in the darkest of storms, even through the driving rain and howling wind, one can see as clear as day the true state of the world around her. There is quiet. Stillness. Peace. A single instant, frozen in time, the raindrops all hung suspended in the air like glassy beads of dew upon the strands of a spider's web. Then comes the thunder, and all is cacophony and madness once more.

Ah, the tempest -- the sweet, sweet tempest -- a symphony fit for devils, composed within the blackest pits of hell! How it roiled and sang, how the lightning flashed and the fire crackled and the rain chilled one to the very bone -- how the beasts roared and the people screamed and it all came crashing down. How little it mattered who lived and who died -- who fought and who fled -- who was good and who was evil! Yes, indeed, beneath that brilliant beam from the heavens, all were of equally little consequence -- mere pieces in a game played by gods and fools and understood by neither.

The stroke of a sword was much the same. The mounting tension, the blade upraised -- then descending in a flash to cleave whatever sorry fool happened to lie beneath it. That single moment of resistance -- of exhilarating struggle -- and then suddenly all would give way, skin tearing, muscles rending, bones cracking, blood spilling, voice screaming -- was it her enemy or her who cried loudest? Meaningless. For the deafening thunder came, and the world's madness once again took hold. That beautiful instant was gone forever, and mere memory could never do it justice. Another! Another flash of lightning! Another brilliant light to provide meaning once more to this blasted wreck of mud and dust! Another masterful stroke, another foe to slay -- onward, stumbling over the fallen, the weight of her blade leading her ever onward, deeper and into the darkness that she might cut the very night itself apart! Higher, higher still -- there were yet mountains to be felled, were there not?! A brighter flash and a louder din, that she might once again taste the sweet nectar of victory -- that gorgeous moment when all was made silent once again.

Ah, how her body writhed with hunger. How her throat clenched with thirst! A dull, aching pain that spread from her core to her arm and from there to... what exactly? That unknown weight that pulsated and tugged at her unseen strings. What was it again? Ah, yes, her partner.

"...That... way?"

Another tug, more urgent, more insistent. Her muscles unraveled and coiled like a thousand serpents, the massive crimson thing drawing her onward as she shambled desperately after it. She must have been fighting for quite some time, she supposed -- otherwise, she would never have felt so tired. It was strange, though. There had been others with her when she started, right? She had been ordered to protect something... Right, the ferry. The people... they needed to get to safety. Father was... No, Master Fray was counting on her. But then what were these beasts? Where did her comrades go?

"The flowers... Master...? Everyone is gone..."

...No, rather, they had all been gone since a long time ago. Once again, she'd been ordered to sacrifice herself to protect others. And once again, she and she alone had survived.

The haze of battle was fading, and a different kind of clarity began to take its place. The beat of her heart, and the heart of her partner, began to slow, clearing the adrenaline from her addled mind.

The southern front had already collapsed. She supposed that any survivors must have retreated to the keep -- to the hearth. Those towering, shambling forms she could see writhing over the walls, and the unearthly howls that carried even to the blasted, blood-soaked crater in which she alone stood among the mangled, half-chewed husks of her prey suggested that the strongest of her foes were now doing the same, hot on the heels of whatever allies she might have had left.

Then in that case, her -- no, their course of action was obvious, wasn't it? Wherever Fianna the Bloody went, disaster would follow. And wherever disaster arose, Fianna the Bloody would cut it down. Those massive beasts, perhaps, could sate the hunger that seethed within her bosom. Merely thinking of what she would feel as her blade sank into their tender flesh sent shivers down her spine.

And so, the pale maiden, still soaked in the blood of the slain, shouldered her vicious blade, and shambled towards the keep, all too eager to meet whatever cruel fate awaited her there -- for all she could see was the flashing lightning, all she could hear was the booming peal of thunder...

Yes, indeed, there is such beauty in disaster -- all the moreso for an inconsequential Hunter with nothing left to lose.

A Place Undeserved



Julian had expected... well, to be honest, she wasn't sure what sort of answer she had anticipated. Regardless, she'd made her position quite clear and had rejected his challenge in no uncertain terms, so while things would probably be rough between them for a while, maybe she had hoped that he'd at least think twice before pushing his luck? No, of course not. Obviously, he'd be mad -- maybe he'd grow angry and yell at her, or perhaps he'd even strike her for her insolence. This might have been an environment where they were both "equal" in a sense as fellow cadets, but even in this place, he was a noble and one of her commanding officers, and she was just another individual under his command. She hadn't the presence of mind to choose her words carefully, and so she'd no doubt have to face the consequences of her disrespect. Even so, she wasn't going to back down, even if he actually did decide to take a swing at her. She'd used every ounce of her cunning and given the utmost effort to take back her life. She couldn't afford to stumble now at the very second step.

...And yet, of all the various outcomes she had expected, his silence came as a complete surprise to her. He just... stared at her, and said nothing. His eyes were filled with the kind of hatred and contempt she'd long since grown accustomed to seeing -- as if he was looking at something beyond worthless -- but he didn't spit at her or throw a punch or deride her any further. He just stared in silence, then turned to leave the room. Yet, as he stepped past her, looming all-too-close due to the room's cramped nature...

"You will duel me one of these days, Julian Baker. Not for the noble ideal of honor, or because it's the just thing to do: you've already proven to me that those are not qualities you possess. I think you will duel me when you are ready to learn if you ever deserved to be here."

In a way, those quiet words hurt more than the punch she'd been expecting -- not because they were right, but because they weren't wrong either. She understood that he'd been wronged, and knew that her own actions were far from those of the storybook heroes she had idolized throughout her childhood. But if she could recognize her own dishonorable conduct and the unfair nature of Nathaniel's own situation, yet refused to rectify either, she supposed it was really no different than not caring in the first place. Even so... what was she supposed to do? If she failed here, where else could she even go to try again? This might have been a matter of pride for him, but it was a matter of life and death for her!

But even if she'd wanted to say as much, there was no way she could. After all, even if she did get cast aside and lose everything again, was there even anybody who'd take her side? It was unfair, unreasonable, unbearable -- but that was just the way things were, and this whole situation was her own fault to begin with. Even if she was hated, did she even have the right to be angry? Regardless of what she said or did, and regardless of what happened to her, the "justice" and "honor" of the nobility would never be on her side. But even so, she couldn't bring herself to let go of such things either. That was precisely why she couldn't deny his words.

What is there to learn? I already know better than anyone what I deserve. I already...

While the others gathered in the common room, Julian simply stayed put. She didn't hang her head, or gnash her teeth, or clench her fists in rage. But even so... she felt like it would be a mistake to let anyone see her face right now. She wasn't sure what kind of expression she was making, and that kind of scared her. It wouldn't do to show her squadmates an unsightly face, so for the time being... even if she was still unbearably hungry, she'd already waited this long. She could wait just a little longer, until she could find a way to smile again.

...Who Are You Again?



Julian's thoughts had been elsewhere -- a combination of somber recollections and future hopes that swirled and blurred until it all became indistinct, leaving only the view of the courtyard below and the specks of dust that floated aimlessly in the half-light. In such a state, it took her a moment to even realize she was being spoken to -- as Nathaniel neither looked at her directly while he spoke, nor did he use a name that was familiar to her. "Julian" was close enough to her own name to be familiar, but it took her a moment to associate "Baker" with herself. Just as soon as she managed to connect those dots, however, she realized that the rest of his words didn't make sense to her either.

He was talking about... sparring, or something. But then why did he call it a rematch? They hadn't even had their first day, so how would she have -- Oh. She hadn't really bothered to remember the face of her opponent in her debut spar, but the name "Nathaniel Lothwren" had sounded familiar, so then obviously...

"Eh?! You're that sucker from last week?!" She exclaimed.

...Unfortunately, at times like this, Julian's mouth moved a little faster than her brain. Her tone, for what little it was worth, was incredulous, yet matter-of-fact. She didn't draw out her words to mock him, or feign politeness and beat around the bush, or laugh or even seem overly satisfied with herself -- that was just genuinely the first descriptor that came to mind. A naive, careless, overconfident opponent expecting an easy win, who had, in turn, presented her with an easy dupe. She'd feigned timidity and fear, then raised her sword as if to make a reckless charge, luring him to try to block her head on -- then, the moment she got close, she'd let loose the handful of sand she'd slipped into her pocket, blinding him and then disarming him the moment he flinched, instinctively loosening his grip on his weapon to try to rub his eyes. A few quick blows and it was over, and beyond that, she'd hardly bothered to remember it. The name and face of the boy she'd defeated... Those things hadn't been important to her. Since any opponent she faced would no doubt be far superior to her in training, she hadn't even bothered to ask around or find out if her defeated adversary had even been someone of note. After all, the mountain standing in her path was already far taller than she could fathom -- what good would it do to know its exact height or the futility of trying to scale it? Those things would only have held her back. So, she had just marched resolutely forward, until the mountain gave way and she found herself standing at its summit.

But unfortunately, it seemed that her opponent hadn't felt the same way. He berated her, with the spite born of his wounded pride only barely concealed beneath a thin veneer of dignity, speaking of "honor" and demanding the opportunity to "win it back." Julian's shoulders slumped. She hadn't thought of that, but she supposed she should have anticipated this. This boy wasn't some nobody. Whoever he might have been, his skills or family prestige had earned him the position of Second Seat despite his failure -- and at the Prince's right hand, no less! So then... how much higher might he have been allowed to soar had she not bested him so disgracefully? This cramped room, this painfully obvious attempt at provocation by the higher-ups... It was all to rub salt in his wounds and remind him of that failure, then -- of the way he'd been held back.

Julian wasn't without sympathy. She knew how it felt to have an unattainable dream, and to be derided by others for circumstances beyond one's own control. Never once had she stopped to think, either, how struggling for her own sake to grasp that dream would affect others around her. She had never considered that her own victory meant someone else's defeat, or that her success would leave someone who shared her dreams to wallow in miserable failure. Surely, he was... No, rather, he had every right to be angry. She'd have been pissed as hell, had she been in his shoes.

...But even so...

Even so...!

"...Why would I do that? That's stupid. I'm supposed to spar you again now that you know exactly how I fight, when I don't know the first thing about you or what you can do?"

She looked at him with the expression of one who'd just been told to empty an ocean with a spoon. What he was asking was not only stupid, but was actually just an invitation to make a fool out of herself in front of every single knight cadet in their year, and make the Knight-Commanders question their decision to offer her a spot in the first place! After she'd come this far, there was no way she'd throw the results of her effort away and go back to starving on the streets just to assuage some noble boy's wounded pride, no matter how sympathetic she might have been to his circumstances! He might have said it was "honorable," but all that really meant was that he could do whatever he was good at, but she couldn't use any of her skills to even the playing field. It was an obvious sham, no matter how she looked at it -- a near guaranteed win where all the conditions were now in his favor, on top of the overwhelming advantage of experience he had on his side! Not to mention...

"Not to mention, if you win, you get to make yourself look good. If I beat the same person twice, I get... what, exactly?"

It wouldn't help advance her position, nor was it necessary for her to prove anything when she'd already demonstrated her abilities in their last match. Of course, even if he offered her some kind of material reward for winning, she still wouldn't take the offer -- but that didn't mean she wasn't insulted, either, that he just assumed she'd do something so stupid when he wasn't even trying to make it worth her while to take the bait! "Honor" wouldn't fill her belly, after all -- and judging by the quick shake of his head he gave from behind Nathaniel's back, Prince Rossweine agreed with her decision -- which reassured her that her would-be rival would have a hard time pulling rank on her to force her to comply, either.

...At any rate, if she was going to have to deal with this for the rest of her time as a trainee... This was gonna get really awkward, wasn't it? Geez, that glare... if looks could kill, she'd have been shriveling up right about now. And this was gonna be her roommate? She'd be lucky not to wake up with a knife between her ribs... Well, okay, that was probably unlikely given that the boy was nobility and obviously couldn't hide a body or cover up a crime scene to save his life, and unlike a refugee camp, people would actually care if somebody turned up dead here, but still -- talk about getting off on the wrong foot.

Mad Because Small



When she had said it was bad for her heart, she'd actually meant that comment in more ways than one. The prince's expression was languid and cool, his voice soft and composed, his bearing loose, yet somehow still regal. The way he moved, talked, and acted -- all of it brought to mind a big cat, sure of its superiority and free to live however it wished, but unburdened by the need to affect any strength -- for its strength was beyond question. Less a lion, roaring and proud, and more like a leopard -- content to lurk, to watch, and to wait, but surely deadly when roused.

...A description which the young, impressionable lass had no doubt derived from the description of the male lead in one of her chivalric novels, because... well... Not only was he a prince, but he looked like everything you'd imagine when you heard the word! Pale, flaxen brown hair with an ever-so-slight curl to it -- eyes as blue and still as the surface of a frozen northern lake -- a slender yet powerful body, perfectly in line with the feline image his mannerisms conjured up in her vivid mind. To put it in simpler terms...

He's so pretty that I can hardly even look at him without feeling jealous! Why?! He's actually a guy, but he'd probably look better in a dress than me!

...That was a dangerous thing she just started contemplating there. Julian shook her head and hastily dismissed the still-hazy mental image before she awakened to something strange, welcoming Signar's remarks as a distraction from this rather concerning line of thought.

...Or, well, at least until he started definitely making fun of her, unlike his honest mistake before!

"Oi. Just who are you calling 'sprout?' I'm still growing, you hear?! Just you wait, I'll be taller than you before you know it!

But the Valeforian youth merely laughed it off and beckoned her onward to dinner, following the others to the barracks with long, carefree strides... even as one very angry munchkin hounded his heels like a particularly small, excitable puppy, practically running to keep up with him and bouncing up and down with each furious step she took -- her voice loudly echoing through the empty courtyard in his wake.

"Don't think you can just buy my forgiveness with food! Take that back! Hey, are you ignoring me? Don't call me smaaaaaaaall!!!"

Even her own echo seemed to mock her, as the word "small" was all that came bouncing back off the high stone walls of the castle.

The Eastern Barracks was, surprisingly, a quite appealing home, despite the sorry state of their division. It was built into the side wall of a large courtyard just off to one side of the main gate leading into the palace from the King's Bridge, meaning it was quite far from the distant waterfalls on the opposite side of the palace grounds, while the rampart above it and the inner castle wall on the opposite side blocked the more severe gusts of wind, save for a gentle breeze that coursed between the twin edifices. It was shady, and already somewhat dark, as the sun was no longer directly overhead and thus its rays were broken up by the towering spires of the inner palace. The courtyard was also, surprisingly, lined with trees placed in the gaps between the shadows, where the light could yet easily reach them. The rustling of leaves and the quiet whistling of the breeze made the overall mood... surprisingly peaceful.

The building itself stood two stories tall, and, judging by a staircase downward to the side of the main entrance, also had some kind of lower cellar area. Of course, Julian had already been down those very stairs, and knew for a fact that the mess hall was located there in the basement -- right next to the storage rooms for food, and the kitchens. After all, she had helped the servants in... pretty much all of those places, actually, over the last week -- as a way to stretch her already meager funds and earn some meals to keep herself going until the results had been announced. The inside of the building itself, however, was a mystery to her -- so, despite her hunger, she ended up following the rest of her new comrades in the Eastern House into the ground floor entrance instead.

The first floor seemed to be taken up mostly by a large, open lobby with some benches, chairs, tables, and other such furnishings -- a common area, no doubt, to encourage intermingling between the various squads while off duty. Off to one side, there was an entrance into the neighboring building, which appeared to house an equipment storehouse and armory, while to the other, there was a door out into the courtyard, facing a few other buildings which seemed to include a stable, an archery range, and a bathhouse.

Directly adjacent to the door, a makeshift receptionist's desk had been hauled in, and a grizzled-looking knight with a scar across one eye appeared to be either attempting to kill the new recruits with his pointed stares alone... or maybe just hand them their room keys. He called out each squad's number in turn, and when its members presented themselves, identified them, rattled off a suite and a room number, shoved a key into their hands, and then moved unceremoniously on to the next name on the list, all while giving the mother of all death glares with his working eye.

Squad 13's turn came after a good twenty minutes of waiting, listening to the awkward squeaks and "Yessir!"s of the other cadets, whose mood was as tense and somber as if they were being called to the gallows rather than to receive a simple key. Julian, for her part, when her squad and name were called, just trotted up to the man and, with surprising calmness, gave him a big grin.

"Present and accounted for, sir!"

The man reached out to hand over the key, muttering irritably under his breath -- then stopped, realizing he was handing the key to thin air. He looked down, then awkwardly lowered it -- and Julian almost managed to not let her annoyance show on her face as she took it. Once again, she was being looked down on! Even so, she could tell. This man was grumpy and tired, but he probably just had a scary face to begin with. There wasn't any overt hostility or disgust in the way he was looking at her -- not like what she was used to. So, it'd be pretty mean of her to act scared or angry at him because of something he couldn't really help, even if he did make her feel annoyingly small.

Suite 13, Room 4, on Floor 2, he had said. 13 4-2. A more superstitious person would have thought that combination of numbers to be a particularly foul omen -- surely a forecast of dire tragedies and misfortune to come. But Julian didn't have the slightest inkling of numerology, nor would she have cared overly much even if she had known. Her mood was soaring higher than it had been in weeks, and no dark clouds on her horizon could even hope to bring her down.

"Thanks!" She called back, giving a hasty wave before trotting across the room towards the stairs. There were two hallways along the back of the building, appearing to lead back inside the rampart itself to where a few of the cadets' rooms were no doubt located. That sounded... pretty horrible, to be honest. No windows, no light save whatever torches or candles you lit yourself, crammed into a dark stone chamber along an equally dark and dreary hall. Just imagining it sent shivers up her spine, and reminded her of... Well, never mind that. There was still a chance she'd end up somewhere better, right? Things were going her way, so this time she tried her best to shake off uncomfortable memories and stay positive.

Her destination was the long upper corridor just along the inside of the castle wall, with doors on each side that she quickly noticed, much to her delight, were numbered just the way she had hoped. Even numbers were on her right... and odd numbers were on her left! Which meant, sure enough, that Suite 13 was... facing the inner courtyard! Opening the door, she strolled inside and looked around, and gave a sigh of relief as she found herself greeted by sunlight -- coalescing into streams that seemed almost solid to the touch as they lit up the dust drifting lazily through the air of the now formerly unused chamber. This was no dark and foreboding prison cell -- it was somewhere she could surely call home.

The central room appeared to be a common room, albeit much smaller than the one downstairs, with two doors on each side and a single window on the far wall. It was mostly devoid of unnecessary decorations, with a featureless red rug, a large rectangular table and some benches in the middle, and a few empty shelves in the corners. It wasn't much, but the atmosphere seemed cozy enough.

Where the problems started was with the personal quarters, though. Opening Room 4, she found it to be... well, extremely narrow and cramped. There was maybe enough floor space for four people to stand front to back, with another window taking up one of the side walls, a few cupboards built into the back of the room, and two sliding doors and a ladder in the remaining wall. Hopping up the ladder, she slid one of these small doors -- almost like that of a cabinet, rather than a full-sized door in and of itself -- open, to find a small bed with blank white sheets. Then, this was where she'd be staying... in this tiny alcove in the wall right above somebody else's bed?

At least there was a shutter, and there even seemed to be a latch on the inside; so she could probably close and lock that if she wanted to undo the bindings around her chest while she was sleeping. But she'd then have to redo them with the door closed in almost complete darkness, because it didn't seem like there was any feasible way she could change or mess with her clothing out in the open unless her roommate had already left. But then again, it wasn't as if she had much in the way of clothing to begin with aside from the somewhat ragged and oversized patchwork of a tunic and trousers she was presently wearing... though there did seem to be two cadet uniforms already folded and placed neatly in each of the cabinets. Just to be safe, she took one of them and placed it inside the upper alcove where her bed was, since she'd need to change into it for the training exercise tomorrow. Thankfully, her eyes were well used to dark places... and even now, she was only a little bit afraid of the way the walls and ceiling of her bunk seemed to close in around her tiny form, as if to crush her.

...Well, it might easily have been better, but things also could easily have been much worse. Maybe it wouldn't be all sunshine and roses like she'd imagined, but... she could do this, and anything was better than what would be waiting for her back at home if they found her out. She just had to tough it out.

...Come to think of it, though, if she was going to be sharing a room with someone, she wondered who it was? Maybe Signar, if she was lucky? He seemed nice, after all, and he was the only one she'd really met in the squad so far. Then again, though... If the bunk bed seemed cramped for her, was he gonna be okay? Maybe they'd made special arrangements for whatever room he was in... but if so, that definitely meant he wasn't with her.

Shrugging, she decided to check, and strolled back out into the common room, where the others now also seemed to be arriving, and glanced at the nameplates next to each of the doors. On Room 1 -- which seemed to have some kind of sealing enchantment hastily inscribed on the door in addition to the lock, giving it a rather foreboding aura -- the plate was labeled with the names of Liese and Dot. She supposed they must have been important somehow to warrant... whatever this seal was supposed to be. Probably some kind of added security or something. Maybe they were worried about assassins? But then why didn't the Prince's room have one?

Room 2, speaking of which, was labeled with the names of Prince Rossweine and Kaiser Underwall -- the second being the squad's Third Seat. It looked like that room was a little bit bigger and more luxurious on the inside, with actual beds instead of glorified... sleeping closets -- one on each side of the room, still leaving plenty of floorspace to access the wardrobes along the back wall. Well, that was just the disparity between officers and everybody else, she supposed... though she did hold out hope that maybe, if she placed well in training, her own room would see some improvements too!

Room 3 seemed just about the same as her own, and was assigned to... Signar Wayland and Zenshin Ferros. She breathed a faint sigh of disappointment, but wasn't overly surprised at what she saw. Peeking in through the partly-opened door as the room's occupants went about settling into their new quarters, she noted that at least they had a rug on the floor, as well as a long, narrow spare bed rolled in under the windowsill to accommodate the room's larger occupant. The pillows and covers on their bunks also seemed a little bit bulkier and fluffier than the ones in her room, but she might have just been imagining things.

That meant the only odd one out was... "Nathaniel Lothwren." Her roommate, apparently. There was that name again, though she still couldn't place why it was familiar... It was pretty strange, though. They'd clearly gotten the worst room of the bunch, but his name sounded... well, big and important. He was probably a noble, right? And he was supposed to be the Second Seat of the squad. So then why had he ended up paired with her? Was he being bullied, perhaps? The thought that he might be meant to keep an eye on a suspicious street rat and impose some discipline on her as a cadet never crossed her mind -- though her initial guess was probably closer to the truth.

At any rate, it wasn't like she had anything to unpack, so, she just sort of awkwardly returned to her room and peered out the window down into the courtyard. It might have been small and cramped, but... the light coming in from outside reassured her a bit, and so she found herself just staring aimlessly, taking in the view -- a tiny, fair form, haloed in the light that illumined all the dancing particles around her and lit up the shadowy corners of the room, bathing it in a fleeting, picturesque radiance. To any who might observe her in this extremely rare, tranquil state, they might see in her an odd sort of elegance, like that of a regal portrait or a scene from a play.

...It was unfortunate, then, that the one who would find himself face to face with her would have absolutely no appreciation for any such aesthetics, in light of his already vehement distaste for the subject of the scene before him. But Julian hadn't the faintest apprehension of who it was she was about to meet... or that this wasn't their first encounter.

First Impressions



The change that came over Julian's features at the towering young man's response to her rather halfhearted introduction was nothing short of extraordinary. Mere moments before, she'd been wearing a downcast expression of trepidation and uncertainty, yet that had been completely usurped by a positively glowing grin as she nodded eagerly, mentally cheering that her first assessment of her first friend among the squad seemed to have been correct. Or, well... maybe it was too early to call him a friend. As someone to whom the mere concept of friends was about as fantastical as dragons and ogres, it was really hard for her to say for sure. Even so, between the way he'd taken the time to console her even when he'd been chosen for such a prestigious role, and how he hadn't even hesitated to welcome her a moment later, she was definitely sure.

Even if he's huge, he's not scary at all! He's definitely a good person!

So, trotting hastily alongside him to keep pace, she forgot to even be upset or jealous at how a single one of his steps was worth about three of hers, or at the fact that he still faintly smelled of a delicious sandwich.

"Mmhm! I'll do my best!" She replied so emphatically that one would be hard-pressed to find even a sliver of the despondency she'd shown before. While it seemed that she grew uncertain rather easily, apparently she'd snapped back from that slump just as quickly. And, well... why wouldn't she? With the immediate obstacle to her dreams removed, she felt invincible -- never mind the challenges to come. She was riding along on such a wave of positive emotions that she'd almost forgotten her manners, actually. Come to think of it, he'd given his name, so...

"Ah, right, I'm Jun-- Ehem! Julian! Julian Baker! It's nice to meetcha, Sig!"

Crap! That had been close... Maybe some degree of paranoia was healthy after all. That wouldn't do, getting overly comfortable just because she'd found someone who was nice to her, and letting her real name slip to the very first person she'd met! It wasn't like she'd even been called by her real name much to begin with, so she couldn't even pin her slip-up on force of habit. But, well, even if nobody used it, it was still her name, so even if it did kind of sound similar, it was still difficult for her to get used to using an alias...

At any rate, she'd managed to cover up her mistake decently well. There was an N in there anyway, so it'd just sound like she accidentally stumbled over her words, right? Well, even if he had noticed something off, thankfully, the perfect distraction happened a moment later to take his mind off of it, since a new person entered the conversation and --

HOLY CRAP IS THAT THE FREAKING PRINCE?!

...Well, at least one of them was distracted. It was only just beginning to set in that yes, not only was she going to be training to be a knight, but the leader of her squad was a literal member of royalty. She tried thinking back, wondering if maybe, this group was kind of a big deal... Unfortunately, her knowledge of who was or wasn't important beyond the patently obvious was basically a complete blank. Though, one of the names sounded pretty familiar, somehow. Where had she heard of "Nathaniel Lothwren" before? Hmm... No good. Nothing really came to mind, so she quickly returned to thinking about the much more important fact of reality in front of her -- namely, that Prince Rossweine himself was going to be the head of her squad. Didn't that mean... she was actually pretty amazing? So she hadn't been saved for last because she'd done poorly, but actually because she'd caught the attention of the royals?!

...Well, the fact of the matter was probably just that Tervellan had thought she'd be a good way to motivate Nathaniel to improve and he could get rid of her later, but unfortunately, Julian's view of the world existed only in extremes, and now that she had just finished fearing that nobody cared about her, her unbridled optimism had swelled back to the fore, unchallenged and unstoppable. And, far from quenching this rapidly growing fire, Rossweine's words only stoked it further. "Your ingenuity and ferocity no doubt caught the eye of our esteemed Knight-Commander, who is rumored to possess that same vigor for ascension," he had said -- and she knew what at least some of those words meant! And even if some of them sounded a little bit insulting if she thought about them for a few seconds... nah, never mind that, what he really meant to say was that her plan had been super smart, right?!

"Ehehe~ Er, crap -- I mean, um... Thank you very much for your kind words, Your Highness! I may be new to this, but I'll dedicate everything I have so I won't disappoint you!"

...It was a little rough, but overall, her introduction was a surprisingly competent attempt at polite speech for a supposedly-uneducated child. It would have been altogether too suspicious entirely if she'd bowed properly to go along with it, but thankfully, she'd been too busy nervously clenching at the hem of her tunic to do anything of the sort -- which definitely wasn't because she'd almost instinctively tried to do a bloody curtsy and nearly ruined her whole plan, by the way! Through some stroke of good fortune, though, her lack of practice combined with an honest mistake to create a spectacle more resembling an idiot trying to throw together the most polite phrases he'd heard during a week doing odd jobs at the royal palace than a noble disguising herself poorly.

...Well, to be fair, that was also a pretty accurate description of what she was doing, too... But anyway, the prince seemed satisfied, and quickly moved on to the next group. Not knowing what else to do, she sort of halfheartedly waved while mentally urging her heart to crawl back down her throat and start beating again. Seriously, if she kept almost slipping like this, it was gonna take years off her life. Looking back up to Signar, she gave an uneasy laugh, wondering if he felt the same way as she did.

"So, he's gonna be our boss from now on, huh? He seems nice, but... somehow, working for a prince seems bad for my heart... Ehehehe..."

Glancing back, she noticed that the others all seemed to be gathering up into various little groups of their own... and it looked like some of the squad's chosen officers were trying to assemble them all and get them moving towards the barracks. Their team definitely seemed like the most visually striking, at the very least -- with everything from posh aristocrats to a boy whose wild mane of bluish hair made him look half-feral.

First a giant, then a prince... I wonder who else I'll meet here? It's a little exciting... almost like a fairy tale!

The people with whom she'd be spending her years as a student, striving together to achieve their dreams... She could hardly wait to meet them!

The Selection Ceremony



Thankfully, the blonde only had a few moments to experience a bizarre mix of overwhelming gluttonous envy and the crushing weight of embarrassment at her own inability to give a convincing excuse, as, a few moments later, a man clad in the mixed heraldry of all four Knight-Commanders surmounted the platform, unrolling a large scroll and beginning to read from it.

For such an important day in the lives of the assembled youths in the courtyard, the contents of the herald's speech were... actually rather bland. To be sure, there was a great deal of flowery, overly loquacious prevarication about the great tradition of which they would soon be a part, the glorious 500 years of chivalric history that had built the very foundations of Grayle, and how each and every one of them would be expected to give their best for king and country both, to truly earn the honors of which they had been deemed worthy. It was a little bit calming, actually, Julian noted with some slight, wry amusement. The herald hadn't even bothered to mention that not everyone among them would get a shot at knighthood, and was just rambling on as if they'd already all made the cut. She had heard that getting in as a cadet was easy, but even so, she'd been... well, maybe a little worried. It would have been stranger if she wasn't, right? But somehow, even with the overwhelming amount of expectation that the speaker was trying to lay as a burden upon their small shoulders, she suddenly felt her stress evaporating, the subject of her worries seeming further and further away.

...At least, until the herald finished his preamble, and launched right into announcing the names of the accepted students. He started with the Southern House, and as he spoke, a haughty-looking man with fiery red hair stood up from the four seated at the top of the dais. When the herald had concluded, he gave a few brief instructions ordering them to their barracks, and the red-haired man gave a speech of his own -- one which was far less verbose, but a great deal more pointed, as he hammered in again and again that those he had chosen had been selected for their strength, and that it would be wise for them not to disappoint him.

Julian couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief that her name -- or, well, her alias -- hadn't been among this first group. Though, this relief slowly turned to concern when she realized it wasn't among the second group either -- or even the third -- as both Prince Manegold and the elderly head of the Northern House gave some speeches of their own to their candidates before ushering them away as well.

By the time the herald reached the fourth house, the courtyard had cleared a great deal, and the throng that had once packed it to the brim had thinned out enough that she could actually make out the individual faces and appearances of... well, just about everybody left, actually. And from what she could tell from her admittedly unfortunate vantage point, most of them... honestly looked pretty drab. There were a few intense or well-to-do looking youths scattered here and there, but most of the remaining candidates seemed not only like commoners, but like commoners of pretty average height and build.

...Well, except the small mountain hanging around next to her, still crunching down the last bits of his sandwich, but he definitely seemed out of place now that almost everybody else in the crowd wasn't just an inch or two shorter than him, but only came up to his shoulders at most.

...There was a fourth house still left, right? These weren't just all the failures who hadn't made the cut? She was going to get in, right? The herald had acted like it was guaranteed, but suddenly, she wasn't so sure again...

The reading continued. The names were all shorter now. Most didn't even have surnames, and those that did were just a few syllables. The air was growing tense as those who were called stepped forward, thinning the already sparse assembly until there were just a few dozen people left loitering about. Squad after squad was filled, until, with a crushing finality, the herald seemed to reach the end of the scroll. "And, finally, the thirteenth squadron!" He announced loudly, sending a shiver up Julian's spine. All her hopes were resting on this moment -- if her name wasn't here, then...

"This squadron will be headed by His Highness, Prince Rossweine Lupus Grayle! His second seat shall be Nathaniel Lothwren, and his third... Kaiser Underwall, of House Sauvage."

Well, those names all sounded important. A prince... was there even such a person left among this shabby crowd? If there really was, then the bar for entry just got a lot higher. Had she really failed, then? Thinking about it logically, there wasn't any way that somebody like her would be chosen to serve under royalty... Time seemed to slow to a crawl, and a chill ran up her spine. She raised a small, pale hand and fidgeted uneasily with her collar, suddenly feeling choked even by the loose-fitting hem of her tunic. No, it wasn't that she was choking, but rather that she had just forgotten to breathe. What now? What was she going to do? She couldn't go back, but if the knights wouldn't take her... then who would? Someone like her...

"Further rankings will be decided based on performance in training. The remaining members of the squad shall be..."

Please, somehow... she wouldn't ask for anything else, if only he'd read her name!

"Signar Wayland!"

The towering youth beside her stepped forward, and she felt herself wither a little more inside.

"Zenshin Ferros!"

It wasn't her.

"Dot Auferrum!"

It wasn't her!

"Liese Victoire Brendorn!"

The herald stopped for a moment, and so did Julian's heart in her chest. And then...

"Julian Baker!"

It was her. The life she'd felt creeping from her rushed back in a tide of emotion, and before she knew it, she was practically running forward to join the rest whose names had been called, mentally thanking whatever Star might be listening for its beneficence.

As she reached the now-assembled members of the newly minted Eastern House, she took note as the final of the four men upon the dais rose up, his long, dark hair trailing behind him as he approached the front of the stage.

"That will be all," he said, dismissing the herald, who nodded, rolled up the scroll, and departed. Not a word was spared for the remainder among the hopefuls, who quietly began to gather their things and trudge away. Julian couldn't help but look back at the fate from which she herself had only narrowly escaped... but her attention was transfixed by the man upon the stage a moment later.

"I have never had a particularly fine way with words... but I think we have all heard more than enough speeches today already, so I will keep this brief. Grayle finds itself in need, and those of you who stand before me now have answered the call to defend it. Your dedication up to this point has been admirable... for citizens. But as of now, you are no longer merely citizens, but the soldiers who will be expected not just to fight for your country, but potentially even to lead its armies into battle. The task before you is a daunting one, and dedication alone will not be sufficient to see it through. In light of that, I will leave you with a question. What is it that you can do for Grayle? Think long and hard on that in the days to come... and when you find an answer, see it through."

In a matter of seconds, their commander's speech had finished, and he turned to go, before glancing back one final time.

"Report to the Eastern Barracks. Your instructors will be waiting there to assign you your quarters, and you'll also have opportunities to meet with your squadmates. I would encourage you to use this time to familiarize yourself with both your accommodations and your brothers-in-arms, as tonight will be the last night of your old lives. Your training begins at dawn tomorrow. Dismissed!"

Barking back these curt remarks, the bespectacled man turned and strode away, his long mane of hair and flowing cloak trailing behind him as he disappeared from view. The cadets looked around, unsure of themselves, but moments later began to disperse, making their way in a disorderly procession out of the courtyard and around the perimeter of the palace's outer wall, towards the barracks on the eastern side of the castle grounds.

Julian, for her part, took one final look at the now empty courtyard, which suddenly seemed so much larger than it had before. The towering walls, the vast empty space, and the stage with its four seats, all devoid of their occupants. The sun was still high in the sky, but the shadows cast by the spires of the palace were long and dark, and made her feel tiny by comparison -- even moreso than she usually felt, that is. This place was going to be her new home, then... for how long? It made her head spin just to think about it, and a mix of relief and lingering worry swirled within her. Was this... really going to be alright?

...Well, fretting about things that had already happened wouldn't help any, and it wasn't her style to begin with. For now... their commander had seemed very terse and a bit intimidating, but the advice he had given was sound. For now, she should probably look for her squadmates...

Come to think of it, hadn't that huge guy stepped up just before she had? That meant they were going to be in the same group! And... well, he had seemed nice enough given that he hadn't laughed at her rather pathetic display earlier, so... maybe she'd just start by officially meeting him, then? That seemed safe enough. And given that even she could see his head sticking up over the rest of the crowd, it wasn't like he'd be hard to find. So, since they both seemed to be pretty close to the back of the group, she slipped over towards him as best she could without getting trampled underfoot by the other trainees, before popping up by his side once again.

...It was around this point that she realized that she wasn't really sure how exactly you were supposed to greet someone. This wasn't even really a problem that stemmed from her pretending to be a boy, but rather just a sign that the blonde had a profound lack of social experience. Maybe something like... "I'll be in your care?" No, that was far too passive and formal, and even an idiot like her could tell that a baker's son would have no need of that kind of etiquette. Then, maybe "Good to be working with you!" But then again, that seemed a little overly friendly...

It was around this point that her mouth stopped caring about her indecisive brain, and before she knew it, she had apparently already given her greeting.

"Uh... hi. So... I guess we're some kinda team now, huh?"

First Meeting



Hop. Just a little higher. Hop. No, still not enough. Hop. Almost made it that time! Hop. Okay come on, this was getting silly. Hop. There! And the stage was... still empty! Or at least, she was pretty sure it was. Maybe one more just to check? Hop. Yup, still empty.

Rumble.

Her stomach was still empty too! Just in case she had somehow managed to forget that unpleasant fact. So empty, in fact, that she was starting to imagine things. Things like the smell of a delicious, honey-glazed slice of oven-roasted ham, or the crunching sound of the crisp outer crust of a loaf of bread so freshly baked it was still warm and steaming... Or a sudden darkness spreading over her as if a cloud had just covered the sun? No, wait, scratch that, that part was real, which meant the other bit was... maybe also real? She hoped it was real. She could really use a snack to tide over her insatiable appetite, at least until they could get to the mess hall. Assuming she had made the cut, anyway... Which she definitely had. The mere notion that she could be worried about something like that was ridiculous! After all, it wasn't as if she'd literally starve in the streets if they didn't hurry up and announce her acceptance already.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH.

Okay, silent internal screaming and general hysteria probably wasn't productive to her current situation, so it was better to distract herself with something interesting, like the prospect of a mouthwateringly delectable sandwich or whatever tree had suddenly decided to take root behind her. The blonde took a deep breath, and turned around to investigate. Much to her surprise, what she found there was... a broad-shouldered, tan skinned body, with burly arms poking out from underneath an oft-mended tunic that no doubt concealed a chiseled chest.

...Okay. She had to admit, she appreciated the sudden generosity of whatever Star had taken notice of her sorry plight, but unfortunately, that wasn't really the type of snack she'd been hoping for.

Oh, right, now really wasn't the time to be... uh... admiring the scenery. Right, if she started staring, he'd think she was weird! She was a totally normal boy right now, not some... weirdo who stared at muscles. That would have been something a non-manly man who had no muscles would do! Or worse, something a girl would do while pretending to be a non-manly man who had no muscles! Which she definitely wasn't, by the way! She'd been training really hard for... at least a week! She definitely had some beef on her. Somewhere.

Still, this guy was supposed to be around her age, right? He was huge! Enormous! Monolithic! Gargantuan! He looked like he could have broken her dad in two with his bare hands! What did you even have to eat to get that large?! Was the secret in that sandwich he was carrying? She'd have to try some. For scientific purposes.

Thankfully, Julian's two working braincells were working overtime today, and so this entire deranged tangent sped through her otherwise airy head with astonishing alacrity, leaving her just enough time to direct her gaze up... and up... and up... until she finally reached the young man's face... which stared impassively back down at her. She managed an awkward grin -- the sort of expression that says "Um, can I help you?" when you're too flabbergasted to speak at all.

...Speaking of... well, speaking, he had said something, hadn't he? And the more she managed to process what, exactly, he had said, the more she realized that his offer contained within it an assumption that was highly insulting! She folded her arms with a very authoritative -- or, at least, she thought it was pretty decisive -- "Hmph!" and spread her feet apart into what could charitably be called a "power stance," if only her body were bulky enough that widening her posture made any difference whatsoever.

"D-Don't be ridiculous! Of course I could go to the front aaaaaaany time I wanted! I just thought it would be better to stay all the way back here, where it's... um... not so crowded. But not because I'm worried I'd get trampled or anything! Because I wouldn't!"

It was around this time that Julian's third braincell clocked back in, and realized that maybe -- just maybe -- she hadn't managed to give the most convincing performance. Her smug expression and bold posture seemed to twitch a little, and a certain red hue began to appear around the tips of her ears. She cleared her throat as if to continue, then realized she really had no way to salvage this one. So she cleared it again. And again. Threw in a cough for good measure.

...Y'know, actually, getting trampled didn't sound so bad right--

The ear-piercing keen of a trumpet shattered the world's most awkward silence and delivered Julian from her internal hell. The sound of heavy boots echoed upon the wooden planks of the stage, and four imposing figures clad respectively in red, white, black, and gold emerged before the crowd, taking their seats upon four raised benches atop the dais.

The Knight-Commanders were present. The admissions ceremony had begun.
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