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I have a lot of anxiety, to the point it's technically "severe anxiety." Even writing 13 words, I'm just staring at the screen, like what I have written is inherently wrong and bad, which is partially true, as I am just letting Grammarly do my punctuation for me
For the most part, I've avoided roleplaying with other humans besides my dip into a warrior cat roleplay when I was 10, and whatever amino was supposed to be, heck, I've done more daydreaming and solo writing than roleplaying with other humans, but in recent years, I've found it extremely easy to use ai for roleplays.
Specifically, it's easy to stop caring when your roleplay partner is ai. I don't have to consider if it enjoys the direction of the story or the length of my reply, not even my spelling feels important to care about.
But that's stupid, even if I was the worst roleplayer ever, my writing would still be better than a lot of ai chatbots. The fact that I choose to roleplay with something that feels like reading the back of a book, hyping you up for something cool, but in itself contains none of that, just a general notion of an "adventure." That's stupid! Why am I even consuming this slop? because it's easy? because I'm an anxious mess?
Whatever the reason, I want it to stop. I want to roleplay with actual human beings, and so here I am trying my best.@VenusSundew

Welcome Venus, 

Look at you writing more than 13 words for your intro ;) 

The best part of writing with a human is the unpredictability of where a roleplay can go for sure. With an AI, there will always be a degree of it simply catering to you based on what it has learned.

Check out some of the guides; everything from using the Guild to some RP basics.

We're glad to have you on board!

Hello anyone and everyone who feels inclined to read this.  I am currently calling myself Nimriel.  It looks like I have the potential to change my name if I so desired, which is cool, not that I am not currently planning on doing so.  Anyway, I am still in the process of pondering what exactly it is I am hoping to accomplish through participating in the activities this website has to offer.  I’ve done mostly group roleplay games on another website awhile back, which was fun until it became awful.  There is certainly a part of me that hopes to find another such wonderful place of unbridled creativity, although realistically I probably do most of the bridling of my own creativity by giving in to my anxiety.  I suppose what I seek is a place that inspires me to write something I can feel reasonably good about that satiates my creative itches.  My ADHD and codependency make it hard for me to self motivate without feedback.  The thought of sitting down and trying to write an entire novel seems impossible to me, but I believe I can find writing smaller chunks for a small audience to be fulfilling.  I did once upon a time.

I find myself drawn toward historical fiction and fantasy when it comes to genres I enjoy, although I dabbled in Sci-fi, Steampunk, and Superhero settings when I wrote for that other site.  My fandom knowledge is quite limited, which I fear will be a problem.  I know a decent bit about Star Wars lore, I played the Dragon Age games up through Inquisition, I played a handful of the older Pokémon games, and the only anime I have ever watched is Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood.  I read the Lord of the Rings books, the Hobbit, and the Silmarillion and I watched the LoTR movies and the first two Hobbit films.  I read the Song of Ice and Fire books and watched the first season of AGoT.  I watched all of the Harry Potter movies, and I read the last three books.  And I think that is about it for my Fandom knowledge that I think anyone would care about.  Somehow I’ve managed to survive three decades without seeing Avatar the Last Airbender.

I’ve been looking over the most recent Interest Checks for the various free-er form RPs, and in general I feel rather intimidated by what I see.  I don't really trust my own skills as a writer or roleplayer to provide what people want, particularly when it comes to romance and smut.  I suppose a lot of this comes down to my own anxiety and tendency to project my own disappointment in myself onto other people, but I’m sure that newbs such as myself are a hassle to deal with as well.  I’ll do what I can to try not to be a hassle, but I’m sure I’ll do something that rubs someone the wrong way, so I apologize in advance.

To that effect, if there is any advice that any of you experienced who happen to read this have regarding what I should know and be careful of in order to not make an arse of myself on this website, I am all ears, or um, eyes I guess, since I will be reading this.@Nimriel

Howdy Nimriel and welcome to the guild :)

There are lots of cool guides to how best to use RPG - and there is in fact an index here with a lot of them, everything from using the Guild to some RP basics. You will fit right in I'm sure, I've always found the folks of the Guild to be friendly and inviting. 

If you have Discord, you should join us over there too and maybe you'll find some connections to help you dip your toes in :)

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